First Projection

Siddhananda: (Holding the stone) "Dark, dark, dark, dark."

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: "Dark, dark, dark, dark. Silence. Dark" (trying to feel what the spirit's conveying). "Stop it. Stop that mind. Silence."

G: They want silence. 

Siddhananda: I don't know if that or a message because it feels so rich and deep.

G: Ok.

Siddhananda: "Heart message." It does not feel that heavy though. I do feel some of that tantric [energy], but it doesn't have that heaviness. I'm not sure. It's been amazingly light. My hand could go like this easily (lifting the stone). Actually, I feel like I could float with it if I held it, which is interesting.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: [See] if you feel the lightness (handing the stone to Guruji). It feels hollow.

G: Oh yeah. 

Siddhananda: I don't know how long that will last, but, it's interesting.

G: Yeah. It's got like a center of almost just that energy explosion.

Siddhananda: But, there's not that heavy [ness].

G: No, no, no. It feels like coming from that bindu and that first explosion of energy that takes place. That first I Am and that first projection. 

Siddhananda: Interesting.

G: Yeah, it's very light (handing the stone back to Siddhananda). It's almost like in that linga and it's coming down and [going through] that first projection of shakti, that shakti that starts to take place. 

Siddhananda: Interesting. When I hold it, it feels like a hollowed out egg.

G: Yeah, that pregnant void. Pregnant void.

Siddhananda: Yeah, almost feels empty. It's such a contrast to that tantric [energy] that pull you down to the ground. This is just (pointing upwards). Empty feeling. It's so light, it's just amazing.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: "Secret place, heart, tantra." Something about tantra. Could be that they have both, that light and heavy together.

G: It's feeling like they're in that Bindu, but right at that point where it's starting to move out into Shakti. Right at that apex, that point where it's starting to come from that unmanifest to the manifest. Right at that juncture. 

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: It's almost like that quantum where you have the explosion of the world starting to take place, from that unmanifest to the manifest. It's like right there at that juncture. 

Siddhananda: Interesting, wow! They're saying "Bindu sounds right, sounds good. But, this is heavy too. It's all of it. It's here."

G: It's like being in the middle of the linga where the two are meeting, where the linga is meeting the yoni, where that point is where it goes from the unmanifest to the manifest. 

Siddhananda: Nice!

G: They're right at that apex. Kind of like the Arthanareeswara, where you have the unmanifest on one side and the manifest on the other side, and they're right there in the center and heart of that. That makes the best feeling for expansion. Yeah, Arthanareeswara, half of it is Shiva, that unmanifest energy, that still point and the other half is Shakti, the motion. He's in the heart of that, right in the center of it. It starts to move and express. 

Siddhananda: That sounds right. It's about balance, [about] how it's all there in the heart. There's that ethers and earth connection.

G: hmm hmm. It's right at that very point. It's feeling like that Arthanareeswara, half is that Shiva and half is that Shakti, and they're right there in the center where that's connected and starting to make its motion into that manifest.

Siddhananda: Interesting to hear your words and the feelings expressed that way because here, I just get those [images, feeling].

G: The dichotomy of it, the one with the lightness and the heaviness. 

Siddhananda: Not so much, but the way that it's expressed. I'm feeling the light in this but the feeling is that there's also that rich connection to the earth.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: The ethers, heavens and the earth meet in the heart, I suppose, and that's how that is. This is nice, the lightness of it.

G: Yeah, it is so light. You can feel that pregnant energy just ready to expand, just to explode. Yeah.

Siddhananda: Yeah. Those lingams are interesting, they're mysterious.

G: You never know what you'll get with them, the lingam is always the wildcard. This one is [nice], you can feel that overwhelming bliss, that Sat Chit Anand, Truth Existence Bliss compressed condensed in that. It feels like it just goes straight up, it's that Sat Chit Anand. Sat Chit Anand. Sat Chit Anand. Just ready to explode.

Siddhananda: It's very nice!

G: It's wonderful!

Tantric Sex

Siddhananda: All right, so let’s see what this one sitting here (referring to a rock) has to say, present, or whatever. (closing eyes) Okay, they are talking about tantric sexual union and energies.

G: Okay and what about it?

Siddhananda: They desire that.

G: And why do they desire that?

Siddhananda: They think it would really be like an eruption of energy and it sounds like they haven’t engaged, but they have been attracted to that.

G: Yeah, sure. I can have sex and be spiritual at the same time.

Siddhananda: That’s it. That’s what’s there, too. The sex. What can I say.

G: Yeah, basically.

Siddhananda: The sex. And they can give it a reason behind it. It’s spiritual.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: But, they also say, "Is there something to that? Is there a way to go beyond, if that’s your practice all the time?"

G: Well, the thing they don’t understand is that the time they used to do the tantric sexual energy, you didn’t get to pick your partner. It was picked for you.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And this was done with the Brahmins and they would get them with the low class, what they were called, low class.  There is no such thing as a low class or a low caste.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: They would put them together with somebody that if there shadow touched them, they would be polluted. It was just there to break through the illusions of that one is higher and one is lower.

Siddhananda: For both of them then, right? For both parties?

G: Yeah, for both parties. But, more usually for the male that was put with the lower class female.

Siddhananda: Too bad for her though. I don’t know. (laughing) But, those are my feelings.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: I said that for my own self. This one is something else.

G: Right, no. I know what you are saying. But, no, what they need to find out is the energies that are balanced is the male and female within themselves and that you don’t need to have an external partner with.

Siddhananda: Yeah, no, I understand.

G: Because when you start getting into external partners and this and that, you can get into, again, a separation of being stuck on form and body.Siddhananda: For sure. My sense with this one is more he is drawn to the sex.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: He is saying, “Yes, yes, I would like that. Of course. What man wouldn’t?” or something.

G: Exactly, that’s what it’s about and when you come in with that kind of idea you get nowhere. All you get is sex. Okay, you get absolutely… you’re not going to go and progress at all.

Siddhananda: That’s right. If that’s where your consciousness is, then that’s where it’s going to remain in that.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: And it’s going to create more of it. And it’s going to be a torturous thing in the end really.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Okay, so he just wants to move on. He just wants to move on.

G: Yeah, I’m sure he does. Bye! (laughing)

Siddhananda: (wiping her hands) Okay, done! All right. So, yeah, I knew that that wasn’t going to be a good thing. Usually, it’s not, when that’s what they are just so attracted to.

G: If their focus is on sex and body, and body and sex, and sex and body, why don’t you just come in like a dog.

Siddhananda: Yeah, really, where you can go at it for all hours.

G: Right, go at it!

Siddhananda: That’s not a spiritual thing.

G: It sounds spiritual and this and that. But, it’s that same BS, you know, no. There is no intention of spirituality.

Siddhananda: That’s the thing. No, there’s purity in all the practices. I think they have some significance, but they need to be done right. And it’s not like it’s done like what they are thinking.

G: No.

Grounded

Siddhananda:  Okay (showing a marbled white stone).  I hear different things. I'm trying to cut to the chase (laughing).

G:  Yeah (laughing).

Siddhananda:  (pausing with closed eyes) Okay, the core of it is they want to know Truth.

G:  They what?

Siddhananda:  They desire to know the truth.

G:  Okay.

Siddhananda:  (closing her eyes) It sounds like they may have somewhat of a Buddhist energy.  At least, I see that whole kind of [path] like a monk.

G:  Okay (nodding).

Siddhananda:  I do see someone dressed is in monk robes. They're saying that they were not a monk themselves. So, I'm getting some imagery of the women who did that kind of thing outside the monasteries... like bowing where they go down on the earth (full body prostrations)?

G:  Yeah, yeah (nodding).

Siddhananda:  That was kind of the thing that they did. That's hard.

G:  Yeah. They probably did that one Buddhist mantra as well.  

Siddhananda:  Yes (nodding).

G:  So, they can have the complete COS mantra. I would say not necessarily the whole COS practice, but the mantra.

Siddhananda:  Okay (closing her eyes). They are asking, "Is the other part of ... (inaudible)?"

G:  Part of the what?

Siddhananda:  Tantric.

G:  Tantric? Mm hmm, yeah (nodding yes). 

Siddhananda:  They're saying, "Grounded. Grounded."

G:  Yeah, it is grounded. 

Siddhananda:  "Woo! Grounded," they're saying (laughing).

G:  (laughing) Yeah, very grounded.

Siddhananda:  They're feeling that Tantric energy. They got that.

G:  The other half of that is Tantric, and it makes a complete mantra.

Spirit:  It's just so GROUNDED!

G:  (chuckling) So, that'll keep them busy for awhile. 

Siddhananda:  Yeah, instead of other things (laughing and gesturing Namaste).

G: (laughing) Namaste.