Let Go of Sorrow

Siddhananda: (closing eyes) They are saying, “Is there anything you can find in the world that makes you happy?” I don’t know if they are happy for a good amount of time because they have just found sorrow there.

G: Okay, so if they only find sorrow in the world, then it’s time for them to go within and find out what’s at the center of their being. And then bring that forward and they will be fine. Yup.

Siddhananda: They are saying they hear you, but they want to find something that they can hold on to, that they can hold. 

G: Well, that’s what they can hold. (laughing) That’s always present with them.

Siddhananda: Okay, so they are okay with that. I said, “Do you mean a physical holding?” They said that they mean spirit.

G: Yeah, spirit is spirit. It’s always present. That the center of their being, it’s always with them whether they are in form or out of form.

Siddhananda: Okay, there is still some longing in there I can’t quite touch upon yet.

G: Yeah, usually when all you found is sorrow there in that universe, it drives you within and that’s when you start the path of the mystic.

Siddhananda: Right, that’s right.

G: Because you’ll do anything to get out of suffering and then you find out that the suffering is all your own drama that you caused and you are the author of.

Siddhananda: Right. Okay, I do see them holding hands with somebody. I don’t know. Yeah, I’m just feeling some sorrow. It’s tears. I see them holding hands with somebody. They miss their love. They are still hurting for… I guess they had a lot of sorrow. It’s heavy there.

G: Then they can let go of that. Like Christ said, his burden is light. It’s not sorrow to carry that light.

Siddhananda: Okay, they feel like they just need to take some time to get the sorrow cleansed and maybe that will help them to see clearer. Because they have a heart like that’s what they want, but I think it’s just laden down by whatever.

G: Yeah, so, we’ll ask that Christ and Mary come in again. She’s the one that deals with a lot of sorrow. She had a lot of sorrow watching her son being nailed to a cross.

Siddhananda: Yeah, just a little.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Just a little there.

G: She can tell you a bit about sorrow.

Siddhananda: I would say! (closing eyes) She almost looks like a bride in this image. It’s interesting. It’s got the flowing gown, this way (putting her hands over her head and letting her fingers fall downward). And then she’s got the flowers. It’s just an interesting image. Always a lovely, lovely image no matter how it comes in. Okay, she’s turning to light pretty quickly. I just see light and this thing of sorrow is just a little shadow. It’s really over shining that little shadow there.

G: Right. Yeah, if anybody knows about sorrow on earth, she knows about sorrow on earth and overcoming it. That it is risen and there’s no reason to hang on to it.

Siddhananda: Well, she comes with Christ, so you know it’s there. It’s still there. So, it’s eternal. So, I think he’s in really good hands, he/she, so I think we can just…

G: Yeah, they are going to be in very good hands there, so we will let them work on that lesson.

Siddhananda: That was like “Whoo!” That light’s there. That sorrow is like a little tiny drop. It’s nothing compared to that light.

G: Exactly.

Mummified

Siddhananda: Alright, so we’ve got our next one! (pause) A lot of calcification in there. I think this is the one that said they had some hard stuff.

G: Ah, yeah.

Siddhananda: Calcification. Times of sorrow.

G: Yeah, you just become petrified.

Siddhananda: Right. Times of sorrow and not being present. Not standing up for herself. Those kinds of things. Letting people walk on them and also just shrinking in life … shrinking to it.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: And sort of getting into their own calcification and isolation from whatever experiences, or whatever persona they clung to as being this way or that. Yeah. So let’s see what they desire. They do desire light, but they do feel really hardened. It doesn’t sound like in a mean way. It’s more in an isolating [way].

G: No, it’s not in a mean way. It’s just a self protective way.

Siddhananda: That’s it exactly. More like a really hard casing.

G: You have to understand that when you are trying to protect yourself, you are just putting yourself in a prison.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: So, are they ready to open the prison door and walk out of it. They can walk out of that prison. They don’t have to keep themselves in that.

Siddhananda: Yeah, I do see a hard box or prison. The door is open. But it is still pretty, pretty solid.

G: Oh yeah, it’s pretty solid and it will be. They are going to have to take the initiative to step out of that door. But that door is open. It’s not locked and they can step out of it, for sure.

Siddhananda: Boy, I’ll tell you, prison sometimes looks better than this because at least it has bars. But this is a heavy, heavy cement box with not even much light coming in there.

G: Yeah, they really have themselves closed in, yeah. So, I want them to, at this present time, to do inwardly the “I Am That I Am” and connect with that God center, that God light within that burns and gives them life.

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay. I can feel more energy moving within the cell. I don’t even see them. It’s just so enclosed.

G: Right. So I now ask also that some of those beings of light would come to their doorway and hold their hand through so that that being can hold their hand and come out.

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, so that’s there for them. They are not stepping out. They are kind of in there. I can see a little image of someone sitting, but turned away. More just there in their own world. That light is there, but they’re not [responding]. At least, I can see in there a little bit more.

G: So, let’s connect with them again. Do you want the freedom?

Siddhananda: What are you asking? (motioning to try to hear spirit)

G: Do they want the freedom?

Siddhananda: Okay. (pause) They do desire freedom.

G: Then they need to ask Christ to take up their bed. You need to stand up.

Siddhananda: The light is trying to help them up, but they are not wanting to stand up. I’m feeling something got to its feet a little bit.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: They are just almost like they had to be pulled up like this heavy thing. They couldn’t get their legs [under themselves].

G: Right. Again, you have to find that there is strength within you and you can stand up. All you have to believe is that what I am telling you is the truth and stand up, and go towards the door. There are hands stretched through the doorway for you to grab. And they will be more than happy to help give you strength and move you through.

Siddhananda: Yeah, it feels like the light has come more within that boxed area, and kind of helping them up, but then they are not really wanting to use their legs.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Their legs keep collapsing under them. They are back down and then they are being helped up.

G: So, at this point, real quick, I’m going to … (long silence, closed eyes). I’m just going to relay this to them. So, you cannot just sit and think about it. You need to just listen and get up and do it. Don’t 'try' to do it, just stand up and do it.

Siddhananda: Right, and I was telling them you need to walk. You need to walk. Get up and walk, because they are just wanting to limp along.

G: Exactly. Because that’s their free will. If she is not going to even manage her free will that much, nobody can aid her. This has to come within her. Everybody is there to help her, but she has to make that initial standing up. That’s all she has to do.

Siddhananda: Okay, because I do see the light trying to help her up. But, still I see a person with some bandages on. They are limping.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Limping along like they just have none of that strength in there, within themselves, to even move their legs one in front of the other.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And then the bandages, the gauze and stuff.

G: She has to let go of the pity party and all of the drama that she had.

Siddhananda: For sure. I am seeing some more light resonating from her heart, which is good.

G: Good.

Siddhananda: So, I’m feeling that, which is feeling different. And then she’s got the light trying to help, but she’s just like not wanting to get her legs to work well. She’s still gauzed up.

G: She can do it. She can do it. One hundred percent, she can do it.

Siddhananda: She’s saying, “Help me! Help me!”

G: We can help you, but she has got to help herself [first]. Remember God helps those that help themselves. This is what that means. This means you have to take the first step.

Siddhananda: The light is trying to encourage her out and things.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: She’s still all gauzed up, her face, hands, legs.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Just kind of mummified.

G: Yeah, mummified there. (laughing)

Siddhananda: Yeah, mummified, like the living dead. That’s what it looks like (laughing), [with how she's] moving that way.

G: She needs to stand up.

Siddhananda: She is walking, but it looks like the living dead. That’s what it looks like.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: She does have some light in her heart [within] this scene. There is some light emanating from her heart.

G: Once she reaches out [for the help], that pulls her out and take off those bandages.

Siddhananda: She’s still in her cage. There’s some light coming in through her cage and some light in her heart. She is going to try and blindly walk towards that light. But she’s completely covered up like a mummy and the way she is walking so stiff.

Spirit: Help me!

G: Yeah, well, that’s all she has to do. They’ve got her hand and [will just] pull.

Siddhananda: Maybe we can let that one sit a little while. The light is there, trying to usher her out.

G: Yeah, they will get her out.

Siddhananda: You want me to put it aside and we’ll check in a little bit? Or do you want to leave this one? What did you want to do with this?

G: You can put her aside. We’ve got a few we can work with for a little while.

Siddhananda: She needs some time there. It’s going to take a while. So, okay, we’ll leave that one aside and go on to the next one.

Melt into Openness and Harmony

Siddhananda:  Here we go (showing a clear, heart shaped stone).

G:  The last [one] for today!

Siddhananda:  The last one. Another little heart. That'll be nice (closing her eyes). I am getting a picture of snow, and things. We'll see where that goes (pausing with eyes closed).

G:  Mm hmm, okay.

Siddhananda:  Iciness ... not in a bad way. It's a pleasant scene. So, there is some iciness in them ... like a block of ice.

G:  Oh, yeah ... frozen.

Siddhananda:  Yeah, frozen in time, or frozen in the heart.

G:  In the heart, yeah. So, what is frozen? What is that? What is it that's frozen?

Spirit:  Frozen memories ... frozen seeing.

Siddhananda:  (pausing for a time) "Frozen heart," I hear. So, I'm seeing an ice pick. [They're saying], "You're going to need an ice pick," (gesturing as if holding an ice pick poised to begin chipping away).

G:  They've got themselves so blocked up, so blocked up. They need to ...

Siddhananda:  They need some sun (opening her eyes wide and chuckling).

G:  Ask if they would allow for the sun (closing her eyes), for that light, to melt that icy heart.

Siddhananda: (closing her eyes) I can feel that being brought in ... the light. There are a lot of souls over there that are working towards good things, and I can feel that energy there as well. I think they've been trying to be there for this soul. They've been encouraging them, too, to come here and get this going.

G: Right, right ...

Siddhananda:  Again, to get that frozen up, it's been a long time, and you can see that wind, a storm.

G:  It's been a long time, right. There's nothing pleasant in it. (closing her eyes) They need to open to that light, let the sun [in], and let that thawing take place. Let the springtime come. Let that regeneration take place.

Siddhananda:  What I'm seeing is that block of ice and then I see all the beauty growing around it, but that block of ice is not [affected].

G:  But, it [is] not allowing anything in.

Siddhananda:  That's exactly right!

G:  It's not allowing anything in (closing her eyes).

Siddhananda:  [Not allowing] that transformation.

G:  Exactly. They have to let that to melt. The springtime is here. They've had themselves in that frozen vacuum for a long time. Whatever that hurt and pain is, it's time to release it. It's not benefiting them (opening her eyes). There's no reason to have that there, to have the heart so closed in that ice.

G and Siddhananda:  (sitting for a time with closed eyes)

Siddhananda:  I am seeing the sun touching it, at least. Before, it wasn't really that way. [There's] at least some contact with it to begin to ...

G:  ... melt that ... to begin to melt that ... mm hmm (nodding).

Siddhananda:  Yeah.

G and Siddhananda:  (Both sitting in silence with close eyes for a time)

G:  I ask that Mary, mother of Christ, come in and be with that individual, because she faced a lot of pain in watching her son being crucified. So, whatever that pain is that they're ...

Siddhananda:  ... so maybe they can have some empathy from that.

G:  Yeah, right. So, maybe she can get [through to them].

Siddhananda:  That's a good start. Okay (closing here eyes). She does have that heart that got that ... that ... dagger (turning toward G)?

G:  Right, [it's] that pierced heart, and the burning heart, yeah (nodding).

Siddhananda:  He's feeling that. He wants to cry. He, She ... I feel it's more like a He, for some reason. Anyway, they're reflecting that pierced heart, that aching, within the ice.

G:  (closing her eyes, again) We also ask that Christ would come to him and show him that there is resurrection. [Show him] that it doesn't matter what pain one has gone through, what one has suffered through, that there is a possibility for resurrection and absolutely life ... that there's nothing one needs to protect themselves from.

Siddhananda:  Mm hmm, that's what he's done. It's a box.

G:  Yeah, it's a box.

Siddhananda:  It's an icy box.

G:  He's got himself locked in so that he doesn't get hurt any longer.

Siddhananda:  He's in there ... (mimicking someone trapped under sheets of ice]. Like I say, it's not like he's a mean person, or anything like that.

G:  No, it's something from sorrow.

Siddhananda:  Exactly.

G:  It's something that he had that was just so difficult to bear that he's closed himself off.

Siddhananda:  That's exactly right. I'm feeling both Mary and Christ there. Christ is there with the open arms, and Mary with the ... (crossing both hand over her heart).

G:  Let that light start to burn in the heart. Let that heart be lit so that the burning heart can begin to dissolve and melt the ice that's been around there.

Siddhananda:  Mm hmm.

G:  Yeah, he needs to allow that heart to live again and awaken. He's closed it down so hard that it's become ice.

Siddhananda:  That's right.

G:  So, he needs to allow that light, life and love to come back into his heart.

Siddhananda:  That warmth.

G:  Whatever it is that he lost, it's not lost. It's there, and it's still alive on the other side. So, I ask (closing her eyes), at this point, that whoever it is, whatever it is, that he lost to come to him now so that he can see that there is still life ... that nothing has been lost ... that they haven't died, and that they are still there. They are very much alive, and always have been.

Siddhananda:  I am seeing a woman and child. They're made of light, and they're really quite a nice presence there. [It's] a young child and a woman. They're by him. The woman touched the ice with her hand.

G:  Mm hmm, right (closing her eyes). So, let that heart open to that love that you felt for them while in life. Let that love spring forward again and reignite the heart so that it burns this ice away.  There's no reason to have that.

Siddhananda:  There is some dripping on the ice. I don't know if that's tears, but, also, it is melting. I'm feeling some of that force there of Christ, and also their loved ones and the child.

G:  Mm hmm.

Siddhananda:  It looks like the woman and child are quite fine.

G:  Yeah, they're quite fine (nodding decisively).

Siddhananda:  They're made of light. They're quite fine. The love is there. The connection is there.

G:  That's never been gone, but because their physical body left, he was mourning so much that he closed off and lost the ability to feel that they were still around him.

Siddhananda:  That's it, exactly. Yeah, and they're right there with her hand [touching the ice]. She's wanting to say to him, "I'm fine and you're fine, too."

G:  So, may his ears be opened, and his eyes be opened so that he may see them for what they are. May he allow that light, that love, to come forward into his heart again so that [it] would melt [the ice] from the inside out. That that would allow the ice to be broken because it doesn't need to be there.

Siddhananda:  There's a lot of beautiful loving energy around there. There is some melting, and de-frosting (chuckling softly).

G:  It's going to continue to defrost.

Siddhananda:  It's good, and you can really feel it there. His sorrow and his emotions are starting to drip down.

G:  Right, yeah (nodding).

Siddhananda:  I guess they are thawing. This icy [mass] is thawing.

G:  It's going to take a few minutes for him to see that they really are there. Once he sees that, cognizes that really they are there ... because it hasn't really entered his consciousness fully yet. Once he sees that, it should break that apart right away.

Siddhananda:  Yeah, exactly. It is mostly thawing. Certainly, that ice is there, and he can't feel that hand there yet, but it is there on the ice. The ice isn't him, though, but it is taking place. It's taking place, yeah.

G and Siddhananda:  (both sitting in silence with eyes closed for a time)

G:  I just want to say, if he can hear my voice, to have the courage to look up [to see] that they are there waiting right in front of him.

Siddhananda:  As you said that, I do see some of that happening. His form is [emerging]. He's still got some ice around him, but I can feel him looking there more.

G:  Yeah, wake up to the presence of them there.

Siddhananda:  I don't see them now as much as individuals, but more of a merging of energies there.

G:  Right, right ... good.

Siddhananda:  It's not like I see a mother and a child. It's more of a merging of energies ... like it has  always been as one [energy].

G:  Right.

Siddhananda:  Very nice.

G:  So, thank you for coming (gesturing namaste).

Siddhananda: (gesturing namaste) Thank you.

G:  We will leave them to continue to merge and surround that (laughing).

Siddhananda:  Yeah, to merge and defrost. (laughing)

G:  Yeah, merge and defrost (laughing).

Siddhananda:  Feel the warmth of the love (smiling)!

G:  Once he sees that they're actually there, that will break forward. He just needs to come back up to a conscious point to where he can see it, rather than [focusing] on that sorrow.

Siddhananda:  Yeah, I know, and it's coming around. Again, he's in very good hands there. It sounds like those ones that are there, those energies, will stay very present there.

G:  Exactly. They will stay until he's actually out of that.

Siddhananda:  Again, I think the main theme is to just open up ... open up ... allow.

G:  That's the thing. One has to be willing to be open rather than so focused on whatever it is, sorrow, or whatever drama you have going on.  The more you focus on that, the more you close yourself off ... the more you are [held] in that rigid pattern ... and the more it congeals, making something more difficult to come out of.

Siddhananda:  Yeah, that's the main message. As soon as that opening takes place, a different energy flows in. That's beneficial for you and everyone else, too, really. So, it's all good.

G:  Exactly. So, this appears to be the lesson of the day (laughing). Don't close off. Be willing to be open and allow things to come into harmony.

Siddhananda:  It seems simple, but, my gosh, it can make a huge shift for someone.

G: Yeah, let go of the drama (laughing).

Siddhananda:  Haven't heard that one before, right? (smiling coyly and laughing)

G:  No, never (laughing)! So, that's it for today. Namaste and thank you.

Siddhananda:  Thank you.