I Am Special

Siddhananda: (closing eyes) Okay, they are saying they are special. They are not like other people.

G: Oh boy, here we go! (laughing)

Siddhananda: (laughing) I’m special! 

G: How special are they?

Siddhananda: Oh gosh. Okay. 

G: Okay, how special are you?

Siddhananda: “I really am special though,” they are saying.

G: Okay. (laughing)

Siddhananda: I can see things that other people can’t see. 

G: Okay, that’s nice for you. (laughing) And?

Spirit: I know things that other people don’t know.

Siddhananda: (laughing) Yeah, right?

G: Okay. And?

Spirit: I am just very, very special. I mean anyone would be blessed to be around me.

G: Okay, so why are you here?

Spirit: To offer wisdom.

G: Oh, okay. What wisdom are you offering, our special one?

Siddhananda: I think they are talking about manifestation. I kind of feel that. “The Secret” (referring to the book) energy, that kind of thing. And they want to let people know about that.

G: Oh, okay. So what special thing do you have to say about that today?

Spirit: That you can manifest what you want in life. You can. Whether it’s a wonderful partner that’s just everything you want, money, good food, healthy, vibrancy, you can do that. You can do that yourself.

G: Yes, and?

Spirit: And that’s what I think people can be doing more of.

G: Okay. And?

Spirit: That that’s what makes me special. I’m good at it. I’m good at it.

G: And so where are you now?

Spirit: Just in my specialness.

Siddhananda: I don’t know. They are out of body. 

G: Right. They are out of body, but where?

Siddhananda: Yeah. (pause) Place of light they think. They think they are in a place of light. But I see them being in their own thing.

G: They are in their own drama, delusion. (circling her finger by her head)

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Yeah, you can create endless realms in your “specialness.” (making quotes with her fingers) And you can be as “special” as long as you want. But, eventually, you are going to find out that that’s not the ultimate thing. You create whatever, but you may find what you want and seek what you find. But, again, that’s not the end all, be all. Eventually, you will leave that specialness and you will find out that those things are transient and you’ll want to know what is God directly. But, until that time, yeah, you may play endless realms, keep creating endless transient stuff. But, eventually, you come to that point that all of that is transient.

Siddhananda: Okay, so let’s see what choice. Would you like to keep doing what you are doing or did you want to go more inward, is what I am asking them.

G: I don’t think they are ready.

Siddhananda: No, they want to keep doing this.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: So, that’s fine. Let them keep doing it.

G: Yeah. Thank you for bringing your specialness and that special message. (laughing)

Siddhananda: If that’s what you want to keep doing, keep doing it. Whatever!

G: Well, that’s exactly the point. You can do that for endless lifetimes.

Siddhananda: Right, yeah.

G: You can go endless realms. You can keep creating. But, eventually you come to see that all of that is illusion.

Siddhananda: Yeah.  

G: And it’s transient.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: It’s transient. But, they can continue to feel special for a long time.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And stay in that loop for quite some time.

Siddhananda: Yeah, it doesn’t bring peace. Boy, it keeps that mind churning…

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: …and that individuality or that feeling of separation churning.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: Me, you and all that going.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: It’s just not good for that reason. But, people, if that’s where they are at, and they want to stay there, then that’s where they are at.

G: Exactly. They can stay there as long, as many eons, as they want to.

Siddhananda: Oh, yeah.

G: And continue to do that. And sometimes, like I said, it takes a very long time for someone like that to finally see through that illusion and get that there is something more.

Siddhananda: And I think more so than those that have that left-handed blessings of suffering.

G: Right. Of suffering.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: They come out of that much quicker.

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly. When you are in that, it’s kind of fairytale-land and you are carried away. But, boy, when you are suffering non-stop, twenty-four seven for lifetimes, you are going to want to do anything it takes.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: It’s a different thing.

G: Then you are ready to get down to brass tacks and let go of all of that.

Siddhananda: That’s right. Exactly. So anyway, there they are off doing their manifesting and all that. So, have fun!

G: In their specialness.

Siddhananda: In their specialness.

G: Because I’m so special.

Siddhananda: You mean, you weren’t convinced? (laughing)

G: No.

Siddhananda: I didn’t think so. I knew it. Okay, I knew it wasn’t going to go anywhere. (laughing)