Love and Forgiveness

Siddhananda: This one is so pretty and different, too! (showing a small blue colored stone).

G: Aha. A little blue laced agate.

Siddhananda: See how thin it is? (showing the stone edge on to the camera)

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: It's very thin. Really pretty.

G: It would be a good one for skipping (moves arm and hand in way as if to skip something along the water)

Siddhananda: It would, it would.

G: Yes.

Siddhananda: Because it's smooth.

G: Flat, flat surface.

Siddhananda: Look at the little striations or lines in there.

G: Yes, so pretty. I like blue, blue laced agates, it's very pretty.

Siddhananda: That's just nice.

G: Very soft color.

Siddhananda: Blue laced, that makes sense for that.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: Lace! Okay (pause with closed eyes) So, there it is, sitting (pause) i'm seeing some light coming from underneath it, nice so far, but no one can say.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: Okay. So, do you have question or message today? (long pause) Okay, i guess it's not so good.

G: Oh oh.

Siddhananda: They are saying they're in a kind of a doomed place.

G: Okay. You're in a doomed place.

Siddhananda: Though, it didn't look real black. There was some light in this imagery.

G: So, why are they doomed? What has happened?

Siddhananda: "Because i was imprisoned." Again, another kind of imprisoned and it feels like a darker ages thing where people wore like armor and stuff.

G: Yeah, like in one of those dungeons where they are shackled and stuff.

Siddhananda: Like all those horrors they did to people.

G: Right, right.

Siddhananda: I'm just seeing someone in armor that's guarding their cell there.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: And, then in their cell, all i see is darkness. i don't know if they'll take me in there or not.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Right now, that's what i'm seeing and i'm hearing they were like a shackling.

G: Right, you feel it in the wall (gesturing with hands over the head as if shackled to a wall).

Siddhananda: Right.

G: Shackled and just, yeah.

Siddhananda: Left to starve.

G: Yeah..

Siddhananda: ..or however that works and they were beaten, wow.

G: Yeah, a lot of times back then, they where beaten, tortured..

Siddhananda: Yeah, poor things.

G: ..to say things that were not true.

Siddhananda: Yeah, that's the thing.

G: To just stop pain, they would say it, yeah.

Siddhananda: i don't know what they did.

G: There was a lot of really horrid tortures and things back then.

Siddhananda: Yeah, but, here's this rock with some light and then i see this image beside it.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: So, it's not like..

G: It's not so engulfed in by it.

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly, and yet it's still there, but, there is some link or thread or something there.

G: Aha. So, why did this take place? Let's look as why it took place.

Siddhananda: You want to know more why that happened to them?

G: Yeah, so that we can give them something to go forward with.

Siddhananda: Okay, let's see what happened to cause this. (pause) Okay, i'm seeing some aggression happening and fighting.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: The one has a suit of armor, the other, i can't quite tell. So, let's see if they did something against the law or.. What did you do? (pause) Okay, they say they didn't do anything.

G: Why did they put you in there? What did they say?

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: the reason you're there?

Siddhananda: I do see a scroll, of sorts.

G: A scroll.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and a pen in their hand, like you where saying.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: ..to take their land or take their home or destroy something they've had to sign and then from there they weren't honest in their thing and they just took them.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Something about their land being taken, is all i'm feeling.

G: They wouldn't say it, so they..

Siddhananda: Well, i think they may have signed, they did sign, but, what they didn't honor what they said that set them free. They took them anyway.

G: Aha, right.

Siddhananda: And they took the land too. They did the whole thing.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: They just weren't being honest.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: They're saying "no honesty". So, they were left there.

G: Left there to die.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Can't tell if they were male. I think they were male.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: So, they're still linked up with this darker time. Let me ask why they're still linked up.

G: Yeah, why are you staying there?

Siddhananda: (pause) They are floating, like someone holding a helium balloon. (has hand out as if holding something).

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: And it's floating there. It's like they're holding that still. They could just set it free. (pause) Okay, they're holding it because they desire to change that, in the way of not having these horrors come again like that.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: So, yeah.

G: So, the best way to do that is to let go of that experience and be willing to come back into form, back into manifestation to begin to work for those kind of rights, for peoples rights. But, you got to let go of that experience so that you can move forward.

Spirit: What about those people that died that way?

G: They'll all get an opportunity to go forward.

Siddhananda: (pause) They're severely still hurting for that situation.

G: Yeah, not a fun experience.

Siddhananda: Yeah, they're torn to bits with it.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: But, i still see some light there. i think it's more of just that replaying.

G: Yeah. So, i would say for this one is to have Christ and Mary come to them..

Siddhananda: I'll ask of that.

G: ..and give them some peace and let them know that the objects are not it. And while that was a horrid thing to happen, one has to have forgiveness and go forward, be willing to go forward. 

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay. So, they are looking up as this angel of Mary and Christ come in. Angel light, really!

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: And, more than that. Just light, but, they are looking more angelic (pause) Wow (laughing) i'm just always floored by the imagery and it's always different and this one is more arms up and i just have to say wings and and this (has hands over the head region) as if there was a center of light that came out (moving both hands from the head down through the center of the body).

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: Brilliant in that way. Just brilliant! And they are turning to look, almost like they're in their own world or their own planet and looking at that floating there.

G: Yeah, i think that Christ and Mary are just (pause) wanting to present that in the way the other could best accept it.

Siddhananda: Sure. Makes sense. Because sometimes it's more dulled down, but, man sometimes it is like gold.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Brilliance, and better than that. (pause) So, they're growing big above that image, especially Mary, i feel. She is above it and she is scooping it up, like this (gesturing with arms as if holding something).

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: She's scooping it up, just like a mother, to love that.

G: Yeah, to love it.

Siddhananda: That spirit.

G: Take away some of that pain, yeah.

Siddhananda: Before it gets to getting the slamming, because you got to get to a place where you can open.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And that's what it feels like, she's just nurturing with the most pure love and like it would be her own child.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: It's very sweet and tender. So, that spirit has been held that way, which isn't a bad way to be held. So, and then she's going to send it forward from there.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: I think they're good.

G: Okay, that you for coming. (gesturing namaste)

Siddhananda: (hand on heart) Yeah. Nurture it up, raise it up a little and send it on it's way, then it will be ready to bloom.

G: Exactly.

Bag of Gold

Siddhananda: Okay, so next! We’ve got the same one that kind of has that little (showing a rock)…

G: Yes, that little, yes…

Siddhananda: …the little thingy in the center. It’s a cute rock! Okay. (pause) Okay, I’m hearing immediately, “What have I done to deserve this?” (laughing) Let’s see. Oh no, what have you done?

G: Deserving what?

Siddhananda: Yeah, maybe that’s it. He doesn’t know what he’s done. So, yeah, deserving what? (pause)

Spirit: I’m not happy.

Siddhananda: I said what’s going on with you? What’s your situation? He said, “I’m not happy?” He/she…

G: Uh huh. But, why are they not happy.

Siddhananda: I’m hearing him say, “Those bastards! Those bastards!”

G: Well, that could be why he’s not happy.

Siddhananda: (laughing) I’m seeing people racing after him with clubs, so I don’t know what happened.

G: With clubs, huh? Okay.

Siddhananda: Yikes! He’s holding something. He’s running.

G: What’s he holding?

Siddhananda: Looks like a bag. Let’s see if he stole something.

G: A bag of what?

Siddhananda: He said he stole something that belonged to him and he got it back.

G: Uh huh. And that’s what killed him?

Siddhananda: They stole it from him and he went to get it back. Something of value, I don’t know, in that bag. I don’t know. 


G: And he’s still dragging it?

Siddhananda: (laughing) The bag you mean?

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: He is. Some kind of jewelry. And so it’s shiny and he’s like, “Ooh, but I got it.” Let’ see. So what do you need from us? (pause) He wants to get back there to clear his name, to make himself… because people thought he stole or he was bad or something. He died…

G: I hate to be the bearer of bad tidings, but does he not see that he’s not in form anymore and all of that is passed away? (laughing)

Siddhananda: Yeah, because I just see him alone and kind of floating with this bag.

G: Yeah, does he not see that he’s already left the body, so where is he going to go back to and convince who? Nine out of 10, the people that he was with, they are all passed as well. They have all died and moved on. Who is he going to go back and tell?

Siddhananda: (laughing) Because it sounds like it was way back, they had clubs and all that back then. Torches, I don’t know. It was a while ago.

G: Right, so where in the heck is he going to go back to?

Siddhananda: I don’t know. He doesn’t know. That’s what I mean. They hold on to this stuff. He wants to go back to that land. He wants to go back to that time and right the scales. That’s how he will right those scales is that way.

G: Yeah, well, you can’t go back in time. It moves forward. There is no going back in time. (laughing) There is no time machine. You cannot go back in time and everybody you knew then has all died and moved forward.

Siddhananda: Another bubble burster, huh? Can’t go back. (laughing)

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: He’s like maybe they have passed, but I could relive it. I could relive it. I could do that.

G: Well, he has been reliving it, for how many eons?

Siddhananda: Yeah, that’s right.

G: What does he think he has been doing? He’s reliving it for how many eons? Isn’t he ready to let go of that and move forward?

Siddhananda: He said to me, “What is she talking about like that? Why is she talking that way? I’m going to go back.”

G: It’s because it’s the truth of the matter, that’s why I am talking like that. There’s no way you can go back. You can’t go back in time. Impossible.

Siddhananda: Don’t people have those powers, he’s wondering.

G: No. It’s not going to do you any good to go back in time. You can only go forward.

Siddhananda: Can he find them in his next life and take care of this whole thing?

G: What are you going to take care of? You go into your next life and you just live it in a genuine manner. That’s it.

Siddhananda: He’s settling down a little. It’s like bursting his bubble a bit.

G: Yeah, well, that’s the truth of it. If he wants to go in, he can go back into another form. He can go back into another corporeal form. That’s not the problem.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: But he’s stuck in time. He’s stuck on an event. Yeah, so he can get a chance to right scales in some manner. But not exactly like what he was thinking he would go back and it was going to be exactly the same situation.

Siddhananda: Yeah, I asked if he was hearing what you are saying. He’s like, “I am. I am. I’m just being dumb, aren’t I? I’m stupid.” He’s saying, I guess.

G: It’s not stupid. You just got to learn and be willing to move forward. You’re keeping yourself stuck and keeping yourself miserable and trying to hang on to something that is no longer even there.

Siddhananda: I’m seeing more light come in. It’s calmer. It’s more like a giving up feeling of that sort of thing. A good giving up.

G: Exactly. You get a chance to come back and the scales will be righted in some manner. But you can’t go back into time and force something that absolutely can’t take place. The universe is going to right it in some manner, but you got to be willing to go forward.

Siddhananda: Yeah, he’s handing me a piece of jewelry from his bag and saying, “Can I give this to you?”

G: Well, thank you for that.

Siddhananda: Because he’s grateful. He feels more relaxed. He feels more like he just can kind of sit there a while.

G: Yeah, he can sit there a while and then be ready to go back into existence, back into another corporeal body. And the universe will give it a chance to be righted in some manner. But, he’s got to let the universe work it out in the way it’s going to work out. We can’t direct how it’s going to work out.

Siddhananda: Yeah, I see it is a full moon or something. I think his image, he was holding that on his shoulders. He’s saying, “I was holding all that up. That’s not mine to do anymore, to try to rectify what needs to be rectified and change what should be changed. That’s not mine to carry.”

G: Right, it’s not yours to carry anymore. The universe will help. It will bring a chance for things to be righted. But in order to do that, you have to be willing to go back into corporeal form and yes, you reincarnate with a lot of the same energies and people and there will be a chance to have it righted.

Siddhananda: So he’s grateful. He’s still got his jewelry pieces there. He wants to just throw them out. He wants to throw that jewelry out in a way and let go of that.

G: Yeah, it’s time to let go of that and move forward.

Siddhananda: So, he’s throwing that out into the cosmos. It looks like it was gold. He’s been carrying it a long time.

G: It’s heavy.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Gold is beautiful, but it can be very heavy to be lugging that around.

Siddhananda: He’s dumping all out into the cosmos. So it’s sparkling, raining down. He’s lighter feeling. So, he’s grateful. Could he have a practice or the COS or something, too?

G: Yeah, he can have the COS. Absolutely! And the “I Am That I am” and the “Om That I am.”

Siddhananda: He’s very grateful. Thank you so much!

G: And take your time to refresh and then be willing to go back into a corporeal body and continue forward.

Siddhananda: He’s grateful. He feels like a different man without holding to those possessions.

G: Yeah, that stuff is heavy.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And he’s been carrying around that anger and that angst for so long. It’s time to let go of it.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And be free of it.

Siddhananda: Yeah, so he’s very grateful. So that’s good. It’s definitely better.

G: Yeah. Absolutely! Namaste.

Siddhananda: Namaste.

Go Forward to the Light

G: Next. (Showing a small white transparent stone).

Siddhananda: Is that a regular rock?

G: (Placing the rock closer to the camera).

Siddhananda: Okay. i see it now. Perfect.

G: Yeah. 

Siddhananda: Nice clear one (smiling).

G: Nice clear one, yeah. 

Siddhananda: Let's look into that clarity and see what's there. (pause). Okay, i see some dark imagery. They are from the [Mayan] ruins area.

G: Okay. 

Siddhananda: (pause) i asked and they were not involved in the sacrifices, but, they did have a lot of violence towards them.

G: hmm hmm. It was a very violent society. 

Siddhananda: (pause). Okay, they were killed as an offering (grimacing).

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: Yeah, i see someone laying on a board and they are slashed up and bloody.

G: Yeah. So, are they ready to move forward? There is an opening and a Light if they open, they will see others that came before them, relatives and other people, and a Light that they can go into, to go to the other side. They don't need to stay there. 

Siddhananda: (pause). i'm still seeing an image of that body that was killed and sliced. It's still a full body but there's blood dripping from it.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: Looks like it was a woman. (pause). They just are there mourning that. They're there on their knees and they're like this (gesturing praying hands).

G: Right. And there's nothing to mourn. That body is gone. If she looks then she can see that she's still aware of who she is. It has nothing to do with that body. She is now free of that body. Being free of the body, she can now soar, she can fly, she can go to the heavenlies.

Siddhananda: (pause). Okay, i see some black flames at the bottom of a curved thing, but above it, it becomes lighter and there's more of a lighter feeling (gesturing with hands).

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: It's an interesting image. It sounds like things are burning for her.

G: Right. Things are burning for her. We're gonna have her go ahead and look. If she looks she can see a nice Light. Can she see the Light? 

Siddhananda: (pause).

G: Let's ask some guides and masters that have worked with her before to come forward and help pull her through to the Light.

Siddhananda: That have worked with her before?

G: Yes, someone that has worked with her before, that has got a connection with her on the other side. 

Siddhananda: Okay. i just said someone with a good-hearted nature that loves her, if they could come to help her.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: There is a hand reaching out. She is in that burning. It's hard for them to get in through that burning.

G: Why does she wish to be in that burning? There is no need for it. Why is she doing that to herself?

Siddhananda: (pause). She doesn't know. She just is really in pain.

G: hmm hmm. Let's do the COS mantra. 

Siddhananda: (pause). i'm not even hearing [the mantra], it showed up and disappeared. She's pushing things away. She's just in a lot of purgatory feeling of her pain.

G: Exactly. She's got herself stuck there, and she doesn't have to be there. She can be released and be free of that pain. But, she has to allow herself to be freed of it. There's nothing that she's done that should keep her where she's at. 

Siddhananda: i guess she has taken on so much, she's worried about what her family may have gone through, other people doing these things...

G: Right. If she lets go of that, she'll find that her family has moved on, that others have moved on, but she's just stuck there. She kept herself stuck there and she doesn't have to. She can move forward. 

Siddhananda: Okay, i do see a little more lightness coming underneath that [curve] in which she's got herself burning. Maybe, even some flowers emerging from that. She is hearing some of what you're saying there.

G: Right. We want to see her be blessed. She's gone through a lot that there was no reason for her to have to go through. She needs to see now that life is eternal. And it can be better, but she needs to be willing to go forward and leave that situation behind. That was a brief happening in history, that's all.

Siddhananda: Okay, there's a lot more lightness i felt flowing into my heart immediately, which is nice. It's feeling a lot lighter. So, she broke through something. i really feel a Light in my heart now, some sparkling lights and things. Okay, she's open to the COS.

G: She is open to the COS?

Siddhananda: Yes, she is open to it now.

G: Okay, let her go and have the COS. May she have the COS now and then be open to having the other side pull her through into a realm of Light. 

Siddhananda: Yeah, she has a guardian angel there, her guide that was there through her life as an angel that was watching her.

G: Yeah, exactly.

Siddhananda: That same angel, guardian of her spirit, is there. They're there and they're trying to offer her flowers like [saying] "Welcome, come in. Come home. Come to the Light," like that welcoming feeling. She has the COS and she is opening. i am seeing a beginning to opening towards that. It's sounding better, much much better. Maybe, we'll just let her go forward then.

G: Excellent! We'll go ahead and let them work with her and we'll check in again tomorrow. 

Siddhananda: Okay. Sounds good (smiling).

G: Thank you.

Breaking Out of the Shell

 Siddhananda: This one is a small and sweet kind of stone, and it feels like that’s the energy in it. But, now it’s bursting bigger into this Light that’s coming out of it as a way of showing it wants to break out of confinements. I think that’s what it’s saying... desiring that... to break out of anything that’s enclosing that light or keeping it in a container, or an identification.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: I have a picture of more of a child energy and an angel, that that is innocence, and that’s what is maybe holding it back. I just get more images. It’s hard for me to verbalize completely, but it's like an angel that needs to come out of this kind of shell, and that’s what humanity is. I see a dove, like peace. Anyway, some of that is coming through for this energy, but they are also blocked in these confinements… and feels more bhakti to me, feels more heart.

G: Hmm…

Siddhananda: I think they’re saying they feel the Mother thing come up, but they also want to ask how should they address you?

G: Just G (waving hands and laughing).

Spirit: Okay, G.

Siddhananda: And she said, by the saying of this, that this may vibrate out more. So, that name doesn’t come that way as much, although they do know your name is Ganga.

Spirit: So, G (laughing)... how do I fly? How do I fly?

G: Just ask to take birth with parents that will continue to give you the right guidance and the right path, and just continue forward. Ask to be reborn into a family that will put you on the right path and give the continued guidance that you need.

Siddhananda: She’s taking a deep breath, and saying this will kind of take its own course. I don’t have to be the doer and take so much responsibility on myself on how to be right and how to be good, because Grace is something different than that. There's a big relief there. I’m feeling like that was a burden on her shoulders...

Spirit: …a relief (letting go) that I’m going to try to be good and pure.

G: Right. The next thing is to come back into form and continue on that journey. But, ask to be born into the family that will give the best guidance for her journey.

Siddhananda: She’s fine with coming back in form, and is ready with an open heart.. ready to flow with whatever comes with that.

Spirit: Do you suggest anything else, G?

G: No, that’s all I suggest. Just stay in the heart, stay in that love aspect and be willing to come back to complete your journey.

Spirit: Thank you so much... thank you so much (bowing).

G: Thank you, Namaste.