Carrying the Cross

Siddhananda: (Showing a small round pink stone) (long pause with closed eyes) i see someone with a cross on their back.

G: Aha. (pause) So, why are they dragging that cross?

Siddhananda: In the heat and uphill and all that.

G: Right, right. They're putting themselves through that. (pause) So, why are they doing that, austerities?

Siddhananda: (long pause with closed eyes) Just hardship, hardship.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: "Hardship is the way, right?" they are saying.

G: Well, there is a hard [way], but, if he is taking it on himself, and it's not the natural thing that's coming, then, he's just burning in, giving a burden to himself that he doesn't need to carry. Christ already carried that cross.

Siddhananda: (long pause) Okay, he did set it down.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, he's walking. He does look like maybe he's also from that time. [He's] got the (moving hands around the torso indicate some type of clothing from that time).

G: Yeah, from that time.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and he's got that outfit on with the little rope belt and the robe and sandals and things.

G: Right, he was probably a monk of Franciscan friar or something.

Siddhananda: That's sounds right, yeah.

G: And, he's been doing all these austerities for all this time.

Siddhananda: That sounds right about him.

G: Yeah, very old Franciscan.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Franciscan monk.

Siddhananda: Right. So, that's a heavy tradition in that way.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: In what they were doing.

G: Yeah, some of them did a lot of self flagellation and stuff in order to become like Christ, but, that's not the way you have to become like Christ.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and as you are speaking, i do see that imagery of Christ with the thorns and blood.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Like that was the way, hurt yourself.

G: They're more into suffering.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Suffering. Why are you not into the risen Christ? Do you not want to know the risen Christ?

Siddhananda: (pasue) "I just know suffering," he's saying.

G: Yeah.

Spirit: I know just to bear suffering.

G: Right right.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: So, we're going to send in Christ to him to give him the message of letting go of that, that there's the risen Christ, you don't stay stuck in the suffering Christ. (smiling)

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay. So, Christ is appearing, almost like in a teaching manner with his hand out like he's giving some teaching there.

G: Yeah, we have to surrender into Christ. And we do walk, in a sense, that path of Christ, but, when you're taking unnecessary burden, that's not beneficial.

Siddhananda: Right, they come in the way, the course of it.

G: It will come of it's own course.

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly.

G: But, you don't push it to become that suffering persona.

Siddhananda: Oh, absolutely.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Gosh, it's enough without [any pushing]. (light laughter)

G: [It's] something different.

Siddhananda: Yeah. (pause) So, Christ is there, like i say, in a teaching pose. (pause) That other one has a darker energy, it's a darker feeling. I can see some blood in it.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: It's moving.

G: He's been so stuck in the suffering and stuff. He's so stuck in that suffering ideation.

Siddhananda: It's got such a feeling to it that is just not healthy.

G: Right, it isn't a healthy thing.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: They really get stuck in that and they don't go on to push through that to the risen [Christ].

Siddhananda: That's what's so unfortunate.

G: Freedom.

Siddhananda: Right, and that's what's so unfortunate. And i think in their hearts they love Christ dearly.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: But, they just take that, just that part of it on.

G: Right, i want to be like Christ.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: If you really want to be like Christ, then you have to accept the rising. You have to accept the regeneration, not stay stuck in the suffering. For what reason?

Siddhananda: Yeah, really just to hurt themselves on and on for all eternity.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And as you're speaking, i do see Christ there. I do see light around that darkness with the blood. It's trying to get in there (long pause) And Christ is almost rising up with that light and is coming down in there and it's definitely penetrating in there. Thank goodness, for this energy.

G: Yeah, he (the spirit) needs to clean that out.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And he needs to let go of that and go forward.

Siddhananda: I do again see that image of Christ with thorns, but, it's changing, it's starting to get more distant and more hazy.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: The best way to say, that's how you could say that, is it's dissolving.

G: It's going through transmutation.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: You'll go through a transmutation to the risen Christ.

Siddhananda: That's it, so, that's happening and i think he's very blessed to have that there and it was not by his own, i don't what to say choice, i mean he's open, but, it just had to come to him that way.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Or otherwise i don't think he would have.

G: It didn't click with him.

Siddhananda: It didn't click.

G: He got stuck in that and they got stuck in that sense of i have to surrender and suffer. Christ suffered, so i'm going to take on. It's almost like they're trying to take on Christ’s suffering so that Christ doesn't suffer, but, it doesn't work that way.

Siddhananda: Yeah, how could it.

G: It doesn't work that way.

Siddhananda: It just doesn't make sense.

G: I want to emulate Christ, therefore i have to suffer. Well, no. Christ said forgive them for they know not what they do, and he went onward to be the risen. He didn't stay in that suffering.

Siddhananda: He suffered so humanity wouldn't have to suffer like that.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: So, they could have a path and get out of that.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: So, that's there and it's going to be a bit long, because this is a heavy, long standing.

G: Right, he's in this for a very very long time. This guy was probably from early Fransican's.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Very early.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: When they first started that order.

Siddhananda: Right, and which is just an intense, an austere living.

G: Right, Very hard.

Siddhananda: But, you're meant to go beyond the austerities.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: The austerities come on their own.

G: They come on their own. It's not something you force that you are going to punish yourself.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: That's almost like you're punishing yourself.

Siddhananda: Right. It's a different thing.

G: No. Christ never wanted somebody to sit there and take a whip and flagellate (gesturing whipping)

Siddhananda: Yeah, no.

G: And beat themselves with it or take this on like this.

Siddhananda: Did he ever do that.

G: That was never what his message was.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: It was never that message. He never gave that message ever.

Siddhananda: And, he never did it himself, so, you look at his path.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: He never did that to himself.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: It's not what you do.

G: He was not punishing himself.

Siddhananda: No.

G: He walked the path he had to walk, just like we walk the path we have to walk and that stuff comes on its own.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: But, we're not sitting there saying "jee, let me make myself suffer" (gesturing whipping) (laughing)

Siddhananda: No. You got to look at how you perpetuate suffering. That's a different thing than taking on this whole trying to hurt yourself.

G: Right. Exactly.

Siddhananda: i'm glad that came out because that's a good. Really good pointings there. (moving the stone over to the healing center).

G: So, we'll leave him at the healing center for a while.

Siddhananda: Okay.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: So, we'll put him over there. We have few over there, which is good.

G: Yeah, we got a few in the healing center that are being worked with.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and they're in good hands and shape and form.

The Risen Christ

Siddhananda: (long pause) Sometimes I have to wait a bit, because I sometimes still feel some vibration of the ...

G: ... of the past one. It takes a while to sync with the new one.

Siddhananda: Right, yeah. With this one for sure, because I'm feeling more of the vibration of the other one. So, let me ... (closing her eyes and pausing). Christ is coming forward, again.

Spirit: Christ ... He died for us, for our sins, and we didn't treat that situation well.

Siddhananda: Christ ... I see a big crucifix, and all of the blood ... thorns. Woo! Now that one is big in my mind, and I don't know where it is for that person, but that's looming! It's not a pretty picture, you know? Woo! I can almost feel what took place there, and I don't know if he was there, this person.

G: He might have been there.

Siddhananda: I almost feel it. I can feel the energy of what [happened], and before, you know, with Christ (grimacing with a pained expression). It's just that feeling all around, and he just feels they didn't treat Him (Christ) well.

G: No, they didn't treat him well at all.

Siddhananda: I don't know if he treated Him well, good or bad. I can't feel it, but I think there's some anger, some guilt, some ... (hesitating). I need to decipher that a little better, though. I just keep seeing that image so looming, and it's disturbing to him. I don't know if he was there. I'm almost feeling maybe ... (pausing), but he's stilling. That image is getting softer. Sometimes, just the energy does these things, you know.

G: Yeah, sometimes when they're around the energy, it helps to dissipate some of that.

Siddhananda: Right. It's not like much needs to be said.

G: No, to be there during that time, to see that, would be an absolutely horrendous thing to witness first hand.

Siddhananda: I'm seeing crowds. Some going forward in “Yay!” and others being pushed and trampled. Oh ... Oh, my gosh! (shaking her head with a pained expression and putting her head in her hand) That's just horrible ... horrible, horrible. (tearing up) Some are praying by the side, you know ... and Him there, and the cross is just looming (speaking with a trembling voice as tears well up). Just horrible! Some are wanting to help, and others are just being trampled. People are hooraying (shaking her head with great sadness), and I just ... (shuddering in utter dismay).

G: Yeah, some are jeering, and there's a whole lot of different things going on.

Siddhananda: I see that image ... (taking in a deep breath and exhaling slowly) ... he's saying, "Thank you for reflecting that to me, because that's not easy, and I'm fine with it." What can we help you with today?

I don't know if he was an apostle. I don't know. There's something of a connection there, but I don't want to say. I don't want to put words or names [to it], but the feeling is that he had some kind of a connection, or presence there (blowing out an audible exhalation). He's taking a deep breath, like maybe some of that is leaving from his soul a little bit.

G: (listening in full presence and nodding) You know, if he asks Christ to come to him now, it can relieve that for him. If he can come in now with the risen Christ, that will help him (closing her eyes).

Siddhananda (closing her eyes) ... (long pause) ... Oh, that's lovely. I do see Christ in white with the arms stretched out, and the heart (bringing both hands to her heart), and the sacrifice there, the compassion, but not being touched by that (the events of the crucifixion). His Light is there, too, and there's [His] open arms.

G: That will heal that. That will take that away. Once he sees the Christ is risen, and He's not touched by that ... that He is quite fine now, he (the spirit) can let go of that, and be with Christ.

Siddhananda: Mm hmm ... he's with Christ now. He just needed to get that out of his heart, so that he could open.

G: Yeah, he needed to experience the resurrection, not stay stuck with that.

Siddhananda: Yeeeaaah! It's a very lovely image. I just do need to say that image of open arms is [to say], you know, I (Christ) have always been here ... not touched by anything that takes place to my body or my mind. I am not touched by that. You're not either ... is the kind of thing [being conveyed].

G: (nodding in agreement as Siddhananda speaks) Right. So, He'll commune all of that with him. He'll give him those deeper lessons now ... 100 percent.  He'll give him all of the deeper lessons.

Siddhananda: (nodding yes) The energy is just love ... just light ... just beauty ... freedom. All of those things. Nothing that has to do with ... (gesturing indicate the pain of the crucifixion).

G: He'll take him, and then those energies will merge. Through the merging of those energies, that will cleanse the other stuff out very rapidly.

Siddhananda: (inhaling deeply) It's feeling a lot better for him. He's definitely with God, with Christ, and it's very much of a beautiful image. It's like those images you see with Christ with the children, or the ones, around Him, where He's there to just to take away [pain] like an ointment.

G: Right, right, right. He'll feel Him totally, 100 percent, in his soul, and that will cleanse it, 100 percent.

Siddhananda: (nodding yes) It's a very beautiful feeling now.

G: Yeah, it will be cleansing.

Siddhananda: Mm ... aaahhh! (opening her eyes wide and heaving a great exhalation of relief) Very peaceful. That was something else! (taking in a very deep, cleansing breath, then exhaling audibly AAAAHHHH) I just saw a blip of that cross, and then gone again. So, there's still a little bit of movement with that holding, but it's changing hugely.

G: Yeah, he can celebrate ... start the celebration now. That will be the end of the cross. He just needs to go into the celebration part of it, and that will be the end of it.

Siddhananda: It feels good (smiling). So, I think we'll go ahead and move that one forward.

G: So, we're good (gesturing namaste).

Siddhananda: Wooo! (taking another deep breath)

G: So, Amen to that.

Siddhananda: Amen (gesturing namaste)!

Christ is Risen

Siddhananda: Palestine, I see some older buildings ... Palestine.

G: Palestine?

Siddhananda: That's what I'm hearing.

G: Palestine.

Siddhananda: Palestine ... ancient ... (pause). So, that's what I'm getting, just some older buildings, I don't know. It looks like a very ancient place, and I see somebody walking down a path ... walking.

G: The old Palestine.

Siddhananda: Yeah, I think that's what they're reflecting now, like that's their homeland.

G: Hmm hmm

Siddhananda: I do see that they are aware of the wars, and things like that, but [I'm asking] what do you need from us? I get a little ... "to be made pure," but ... (pause) something about the holy bible. I just can't [get the full details].

G: Yeah, I think they're Christian. They must have been a follower of Christ in the old Palestine.

Siddhananda: Yeah ... they're saying, "yes, and holy bible." I'm seeing a picture of the bible, and it is old ... kind of their way of saying, "yes, it is older," ... they've studied that.

G: Probably more from the old testament times.

Siddhananda: It's feeling that way.

G: Yeah, the old testament times.

Siddhananda: A lot of it ... lot of complex ...

G: Were they with Christ directly, or no?

Siddhananda: Are they with Christ?

G: No, WERE they with Christ directly?

Siddhananda: Oh, I see what you're saying. You know, I'm feeling maybe ... Jesus.

G: Were they with Yeshua Ben Joesph? At that time, he wasn't called Jesus. He was Yeshua Ben Joseph.

Siddhananda: You know, there's a bit of a feeling of that's around, or something about that.

G: Yeah. He's not a direct disciple of [Jesus].

Siddhananda: I'm glad you're saying that, because something about that feels right for this person, or about all that's been spoken of, you know, ... whatever puzzle is there to put this energy together.

G: Hmm hmm 

Siddhananda:  ... something, again, about the Christ journey, and the cross and the surrender and, ... I guess, they're still aching for that.

G: Yeah. All they have to do [is ask Christ directly]. Have they asked for Christ to come to teach them directly?

Siddhananda: They're saying, "yes," and that that's been like a spring of wonderment, but it also seems like they're stuck on that cross ... not that they're stuck, but on what happened to Christ.

G: Ah ... and that fear is keeping the door closed to Christ.

Siddhananda: YES! That's what they're saying. They're saying they're stuck with that torture.

G: Christ is risen, and he's no longer in that torture. So, if they want they can access Christ directly. I'm sure that Christ would be more than happy to come and teach them directly (smiling).

Siddhananda: They're saying, ...

Spirit: Wow! I never even thought of that.

G: Yeah, Christ is risen and he's in the other realms, and he can come to any realm at any time. All you have to do is open your heart to that and ask him.

Siddhananda: They just were so stuck with that part of it.

G: Yeah ... that part of it. So, the fear kept that door closed from moving forward, but there's nothing to fear. Christ himself said there's nothing to fear. 

Spirit: And, he was reborn.

G: He's reborn, yes. 

Spirit: He's reborn .... (they're crying). Is that true of all spirits?

G: Yes. He was reborn, but he didn't have to come back into an embodied state. He's there. He's 100%  spirit, and he can be with you immediately.

Siddhananda: The feeling is there's more of some dissolving of that picture of the cross. I don't know, maybe it had to do with what's behind (pointing to a cross that was behind them). I don't know, something connected this soul here like that, but not necessarily a bad way.

G: Hmm hmm

Siddhananda: [I see] some dissolving of that imagery of that torture, and of the body. They're saying, ...

Spirit: We're not the body.

G: Yeah, we're not the body. Ask  for the risen Christ.

Spirit: They can do anything with the body, but they can't touch our spirit.

G: Right ... right, exactly. So, ask the risen Christ to come to you, to teach you, and you can be there. I'm sure he'll be more than happy to impart everything to you.

Spirit: Thank you. I'll certainly do that, and I'll drink heartily from that.

G: Yeah, do that now. Don't even wait. Do that now.

Siddhananda: (long pause) I am getting an image of Jesus ... more holding out arms ... just wide and open arms ... like risen from that [cross] ... like the other is gone, and this is what remains. I see another sort of light thing by it (gesturing with hands). So, this is their way of saying, ...

Spirit: I'm doing that, and I'm feeling nourished by that. I didn't know, I was so stuck in that one part of it, and I didn't really get into the other side. I was just hurting, aching for what happened. Thank you so much.

Siddhananda: I can see that energy [of] Jesus Christ holding that light (gesturing with hands close to heart).

G: So, they're with Christ now.

Siddhananda: Yeah ... very nice ... very nice.

G: So, be with Christ, and Christ will explain the whole thing to you (laughing).

Siddhananda: They are saying. "Amen!"

G: Amen