First Projection

Siddhananda: (Holding the stone) "Dark, dark, dark, dark."

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: "Dark, dark, dark, dark. Silence. Dark" (trying to feel what the spirit's conveying). "Stop it. Stop that mind. Silence."

G: They want silence. 

Siddhananda: I don't know if that or a message because it feels so rich and deep.

G: Ok.

Siddhananda: "Heart message." It does not feel that heavy though. I do feel some of that tantric [energy], but it doesn't have that heaviness. I'm not sure. It's been amazingly light. My hand could go like this easily (lifting the stone). Actually, I feel like I could float with it if I held it, which is interesting.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: [See] if you feel the lightness (handing the stone to Guruji). It feels hollow.

G: Oh yeah. 

Siddhananda: I don't know how long that will last, but, it's interesting.

G: Yeah. It's got like a center of almost just that energy explosion.

Siddhananda: But, there's not that heavy [ness].

G: No, no, no. It feels like coming from that bindu and that first explosion of energy that takes place. That first I Am and that first projection. 

Siddhananda: Interesting.

G: Yeah, it's very light (handing the stone back to Siddhananda). It's almost like in that linga and it's coming down and [going through] that first projection of shakti, that shakti that starts to take place. 

Siddhananda: Interesting. When I hold it, it feels like a hollowed out egg.

G: Yeah, that pregnant void. Pregnant void.

Siddhananda: Yeah, almost feels empty. It's such a contrast to that tantric [energy] that pull you down to the ground. This is just (pointing upwards). Empty feeling. It's so light, it's just amazing.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: "Secret place, heart, tantra." Something about tantra. Could be that they have both, that light and heavy together.

G: It's feeling like they're in that Bindu, but right at that point where it's starting to move out into Shakti. Right at that apex, that point where it's starting to come from that unmanifest to the manifest. Right at that juncture. 

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: It's almost like that quantum where you have the explosion of the world starting to take place, from that unmanifest to the manifest. It's like right there at that juncture. 

Siddhananda: Interesting, wow! They're saying "Bindu sounds right, sounds good. But, this is heavy too. It's all of it. It's here."

G: It's like being in the middle of the linga where the two are meeting, where the linga is meeting the yoni, where that point is where it goes from the unmanifest to the manifest. 

Siddhananda: Nice!

G: They're right at that apex. Kind of like the Arthanareeswara, where you have the unmanifest on one side and the manifest on the other side, and they're right there in the center and heart of that. That makes the best feeling for expansion. Yeah, Arthanareeswara, half of it is Shiva, that unmanifest energy, that still point and the other half is Shakti, the motion. He's in the heart of that, right in the center of it. It starts to move and express. 

Siddhananda: That sounds right. It's about balance, [about] how it's all there in the heart. There's that ethers and earth connection.

G: hmm hmm. It's right at that very point. It's feeling like that Arthanareeswara, half is that Shiva and half is that Shakti, and they're right there in the center where that's connected and starting to make its motion into that manifest.

Siddhananda: Interesting to hear your words and the feelings expressed that way because here, I just get those [images, feeling].

G: The dichotomy of it, the one with the lightness and the heaviness. 

Siddhananda: Not so much, but the way that it's expressed. I'm feeling the light in this but the feeling is that there's also that rich connection to the earth.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: The ethers, heavens and the earth meet in the heart, I suppose, and that's how that is. This is nice, the lightness of it.

G: Yeah, it is so light. You can feel that pregnant energy just ready to expand, just to explode. Yeah.

Siddhananda: Yeah. Those lingams are interesting, they're mysterious.

G: You never know what you'll get with them, the lingam is always the wildcard. This one is [nice], you can feel that overwhelming bliss, that Sat Chit Anand, Truth Existence Bliss compressed condensed in that. It feels like it just goes straight up, it's that Sat Chit Anand. Sat Chit Anand. Sat Chit Anand. Just ready to explode.

Siddhananda: It's very nice!

G: It's wonderful!

Lingam and Yoni

Siddhananda: [I'm hearing] Lingam... Unborn... Sadhu… Sadhvi… It sounds like he came to this, he has done a lot of rituals with the linga.

G: Hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: And he does feel like he would like to talk with you.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda:  Because, he knows you have been there a lot, to India, and around that.

G: Hmm hmm

Siddhananda: I see him pouring ghee and all that on the linga. The Ganges… going in there barefoot… the rushing water. Umm… without… almost unclothed.. he’s got some covering… Anyway, I guess, the feeling of that is not really necessarily stuck in that, but…

Spirit: How do I bring that into my soul?

Siddhananda: Maybe he has just done those rituals and he has done all that.

G: Right, right, right. Okay. What I would say to him is rather than seeing that external, maybe, if he is in spirit, to go to like Khajuraho… and to go up into there .. and into the inner sanctums and stuff. Because usually when you are there, you look to the outside. The outside world is supposed to be left behind. And as you go into the inner sanctum where the linga is, you are supposed to be going deeper and deeper into spirit..

Siddhananda: Hm hmm.

G: ..and leaving this physical world behind, rather than staying connected to the physical world, while you are doing the ablutions and the things that you are doing with the linga. 

Siddhananda: Hmm hmm.

G: The linga is representative of that unmanifest… of that IS…  brahman… in the end. So, you have to go back through the yoni… go back through existence (hands moving along a groove), and into that stillness (hands moving up and down along the cylinder of the linga)… into that… 

Spirit: So these are more like, I guess, gates almost…

Siddhananda: He is saying gateways.

G: Like gateways. Yeah, yeah.

Siddhananda: And I need to be honest, as I am speaking, I am seeing that light coming through. He’s doing all he can because he wants to ask questions. And he doesn’t want to be… I don’t know. I guess he needs to get this cleared up first. He’s kind of swept away with this light coming now.

G: (laughing) 

Siddhananda:  Yeah… Okay… So I am seeing the vision of that cave, and that linga in there, the center of it kind of, where it’s quiet and away… and more…

G: Right… And one goes into that quietude. And one allows themselves to be absorbed into that unmanifest, that IS… What the linga is representative of… that brahman… that still point… that light beyond lights… That… That’s where you want to be. 

Siddhananda: And I see a fire. Like there’s a fire in there… there’s a fire in that cave of the heart. I guess it’s sheltered from the nonsense or something… or the antics of the world… from the playing out of the world.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: But, he says…

Spirit: Then what? If I enter into that, then what?

G: Then you will understand Brahman. Everything goes from that linga. Then, once again proceeds out and makes the manifest into Shakti. You have been experiencing Shakti, all of the world of duality. (showing the open palm of the hands) Now it is time to go beyond that (hands closing in together), into that non-dual, that IS, to understand what is that God… to understand God directly… what IS…

Siddhananda: So I am getting the image of the cave… the fire.. it’s kind of…  (hands spreading out slightly as if from a fire)

Spirit: So, I am not trying to shield myself from the world?

G: No… you are not going to shield yourself from anything. One goes from the unmanifest  (hands motioning vertically above) to the manifest (hands motioning horizontally forward) and it goes back into again (hands moving vertically above)… absorbed again… and that play takes place.

But even in all of the manifest realm (showing open hands), all that is seen is that unmanifest seed (hands closing together, fingers touching for a brief moment)… that linga, if you will. It is in the center of all the manifest world.. So you are not losing anything… 

Siddhananda: He’s really feeling… Oh my gosh .. I can like see a yantra I guess. He is seeing how they are kind of… it’s not separate.

G: Yeah…  It’s not separate. That seed has to be in the very center (left hand fingers held together to a point). And that's what you have to go into, that point of stillness (motioning the fingers down into a conical point)… Where it all emanates from.. 

Once that starts emanating,.. then it’s shakti. It subdivides (fingers spreading like waves in space spreading )… then these lights, like a subdivision into the seen world. But in the midst of all of them is that what that quantum IS… is that singular essence (fingers pointing to a single point). It's the same. 

Siddhananda: All of a sudden, he had a flash, like… [you and] I are one…  kind of like… you see these separate things, but that's like an energy… or more.

G: Right.

Spirit: It doesn’t mean that that is here, that is here, that is here…

Siddhananda: (motioning hands to 3 different points)

G: No. It’s like a reflective state, like a mirror.

Spirit: Yes yes yes…

Siddhananda: He’s saying he just got a flash. There's been some flashes with him and he wants to thank you so much for that. Because, it feels, you know… maybe he didn’t know. Like when you are so familiar with a certain thing… a certain way of believing… or this or whatever. Of course you hope, but you don’t know until you feel that in your own soul..

G: Right, you have to experience that. But any time you see a yantra or any of that, there is that still point in the center (fingers coming together towards a  still point). That’s representative of the same as linga (opening up the hand)… and then the rest of it is like the yoni. It’s coming out (hands showing waves flowing outwards in space)… to the manifest world.  (hands waving out from a center point) 

Spirit: But they are together.

G:: Yeah, but they are all together. It’s all energy.

Spirit: Like Kali and Shiva? One foot on Shiva? Is that the same?

G: Hmm hmm… That’s like Kali with the Shiva? Shiva is laid.. And she has one foot on him…  Right, exactly. 

Spirit: Is that like the same?

G: It is like the same.

Spirit: In a way this is one.

G: There is no separation. no separation. And if you allow that light to come in and draw you into that light beyond lights, what you want to enter is the light beyond lights. 

Siddhananda: He can’t really speak now. So, because, I see that light, that absorption, I guess, I will just speak for him. He’s understanding that full absorption and the light remains. I see this light and emanations (hand movement showing emanations from a point). That’s where I can say where he is right now, in terms of his understanding. And he’s also quieter.

G: So just letting that experience come to him a little more.

Siddhananda: Letting in, sitting with that… basking in that… (sighing) I am not getting much more imagery than that right now, so…

G: So, let me hold him for a few seconds here (holds the rock and closes her eyes)

Siddhananda: I just heard something saying, all is God…

G: Yes… mm hmm.

Siddhananda: God is all… and all is God. Yeah…  (both of them pause for some time with closed eyes)

(G and Siddhananda folding hands in namaste)

G: He will be… we will leave him by that cave for a while. I think that he needs some cave time.

Siddhananda: It will be perfect for him right now.

G: He has definitely gotten still. And all the activities settled down. So, we will let him go into the cave now for a while. 

The Lingum and the Yoni

Siddhananda: I got a lingam (showing the lingam rock)… Watch out!

G: The lingam is always like the wild card (laughing).

Siddhananda: They are… you pick them up and you just don’t know... you have no idea. They have the most motion, too... they just do things you wouldn’t think they would do. Let’s see what’s happening with this lingam… Oddly, I see my own image when I shut my eyes, sometimes that happens… I do see a flower in the center of this lingam.

G: That’s a good start.

Siddhananda: Whew, okay, yay (laughing) maybe we can see what’s in there now. You know it’s funny, there's a flower, but there's kind of a person in there, too… It’s strange.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: Maybe they have gotten stuck in that energy of those rituals. I don’t know…

G: It could be.

Siddhananda: Because I see someone lying almost like a coffin in there. There is flower there though. So let’s see, let me just feel more what this is about.

G: Yes, let’s feel a little bit more of what that is about. It could be about a couple of things.

Siddhananda: It could be, that’s right, it could be. I see that kind of body changing a little bit. It looks like a corpse, but it’s changing like into a female… at first it felt male. It’s lying in there with a flower, like they are lying in a coffin with the open casket. But they are saying this is unborn… the lingam is unborn.

G: Right, the lingam is unborn… It could be like Shiva, too, lying there like Shiva. Ask the spirit if they are representing more of a Shiva… Shiva is unborn. It’s lying there… lying there unmanifest.

Siddhananda: You know it doesn't feel that way. It literally felt like a man then a woman, which is odd. But let’s see what more it has to say… He’s saying the corpse gets absorbed.

G: Yes, the form gets absorbed, right.

Siddhananda: Yes, that’s what he's trying to convey with this. The flower comes after… They are kind of saying after the corpse, the body dies. I am hearing corpse, but I think it’s more of that identification… that’s when the flower comes.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: So that’s kind of what I'm hearing with that, but I see these things in this lingam. I'm seeing that now the body is gone but there is a change in energy with it.

G: Okay, right.

Siddhananda: So, they are conveying that it was the identification with the body that they were talking about.

G: Okay, so once that identification of the body drops, the flowering takes place.

Siddhananda: Yes and then the unborn is present.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: So, let’s see what else. There are clouds in this lingam. There is just the whole world… I see the universe flowing through this lingam with clouds and mountains.

G: Right, like you go from the manifest to the unmanifest and the unmanifest to the manifest.

Siddhananda: And I guess they are saying, too, that they are not separate.

G: Right. It’s like the yoni and the lingam. The lingam is the unmanifest and the yoni brings it out into manifestation. That’s the Shakti… the yoni is the Shakti, it takes it out into manifestation. Everything from the lingam, the unmanifest goes into manifestation. And then it dies and goes back in again, and you do the transformation.

Siddhananda: Right, and it’s lighting up as you’re speaking, yes, that’s it.

G: I don’t know why I get the feeling of Khajuraho.

Siddhananda: Huh…

G: So odd.

Siddhananda: Interesting… From there I see on the side of this lingam, I do see a sannyasi in the orange robes.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: Standing beside it… let’s see, there is a path there.

G: It sounds like this one has contemplated a lot of that lingam and the yoni.

Siddhananda: For sure, for sure… and they are bowing to that. They are saying yes, they have really put a lot of their love and their whole being into this.

G: I think they really have experienced it through the heart and have gone through that feeling of that transformation in themselves, going through that whole process. They've contemplated that whole process.

Siddhananda: Yes, as you are speaking they are on their knees bowing very low, so they are honoring what you're saying and honoring that.

G: Yes, they have done the genuine practice.

Siddhananda: Yes, and you can feel it here, man, it’s got a lot of energy that’s been poured into this, in a very good way, a very sincere way, and you can see how it does.

G: They have really got a lot of the deeper messages of it. They haven’t just done the ritual and stayed there, they have really gone into the heart of what it is and what it is not.

Siddhananda: Right, and I do see a light burst as you are speaking, like yes, you are correct.

G: Yes.

Siddhananda: It’s interesting, it’s very good. So let’s see. I kind of am seeing it all vanish into light now.

G: Yes, because it’s all just energy in the end.

Siddhananda: Right, it’s almost like it’s all been just wiped clean. And then there is just that light, the pure presence.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: The sun.

G: The light beyond lights.

Siddhananda: Yes, in terms of the sannyasi… all of that dedication goes. It just becomes, the heart, the pure presence.

G: Exactly, right.

Siddhananda: It’s really nice.

G: It vibrates so fast, it’s beyond the physical light, right.

Siddhananda: Gosh, I just can feel the whole universe in this lingam. I can see the clouds, the blue sky, the mountains, the rain, the sun, the oceans. I kind of want this one to stay a while (laughing)... let’s see. They are fine with sitting there a while cause the whole business is in there, it’s wonderful. Phew!

G: So I think more than likely he just wanted to share that experience, his experience.

Siddhananda: That’s exactly what it was.

G: Yes.

Siddhananda: And he is okay with just sitting there a while.

G: I am sure he's contemplated the Shiva with Kali standing on him, the lingam and the yoni, and the whole thing… the interactions of that and what the deeper meaning of all of that is. So he's really entered it.

Siddhananda: He's still here! I have him back, he's fine with staying. I could bring him back if you want me to… he's right here.

G: Yes, ask if he has contemplated that as well. I’ve got a feeling he has contemplated the Shiva and Kali, that whole energy, besides just the lingam and the yoni. Yes, they are very interconnected.

Siddhananda: Oh yes, I do feel that and see that imagery there indicating that he has contemplated in terms of having that link as being the same.

G: Exactly, it’s the same.

Siddhananda: I do see a rose. It comes out the same… meaning, one rose for both.

G: Exactly. It’s the same meaning. They’ve contemplated that Kali is standing on the Shiva. They’ve contemplated the Shiva lingam. It’s the same.

Siddhananda: Yes, so he’s just handing out one rose to the whole thing. It’s not this separate, this and that.

G: It’s not two different things. I said that to the one (another spirit that came previously) who got so irate because I said Kali. If he would sit with that and see it’s exactly the same.

Siddhananda: Yes, that’s right, that’s exactly it. All I see is this darkness and this rose lit up. It’s a really wonderful image. So he went into the whole bit, he’s contemplated the whole business. I am just feeling the ground, it’s kind of like that’s what he’s portraying now.

G: Right, he’s gone through that whole transformation within himself. All of those energies have transformed in each step of the way.

Siddhananda: He’s bowing low again in honor of that lingam, yes, he's bowing low.

G: Yes, he is that lingam and yoni.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: Yes, he is that transformation… one hundred percent.

Siddhananda: He is sending the yoni, the picture of the lingam. There is a wonderful white flower on top that’s coming… yes.

G: Yep.

Siddhananda: Yes, it’s really nice, there’s a light coming from it. It’s just a wonderful energy.

G: I am sure… Ask him if he was around the time of Khajuraho. I’m sure he understands the inner workings of the temple there.

Siddhananda: Were those the temples with all the images on the outside?

G: Right, right.

Siddhananda: Because I see an image of that.

G: Yes.

Siddhananda: I am just getting an image of that. I see it… I see all of the activity on the outside there.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: I see the openings.

G: There are all these worldly activities that goes on the outside, and also the cosmos, everything that has to do with the outer world. And then one goes in there into the inner sanctum, into that journey, that transformational part.

Siddhananda: It’s wonderful because as you are speaking I see that… those temples. Then I am actually taken in there, inside. It’s wonderful inside… it’s so cooling. Then you go into the inner sanctum with the lingam there.

G: Right, one leaves that outside world behind and goes into that inner journey there. I am just wondering if he had some time there in Khajuraho. I know he knows all the symbology of it.

Siddhananda: Oh yes, because I am actually transported in there in that one area with the lingam… I am kind of transported in there in my mind and there is that lingam there in just that one little space. It’s cool and dark in there.

G: Right, exactly.

Siddhananda: I am able to be in there now. It’s really nice! (laughing)

G: It is really nice there, yes.

Siddhananda: I could feel it and I think he is taking me in there. Yes, that's where he’s laid down there… he’s been there.

G: Yes.

Siddhananda: All of it.

G: I could feel that with him very strongly, a very strong Khajuraho energy with him.

Siddhananda: He’s bowing low and I feel it with him just saying that all you are saying... yes… yes... yes… yes, leave that world.

G: Yes, it just makes a really bright light in my heart from that. Very, very powerful, very nice.

Siddhananda: He’s just bowing low and he is offering a rose… a white rose… a white flower. He’s offering that. He wants to give it to you as well.

G: Thanks.

Siddhananda: As an offering of the grace that's flowing here as well as an honoring of that light and that journey.

G: Very nice. Tell him thank you so much for coming.

Siddhananda: Yes. We’ll let him move on because I almost feel like he’s one that will move on and do his work elsewhere or whatever. So I think we’ll let him go as much as he’s wonderful to keep around, he can always visit again I’m sure if we called him back anytime.