Encountering Oneself

Siddhananda:  On to the next one. Why am I not getting it in the [viewfinder]? There (showing a transparent, heart shaped stone)!

G:  There you go (laughing)! Where is it? Where is it? 

Siddhananda:  If it goes up here, down there, I don't know. Alright. I'm coordinated in that way (smiling).

G:  (laughing)

Siddhananda:  (closing her eyes) So, let's see what this one needs today. "Trigger points," I'm hearing.

G:  Mm hmm.

Siddhananda:  I think what he's saying is whatever buttons get pushed.

G:  Right ... buttons. He's got some buttons (laughing)? What are his particular buttons (chuckling)?

Siddhananda:  (grinning) Whatever his particular ones are, we'll see here (closing her eyes). It sounds like they get pushed easily for him. I do see a picture of buttons lined up.

G:  Mm hmm, right, like an elevator (laughing).

Siddhananda:  Yeah (nodding yes). It's like that, exactly. Kind of like where the chakras would be lined, [could find] a button in there, I guess.

G:  Yeah, got plenty of buttons. 

Siddhananda:  Yeah. He/she is just kind of that way.

G:  Mm hmm.

Siddhananda:  I do see that imagery needing to be dissolved in more light and not having, like you say, those knee-jerk reactions.

G:  Knee-jerk reactions, right. 

Siddhananda:  It sounds like whatever they're around, in terms of who they love and care for, they can sometimes go off.  They don't mean to because that person isn't coming at them [aggressively] in that way, but ...

G:  ... but that's the way they've reacted.

Siddhananda:  Right. They go off with these kinds of things.

G:  So, they might want to sit and look at why they've gone into those types of reactionary [responses], because if they come [and] ask the universe [to] clear those buttons, to make that better, what you're going to have is those buttons] pushed even more. You'll get plenty of opportunities to confront it. 

Siddhananda:  That's a big lesson.

G:  It's a big lesson, yeah.

Siddhananda:  "It's not like they're just going to go away," they're saying (laughing).

G:  No, it's not like they're just going to go away. If you ask for peace, they're going to give you a lot of opportunities to try to find peace. You're not instantly (snapping her fingers) going to get peace. They're going to bring up all sorts of situations where you're really going to have to learn the hard way. That's what it is. It's not that all of sudden it's swept away, and ... oh, now I'm going to be this very peaceful [being]. You have to really look at your own life and see what it is that's pushing those buttons, and you get so riled with it, upset with it, immediately. 

Siddhananda:  (rocking gently to and fro with eyes closed)

G:  It takes introspection in order to find out what the key is, to look deeper than that, and then, let go of that.

Siddhananda:  (pausing with eyes closed) That is being absorbed. I think they do understand that there's got to be a cause, and that they need to look at whatever cause is there ... what's triggering that, rather than having it just go away.

G:  Right, and then, playing blame games on somebody else.

Siddhananda:  (nodding) Pointing ... finger pointing ...

G:  ... finger pointing, because that's not going to help the situation, either. Well, it's your fault that I'm doing this. That finger pointing, blame game, is not going to work. 

Siddhananda:  Yeah, that's what I'm seeing ... a ricochet [effect] with those energies bouncing off of others like a ricochet.

G:  Right, because what you put out, you get back.

Siddhananda:  It does come back.

G:  It'll come back, exactly.

Siddhananda:  It'll come back making it worse.

G:  Exactly. Yeah, so, like I said, if you ask for peace, there will be a lot of heavy situations that you can attempt to find peace in (laughing). 

Siddhananda:  (laughing) It's not like all of a sudden it just melts off.

G:  No, it doesn't melt off. You have to learn it within yourself. So, in order to learn it within yourself, you're going to find a lot of things that are not peaceful so that you can learn peace. So, whatever you're looking for, really, you're going to draw in the opposite for a time so that you can find it. You'll have more opportunity to find it because you have to find it in your own life (chuckling).

Siddhananda:  So, basically, he should get ready and try to get stabilized.

G:  Exactly. Really just sit with it and see what it is that makes that knee-jerk reaction [occur], and see the fallacy of that. That's the way to diffuse them. 

Siddhananda:  He's trying to settle down with this. I see a lot that's stirring in there (moving her hand back and forth). He's trying to just stay present and sit as best as possible, but I can see that [that] is being stirred within him.

G:  Yeah, yeah. So, one just has to continue to sit with that. Look and see it more deeply. Yeah, he's got to confront himself. 

Siddhananda:  That's the work we all have to do. No one gets out of that (shrugging).

G:  No, no one gets out of that. We all have to do that work and have to sit there with it, look deeper, and see, because we're the ones that are our own worst enemies. We're the ones that cause ourselves the pain.

Siddhananda:  Yeah, I think for him, too, he doesn't want to, like you were saying, blame or hurt others anymore with his own issues.

G:  Right. The only one that can solve his own issues is himself. 

Siddhananda:  "It's hard," he's saying.

G:  Yeah, it's very hard. It's not easy, but one has to be willing to confront their self, and their own patterns, their own dramas, and see beyond to break through it. That takes, first, becoming aware of it. It's good that he's become aware of it, and he's willing to stop the blame game. That's good. That's a big step forward. 

Siddhananda:  Okay (smiling with a nod).  Okay, good (gesturing Namaste).

G:  (gesturing Namaste)

Siddhananda:  I do hear, "COS." Is it okay for him to [have that]?

G:  Yeah, he can go ahead and do COS. 

Siddhananda:  That's kind of [jumped] in there in the end.

G:  Mm hmm. Yeah, that should help to still him to some point and expand him a little bit so that he doesn't get so caught up in the emotional [energies].

Siddhananda: Right, and right away, with that energy going in, there was a lighter feeling. So, I think that's a good one for him to have, of course. Okay, well, namaste (smiling).

G:  Moving right along (chuckling softly).