First Projection

Siddhananda: (Holding the stone) "Dark, dark, dark, dark."

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: "Dark, dark, dark, dark. Silence. Dark" (trying to feel what the spirit's conveying). "Stop it. Stop that mind. Silence."

G: They want silence. 

Siddhananda: I don't know if that or a message because it feels so rich and deep.

G: Ok.

Siddhananda: "Heart message." It does not feel that heavy though. I do feel some of that tantric [energy], but it doesn't have that heaviness. I'm not sure. It's been amazingly light. My hand could go like this easily (lifting the stone). Actually, I feel like I could float with it if I held it, which is interesting.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: [See] if you feel the lightness (handing the stone to Guruji). It feels hollow.

G: Oh yeah. 

Siddhananda: I don't know how long that will last, but, it's interesting.

G: Yeah. It's got like a center of almost just that energy explosion.

Siddhananda: But, there's not that heavy [ness].

G: No, no, no. It feels like coming from that bindu and that first explosion of energy that takes place. That first I Am and that first projection. 

Siddhananda: Interesting.

G: Yeah, it's very light (handing the stone back to Siddhananda). It's almost like in that linga and it's coming down and [going through] that first projection of shakti, that shakti that starts to take place. 

Siddhananda: Interesting. When I hold it, it feels like a hollowed out egg.

G: Yeah, that pregnant void. Pregnant void.

Siddhananda: Yeah, almost feels empty. It's such a contrast to that tantric [energy] that pull you down to the ground. This is just (pointing upwards). Empty feeling. It's so light, it's just amazing.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: "Secret place, heart, tantra." Something about tantra. Could be that they have both, that light and heavy together.

G: It's feeling like they're in that Bindu, but right at that point where it's starting to move out into Shakti. Right at that apex, that point where it's starting to come from that unmanifest to the manifest. Right at that juncture. 

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: It's almost like that quantum where you have the explosion of the world starting to take place, from that unmanifest to the manifest. It's like right there at that juncture. 

Siddhananda: Interesting, wow! They're saying "Bindu sounds right, sounds good. But, this is heavy too. It's all of it. It's here."

G: It's like being in the middle of the linga where the two are meeting, where the linga is meeting the yoni, where that point is where it goes from the unmanifest to the manifest. 

Siddhananda: Nice!

G: They're right at that apex. Kind of like the Arthanareeswara, where you have the unmanifest on one side and the manifest on the other side, and they're right there in the center and heart of that. That makes the best feeling for expansion. Yeah, Arthanareeswara, half of it is Shiva, that unmanifest energy, that still point and the other half is Shakti, the motion. He's in the heart of that, right in the center of it. It starts to move and express. 

Siddhananda: That sounds right. It's about balance, [about] how it's all there in the heart. There's that ethers and earth connection.

G: hmm hmm. It's right at that very point. It's feeling like that Arthanareeswara, half is that Shiva and half is that Shakti, and they're right there in the center where that's connected and starting to make its motion into that manifest.

Siddhananda: Interesting to hear your words and the feelings expressed that way because here, I just get those [images, feeling].

G: The dichotomy of it, the one with the lightness and the heaviness. 

Siddhananda: Not so much, but the way that it's expressed. I'm feeling the light in this but the feeling is that there's also that rich connection to the earth.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: The ethers, heavens and the earth meet in the heart, I suppose, and that's how that is. This is nice, the lightness of it.

G: Yeah, it is so light. You can feel that pregnant energy just ready to expand, just to explode. Yeah.

Siddhananda: Yeah. Those lingams are interesting, they're mysterious.

G: You never know what you'll get with them, the lingam is always the wildcard. This one is [nice], you can feel that overwhelming bliss, that Sat Chit Anand, Truth Existence Bliss compressed condensed in that. It feels like it just goes straight up, it's that Sat Chit Anand. Sat Chit Anand. Sat Chit Anand. Just ready to explode.

Siddhananda: It's very nice!

G: It's wonderful!

Fires of Purification

Siddhananda: We've got two lingas coming up.

G: What! (smiling)

Siddhananda: (Smiling) Here's the one (showing a linga stone) (pause) So, this person is inside a cave with the linga.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: That energy is being reflected, and there is that depth of that cave, that dark [interior], [that] feeling of being shielded from the world.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: It's cool in there.

G: Are they still in form?

Siddhananda: No.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: But, they are in there. That's where they are in their heart and mind.

G: Okay. So, what can we help them with?

Siddhananda: (inaudible). i guess they just want that fire more. i'm just seeing a fire.

G: hmm hmm.

Spirit: Want to destroy any lingering me and mind energy.

G: hmm hmm. i would say the Kali mantras, for sure. 

Siddhananda: (pause)

G: "Burn in the fires of purification, swaha!" (smiling)

Siddhananda: Right, swaha. The offering is you, that ego, yeah.

G: Exactly. He is that offering. So, he needs to understand he is the offering. 

Siddhananda: Yeah, be careful, you never know what you're asking for (laughing)!

G: Exactly. 

Siddhananda: (pause) It is coming into him now and he's accepting of it.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: i see a little bit more light coming in. It also is rich and dark, for the most part.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: Okay (nodding), he has the mantras.

G: Yeah, so he'll be good with that. We'll leave him with them. Does he want to stay in the crystal cave here or go? Up to him. He is already in a cave. 

Siddhananda: He's saying he's okay where he is right now. Thank you for that.

G: Okay. Thank you for coming (gesturing namaste).

Siddhananda: Namaste.

G: Yeah, he is in his own crystal cave there (laughing).

Siddhananda: (laughing) Yeah, he's in his own cave.

G: Got his own cave. 

Siddhananda: Have cave, will travel! (laughing)

G: Have cave, will travel. (laughing).

No Name

Siddhananda: (Showing a small green heart stone) So, we've got our next one.

G: Okay.

Spirit: I don't know my name.

G: Okay

Siddhananda: (pause) Let me see what they exactly mean by that, because I am hearing "Jack." I don't know what that's about.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: [They're saying they don't know] their real name, their spirit name.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: They would like a spirit name.

G: They want a spirit name?

Siddhananda: Yeah. (nodding)

G: Okay, go to the zero-point balance (smiling).

Siddhananda: Zero-point balance? Is that what you're saying?

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Nice! (smiling). Yeah, they want to get rid of Jack (laughing).

G: Yeah, Jack needs to go if they walk into that door of what is God directly. There is no Jack, there never has been a Jack. 

Siddhananda: Well, exactly! And that's what they were wanting.

G: Jack is just one of the ones played out. Let him open the veil to see there have been many, many, many, many more. 

Siddhananda: Not just Jack.

G: Not just Jack. So I ask that veil be lifted so that he can see that there are multitude of different personas, experiences, names and forms.

Siddhananda: Yeah, I am seeing a little more of the Cosmos coming in and more of the broader scope of things than just this one time and place.

G: Yeah, wasn't just this one time and place. If he opens, especially on the other side, he can [see] that all of those are going on simultaneously, numerous experiences and names and forms. 

Siddhananda: (pause) I'm seeing a matrix, there are interwoven things...

G: Hmm hmm, right.

Siddhananda: He is seeing that, he is coming into that. He's been really stuck on this "Jack" [experience].

G: Yeah, he's been stuck on the "Jack" one, but, there are multitude, multitude, multitude unending experiences and lives and names and forms, and yet at the very center of it [is] no form. 

Siddhananda: (nodding) That struck him because I'm now seeing an image of a linga.

G: Hmm hmm. So, now we go back. Now that you've seen the reality that there are numerous forms going on, all at the same time, same space, different names, different faces, different forms, now we go to the heart of those and see what's there, that zero-point balance. Beyond all the forms, names and identifications. One singular essence. The Light beyond lights of all the forms. Go to that singular light. 

Siddhananda: (pause) Yeah, he's really faded out. I don't feel Jack anymore (laughing). (pause) I wonder if we should keep this one here or let them on their own now.

G: Yeah, he needs to go up on the top shelf, in the void. He needs to be with the ones in the void. 

Siddhananda: The first shelf?

G: Yeah, in the void. He's in the void. 

Siddhananda: (placing the stone on the void shelf)

G: Express! (laughing)

Siddhananda: Zero-point balance. Came with that name and there he went.

G: There he went! He had the express train. (laughing)

Siddhananda: (laughing) "I want to get rid of Jack," he was saying.

G: Well, he got rid of Jack, alright!

Siddhananda: And all the rest of it, too.

G: And all the rest of it at once (laughing).

Siddhananda: Jack, Jill, the whole business! (smiling)

Ask for Liberation

Siddhananda: (Showing a small lingam) We have another one! (referring to previous stone being a linga as well)

G: Oh, another linga, okay (laughing). Hopefully, that one was listening in.

Siddhananda: (laughing) (the linga rolls) Where'd it go! It rolled under the computer, it left for a minute. I don't know how these things move, but they do. They have feet or something, I tell you! All the sudden they're there and then they're somewhere else (laughing)

G: (laughing) 

Siddhananda: Maybe it was trying to hide under there, but, I don't know. We'll find out (laughing) I'm hearing that they do want to shrink a little after that [last spirit's session] because they're in the lingam and they don't feel like they can meet that or match up with that one (referring to previous spirit that was contemplating lingam and yoni)

G: (laughing hard)

Siddhananda: So, they don't even know, if they should go back to where they came from (laughing).. They're glad you're laughing, but that's the way they feel. They wanted to roll right under the computer as if they were never ever here. (laughing)

G: [It was like] "i was going to come and share all my great wisdom, and now i'm like hiding and hoping they wont' see me" (gesturing hiding under desk) (laughing)

Siddhananda: That's the thing, and he came in a lingam and he's just like "Oh, No!" (laughing)

G: That's so funny!

Siddhananda: He's glad you're laughing. He's glad we're laughing.

G: Tell them it's okay (laughing)

Siddhananda: Yeah. Okay, let's see.. (pause) i'm seeing the image of a householder and it sounds like he's done all those things, [rituals] to Ganesha where they're just wanting good things for themselves (smiling)

G: Right, exactly

Siddhananda: He doesn't see the cosmos in the lingam, i just see a happy household. I mean, he was a good husband and raised his kids, but, in that old traditional way of "give me, give me" and all the stuff that they do

G: Right

Siddhananda: So, he's just [saying] "Help me, please!". He's saying "After that example, my goodness. I really see where this can go and what I've [missed]. I've just not been in the heart of it at all"

G: Right. Now, see the Universe set that up so that's what he can follow (laughing) You may want to aim a little higher next time (teasing)

Siddhananda: He's like "that's in there, this whole thing!" (referring to the deeper message of lingam and yoni), He's like "My God, that's what that was about? I was just doing it as a rote thing"

G: Exactly, it's like "Ganesh, let me have good house, let me have good business, let me have sons..", I know the whole trip

Siddhananda: That's exactly it. He did all of that and he was pretty heavy into it, just like any of them.

G: Yeah, it's the thing, they're asking for gifts, they're not asking for the wisdom, they're not asking for enlightenment

Siddhananda: Right

G: So, this next time, ask the Ganesh for the deeper things, so that he can see that it leads to freedom, liberation in motion on all levels.

Siddhananda: (pause) He is on his knees, he's crying, actually. He didn't know what he was doing.. He knew that it was selfish, but, he did not know that [deeper meaning]. He just didn't do it, he's lost that chance.

G: Right. Well, he can have another chance. He can come in again, he can have another chance. But, this time, aim for higher things, ask for liberation,  don't ask for the physical stuff, ask for the things of the spirit.

Siddhananda: (pause) and i'm seeing a lingam coming up in my mind with a flower, like he's wanting to flower that, he's wanting to take that in a different way. I do see a cup he's holding [like] he wants to drink it in a different way. He didn't know and he's glad [he knows now], it was hard for him to hear that from the one that came before, but, it really jolted him.

G: Exactly, it's what he needed to see, that's called Grace! (laughing)

Siddhananda: "Yes, I see how Grace works, it's hard hitting, it's hard", he says.

G: It is hard. But, if he's ready, he can come in and ask for a teacher, ask sincerely for a Guru from his heart and he'll find a Guru in this next life time. Don't miss the opportunity again.

Siddhananda: (pause) Yes, so, he's wanting to know what practices he should be doing.

G: Yeah, he can do the COS,

Siddhananda: He's very grateful for that and he's bowing. He's got his rudraksha beads, his mala beads in his hand and he's holding them to his heart, he's crying and he's sad that he didn't honor that light the way he should have.

G: That's ok, just tell him "Don't be sad, you'll have another chance. That's why you're here. He's a good man and that's why you're here and you got the Grace to do it now."

Siddhananda: Yes, he's a good man and he tried to do the best with the rituals that he did, he just didn't know.

G: Exactly, he was just ignorant, he didn't know. He's a good man, so, now the Light has come, this opportunity has come. 

Siddhananda: And, he's offering you a flower and he's offering his heart as if to say i will sincerely try now, and saying thank you.

G: Thank you for coming (gesturing namaste)

Siddhananda: Boy, that worked out well! (smiling)

G: Yeah (smiling)

Bhakti Ritual

S: Okay, got a linga here. It's a nice one, a black one (pause). Well, I'm seeing, again, some rituals with the linga.

G: hmm hmm

S: with the honey or the milk, and the flowers.

G: Right.

S: I see him standing there and pouring it on the linga, and, I see a picture of the Ganges there.

G: hmm hmm

S: He is in his, I think it's, yellow [robes]. I think he's a householder. He's there, and he's doing his rituals and things. It's nice. It's open. I feel the Ganges kind of energy.

G: Yeah.

S: So, how can we help you today? (pause) ... They want to pour some of that on me (laughing). I don't know, does that make sense?

G: Yeah, yeah (smiling).

S: [It's] like I'm a linga or something ... (laughing). I'm just saying what I'm feeling, and, I'm feeling it come down (gesturing with hands to show the milk pouring down).

G: hmm hmm

S: (pause) I see the three stripes here (gesturing to show the three stripes of Shiva that are on her forehead).

G: hmm hmm

S: It's Love (eyes welling up with tears). They're doing it with Love. Thank you so much!

G: Namaste (smiling).