Dancing

Siddhananda: (Showing a small yellow stone). (pause with closed eyes). Okay, i am seeing an image of some stirring (gesturing with hand).

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: They're not upset, though. i'm just trying to see what that's about.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: They want to dance, too. (laughing) (referring to previous spirit that wanted to be outward and play like Krishna).

G: (laughing).

Siddhananda: They want to go and join that flute music (laughing). Over the pastures and the whole bit!

G: (laughing). 

Siddhananda: i can see them saying like "i wanna dance too!"

G: Well, there's no reason why you can't dance. (laughing). Nobody is stopping you from dancing. You can dance anytime you want. 

Siddhananda: Can they join that other energy?

G: Absolutely. 

Siddhananda: Thank you. They're on their way. (laughing).

G: They're on their way! That was quick. (laughing). 

Siddhananda: i don't think they came in for that, but they liked that.

G: They liked that and that will work. So, go enjoy and play for a while. 

Siddhananda: i can see them both frolicking over the hills now. So, it's all quite well there.

G: (laughing). 

Siddhananda: That took care of that. Maybe, they came in with something else, but [that took care of that].

G: Yeah. They were at the right place at the right time. So, that was good. 

Siddhananda: They all might want to go, i don't know. (laughing).

G: Yeah, you can pick as many lifetimes and experiences as you want. Not a problem.

Siddhananda: Yeah. It's your choice.

G: It's your choice. You have absolutely free will. You can go on any path you want and change..

Siddhananda: It's up to you. It's like a state of consciousness.

G: Right. It's all just different experiences, so, you learn from all the experiences. 

Siddhananda: hmm hmm.

Picking up other's energy

Siddhananda: (Showing a small grey stone) Here's another little smoky one. (pause). Overall, i feel some light there. What i'm hearing from them is "frantic energy". i asked "do you have frantic energy?" and they said "no, my home people."

G: Who does?

Siddhananda: Their home people.

G: Oh, their home people. 

Siddhananda: Their homies, no, their home people. (laughing).

G: Yeah, their homies. (laughing). So, what is the problem?

Siddhananda: They're feeling it. They're feeling the frantic-ness. i guess they are a sensitive kind of thing. (pause). And now i am seeing a little bit of red energy because i think they are feeling the un-settledness of their home people.

G: Yeah. Well, their home people are responsible for their own stuff (smiling). 

Siddhananda: (laughing).

G: It's got to come to his realization that he can only change his stuff, he cannot change anybody else's stuff. They have to do it themselves. It's not his responsibility.

Siddhananda: He was wanting two things, some good energy to go to his home people, and the other one [was] if he could be not so sensitive to picking up all their vibes.

G: Yeah, he needs to continue to do his own meditation, the 'I Am That I Am' and the 'Om That I Am', and realize that their stuff is their stuff. He doesn't need to take it on. 

Siddhananda: (nodding).

G: But, they have to be open to receiving. If they are not open to receiving, there's nothing anyone can do. They have free will. They have the free will to block it. 

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And they have to learn their own lessons. Maybe they'll learn their lesson the hard way. 

Siddhananda: Right, yeah. Exactly. And that's just life, what can we say.

G: It's just life, we cannot interfere in that. They have the right to make their choices. 

Siddhananda: It's interesting with this energy. i don't see the color red very often, but, this [energy] is red.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: i feel that energy red, and on the other side of it i do feel a little bit of that redness linked up with their home people or another energy. So, they're linking up somehow, and they don't need to do that.

G: No, they don't need to do that. Just because they are in that environment does not mean they have to take it on. 

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: They can stay within themselves and do their own path. 

Siddhananda: Boy, it's a really multilayered color. Lot of layers and different things. i do see some light, though, come in as you were speaking and i think with these [mantras] you have them, the "I Am That I Am" and the "Om That I Am", they can do that and that will help to break that energetic thing they've got going.

G: Yeah. He can also do just the OM, the sound of the Universe, do that and keep that present. 

Siddhananda: (pause). Boy, it's a really interesting thing in there. Anyway, good luck. (smiling). (Hand on heart).

G: Yeah, unfortunately, they have like that homie gang situation where they amp each other up, get in that angry frenetic thing. Unfortunately, there is no way to break through, they have to learn their lesson the hard way.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: If they're not wanting to get help, you can't impose it. 

Siddhananda: Well, that's what i felt that the frantic energy was more due to the choices that the home people were making, maybe doing some things that were not so good.

G: Right. It's a lot of anger, it's a lot of that stuff that they just get caught in. 

Siddhananda: Must be a lot of desires and chasing, because that red energy is a primal color.

G: Yeah, very primal.

Siddhananda: Base colors. Anyway, that's not what i always see, but, that was a very blood red thing. At least they have some tools now.

Free-Will

Siddhananda: So, here is the next one (showing a small dark stone). (pause). Okay, their question or what they're asking is "I like to make my life good."

G: Their life, what?

Siddhananda: They would like to make their life good.

G: Okay. So, what's preventing them from doing that?

Siddhananda: (pause). They feel like they made their life bad. (smiling).

G: hmm hmm. Yeah, they can change it whenever they want. They just have to make different choices than what they made, that's all.

Siddhananda: Yeah, they say they behaved wrong in the past.

G: Right. So, they change that. That's what's called repenting. You repent and you change the direction, that's all. You just be willing to take a different road. Don't keep going down and keep making the same choices. 

Siddhananda: Right before you said "road", i saw like how you have the fork in the road, two roads being presented..

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And they have a choice. And it's free will to walk one or the other.

G: Exactly. Nobody can force you to be good, that is your choice. Just because you've made wrong choices in the past doesn't mean you cannot turn over a new leaf and make a different choice.

Siddhananda: (nodding). (pause). Okay, they're understanding what you said, but, they feel like they might have an evil seed in them.

G: That they have a what?

Siddhananda: That maybe they have an evil seed in them.

G: No, there's no evil seed. That's only in their mind. They're holding to that, and they're creating that in themselves. But, there is no such thing as an evil seed in there. The only seed in there is that point of God (pointing to heart center) that gives them life. So, how is that evil? (smiling).

Siddhananda: (pause). They just felt like maybe sometimes they did things that were bad even though they did not want to, like something else was causing them to do that.

G: Aha. Well, nothing causes you to. Even if you had what's called the demonic there, it's free will. You make your own free will choices. So, we'll ask Christ to come in, and if there's anything there that's dark clinging there, he'll get rid of it immediately. 

Siddhananda: (pause). Yeah, i did see a circle of darkness, and it's funny because this stone is like a circle of darkness (showing the stone again).

G: Oh, yeah.

Siddhananda: So, i see a circle of darkness with Christ imagery there. It is being cleansed, pretty quickly.

G: Yeah. 

Siddhananda: Pretty quickly, because i think it was more like a seed, as they were saying. i don't think it was a real big evil thing, i think it was just things that he did, like regular stuff.

G: Yeah, i didn't feel like it was a huge demonic or anything like that. i think it's just his choices and he's justifying his choices by saying "i couldn't help it, there was something there!" No, no, no (laughing). 

Siddhananda: Yeah, right. (laughing). And i think it was just some regular stuff that he may have done that isn't so good, but, not something big.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: Christ is there and that imagery of the two roads with the fork is still there for him. So, i wonder if we should put him back by the healing center for a little while.

G: Yeah, we can put him by the healing center for a little while, but, that should clear up pretty quickly. 

Siddhananda: i think so, too. i don't think he was a big bad man or anything.

G: i don't think it was anything major. i think he just talked himself into it, that "i must have this spirit that's making me do this!" (laughing).

Siddhananda: (laughing). Instead of "hey, let me give myself a wake up call and stop doing this."

G: Yeah, it's what the devil made me do. (laughing). No, the devil didn't make you do anything. It's the devil ego.

Siddhananda: He got a thought in there and just ran with it. That's what he did.

G: Yeah, that's it. 

Siddhananda: You're not going to get away by saying you can't help it, because you can help it!

G: Because you can. It was a choice you made, so you need to make other choices. 

Siddhananda: If it were true that you couldn't help it, then there won't be free will.

G: Exactly. The fact that there' free will.. (smiling).

Siddhananda: We're not buying it (smiling).

Open Yourself

Siddhananda: I'm just going to put out there what words I'm getting and we'll open up from there.

G: hmm hmm

Siddhananda: I'm getting, "timeless" ... (pause) ... again, "scented fragrance ... building ... love ... life.”

G: hmm hmm

Siddhananda: So, what are you here for? I can't tell if it's, “help others," or “help herself” fully yet ... both, maybe.

Spirit: Knowing that if I help myself, [then] I can help others.

G: (nodding) Yes.

Spirit: This is what I understand.

Siddhananda: I guess, maybe she's tried to help ... she or he, sounds more like she. She's tried to help herself too much by herself …

G: hmm

Siddhananda: ... and needing, maybe, you know, her own teacher ... again, and just needing something more than that.

G: Yeah ... since you're there, just open the door, and ask from the heart for the best teacher for you in this present time. I'm sure there's somebody there on the other side that can aid you. Just open yourself to that. If you open yourself and you ask for the teacher, the teacher will come.

Siddhananda: She's feeling now, since you said that, that she's more aware that there are teachers around. I don't know, just an interesting thing ... like that helped her to become aware of that, and opened her heart, ... and feeling like, maybe, that it was the [lack of] openness that did not allow. She wasn't as …

G: Right, you have to ask, and you have to be open. They're not going to impose themselves upon you. Whether you're on this planet, or you're in the other world - it doesn't matter which plane of existence you're in - you have to be open to having that teacher, and you have to ask for that. When you ask for that and you open yourself, then the teacher will be there. They will come.

Siddhananda: You know, she just got that now ... that being her own teacher, and not opening to that, keeps that away.

G: Exactly. You closed the door to it yourself, yeah.

Siddhananda: She didn't realize that till now. She said “it wasn't her fault, right?”

G: No, it's not her fault. Like I said, it comes out of that ignorance ... that you just don't know. Everything is a learning process. So, now that you know, now you can open yourself, and say, "please universe, send me the teacher that would best serve me."

Siddhananda: She's saying she is feeling more richness. That’s there on wherever her realm [is] ... feeling some of the teachers that have come through ... some of that Sufi energy, but not just that. She'll wait, because she doesn't know what's right in that. She's starting to feel the energies that are around that are very beautiful, and just right. She'll just kind of sit with that.

G: Yeah.. and that's all you have to do.. is ask for the right teacher and for the right thing for your growth and they'll show up (smiling)..

Spirit: Thank you so much.

G: OK, namaste (gesturing namaste).

When the student is ready, the teacher will come (smiling)

Siddhananda: (laughing) you gotta be ready, right?

G: You gotta be ready.

Siddhananda: That's the part ... receptive.

G: You have to be ready. You have to be receptive and be open to that, and if you’re not ... . This is what some of the masters from the other side were saying, you know, ... it's just like here. When you pass, and you leave your form, you're still in the same drama you were in when you were here. You have to open, and you have to ask for that.

Siddhananda: It's no different than here.

G: It's no different ... just because you pass on to the other side doesn't mean something's gonna impose itself on you. You have free will..

Siddhananda: It's amazing how many people think it's big heavenly and it's this burst ... but, it's not. It's really very similar to here.

G: Yeah.. very similar.

Siddhananda: Just so interesting.

G: Yeah ... when people leave here, and they’re in that bunch of drama and stuff, they create a hell realm for themselves ... and it's not that God's putting you in a hell realm. The fact [is], you have free will. You're free to create that if you want, and remain in that hell realm.

Siddhananda: Right, always, if you chose, you know ... for however long you chose to be in it ... [also] you can come out of it at any time.

G: Exactly

Siddhananda: And, that's the thing.

G: Open the door.

Siddhananda: Right.

Spirit Brings Freshness

Siddhananda: (showing a milky, greenish stone) I like these green ones. They're all so pretty sitting there. They're just so clear, kind of.

G: It's like a little green pond.

Siddhananda: Yeah, it is ... with a little moss on there.

G: ... or, like a mossy drop of water (laughing with a smile).

Siddhananda: Yeah, totally. Okay, there it is, and it's got a little bit of green light emerging. There's some figure emerging. So, I'm just kind of watching it and waiting to see what they may have to say. They have a message. They are as grace ... a graceful spirit ... fragrant.

G: What is our message today?

Spirit: Spirit cleanses continually. Spirit brings freshness always. It's always that way. It doesn't matter whatever state a soul is in, that's always there underlying, or coming more forward ...

Siddhananda: I do see the waters running.

Spirit: Don't ever lose faith.

G: Right. It's always available, always present. Like I say, it can wash away those sins, and cleanse, ... and be cleansed. That is possible. One just has to open themselves up to that and allow it to happen, and give the permission for that to take place. You have to be willing to let go and be healed. It's not that the universe does not want to heal you. For whatever reason, you know, you have to be willing to let go of it first so that that can be swept away, and washed away.

Siddhananda: Yeah, that's the whole thing with free will, you know?

G: Exactly. Free will is a bugger (chuckling a bit and smiling).

Siddhananda: It is. It's a good thing, and it's got its toughies, too, because you do have that free will to always open, but you've got the free will to hold.

G: I don't think people understand that. They think ... but, I don't want to be in this ... but they are fearful. So, yeah, that fear is that they are not totally open. They are stifling it and closing it down from taking place.

Siddhananda: Sure, that's where the fear comes from. It's not the opening part. It's just that they have it backwards, you know?

G: That's why I say, fear not. There's nothing to fear. Fear not. You have to let go of that fear.

Siddhananda: ... and to know, too, that the universe has your best interest at heart ... always.

G: Exactly ... and, then, be open to that. You know, I like that one [stone] ... it's kind of like a little droplet of water. It's got that green and that green gives the oxygen and the energy. It reminds me of Hawaii ... very lush, and green (fanning her hands around as if a fresh breeze is gently circulating about) ... and a very wonderful, magical place. If you really go in there with that openness, it can work miracles, one can say.

Siddhananda: That's it. They are just there, this gentle energy, to say that. So, that was a really nice, refreshing energy.

G: Do they want to be at the healing center?

Siddhananda: (breaking out with laughter and a big smile) Yes, they're quite fine with that. So, they're all in the amethyst cave.

G: Yeah, I can see this one at the healing center, just like a waterfall that you can just sit under and open to.

Siddhananda: Totally. Refreshment!

G: ... and you just absolutely let that totally come over your being and open your heart ... and just totally let it wash over you (moving her hands over head, down the front of her body and back over again).

Siddhananda: That's it. That's the thing ... just surrender and relax into that.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: You know, it's not always easy, but it will change.

G: It will change!

Siddhananda: Just keep going.

G: It's always darkest just before the dawn. Just realize that you've just got to hold out just a little longer ... and a little longer ... and it will break. So, don't lose heart.

Siddhananda: Keep going ... it could be around the next corner. This is the way the universe works. It's there. It's inherent in it, so just keep on.

G: Exactly. Just before the dawn, it's SO dark! You think that sun is NEVER gonna come (throwing her head back with a chuckle and a smile).

Siddhananda: Seems like you've got a few dark before the dawns on this journey ... at least for me, man (grimacing slightly). Not just one.