Faith

Siddhananda: (Showing a white marble stone) i'm hearing "gates of hell, gates of heaven."

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: They're going back and forth between those gates.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: "Mental anguish to peace, mental anguish and then peace."

G: Okay, what's the mental anguish about?

Siddhananda: i guess when they're in heaven, they're worried about going back.

G: Back where?

Siddhananda: To the anguish.

G: Well, they don't need to worry if they let go of it. They are the ones that keep bringing it in themselves. If they have already reached heaven, if they're at the gates of heaven then they have nothing to fear. They are pulling themselves back out of it.

Siddhananda: Yeah. (pause). They're becoming much lighter now. And those two gates are fading, like those aren't part of the picture as much, they're just present in that lightness. Those gates are like they're not even existing.

G: Right. Like he reached over the illusion of that. 

Siddhananda: Yeah, i see the gates on this side, but there's light in between and those are more distant. SO, that's not happening, it's better.

G: So, since he's worried about the gates of heaven, we ask that Christ or Mary come to him and aid him. He can enter the light and just step through. He doesn't need to keep himself in a purgatory, like in no-man's land. 

Siddhananda: i'm seeing a little different image with Christ coming, there's a dark cloud being dispelled, it's turning grey and circular, like washing away with the presence of that light.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: Lot of times i see that they're there, but, this has some clouds being dispelled.

G: hmm hmm. Yeah, this guy has some stuff that he needs to let go of. 

Siddhananda: Some issues. (smiling)

G: Yes, that little dark empty crap that he's holding on to, so he needs to dispel that.

Siddhananda: Exactly. So, that is being worked on, there is grey, black to light, so it's been revolving a bit, and being worked on with the light. Not full gone yet, there's something in need of being worked on.

G: Right. He's got to understand he can let go of that in an instant. If he just gives it over to Christ, it can move on in an instant. For what reason does he continue to hold this? Christ is there to take that away permanently.

Siddhananda: Yeah. It is getting better.

G: He's just got to let it go and let him have it.

Siddhananda: Yeah, i think that's what it's about. He's having a hard time releasing that, for whatever reason, oddly enough. It happens, people get familiar with things and [don't let go].

G: Right. It's like a false identity, one identifies with being ill or identifies with this and that, and oh, if i let go of that what will i be now. That's familiar, that's what i know. 

Siddhananda: Right.

G: And it's not beneficial. He's got to see that it's not beneficial and it's holding him back. The only one holding him back is himself, he has to be willing to give that up to move into that light. 

Siddhananda: There's still some swirly dark grey stuff happening.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: (pause) It's flushing out now a little better.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: Yeah, it's slowly getting better. I think he didn't have that same resistance after a while. Just couldn't hold it.

G: Yeah, couldn't keep it up.

Siddhananda: It's flushing out.

G: You can only keep up that resistance so long against that Light. 

Siddhananda: It's feeling better. I still see a stream of dark at the bottom but at least it's fluid, the rest is more Light.

G: Right. He's got to understand that he has to let it all go, one hundred percent, so that he doesn't re-manifest that again. All seeds of that have to be gone. 

Siddhananda: (pause) Yeah, still lingering residue.

G: Tough one, he doesn't want to let go of that. 

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Again, he's got to understand, like the Bible said if you have the faith of the grain of a mustard seed, there's nothing that can't be accomplished. But, on the other hand, if you have the doubt like a grain of mustard seed, it can grow and flourish and pull one away. So, pick what seed you want to plant, the seed of doubt or the seed of truth. Their choice. But, you have to be willing to let go of the falsehood to go to the Light. 

Siddhananda: It's a tough cookie, this one, not wanting to really fully let go. There's definitely a shift in energy.

G: It's faith that makes you whole, you have to be willing to move from doubt to faith. 

Walking the Path of Light

Siddhananda: (Showing a small purple stone) We'll go with this one. (pause) [i'm hearing] "How can I prepare for the Path of Light? How do I prepare to walk it right?"

G: Well, the way to prepare to walk it well is just to begin to walk it. (smiling). Know that it's going to take a lot of hardship, and you're going to have to continue forward once you begin. That's the best thing. Do not expect everything to be easy, it's not going to be easy. But, we have to have faith in that Absolute, and that God within the absolute center of your being will pull you through.

Siddhananda: hmm hmm. Yeah, and i think that's why he's asking too, because this energy feels like that would be a commitment for ever and he/she wants to make sure that once they start they don't want to turn around.

G: Yeah, right. 

Siddhananda: Let's see if there's anything else. (pause). Do they wear the clothes of an ordinary man or the clothes of a sanyasi?

G: That doesn't make any difference. Clothing is an outward thing, it doesn't make any difference. Sometimes, they wear that clothing in sannyas just to keep in mind where they're headed and what they're to do. But, other than that, it doesn't make any difference. 

Siddhananda: Okay, they're showing a heart in gratitude with hands (gesturing namaste). So, thank you so much.

G: (gesturing namaste).

Siddhananda: They are requesting whatever mantras or practices you feel are best for them right now.

G: (pause). The 'Om That I Am' and the 'I Am That I Am' to begin with, and if they really get ready to move forward then they can come back and request the COS. 

Siddhananda: (smiling) Thank you. (putting the stone aside). That's a good one, simple but good question.

Spirit Brings Freshness

Siddhananda: (showing a milky, greenish stone) I like these green ones. They're all so pretty sitting there. They're just so clear, kind of.

G: It's like a little green pond.

Siddhananda: Yeah, it is ... with a little moss on there.

G: ... or, like a mossy drop of water (laughing with a smile).

Siddhananda: Yeah, totally. Okay, there it is, and it's got a little bit of green light emerging. There's some figure emerging. So, I'm just kind of watching it and waiting to see what they may have to say. They have a message. They are as grace ... a graceful spirit ... fragrant.

G: What is our message today?

Spirit: Spirit cleanses continually. Spirit brings freshness always. It's always that way. It doesn't matter whatever state a soul is in, that's always there underlying, or coming more forward ...

Siddhananda: I do see the waters running.

Spirit: Don't ever lose faith.

G: Right. It's always available, always present. Like I say, it can wash away those sins, and cleanse, ... and be cleansed. That is possible. One just has to open themselves up to that and allow it to happen, and give the permission for that to take place. You have to be willing to let go and be healed. It's not that the universe does not want to heal you. For whatever reason, you know, you have to be willing to let go of it first so that that can be swept away, and washed away.

Siddhananda: Yeah, that's the whole thing with free will, you know?

G: Exactly. Free will is a bugger (chuckling a bit and smiling).

Siddhananda: It is. It's a good thing, and it's got its toughies, too, because you do have that free will to always open, but you've got the free will to hold.

G: I don't think people understand that. They think ... but, I don't want to be in this ... but they are fearful. So, yeah, that fear is that they are not totally open. They are stifling it and closing it down from taking place.

Siddhananda: Sure, that's where the fear comes from. It's not the opening part. It's just that they have it backwards, you know?

G: That's why I say, fear not. There's nothing to fear. Fear not. You have to let go of that fear.

Siddhananda: ... and to know, too, that the universe has your best interest at heart ... always.

G: Exactly ... and, then, be open to that. You know, I like that one [stone] ... it's kind of like a little droplet of water. It's got that green and that green gives the oxygen and the energy. It reminds me of Hawaii ... very lush, and green (fanning her hands around as if a fresh breeze is gently circulating about) ... and a very wonderful, magical place. If you really go in there with that openness, it can work miracles, one can say.

Siddhananda: That's it. They are just there, this gentle energy, to say that. So, that was a really nice, refreshing energy.

G: Do they want to be at the healing center?

Siddhananda: (breaking out with laughter and a big smile) Yes, they're quite fine with that. So, they're all in the amethyst cave.

G: Yeah, I can see this one at the healing center, just like a waterfall that you can just sit under and open to.

Siddhananda: Totally. Refreshment!

G: ... and you just absolutely let that totally come over your being and open your heart ... and just totally let it wash over you (moving her hands over head, down the front of her body and back over again).

Siddhananda: That's it. That's the thing ... just surrender and relax into that.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: You know, it's not always easy, but it will change.

G: It will change!

Siddhananda: Just keep going.

G: It's always darkest just before the dawn. Just realize that you've just got to hold out just a little longer ... and a little longer ... and it will break. So, don't lose heart.

Siddhananda: Keep going ... it could be around the next corner. This is the way the universe works. It's there. It's inherent in it, so just keep on.

G: Exactly. Just before the dawn, it's SO dark! You think that sun is NEVER gonna come (throwing her head back with a chuckle and a smile).

Siddhananda: Seems like you've got a few dark before the dawns on this journey ... at least for me, man (grimacing slightly). Not just one.