Remain in the Heart

Siddhananda: (Showing an yellow stone). (pause). Okay, they want to be inside the heart.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: [They want to] find that place with no separation, no division.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: (pause). i'm not getting too much right now.

G: Yeah. For that one, the "Om That I Am", the "I Am That I Am" and the COS, and just remain [with] your consciousness inside the heart, and let those work to expand and just continue to remain there.

Siddhananda: Okay (hand on heart).

G: Yeah. So, we will leave you with that practice. Namaste (hand on heart).

Siddhananda: Namaste.

Path of Light

Siddhananda: (Showing a small blue stone). Another pretty color.

G: hmm hmm. Blue lace agate.

Siddhananda: Oh, is that what that's called?

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: Nice! (pause). Okay, they're interested in the path of Light.

G: Okay. 

Siddhananda: (pause). They just want to take something that's beneficial for that with them.

G: Okay, they can do the COS. 

Siddhananda: Okay. That's being transmitted. (hand on heart).

G: Okay. Namaste (hand on heart).

What is this I

Siddhananda: (Showing a small green stone). (pause). Okay, [they're saying] "i desire to know myself beyond my form and my mind."

G: hmm hmm. Okay.

Siddhananda: (pause). They just watched. They're trying to be a witness more of things.

G: hmm hmm. They can start to question what is this i and see what it is. 

Siddhananda: (pause).

G: You can do the "I Am That I Am" and the "Om That I Am", and sit in contemplation of what is this i, and see what it's not.

Siddhananda: (pause). Okay, they're asking "and just be still with that?"

G: Be still with that. (nodding).

Siddhananda: Okay. i see that dropping like a drop into their consciousness.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: [They're] taking that in, "what is this i", so (hand on heart).

G: Okay. So, thank you for that. Namaste (hand on heart). 

Light beyond lights

Siddhananda: We've got some cute stones here.

G: Oh, yeah.

Siddhananda: That's cute, (showing a small stone), it's got a little stripe and then see the little end. It's just a cute pattern on there.

G: hmm hmm. (smiling).

Siddhananda: (pause). Okay, they are not of this world, they're from a different place [that's] more of light.

G: Okay. Another realm.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: A light realm.

Siddhananda: hmm hmm. (pause).

Spirit: i drink in light, i am light, i bask in light, i live light.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, they just want to keep going into Truth.

G: hmm hmm. So, they can open themselves up to the Light beyond lights. There is a step beyond where they're at. There is a Light beyond lights. And if they are willing to open themselves totally to that, they can experience that Light beyond lights.

Siddhananda: Okay, they're asking how do i go there. Do i take my.. car that floats? (laughing).

G: No, you don't take.. No, you say "On the altar of Truth, i give myself" and you surrender one hundred percent to That.

Siddhananda: (pause)

G: And ask that that God presence would fill you, one hundred percent, would take you.

Siddhananda: So, they're saying i don't need to go anywhere?

G: No. It's there inside the essence of your heart, it's there. That Light beyond lights is what gives you life. And one surrenders into that entirely. The Holy of holies is there. Ever present.

Siddhananda: Okay, they are just sitting with that, drinking it in. Their place is alive with a lot of light waterfalls and..

G: They're in a very much more rarefied place than it is here. It is very much higher transitional, they have a much higher vibration there. But, they still have further to go. So, you have to open your heart to the Holy of holies and there's a Light beyond lights. It vibrates so quickly that it's not seen on your place. It's so bright.

Siddhananda: Okay, they're just going to sit with that. They don't have to go anywhere, so, they'll sit with that, bask in whatever beauty is offered there.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: And open up.

G: You just have to totally open that door and ask for that door to be opened and be willing to sacrifice yourself into that.

Siddhananda: Okay, i see a door opening. So, they are acknowledging that.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: So, (hand on heart).

G: So, Namaste (gesturing namaste).

Siddhananda: Namaste.

Surrender like Christ

Siddhananda: This one's cute (picking the next stone), almost looks like a heart.

G: hmm hmm. A nice blue heart! Doesn't it look like a blue heart? (smiling)

Siddhananda: Yes. It matches my dress!

G: It does! (smiling) Your little blue heart. 

Siddhananda: Very blue.

G: Yes, sparkling blue.

Siddhananda: (pause). Okay, they're saying "i try my hardest to be in Christ consciousness."

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: "And i am not there, how come?"

G: And you're not there, how come? Have you surrendered one hundred percent to what's been brought to you? The difficult as well as the easy?

Siddhananda: (pause) They bemoaned some things.

G: They what?

Siddhananda: Bemoaned or were not happy with some things that came.

G: Exactly. One has to accept them. When the difficult times come, one has to surrender into that, like Christ was surrendered into the cross. That was his Path. He surrendered to it. It wasn't easy. He sweat blood in the Garden of Gethsemane. He was not thrilled to go there, but, he accepted that. That's what had to be done. He accepted and surrendered into it fully and surrendered into God.

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, this energy is saying your words sound sweet, and they're just resonating and shifting the energy there.

G: hmm hmm. So, we're going to call Christ in and let Christ instruct this one and give the full depth of that, what that is to walk the journey. 

Siddhananda: (pause). Christ is there.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: Still little murky. i'm asking if this one feels Christ there.

G: Yeah, you have to open to the genuine Christ, not your ideas about [Christ].

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, there's an image rising up now from the rock, it's like a female coming forward with that. So, they are coming forward.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: They just felt separate from that [before].

G: Now's their chance to open and commune directly with Christ, a hundred percent communing with that energy. 

Siddhananda: Okay, so they are moving forward into that energy, and, i do see some light beam coming into their heart, into their presence, which is really nice.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: Feels a little distant to me, but, that doesn't matter as some of them can be farther away.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: Okay, now there's a clear seeing of Christ there, becoming more clear.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: It's good. Again, it's that thing of looking up and Christ coming down. So, i think it's a good thing.

G: Right. Exactly. So, we'll leave them to process here for a while. 

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Sometimes, they have an idea about something and haven't really opened to it. Sounds like she's got ideas about what it is to be Christ and that Christ energy. 

Siddhananda: Yeah, sure.

G: And, it's different than what the actual path of Christ is. 

Siddhananda: Oh, my goodness, sure!

G: She needs to be clued into the reality versus her ideas about it. 

Siddhananda: Totally.

Beauty of Love

Siddhananda: Let's see what we got next. Another little bit of a darker one (showing a small, slightly dark stone).

G: Not nearly as dark (smiling), it's got a little more clarity (comparing with previous stone that was worked with).

Siddhananda: Much more clarity (smiling). (pausing with closed eyes). Okay, i do see this rock. i see some light, it does have little grey in it. But, the light is coming from it, has a little bit of grey around the edges.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: Okay, i'm hearing "Speak to me about love. Tell me the beauty of love."

G: Okay. Yeah, love is... when you really love something, you give yourself one hundred percent totally to it. You become that which you love. You lose yourself and become that which you love.

Siddhananda: As you are speaking, i do feel that resonating in terms of that love changes and yet you don't lose it. You still have that.

G: No, you don't lose it. You don't lose anything. That's the whole thing about Bhakti path. You love so much that you surrender into it so completely that you lose yourself in that, and you become that which you seek. That's the path of Love, you lose yourself and you become that which you seek.

Siddhananda: Yeah. And the feeling i'm getting from this energy is the love one. There's even broader love and it doesn't take the beauty away.

G: No, it doesn't take the beauty away, and that expands out to other, as well. 

Siddhananda: Expands out (nodding).

G: Yeah. Usually, with a Bhakti Path, you're focused on either Krishna or Christ or Mary, whatever it is that you love, and you surrender, give yourself to it one hundred percent totally until there is nothing left of you and there's just that other remains. The beauty of that Other remains, and one becomes That. 

Siddhananda: (nodding).

G: One becomes that energy. 

Siddhananda: There is just light coming from this little stone, and they're grateful and they are settled with that.

G: Yeah. So, find that which you seek. You're embodiment of love, that ultimate which you seek, that purity of love; become that and surrender into that, one hundred percent. 

Siddhananda: And they are showing two rivers coming together. That's what they're showing as a way of saying they understand that.

G: Okay. Namaste, thank you for coming. (gesturing namaste). 

Siddhananda: (hand on heart).

The Work on the Path

Siddhananda: So, here's our next little nugget of whatever (showing a small brown/greenish stone). Nugget of good or bad or in between, i don't know.

G: (smiling) Exactly.

Siddhananda: (long pause) Okay, they're saying, "where are the holy men, where are the holy waters."

G: Where are the holy men, where are the holy waters? Why does he want to look for the holy men and the holy waters? What is that he's seeking?

Siddhananda: (pause) They're saying "I seek to gather light from that.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: (pause) Let me find out a little more about him.

G: Yeah. (pause) And what is he going to do with that light?

Siddhananda: He's saying his practice has been to just lay his head on the holy men's feet or by the pure waters.

G: (pause) Aha. He think he's going to get by osmosis. (laughing).

Siddhananda: (laughing) Alright. That's what he wants to do. That's the easier way, right? (laughing)

G: Right, i'm just going to get there and just soak it up and get by osmosis. No, you have to actually walk the path and do the practices yourself.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Unless  you're just seeking entertainment. Is he seeking entertainment or does he actually want to attain..?

Siddhananda: (pause with closed eyes) He likes the transmission light.

G: Well. there is a transmission light, but, it takes some effort on your part. You have to actually begin to walk and do things for yourself.

Siddhananda: (pause) Again, it feels like another stubborn one. He's not wanting to hear that, as much. He wants to be directed to the holy men and women  and waters and just sit there.

G: Okay. Goodbye.

Siddhananda: Bing.

G: I'm not introducing him to Christ, i'm not introducing him any of them.

Siddhananda: No.

G: We have people there, but, he's got to  be willing to do something, and you think you're going to sit there and get by osmosis and it's going to force you to change,

Siddhananda: Aha.

G: That's not going to happen. Pull him again for a minute. Is he still here?

Siddhananda: Oh, let's see. Yeah, he is.

G: Okay, does he understand that you're not just going to get by sitting there, that you have to put the stuff into effect?

Siddhananda: (pause) He doesn't want to hear that. He doesn't want to hear that.

G: Of course not! Well, then i'm sorry, it's going to be a number of lifetimes before... because that's the reality. You want a fantasy. You want entertainment. We're not here to entertain you and i'm not going to waste the holy men's time for you. They're not here to entertain you. This is not a ride you pay your money and get in and you have the ride of the Holy transmission and you're not willing to move forward in your life. No no no.

Siddhananda: Yeah, he is being stubborn.

G: Well, it's his right, he can be stubborn all he wants to, but, no holy teacher has to work with him. Does he understand that?

Siddhananda: He just started to say, "wait, i want to hear it, i want to hear it."

G: Okay, because no teacher has to work with any student. It's when the student is ready that the teacher will come , but, if the student is not ready and they just want to have entertainment ride, you're wasting their time and taking up this valuable transmission for egotistical way and we're not here to do that.

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, he's stammering a little bit more, because i heard him say, "i think i don't know anything."

G: (nodding) Yeah.

Siddhananda: Something is getting in there.

G: We have many teachers here that are willing to work with people, but, the thing is work with them, not just give them free ride. This is not Disneyland. This is not spiritual Disneyland. You don't come here and buy a ticket and want the transmission and not willing to do any work.

Siddhananda: Yeah, of course, and that won't last that way anyway.

G: NO (shaking her head).

Siddhananda: It wouldn't be lasting unless you face yourself. You have to face yourself, bottom line, and, it maybe easier around that, but, it will come again and you got to face it.

G: Right, you have to. The transmission is there to stir the things up.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: It's not there for you to be in la la land with.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: And if people are just using for la la land, that teacher will walk away.

Siddhananda: That's the thing and i think a lot of people get addicted to just that transmission or something and...

G: Exactly, they become what I call shakti whores. (laughing)

Siddhananda: Yeah, and it ends up where they're not really facing their stuff.

G: No.

Siddhananda: They're not looking at their crap and it's just going to keep on being reborn, i hate to
say it, unless you really look at it.

G: Exactly. They're just spinning their wheels. So, if you're just going to be there spinning your wheels, eventually the teacher will pull the plug on that and say, no way. If you're not willing to do the work, i'm not here to provide a free ride for you and entertain you.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and as you say that, it really is there to make it come forward and to make everything surface, all the dirt and all the crap , but, you have to look at it and let it go. The teacher can't do that for you. The transmission won't do it for you.

G: Right, right.

Siddhananda: So, let's see (long pause). Okay, again i'm hearing that word try. I would like to try to be humble.

G: Well, he can't try. You are either willing to do it or you're not.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: But, if you're going to try, it means you have already decided "well, i'm really not up for the effort."

Siddhananda: Right, because you can still feel that stubbornness in trying.

G: Like Christ said, anyone who puts their hand to the plough and then turns back is not worthy of it.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: You have. There's no trying, that's what the word try [means], "i'll put my hands to it, but then,
i'm going to bail." No, there's no trying. You either are willing to do it are you're not.

Siddhananda: Yeah, absolutely. Let me just see what his choice is.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: (pause) He's saying light, but, let's see how he handles what you have to say.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: (pause) He's acknowledging what you said, but, that doesn't mean he's taking it in.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: He's just saying he's acknowledging it.

G: Okay. So, are you willing to walk a path or are you not?

Siddhananda: He just keeps saying i would like to try, so, i don't know what to do with him.

G: NO, when you're ready... When you're actually ready for it, you can come back.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: When you're ready to do it, not, i'll say i 'll try and give yourself a open door for bailing because it's useless for a teacher to try to work with somebody if they're not really ready for it.

Siddhananda: No, absolutely. I still feel a stubbornness in him like he just wants to acknowledge it, but in terms of accepting it that's another thing.

G: Exactly, he's trying to find a loophole and a door to backdoor it and get what he wants.

Siddhananda: Yeah, that's it. Exactly.

G: I'm sorry, but, i'm not here to cater to your ego. That's what i'm not here for.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and i think whatever you give him, to just grab onto the transmission aspect of it and not really look at himself.

G - Exactly, that's what i mean. He's trying to backdoor a way in. It doesn't' work with me.

Siddhananda: He's saying no, i'm a good man, i'm not that way.

G: Okay, then you're ready to go forward right?

Siddhananda: I'm having a hard time hearing.

G: Yeah.(pause) The path is hard. The path is hard. To walk a spiritual path is hard. It takes self sacrifice. It takes putting yourself on the line. If you're not willing to do that and just want a free ride, then, you're not ready.

Siddhananda: Okay, i'll ask him. Give him one more chance and ask him.

G: Yeah, you get one more chance and either that or we're done with you, but, no.

Siddhananda: Okay. So, he's saying he's not ready now.

G: Right, exactly. He tried every way he could backdoor it, but, that doesn't work here, i'm sorry, no.
There is the big planetary changes and things are coming in, but, you got ones that want to play with it like that are going to have the harder time.

Siddhananda: It's true. So, it's Grace to not get him.

G: Exactly, it's grace.

Siddhananda: It's better he just goes his way, yeah.

G: It will really smack him down.

Siddhananda: Right. So, i'm going to send him on his way.

G: Yeah, we wish you well, but, when you're actually ready, then come back.

Siddhananda: Yeah, you can't fool the universe like that. He's trying to fool things. He's trying to twist it.

G: Exactly. It's like that orthodox Jew thing, that they're going to try and find a loophole. They got all the rules and regulations, but, they're going to find a loophole in it.

Siddhananda: Exactly.

G: Thinking that they're smarter than God, Okay (laughing)

Siddhananda: That’s exactly what he was up to, exactly,

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: I think, like you say, it would be worse if he got started on the path because he would get slammed even more.

G: Yeah. He get..he would get slammed even more. So, you know, NO. If you're not ready for it, don't sit there and come and waste the teacher's time and play with it.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: And then just take what you want and leave the rest and ignore it, becaue that's really disrespecting teacher and the teacher's time and the teacher's energy. How egotistical is that!

Siddhananda: Yeah, absolutely. And i think, like we we're saying, the bottom line is you have to look at yourself, you have to face yourself, you have to cut through those things. That's the whole path. That's the the core of it.

G - Exactly. We got a ton of teachers on the other side waiting to help people, but, they are not here to placate egos like this, this is not Disney world. (laughing).

Siddhananda: Yeah. And it's just not all about your pleasure and you feeling good and all that.

G: Exactly. I just want to go zone out. I want to get a transmission and sit there and zone out and have them. That's like the people that wanted, a lot of people want you to do an ashram, because they want to come there and live and have somebody to take care of them and have no responsibilities in the world.

Siddhananda: Right. That's true.

G: Not go there and do the work. They want to go and bail and have somebody else be responsible for them.

Siddhananda: Yeah. That seemed like it was so much for the wrong intentions. Yeah, so much of the time.

G - Yeah. So, that's the type that he is. He wants to find an Ashram or the light and i want to go there and hang out there and they'll take care of me and I don’t have to do anything. I just sit there all day and... No no no no.

Siddhananda: And then it's effortless and i don’t have to do any of my own work.

G: We're not here to babysit.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: We're not going to waste the universe time with somebody that want's a free ride and has no intention of standing up and doing any work for themselves, no.

Siddhananda: Yeah, NO.

G: (laughing).

Siddhananda: So, it's better it all came forward now, because sometimes people would get on this path and they act like they're all this and that and it would show up later and it was much harder for them.

G: Oh, yeah. Better to close that door than to let them play with it.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Because you get that one that was here, yesterday, [that said] oh, i do all the manifesting, and you can have anything you want in your life. i'm sorry, they're going to have lifetimes and lifetimes and lifetimes and in the end really not be happy, because everything they are manifesting, everything they are doing is transient.

Siddhananda: Sure.

G: Yeah. It will come and go and is he fulfilled now?

Siddhananda: No.

G:  NO, he's still looking for it.

Siddhananda: That's the thing.

G: That's what i did in my last life, I still want that. I want to get.Yeah, i threw a life away .

Siddhananda: Right, and as soon as that's gone, they're on to another. So, it's just a constant motion of that.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: There’s nothing satisfying in that. There’s no fulfillment, true fulfillment in that.

G: No. NO, there no true fulfillment.

Siddhananda: Right. So, he's on his way and it was good example, if anything.

G: Yep. So, moving on.