Karma

Siddhananda: (Showing a small lime green stone) Okay, this is the one that always has the little dot (showing the other side of the stone that has a purple spot).

G: You never know! (referring to a message that came from the last session).

Siddhananda: Okay.

G: But, that was a nice message to begin with (referring to the last session).

Siddhananda: Really nice to start out, yeah. Okay, (pause) So, what i'm seeing is a rose, but it then has the thorns.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: And, a finger was pricked on the thorns.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: (pause) So, i see a body [that had] been cut on those thorns a lot.

G: Okay. Ask them if they can tell a little bit more of what that's about?

Siddhananda: Yeah. (pause) I'm just hearing "hardships."

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: (pause) "Sticking points."

G: There you go! That's a good one, sticking points. (laughing).

Siddhananda: (laughing) Is that perfect or what? That's exactly what those thorns are, aren't they? (laughing).

G: They are sticking points, you can't argue with that.

Siddhananda: I love it. This imagery says it all!

G: That's a good one, sticking points.

Siddhananda: I know, it's perfect!

G: Because it hurts a lot (laughing).

Siddhananda: It's perfect, it's perfect. But, i am seeing bleeding with those sticking points.

G: Yeah, they must be some gnarly sticking points. So, what are the sticking points that they're stumbling over?

Siddhananda: Well, i see them putting their finger on there, for goodness sake. It's getting stuck all this time.

G: Why do they want to keep doing that?

Siddhananda: I know! That's the thing.

G: Haven't they done it enough to see that it hurts? (laughing)

Siddhananda: I see a band-aid being put on the finger and (pause) they don't want a band-aid solution.

G: Right, and that's what most people do, they put a band-aid on and they keep doing the same thing again. It's like (throwing arms up in air).

Siddhananda: It's like they purposely put it on there.

G: I know, they keep doing the same thing, it's like, are you not going to learn that that's not advantageous to do?

Siddhananda: i do see some tears with this being...

G: So, what is his sticking point that he's not letting go of? That he keeps torturing himself with.

Siddhananda: Right, yes, exactly. Because I do see more gashes on him. He's really been self-punished. (grimacing).

G: He's been through kind of a rose briar. Into it and..

Siddhananda: Yeah. That's it, exactly.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: He's on his bare skin. So, anyway, let's see (pause).. He can't find his way out of it.

G: Yeah, well, he needs to let us know what the problem is so [that] we can help him.

Siddhananda: Yeah. i see some sunglasses on his eyes, so, he's not very clear at all with his seeing, obviously.

G: Right. He's not looking a lot towards the light, let's put it that way.

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly.

G: He's seeing through a glass, darkly.

Siddhananda: (laughing)

G: That's what that Bible verse is.. "seeing through a glass, darkly".. Spy glasses, yeah.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: Yeah, he looks through the shades.

Siddhananda: That's right.

G: Hence, again, what's up?

Siddhananda: (pause) I'm hearing "I ran away from a miserable situation."

G: Aha.

Spirit: ..in which i felt used or misunderstood.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: So, let's see what happened there, it could be anything.

G: It could be anything, but, at this point, it sounds like a royal pity party going on. So, let's find out what it is.

Siddhananda: Yeah. I see him, there's a person there and then, i think, [there's] a woman. I think this being is male, he's pushing her away and, she's heavy handed with him and heavy in her threats. i just think they had a lot of conflicts somewhere in there.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: I think he pushed her.

G: He did what?

Siddhananda: He pushed her.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: I see a woman being pushed down, and [she] ran away. I'm going to ask if he's always been honest or what's been his character a little, or what do you think?

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Okay, so, (pause) he hasn't always been honest in his dealings. He's been rough.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: He's been rough, he's been abusive. He's been harsh.

G: Yeah, he's been an abuser.

Siddhananda: That's what it feels like. He's been an abusive, harsh, gnarly kind of soul.

G: Yeah, now he's feeling the pain he put her through.

Siddhananda: Yeah. He's really cut up, he's really..

G: Good.

Siddhananda: Yeah, i mean, that's the way it works.

G: That's a lesson, don't do this to people.

Siddhananda: Yeah. (pause) He's really been put through a ringer now.

G: Well, that's karma.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: Oh, i'm not joking when i tell people [that] if you're doing these things to people, when you go on the other side, you're going to have to feel the pain you put them through. You're going to have to endure that.

Siddhananda: Yeah, he is.

G: So, you can do [the] changing now.

Siddhananda: And he definitely is [feeling the pain]. He's really lost in all these thorns and getting really cut up. He's blinded. He's stuck there. He's thirsty. He's dry..

G: Aha (nodding).

Siddhananda: It sounds like he had put people through some harsh things.

G: Yeah, he only ought to, again, take rebirth and do right to balance the scales, to be willing to come back and fight for the rights that he was abusing.

Siddhananda: Very Good.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Let's see what he has to say about that.

G: That's a door to  open for him to make it right.

Siddhananda: Now, with this one, i do see some scales that are not balanced, that he's reflecting.

G: Aha (nodding)

Siddhananda: (pause) He's feeling so imbalanced.

G: Well, yeah. But, he has to get out of his pity party. You can't be an abuser and then come and bemoan your own situation, when you get what you put out.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Does he understand that? He may not like it, to hear that.

Siddhananda: He's saying that is very hard for him to hear.

G: Of course, it's hard for him. Does he think it was easy for what he put them through? Does he think that was easy for them? He thinks he should get off scot-free from that?

Siddhananda: Right

G: And not have to be accountable?

Siddhananda: (pause) Yeah, he's trying to take this in. He's just kind of down now. He’s sitting down, head down.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: I think he's just lost his energy too, even. He doesn't have much strength in himself to keep [going forward].

G: Yeah, like i said, he can go forward. But, to go forward he has to be willing to go back in and right the scales, to make it right.

Siddhananda: I do see a heart reflected, all of a sudden. So, i think he did hear some of that.

G: Yeah (nodding).

Siddhananda: It touched him in another way.

G: There is that option, there is that option. If he wants to make it right and quits having the pity party for himself now, that doorway would open for him.

Siddhananda: Yeah, that heart is there, but, then it gets shadowy too. But, at least it's showing he did hear something, something touched his heart.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: And he wants to go forward. He's in a really in a bad shape right now, so..

G: Right. So, we'll ask Christ to come in and to work with him. He needs to learn some of those lessons and hear it and put it into practice.

Siddhananda: (pause) Actually, this image is very nice! It's turning out nice. The very clear, crisp image of Christ.

G: Aha (nodding).

Siddhananda: ..and the light going into his soul that is bent down.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: His head looks very shabby and he almost looks now a little more like he was in that time of Christ, where he's got something over his head, like [the way] they wore here (gesturing something worn around the head). He's down and it kind of shifted with a bit of a feeling of him becoming more open to that.

G: Right. You can change. Any of them can change, but, they have to have that heart and willingness to change. And like i said, sometimes you have to fall and fall hard before you're ready for the light.

Siddhananda: Right, and it's been a long time [that] he's been in this condition.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: So, i see Christ lifting up his chin, like how they do in looking up. So, they're looking at each other's eyes.

G: Aha, good.

Siddhananda: And this one is really nice. I think he's in really good hands now and it came pretty quickly, like that.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: This one is very lucky in that way, maybe he's endured a lot and is really ready.

G: Yeah, he heard it and it opened up his heart and that's all it takes.

Siddhananda: That's what it took.

G: You've got to come to a thing of being honest with what he's done and accepting that and being willing to make it right.

Siddhananda: i see a nice image, with those sticking points, like those thorns he kept putting his own finger on, i saw his hand being moved away from that. He was not doing that to himself anymore.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: That was a nice image and so then that heart is there. i think he it really pierced through something and he's quite fine right now.

G: Yeah, good deal.

Siddhananda: Yeah (hand on heart center). Nice, huh?

G: (gesturing Namaste).

Siddhananda: You never know, it felt so hard, but then I saw that heart just flash, it's like something broke through. You never know, some are longer some are not.

G: Sometimes, they have to go through a lot of suffering before they're open and willing to hear it.

Siddhananda: And he, I don't think he had another ounce of energy left to take another step. He was very much pummeled.

G: He is one of them who has to fall hard, all the way to the bottom, and then there's nowhere to go but up at that point.

Siddhananda: And i did just get a flash of him being back in that situation and he was hugging whoever he pushed down. So, i think he's looking for forgiveness in himself.

G: Good. Taking reparations.

Siddhananda: Yeah, really nice!

G: i think that more often the ones that have been abused move on much quicker than the ones that were the abuser.

Siddhananda: Interesting.

G: They come to heal much quicker.

Siddhananda: Aha, the ones that were abused.

G: Right, the ones that were the victims of that, yeah. [They] come around much quicker.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: The perpetrators take a long time to [heal].

Siddhananda: This one seemed like he was an abuser type, though, in a way, huh?

G: Right, that's why it took him along time.

Siddhananda: Oh, i see what you mean. Yes, he had to go through a lot, absolutely. The victim would seem like a whole different thing, exactly. I think you're right, because who knows how long he was in those conditions. But, nice that he was ready.

G: Another case in point, we got our two Mayan [souls]..

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: The woman that was sacrificed, she was able to heal much quicker than our other Mayan.

Siddhananda: Oh, good point.

G: It took him a little while longer.

Siddhananda: Sure, and we don't know how long they have been in these conditions when they come to us. We don't know all that sometimes, but, you're right about that situation, because you got him out pretty fresh.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Yeah, interesting to see.