Heart of God

Siddhananda: Off we go! See what happens today. (showing a rock) Same one with a little dot on the front there. Cute! (pause) Okay, they just want to know the heart of God.

G: Then they need to go inside their own heart and surrender totally.

Siddhananda: Okay, is it possible that they can have the COS?

G: Yes. 

Siddhananda: Okay, great!

Devoted to Kali

Siddhananda: Little bit green one (picking up the next stone).

G: hmm hmm. Blood stone.

Siddhananda: Oh okay! Some of them have a little more red than this.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: Okay. A blood stone that's not too bloody-looking. what that means, i don't know (laughing).

G: (laughing)

Siddhananda: (pause with closed eyes) i do see some blood. i see the image of Kali coming forward, in black.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: with all her skulls and whole business.

G: (nodding)

Siddhananda: Let's see what this spirit has to say today. (pause). They're saying "master kali", but, i'm not quite grabbing on to what their meaning of that is.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: (pause) "master kali".

G: Have they been a kali worshiper? Maybe, a devotee of kali. 

Siddhananda: Yes. They're devoted to that goddess.

G: So, what is it that we can help you with?

Siddhananda: i did see an image of.. is it Rama Krishna?

G: Yeah. 

Siddhananda: Maybe they resonate with him. (pause). They're saying they do resonate with his type of energy.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: So, what questions do you have for us today? (pause) Okay, they have that bond with his teachings and his energy.

G: (nodding).

Siddhananda: So, what do you desire from us today? (pause) i'm hearing the kali mantras.

G: Does he have all the kali mantras? Ask him how many kali mantras he has.

Siddhananda: (pause). i don't know, i'm seeing something like here's the mantras (at the top) and then some at the bottom (gesturing with hands).

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: i'm not getting the exact ones or anything, but, it's not all of them.

G: i think he doesn't have all of them. 

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: i think he's got maybe one kali mantra. 

Siddhananda: Yeah. That's my feeling, too. Maybe, like one or two.

G: So, we'll let him go ahead have the rest of the kali mantras. He can do those, that would be very good for him and just totally surrender into that. 

Siddhananda: They're very very grateful. They are bowing to that goddess energy of Kali that comes through all. Thank you (hand on heart).

G: Namaste (gesturing namaste). Yeah, that's the problem, he only got one beginning mantra and that's it. 

Siddhananda: Right.

G: He doesn't have the fullness of it. 

Siddhananda: which makes the whole thing complete.

G: Exactly. 

Siddhananda: Makes sense.

Ripe and Ready

Siddhananda: (Showing a dark stone, pausing with closed eyes) Okay, they are saying they are sitting in Oneness.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: So, they’re present, they’re feeling. It looks a little bit like a tree that’s about to [fall over].

G: Mmm, hmm. (nodding).

Siddhananda: ..like when you’re about to chop a tree and it’s about ready to fall over.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: It’s the image I got, so they are in that state.

G: Pretty ripe.

Siddhananda: Yeah. That’s the bottom line. Pretty ripe! A little wind comes up and boom. So (closing eyes) I think they just want to be here and let that happen.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: Whatever time it takes. So, do you have any pointings for them right now?

G: I would say if they would like they could do the Kali Mantras and On The Altar of Truth I lay myself and just totally surrender. Totally let go and let God.

(Siddhananda and G close their eyes)

Siddhananda: Okay, so they’re taking it in and again, the image is more one of this (motioning with hand, palm down, slicing through the air outward). So, it’s kind of just [ready].

G: Right. Ready to just go. 

Siddhananda: Yeah (nodding), yeah, so cut it.

G: So we’ll put them on the middle shelf or the top shelf over there (referring to the shelves where other spirits are in quietude).

Siddhananda: Okay. (placing the stone on a shelf)

G: One or the other, and we’ll check with them and see.

Completion

Siddhananda: (Showing a turquoise stone) Okay, so there’s that stone, looks like a diamond formation in the center. (pause). They are saying something about the heart of being.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: ...as a way to know God.

G: (nodding)

Siddhananda: They have a question about completion. How is it done?

G: How is done? Completion?

Siddhananda: Mmm hmm.

G: Completion is done when one is totally surrendered into God. When all of the illusions are dispelled, that’s completion.

Siddhananda: Okay, I do see a lotus coming. They desire this completion and they just want to take in whatever they can for this, for that motion to take place until it dissolves away. I said is there anything else? And they said they just wanted to say thank you.

G: Namaste.

Siddhananda: Oh and the COS too (chuckling).

G: The COS?  Oh, ok. You can have the COS. Now that they have asked, yeah.

Siddhananda: (laughing) I guess that wasn’t the last thing. They said it was.

G: Enjoy! (laughing).

Siddhananda: (smiling)  It wasn’t.  Hehe.

G: By the way, COS might help that a little bit. Can I have that? (laughing)

Siddhananda: Well, it’s true.

Surrender like Christ

Siddhananda: This one's cute (picking the next stone), almost looks like a heart.

G: hmm hmm. A nice blue heart! Doesn't it look like a blue heart? (smiling)

Siddhananda: Yes. It matches my dress!

G: It does! (smiling) Your little blue heart. 

Siddhananda: Very blue.

G: Yes, sparkling blue.

Siddhananda: (pause). Okay, they're saying "i try my hardest to be in Christ consciousness."

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: "And i am not there, how come?"

G: And you're not there, how come? Have you surrendered one hundred percent to what's been brought to you? The difficult as well as the easy?

Siddhananda: (pause) They bemoaned some things.

G: They what?

Siddhananda: Bemoaned or were not happy with some things that came.

G: Exactly. One has to accept them. When the difficult times come, one has to surrender into that, like Christ was surrendered into the cross. That was his Path. He surrendered to it. It wasn't easy. He sweat blood in the Garden of Gethsemane. He was not thrilled to go there, but, he accepted that. That's what had to be done. He accepted and surrendered into it fully and surrendered into God.

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, this energy is saying your words sound sweet, and they're just resonating and shifting the energy there.

G: hmm hmm. So, we're going to call Christ in and let Christ instruct this one and give the full depth of that, what that is to walk the journey. 

Siddhananda: (pause). Christ is there.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: Still little murky. i'm asking if this one feels Christ there.

G: Yeah, you have to open to the genuine Christ, not your ideas about [Christ].

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, there's an image rising up now from the rock, it's like a female coming forward with that. So, they are coming forward.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: They just felt separate from that [before].

G: Now's their chance to open and commune directly with Christ, a hundred percent communing with that energy. 

Siddhananda: Okay, so they are moving forward into that energy, and, i do see some light beam coming into their heart, into their presence, which is really nice.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: Feels a little distant to me, but, that doesn't matter as some of them can be farther away.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: Okay, now there's a clear seeing of Christ there, becoming more clear.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: It's good. Again, it's that thing of looking up and Christ coming down. So, i think it's a good thing.

G: Right. Exactly. So, we'll leave them to process here for a while. 

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Sometimes, they have an idea about something and haven't really opened to it. Sounds like she's got ideas about what it is to be Christ and that Christ energy. 

Siddhananda: Yeah, sure.

G: And, it's different than what the actual path of Christ is. 

Siddhananda: Oh, my goodness, sure!

G: She needs to be clued into the reality versus her ideas about it. 

Siddhananda: Totally.

Beauty of Love

Siddhananda: Let's see what we got next. Another little bit of a darker one (showing a small, slightly dark stone).

G: Not nearly as dark (smiling), it's got a little more clarity (comparing with previous stone that was worked with).

Siddhananda: Much more clarity (smiling). (pausing with closed eyes). Okay, i do see this rock. i see some light, it does have little grey in it. But, the light is coming from it, has a little bit of grey around the edges.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: Okay, i'm hearing "Speak to me about love. Tell me the beauty of love."

G: Okay. Yeah, love is... when you really love something, you give yourself one hundred percent totally to it. You become that which you love. You lose yourself and become that which you love.

Siddhananda: As you are speaking, i do feel that resonating in terms of that love changes and yet you don't lose it. You still have that.

G: No, you don't lose it. You don't lose anything. That's the whole thing about Bhakti path. You love so much that you surrender into it so completely that you lose yourself in that, and you become that which you seek. That's the path of Love, you lose yourself and you become that which you seek.

Siddhananda: Yeah. And the feeling i'm getting from this energy is the love one. There's even broader love and it doesn't take the beauty away.

G: No, it doesn't take the beauty away, and that expands out to other, as well. 

Siddhananda: Expands out (nodding).

G: Yeah. Usually, with a Bhakti Path, you're focused on either Krishna or Christ or Mary, whatever it is that you love, and you surrender, give yourself to it one hundred percent totally until there is nothing left of you and there's just that other remains. The beauty of that Other remains, and one becomes That. 

Siddhananda: (nodding).

G: One becomes that energy. 

Siddhananda: There is just light coming from this little stone, and they're grateful and they are settled with that.

G: Yeah. So, find that which you seek. You're embodiment of love, that ultimate which you seek, that purity of love; become that and surrender into that, one hundred percent. 

Siddhananda: And they are showing two rivers coming together. That's what they're showing as a way of saying they understand that.

G: Okay. Namaste, thank you for coming. (gesturing namaste). 

Siddhananda: (hand on heart).

Let life in

Siddhananda: (Showing a clear stone). This is actually the last one in the absolute (referring to the spirits that were in the void).

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: (pause). Okay, they're feeling still, feeling quiet.

G: (nodding).

Siddhananda: i'm asking "any knowledge you'd like to impart?"

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: (pause). Something about people should let down their guard.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: They keep it up too much.

G: (nodding). 

Siddhananda: More like let life in, these kinds of things.

G: Yeah, let life in. If you want to reach the Absolute, you got to surrender totally, one hundred percent. You can't hold one iota, one hair back, absolutely nothing.

Siddhananda: That's what they're showing, not even a fine hair.

G: hmm hmm (gesturing in agreement).

Siddhananda: Not even a fine hair, and there's nothing to fear.

G: (nodding).

Siddhananda: So, i asked them "how is it now then for you" and they were saying "just no words, no words, beyond words."

G: Yeah, words are all duality. You can't say anything from there that would give any estimation of what it is, no. 

Siddhananda: Yeah. (pause). They're very nice. i asked them if they want to stay by the healing center, but, they did say they want to move on and aid others, which is good.

G: Okay. Wherever they're willing to aid others, it will be perfect. So, thank you for that. 

Siddhananda: Absolutely.

G: Yeah. 

Siddhananda: That really felt good to do, i could feel the stillness in the majority of these stones.

Illusion of Power

Siddhananda: (Holding up a stone) Black one... dark one.

G: Mmm  Hmmm

Siddhananda: (pausing with closed eyes) Ok, I just see that stone in my mind with kind of a dark aura around it, not negative feeling, but, seeing [the darkness]

G: And what is that darkness about?

Siddhananda: Strength, they’re saying.

G: What, strength?

Siddhananda: They’re saying strength.

G: And why do they think that dark is strength.

Siddhananda: Power... (chuckles slightly) that’s what they’re saying, but let's see why.

G: Mmm… hmm

Siddhananda: They’re saying "because it's like the earth."

G: Oh, because it's like the earth? Ok.

Siddhananda: Ok. so, what questions do you have for us today?

G: So what is it we can help with?

Spirit: More strength and power.

G: Yeah, that’s ego based.

Siddhananda: Yeah, I would say.

G: (Clears throat) Yeah, this is one that wants to think they can control everything and they’re not in the best thing. Are they open to the light?

Siddhananda: No, They’re saying no, but lets’s... No, they’re not, they just want some more powers.

G: Yep, no. We’re not going to help with that, because what they’re doing is self-deceiving, they’re just deceiving themselves, to think they would get anything by powers. The more powers they think they have the more they are separating themselves from God and thinking they’re the one in control, and, that’s not real power. They have an illusion of power.

Siddhananda: Yeah, they’re trying to put out more of that darkness, and it's just... (shakes head).

G: Yeah, they have an illusion of power.

Siddhananda: They’re pushing with all of their might to bring out more of that, themselves as that power, and it’s just... (shakes head, slightly smiling).

G: Ok, hold them for a minute. I’m going to give him a little demonstration of how much power he thinks he has. Ok? Hold him for a second.

Siddhananda: (Laughing).

G: Ready? (holds head down to one side, eyes closed).

Siddhananda: (Holds rock in fist up to camera).

G: You can’t go! (after several moments) You don’t like that? No you don’t like that at all... Ok. Yeah, he wants to go. Now how much power do you have?

Siddhananda: (smiling).

G: Do you have any power? You don’t. You have no power. Now do you think the dark is more powerful than the light? No.

Siddhananda: Yeah, I was hearing no.

G: Yeah, No! So ok, you can go ahead and let him down for a minute. Go ahead and put him down for a minute.

Siddhananda: (smiling, puts rock down).

G: Now you can either choose to go and be on your way or you can be ready to bow and open to the light, the God-light.

Siddhananda: I see an image of someone bowing. It is still dark, but...

G: Yeah, but he’s open to the light now because his way is not the way. He needed a little quick demonstration that that is not the way.

Siddhananda: So he’s saying he’s open, so...

G: Yeah, so we ask that the Christ-light would come to him, and he can do the Om-That-I-Am, the I-Am-That_I-Am and find the still place of God within him and release the ego, release the ego-drama, so he can see the fallacy of it. I’m sure he will see that Christ has much more energy than he does, and Christ’s came from sacrifice and from laying that down. So, the true knowledge and power comes [that way] and it has nothing to do with Ego. Ego separates one from that and they have an illusion of power, for a time (laughing).

Siddhananda: (Smiling). Yeah, so I do see an image of someone on their knees, bowing low and then Christ is there. They are definitely bowing low. Almost, I guess, almost like shaking.

G: Yeah, of course, because that’s going to be terrifying to that dark. That light is terrifying to that dark.

Siddhananda: They’re scared.

G: But they have to see there’s nothing to fear, they’ve lived in fear and self-protection and thinking that they are the power for so long that to relinquish that can be terrifying, but there’s nothing to fear in that.

Siddhananda: Yeah they’re trembling, they’re having a hard time looking up at that Light [of] Christ.

G: Yeah, because that light is very hard to look at, that vibration is so different. It's very, very difficult to open to that.

Siddhananda: Right!

G: But they have to realize that they will be fine. Yes, it's scary to open to that, but they will see there is such joy in that when they open to that. So, don’t have any fear but open your eyes and look and allow that to come in and dispel the shadows, dispel the negativity, dispel the illusions, to come to the truth of what it is and what it’s not.

Siddhananda: Good, and I can see an image of him kind of turning, and then he’s kind of taken up. He was scared, he was trembling but he did turn and he’s kind of taken up into that light.

G: Right (nodding)

Siddhananda: I’m just seeing a lot more light.

G: Right, (gesturing as if dispelling something by pushing hand up and out several times while spreading fingers) whatever’s there, that... I hate to use that [word] demonic mind play, Christ has no problem with, sending it... It's gone. He has no problem with it. Instant excorcism (chuckling).

Siddhananda: Pretty much!

G: It's what it is. Because those mind spins, they grow almost a personality of their own, they take on a life of their own, and then instead of them thinking they’re controlling, they’re being controlled, by that illusion.

Siddhananda (Nodding) right.

G: So, they can come back to balance now.

Siddhananda: That’s much better. Yeah, they’re in good hands now, and so we’ll go ahead and put that over there, I think. Namaste! They’re not saying much right now.

G: (gesturing namaste). Welcome on your journey. (Both laughing).

Path of Devotion and Surrender

Siddhananda: (showing a small pink stone) I'm seeing some ripe fruit, like strawberries and things. They're saying, "I lay my head on the master's feet. I surrender there." I saw that ripe fruit. There's that image right now with one's forehead on the feet of the master. There's no particular master, but just that image.

G: Right.

Spirit:  I lay my head there. I rest my head there for all eternity.

G:  Mm hmm. Ask what is it they're seeking today.

Spirit: To be one with the master, with the heart of being.

G:  With the heart of being (nodding) ... right, right ... to surrender into that.

Siddhananda:  Yeah. It's a devoted soul. He seems to have had that kind of an image for awhile with that devotion. That's kind of their path through that, as a devoted soul and [with] surrender.

G: Mm hmm, right.

Siddhananda:  I'm hearing a little bit, "Should I go beyond that? What now?"

G:  I'm sitting trying to figure out what would be the best for that one (pausing). I think both the COS and the Morning Mantras for them.

Siddhananda:  They're very grateful for that. As that flows to them, they are almost in tears. They're very, very, very grateful! (gesturing Namaste).

G: mm hmm (gesturing Namaste). Thank you.

Siddhananda: That'll do it for that one.

Fragrance of the Rose

Siddhananda: And we got one more (for today’s session)!

G: One more, the grand finale!

Siddhananda: (showing a rock) They have gone quick considering there was a long line today.

G: We did have a long line but they have been very… it’s been very quick today, considering.

Siddhananda: Yeah, we can get to the heart of the matter. We don’t always need all the rest..

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: It’s interesting, but it’s not always needed. (pause) And [with] this one, I am seeing a rose and it’s kind of similar, I think, as we are looking into the center of that rose as the heart of being.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And then the lila of the… the sweetness, I guess.

G: The fragrance.

Siddhananda: The fragrance.

G: The fragrance is the lila.

Siddhananda: The fragrance, yeah, lila, and they like that, the lila.

G: They like… they enjoy the lila, okay! (laughing)

Siddhananda: Yeah, so… (laughing)

G: Well that’s all that remains once it’s jivanmukti.

Siddhananda: Well, right.

G: You go back into lila and the play of it, yeah.

Siddhananda: Let’s see if that’s where they are at. (pause) I don’t know. I’m kind of hearing that maybe there is still some work to do. But they… that’s, whatever energy is there, that’s what their reflection is, that rose and that center point. And they are getting quieter, too. People are getting very quiet today, easily.

G: Quieter, very, very quickly, yeah. I would just say again, on the altar of truth…

Siddhananda: Okay.

G: On the altar of truth, yeah.

Siddhananda: Okay!

G: Yeah, and so that’s it for today. It was actually…

Siddhananda: Kind of a quickie.

G: …very, very quick today.

Siddhananda: Yeah, for all we had, they were quick. So, it was kind of interesting. You never know.

G: We never know who is going to come in!

Fill Me With Love, Fill Me With Light

Siddhananda: We’ve got another linga (showing a brown stone).

G: Another linga!

Siddhananda: Okay, this is… I’ll just say it… this is…

Spirit: Fill me with love. Fill me with light.

Siddhananda: It sounds like they are more of a dark sorcerer type. (grimacing)

G: A dark sorcerer type?

Siddhananda: They are asking to be filled with light.

G: Uh huh. Well they can be filled with light. All they have to do is let go of that and no longer engage in that. Are they willing to bow to the light of God?

Siddhananda: I’m feeling they are [willing] in this moment. We will see how this unfolds.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Because I’m seeing already shifts in some light streams coming through.

G: So on the altar of truth I lay myself and let God do what needs to be done. On the altar of truth I lay myself. (long pause, nodding) Yeah.

Siddhananda: Changing…

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: …changing energy.

G: Good, good!

Siddhananda: I think it’s good. I think he or he/she or that energy was willing.

G: You have to be willing. You can see that they tried to control, and they tried to control by doing the dark things and they find out that they can’t control and they don’t have as much control as they think they do. And it’s not going to bring the pleasure like they think it is. But, they have to see that lesson and then be willing to fall hard enough that they can open to the light.

Siddhananda: Right! I mean, it doesn’t matter where you are at, that can happen.

G: That can happen.

Siddhananda: I don’t know if this is one that has been a little bit of a pest, but it’s good that light is there… coming. It’s settling.

G: Good.

Siddhananda: So I think we’ll just kind of let that settle.

G: We’ll let that light come in and let that settle. Yeah. And I think also that one… would he be willing to experience the light of Christ?

Siddhananda: He’s saying okay.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: He was a little resistant only because there’s a lot to push through.

G: There’s a lot to push through.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: But, yeah, there’s a lot to push through. But if anyone can dispel that whatever is there and cut those things it’s Christ and he can do it much, much more rapidly.

Siddhananda: Yeah, because there was a lot to cut through.

G: Yeah, there will be a lot of things and Christ can clear that out very quickly. (laughing)

Siddhananda: Uh huh. And it’s definitely [clearing].. it’s almost like you see a certain color and then there is… you pour some clear water…

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: …and slowly those things begin to kind of rinse out.

G: Yeah. (nodding)

Siddhananda: There is still something like a carved stone on the side, it’s not too (waving her hand down her heart)… but I can see that image of Christ in the center, that light. It’s definitely a very different feeling than the initial…

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: It’s very good.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: I think we’re… [it’s a] good start!

G: Yeah, so I think we’ll leave them to work with that. You can put him on the second shelf.

Siddhananda: Good idea!

G: We can check in with them tomorrow and see how they are doing with that.

Siddhananda: Yeah. There are a lot of lingas there!

G: Yeah, no, any can change.

Siddhananda: That’s the thing.

G: Any can change. Even with the Chandi Path, they would cut the heads of the demons and they would enter liberation. So any can be free. But, again, you have to be open to it and be ready for that change and be willing for it. And it’s going to burn,. I mean, it’s going to burn like fire confronting that stuff. They have to be willing to go through that in order to gain that liberation. Yeah, it’s possible.

Siddhananda: Nice one!

G: Yeah, it’s good to see when something like that comes through and they were ready to let go of that.

Siddhananda: And they were pretty quiet about it. 

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: …some of them have protested a bit (laughing), saying “Ahh!” …whatever.

G: Yeah, that one was ready for it.

Siddhananda: But that one was really quiet about it.

G: Yeah, it was ready to surrender to that.

Siddhananda: And that’s what it takes.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Okay, so next!

Kali's Grace

Siddhananda: So, we have our first stone [of the day] here, a linga (showing a small lingam which is black in color) (pause)... Well, the first thing I heard is "master-peace," so, not like a masterpiece (laughter).  No, it's funny, I'm laughing 'cause this guy is laughing.

G: Master, peace. (moving her hands left and then right to illustrate the space between the words) (Laughter) 

Siddhananda: I almost saw it like this big amazing painting, or something like that, maybe that's true, too? Master, peace (moving both arms left then right slowly to illustrate the space between the words) (laughter all round)

G: I think it's peace.

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly.

G: Not piece.

Siddhananda: That's right.

G: (laughter)

Siddhananda: Anyway, he's saying he is a masterpiece though, now, come on! (laughter all round)

G: (laughter) There you go... it's also masterpiece, ok. So we'll take that. (laughter)

Siddhananda: So he's a big substantial guy.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: Kind of... (holding both fists up to illustrate a big strong person)

G: Big guy.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Substantial.

Siddhananda: Yeah, [I] see like a buddha, like a belly. (little laughter) Anyways, so, how can we help you today? He's in jaga, jaga-pur? maybe you can help me (speaking to G) Jaipur, something like that... I'm hearing.

G: Jaipur?

Siddhananda: I’m hearing, Jai, Jaipur.

G: Maybe Jaipur.

Siddhananda: Is it Jaipur? (asking spirit) (pause).. it sounds like that could be it, but I'm not totally getting a yes or no with that, I don't know why, but, it sounds like it is in India, somewhere, yeah.

G: Yeah, ok.

Siddhananda: It is there, ok, so anyway.

G: North or south India?

Siddhananda: That's where he came from, I mean, he is not there, but...

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: I can see him, he's done a lot of rituals by the Ganges and went into the Ganges.

G: Oh, ok, that's a different place then.

Siddhananda: Ok, and I can see him sort of there by the ghats and maybe taking some vows and things, I don't...

G: Aha (nodding)

Siddhananda: So, anyway what questions do you have for us today? I'm just hearing master peace (little laughter)... so, is that where your consciousness is?

Spirit: Yes, in master peace.

G: Aha. (nodding)

Siddhananda: So, how can we help you today? "Want to move," he's saying. Wants to be a knower of Brahman, but, I'm wondering if he's master peace.

G: Aha. (nodding)

Siddhananda: "Want to be a knower of Brahman," is what he's saying... maybe...

G: He wants to be a knower of Brahman.

Siddhananda: Yes.

G: Ok, yeah. So, (pause) yeah I think he can do the COS...

Siddhananda: Ok.

G: And also the Kali [mantras].

Siddhananda: Yeah, that sounds really perfect, that blend for him.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: COS and Kali.

G: Yeah, both of those would be good for him.

Siddhananda: I'm feeling a little something with him, like something’s, he's getting a little riled about something. (laughter)

G: Yeah, I'm sure.

Siddhananda: He's getting a little riled.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: (Laughter and a grin like what's this about) Something about Kali.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: He's getting riled.

G: Yeah, because Kali is standing on Shiva (smiling) and he's a worshiper of Shiva. So, it's going to make him a little riled.

Siddhananda: Yeah, he's getting riled.

G: Yeah, 'cause he doesn't understand what that energy is.

Siddhananda: I think it's the Kali thing.

G: Yeah, it's the Kali, of course.

Siddhananda: Ok, boy! He's acting out.

G: Because he's thinking that Kali is disrespecting Shiva or something, and he doesn't understand those energies, and if he wants the peace, he'll [have to] open to those energies. So, anyway, we'll ask our genuine brahman (laughter), that has gone into realization, to please come and speak with this one.

Siddhananda: Ok, the one that is the page turner [referring to a Spirit that visited earlier.]

G: Our page turner. If he could come out of that for a moment. If he could come out of the Absolute and speak with this one for a second, that would be perfect.

Siddhananda: Ok, I'm seeing those pages being turned, so he's coming. Just his way of saying [that] he's available.

G: Ok.

Siddhananda: (taking a deep breath and pause) So, he's telling him, let that all go.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: That's not… it's not like that, what you're thinking.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And the way you're behaving is going to hold this back from you... this Light.

G: Right, right. He needs to go back from, into the yoni, back into the linga, and that yoni is representative of Shakti or Kali. No matter how much he wants to disparage that (laughter), that's the truth of it.

Siddhananda: Right. The true knower of Brahman is here. Yeah, I can feel his energy kind of more there (placing left and over right shoulder)... the other one is more like, kinda his hair is standing on end, he's just riled!

G: Ohh, really really upset, yeah that really would upset him...yeah.

Siddhananda: The knower of Brahman is there, his presence is there and I feel some light emanating (puts hand over heart and gestures light emanating) from him. It could be in his discussion with him.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: With this one energy that's so riled.

G: Right, right.

Siddhananda: [Let's] see what happens, I am feeling fire in this other one that's getting all acting up. (laughter)

G: Oh, I'm sure, I'm sure, they can get quite nasty (laughter) trust me, I've dealt with them before in India, yeah.

Siddhananda: He's...

G: If you come for Truth, then you have to listen to what is Truth, otherwise why did you come? Did you come to get your ego fluffed up?

Siddhananda: I am hearing the challenge with this one, I am hearing that with him.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: And with that kind of energy, it's not going to go anywhere or...

G: It's not going to bode him well, right.

Siddhananda: Yeah, I mean he needs to settle down.

G: Right, I asked and you said you did not come to challenge, so if you did not come to challenge then you need to sit and listen, and I'm giving you the best to move you forward, whether you want to believe it or not. You are so stuck in your rigid patterns that you missed what it is, and therefore you need this stronger energy to break through those patterns. Ok, so you're not going to get it by continuing the method you've done, it hasn't worked yet.

Siddhananda: And what I'm feeling now is just like I say, the knower of brahman, all this Light flowing, there is a force flowing (moving her arms in and out to indicate a flowing) into this, if he does indeed accept it.

G: He needs to open and accept it.

Siddhananda: Yeah, 'cause it's there.

G: Yeah, 'cause there is one that was a page turner was, (one who was clinging to book knowledge) that has, again, entered realization and he was there and he was from India, and if you don't wanna hear it from me you can hear from him. He will tell you that I know what I'm talking about (laughter).

Siddhananda: And he is with this energy...

G: Right.

Siddhananda: ...transmitting that of be still, be quiet, open up your heart, this is for your good, in what is being said, and these lessons can be very hard and can rock your world. But, stay open, 'cause I, all of us, have come in with some mistaken knowledge, till it get gets rooted away.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: He's pretty solid with his convictions, this is a tough, tough one.

G: He can stay in his convictions, but it hasn't got him to realization, so either he understands that or not. Nobody is forcing him to change, he came here. I did not come to him, he came to me (pause)... but, you don't come to a teacher for aid and then act like this, you should know that.

Siddhananda: You should know better, yeah.

G: Yeah, you should know better.

Siddhananda: Yeah, like why come.

G: Why come if you don't want the truth.

Siddhananda: Yeah, I'll see... check in with him then and see where he's... (pause)

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Yeah, I'm hearing no, he's not open.

G: Yeah, then you can go on your way.

Siddhananda: Yeah, I think that's best for him right now.

G: Then you can go on your way.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: You can continue to sit there and do Shiva mantras forever and not understand the Truth of what you're doing. I'm giving you a way to go into that linga to understand what it is and what it's not.

Siddhananda: I am just feeling a challenging energy in there.

G: Aha, well (G picks the stone up in her left hand and holds it in her fist) Ok, you don't like Kali. (looks at Siddhananda and laughs)

(G and Siddhananda close eyes) (long pause)

Siddhananda: Definitely quiet. (giggle)

G: (G holds up her left hand with the stone in her fist (pause) then blows into it and proceeds to hold it, then inhales and then exhales)

Siddhananda: Hmm hmm.

G: (holds the stone up to the camera) So, what's happening with our little friend now? (puts stone back down)

Siddhananda: (laughter) I am hearing "burning to ashes."

G: Hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: He was scared in your hands... I'm hearing "burning to ashes."

G: Hmm hmm. It's the best thing that can happen to him. Burn away all that rubbish that he thinks he has.

Siddhananda: It's interesting, there is some ashes and some different manifestations in the fire coming... (Weaving her hands in and out to demonstrate a pattern with the fire)

G: Hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: Beautiful manifestations actually of spiritual...

G: Hmm hmm... This is what Kali does, comes in and cuts the heads of demon mind, so that one can be liberated, if you ask for liberation, you wanna know...

Siddhananda: There's not much else coming now, I am just seeing that... from the ashes, these beautiful manifestations, reminds me a little of your one picture that you have with the fire and the images coming up.

G: Hmm hmm. (nodding)

Siddhananda: He's saying "singe my heart."

G: Yeah, it singes your heart.

Siddhananda: (laughter)

G: Now, are you ready to listen? (laughter)

Spirit: Forever at your feet.

G: There we go! (laughter)

Siddhananda: (laughter)

Spirit: Forever at your feet divine.

G: So now, if our page turner could give him the Kali mantras and also the COS.

Siddhananda: Those are right there for him.

G: Ok.

Siddhananda: Immediately!

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Right there, so...

G: And now you can understand now what it is and what it's not. So, we will leave him over here to process (points at the crystal cathedrals) for a day, and we will check with him tomorrow and see what he has learned. (smiling) 

Siddhananda: Yes... (places the stone by the crystal cathedrals)

G: That's what's called having compassion for him.

Siddhananda: Yeah, I know. Yeah.

G: Could have sent him away and left him to stay there for millennia.

Siddhananda: Which we have for some...

G: Yeah,yeah, but it felt for him it was just the right thing to do, to break through that.

Siddhananda: Each one is different.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Each one is different. You just have a knowing there that comes at the time.

G: Yeah.

Spiritual Paths

Siddhananda: This is a nice pretty rock. I just kind of want to show you the rocks we’re working with (showing a white rock with some yellow edges). Can you see? (having trouble getting the stone in the viewfinder but eventually finds it) Oh man! I can't even see my own hand, but it's pretty… it’s clear with a little kind of gold on the edges there… (closing her eyes, focusing inwards) Ok, so, single heart, single mind... Umm... Ok, so, do you have any questions for us today? (pause) I think they’re [asking]… I think, at least, what I'm hearing is, [they're asking] what brought both of us to the path? Umm, is that… let me reflect that back.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: Or, I think, [what they're asking is] in general, what breaks someone down enough to bring them [to a Path]… how does that process happen for some and not for others to, you know, someone who would walk a path of more surrender, Kundalini, I mean, why do some not and some do?

G: Why do some walk the path of Kundalini and some others... other paths, or…?

Siddhananda: Well, I guess, it's kind of like, why does... now I'm kind of feeling some of those kind of austerity kind of practices… not practices, but paths that are so hard and kundalini being one. But why would some kind of awaken there and go in that direction and not others? What is the difference between that?

G: Yeah, I think part of it that I know in this life, I went through a lot of lifetimes with a lot of heavy, heavy suffering, a lot of pain and a lot of trauma… And also, wanting to progress to the quickest way I could to know God, to know what is... and so, when you have a lot of trauma, it is in a way, a left handed blessing because then you are ready to surrender... totally… to surrender.

And I think because at that point, you can understand more of the path of Christ. [In] my own existence, I asked to walk that path... and you'll understand his surrender and his walking in his pain and the temptations he went through and all of that, it's umm… there’s just something more familiar (pause)...something more familiar.

Siddhananda: Aha, makes sense... um, let me ask if that's [what they were asking about].. (pause), I believe that's it, but they kind of asked about mine [too]… All that I can say is it’s similar in terms of a lot of suffering and asking to aid humanity or being, I guess... the way I asked is [for] being used for humanity's sake (laughter). I mean, I don't want to say for anyone else to do that, I had no idea what that meant, and that just came. I think these things, when they're ripe they come, and from whatever past practice and heart opening work of many, many lives and umm.. just kundalini… you know, lots of manifestations and phenomena and that kind of rose out of that heart opening and desire to aid humanity, but also to be out of suffering.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: So... I didn't really know what was going to come, I didn't know... I didn't have that kind of foreseeing at all. I'm glad I didn't (laughter) because it hasn't been easy.

G: (laughter)

Siddhananda: Yeah, I had no idea... I really didn't know what I was doing with all that, and what all that was really going to mean. So, anyway…

G: Yeah, I think different people are called to different paths depending on their energetic makeup and things as well, so…

Siddhananda: Sure, sure, absolutely!

G: Kundalini is not only a Hindu thing; it comes through a lot of paths. There are a lot of a contemplative nuns and things that have kundalini awakenings, that have… it goes through the holy spirit, one could say the holy spirit. So it runs like a thread through a lot of the paths, the Sufi path, other paths. But I think each is drawn according to their nature and according to their past experiences, what would best serve to move them forward to the light of God, that's all.

Siddhananda: Aha, and they’re saying thank you. They just, they wanted to know, maybe they’re just beginning to kind of listen. They don't really know what all… where they’re at totally, they just wanted to start kind of listening and learning.

G: Yeah, all you have to do… the main thing is just to be sincere in what it is you're seeking.

Siddhananda: Be honest, correct.
 
G: And honest and sincere if you want to know God, then that's what you put out there. If you want to aid others that's what you put out there, no matter what it is your heart's desire is, then don't be surprised if it's, if it umm, turns out to be a very difficult road.

Siddhananda: That's the thing.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: I mean, be open to that, you don't know… maybe a really long thing, and maybe shorter.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: I mean, no one can say, but just to be open, and not have [any notions like] I need to have it this way or that, because (shakes her head)…

G: Because you don't always know the lessons that you need.

Siddhananda: That’s right.

G: In order... if you’re going to aid humanity, you're going to have to do some very hard lessons.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Because, unless you understand what they have gone through, unless you had that experience you cannot give them aid, so…

Siddhananda: And they’re saying wow! but, thank you for saying that because it sounds like a big responsibility.

G: It is... it's a huge responsibility.

Siddhananda: Aha.

G: But, not everybody has to take that path. But, when you do, just understand that you're in for a very rough ride and you will have some very, very hard, hard lessons to go through in order to have the clarity to aid and guide others. That's it, it's not a fluffy yellow brick road. (laughter)

Siddhananda: And I'm seeing a fire (raising her hand to illustrate rising flames)…

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: …saying like a fire burning…

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Almost like a... almost with me, it is.. I don't.. hey, I'm just here, but it's encompassing my body, like kind of burnt your body mind kind of thing.

G: Yeah, it burns the body and mind.

Siddhananda: And the identification.

G: It burns away the dross.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: It does. It's like the Bible says, it refines the gold, and to refine gold you have to burn away all the things there that are not gold.

Siddhananda: Aha.

G: So, all the impurities have to be burnt out, so yeah.

Siddhananda: They’re saying "intense."
 
G: It's very intense, yes. (laughter)

Siddhananda: Yes, it is... so it is something just, you know... know that it's not a soft cushy road, it's if you want that, then that wouldn't be the way, maybe just stay grounded in more just regular stuff, you know.

G: Yeah, I think a lot of people think, well, if I'm on the path to know God then everything should be cleared away for me...

Siddhananda: And loving, loving…

G: It should be loving… (mocking tone)

Siddhananda: Oh boy!

G: And I shouldn't have any troubles in life… and everything should be swept away clear for me.

Siddhananda: Because I'm so loving.

G: Because I'm so loving... no it's not. (laughter)

Siddhananda: No way, not even close!

G: Not the way it is, no.

Siddhananda: You don't know all of the past stuff that needs to be cleared. No one knows that stuff.

G: Exactly, all the dross has to be burnt out.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: All of the impurities have to be burnt out, so yeah.

Siddhananda: Things you're not fully aware of.
 
G: Yeah.
 
Siddhananda: So it's a time process, you know.

G: Yeah, many, many lifetimes. (laughter)

Siddhananda: Yeah, but just… it's good you're asking the question and getting clarity. So, thank you for that…

G: Yeah, thank you for coming. Namaste. (hands in Namaste gesture)

Buiding a Foundation

Siddhananda: Okay, cute little guy here (holding up a rock). Oh gosh I’m hearing "my teacher doesn’t know." Not talking of you (looking over at G).

G: Mm hmm.

Siddhananda: "My teacher led me wrong." I'm hearing that.

G: Okay, in what way did they lead you wrong?

Siddhananda: At least I’m hearing "doing a lot of hard work"… (laughing)

G: Ah… well there, it doesn’t mean that…

Siddhananda: …at times.

G: Okay, it doesn’t mean that they led you wrong you just didn’t take advantage of what was being given. Okay, so there are some teachers… there was one in fact that that’s all he gave. All he gave his students was hard work. He gave no other teachings. And the reason they gave you the hard work and gave no teachings was because you had to just surrender and to let go of your preconceived notions. Yeah, it’s to wear down the ego is what that hard work is for. So I’m sure they gave it to you and didn’t want any kind of discussion about it, just go do it.

Siddhananda: He’s saying, “It’s hard, it’s hard.”

G: Of course it’s hard. It’s not meant to be easy. It’s meant to wear away ego, to bring up all of the doubts and all of the nonsense to the surface for you to see it and let go of it… to challenge you.

Siddhananda: Yeah, I’m just seeing images of mountains he walked up with big things of planks on his back, and, you know, different things where he just feels like he’s just…

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: …you know, really in the heat and different things..

G: Yeah, and that’s why they do it. They do it in order to wear down the ego. And so all these questions and anger and all these things come up, and if one just continues through it, eventually, one wears out the ego and goes into some deeper questioning.

Siddhananda: So he’s wanting… (laughing) so what he’s asking he wants [is] a teacher maybe in the next life that might lead him in a different way than that.

G: Yeah, I mean you can learn… you can see that maybe that was not the best for you, you know, you didn’t take advantage of it or whatever the case may be…

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Not every teacher is good for every student, but usually you are drawn to the one that can aid you (smiling).

Siddhananda: (nodding in agreement)

G: Usually you are drawn to the one that can help you. Now whether you open and take advantage of it or not is another story. You can get resistant to it and not take advantage of what they are giving but usually, you know, when you are asking for aid and guidance the universe will send you to the one you need at the time… maybe not the one you want, but usually the one you need. So if you sit with this and you look at it, I’m sure that you can find some lesson within that.

Siddhananda: You know, I do see as you are speaking, a little image of maybe a house that was built kind of sturdy… maybe it did give him some sturdiness… something about it, I think he’s reflecting back, gave him some strength.

G: Yeah, gave him a good foundation.

Siddhananda: Some sturdiness…

G: Some foundation and sturdiness. So you can always get something from your lessons even if it’s to find out this is not the way to do. Sometimes it’s a matter of finding out this is not what I need, this is not what I want, this is not… you know. And then you can go in another direction. Sometimes you need to get that out of the way first before you can fully go into another direction as well.

Siddhananda: Process of elimination, some of these things are.

G: Sometimes… sometimes, yeah.

Siddhananda: Okay, I am getting a reflection of a nice sturdy kind of framework of a house and then there’s a cross in there and some lights. So, I think it’s their way of saying that, yeah, there is something that came from it and he’s feeling more in the heart.

G: Right, so take the lessons that you can have from it rather than having a pity party about how difficult it is. Look deeper and see what you actually did get from it and then honor that and be willing to go forward.

Siddhananda: He’s saying no more 'poor me'.

G: Yeah, no more poor me. The bandwagon ends (laughing).

Siddhananda: No more poor me… Okay he’s ready… he’s wanting to shed that and so, anything else?

G: Is there anything else we can give you or aid you with?

Siddhananda: He’s wanting the COS.

G: There you go… he’s waiting for it. (laughing)

Siddhananda: You knew it!

G: If you ask… first you have to ask (laughing). Yes, definitely, you can have the COS. You’ve earned it.

Spirit: So grateful, so grateful.

G: He’s built a foundation and he’s ready now to definitely go forward, yeah.

Siddhananda: That sounds exactly like what that image says as well that he was reflecting.

G: He needed to see that he’s got that foundation in place. He does have that strength in place and it wasn’t for nothing.

Siddhananda: Right, exactly! It wasn’t wasted time.

G: It wasn’t wasted time.

Siddhananda: Absolutely, absolutely!

G: So thank you for coming in and enjoy the COS.

Siddhananda: Okay, next!

The Sadhvi

Siddhananda: This one is a woman Sadhvi.

G: A Sadhvi, mmm ... (nodding intently).

Siddhananda: A Sadhvi. I can see her toothless. She's quite weather-beaten.

G: Yeah, it's a tough life.

Siddhananda: Yeah. She has grayer hair, but she's younger than she looks. She has something in her hand.

G: Trishul?

Siddhananda: Mm huh ...

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: She's lived the Sadhvi life. She's a gritty woman (laughing). She's a ... jeez, man,  don't mess with her.

G: Yeah, to be a Sadhvi, you have to be a very strong woman to work and be able to endure in that lifestyle. It's very, very hard ... very hard on the form.

Siddhananda: Yeah, she's lived mostly outside, or near rocks ... caves.

G: Yeah, exactly. Most Sadhvis have to stay awake at night, and they sleep during the day.

Siddhananda: Hmm ... she says, "very little sleep."

G: Yeah, exactly. It's very dangerous for Sadhvi women. Yeah, I know ...  I understand.

Siddhananda: She is in form. She's traveled here psychically.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: They're in some kind of Indian ... caves, you know ... remote.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: She's heard of us, and she has knowledge ... if she can help. It sounds like she's maybe not fully enlightened, but she's lived very traditionally, and if there's anything she can do to help ... that's all.

Sadhvi: I [have done] a lot of austerities ... eating very little ...

G: Mm Hmm ... keeping the Dhuni going.

Sadhvi: Oh, yes ... oh, yes!

Siddhananda: She lit up with that, and I can see that burning fire.

G: Yes. Yeah, because that's very, very important, in that you don't get very much sleep, because if you are alone, you have to keep that fire burning. That fire is representative of Shiva and burning away all of the dross, etcetera, etcetera.

Siddhananda: Yes! She's getting excited from you saying that, and that you understand, ...  and also, um ... (the overhead lights flicker and shut off)  ... interesting (laughing)!

G: Oh, that was interesting! The ... uh ... I think the power might have gone out.

Siddhananda: Interesting ... oh, well, hopefully we're still moving here ... but, um ... (taking in a deep inhalation, then sitting back, silent) ... (long pause) ... mm ...

G:  ... (long pause, sitting silently) ... Did we lose connection with her?

Siddhananda: No, there's just a deep stillness ... all pervading.

G:  There's a stillness ...  (the lights flicker back on) ... oh, okay.

Siddhananda:  (inhaling deeply) ... okay, now I can speak.

G: (chuckling)

Siddhananda: There was ...  I ... I just ... I couldn't speak ... it was just still.

G: We had stilling. Now we can [talk].

Siddhananda:  Now I can speak! It's like the energy is back to speak! Really!

G: (laughing with Siddhananda) That was interesting! The whole thing just ... we blew out the energy here into so much stillness that everything stilled, even the lights (laughing).

Siddhananda: Me, too! I honestly lost the energy to speak, and it was so still. So, now, it's coming back, ...  but there is ... yeah, okay ... so, I'm getting this connection back, again (pausing). Oh, she was saying, also, she needs to stay awake as a protector of herself.

G: Right, exactly.

Siddhananda: It's very ... I just see her club, ... she's gonna beat 'em off ... I mean ...

G: Yeah, no ... exactly. Yeah, that's what I mean, you don't get much sleep, because you are alone, and the men are not respectful of it. It's very dangerous to be a Sadhvi.

Siddhananda: She's getting very excited by this, and saying that she's happy to ...

Sadhvi: This is a life that so few even realize and know is out there. We are the keepers of faith.

G: Right. Are you the one that uses the staff, does the mantras, and infuses the lingas ... going into the town?

Siddhananda: She's getting excited about that.

G: Yeah, yeah.

Siddhananda: She's saying, it's not always her, but she knows that happens.

G: Yes, there are some that do the mantras, and they infuse it in. They go into the city, like once a year, and touch the linga and imbue it with life.

Siddhananda:  I see a fire now. It's her way of saying, "That's the fire. That's the creative spark, and without our sacrifice and austerity, people don't realize, that's where the fire of the heart is."

G: Exactly, exactly. They're what keeps the lingas activated in the temples, but most of the general populous doesn't know that. They think it's through the Brahmans, the ones that are doing the things in the temple, but it's not.

Sadhvi: Yes! She's right.

G: It's through the Sadhus. It's through the Sadhus that are doing the austerities.

Sadhvi: She's right. She's right, yes!

Siddhananda: I do see a big picture of a Brahman man. He's stuck in his ego.

Sadhvi: No, that's not right. That's not the way.

G: Exactly. They're not a Brahman.

Sadhvi: Yes.

G: They're not a knower of Brahman. They are not a Brahman.

Siddhananda: She doesn't feel like she wants to ask anything of you. She just wants to let you know that she's here, and wanted to speak for this beautiful tradition that has been soiled and know that there are some out there that are very [genuine].

G: There are some genuine [Sadhus]. I have run into a couple of genuine ones that I saw. When I was in Rishikesh, 99% of them were not genuine, but I did see a couple of genuine Sadhus that got up in the morning. They didn't ask for anything, they went in, and they did their mantras. They went out into the Ganges. They did everything they were supposed to do.

Siddhananda: She's getting excited. She's saying, "that's right."

G: Those are the ones you leave a donation for, and you say nothing to. They are not out there ... (extending her hand out like a beggar) ... bakshish, bakshish ... asking for anything.

Siddhananda: uh huh ... she's getting excited.

Sadhvi: That's right, and that's been me.

G: They were true Sadhus, yeah.

Sadhvi: That's been me, I feel.  I don't feel like I am female. I have walked that life like just a regular Sadhu, but you can call me a Sadhvi or Sadhu. But, I really had to defend myself in my path.

G: Exactly, exactly. I understand. There are very, very few genuine Sadhvis and Sadhus out there.

Siddhananda: I am getting an image of  ...  it's female, but  then it's kind of a male-female blending. So, she is saying, ...

G: Yeah , ardhanarishvara.

Siddhananda: Yeah, that is ardhanarishvara. That's what her heart is, that blending, and even though her body is female ...

Sadhvi:  ... why are people hurting me? Because I'm not ... I am not that.

G: Right, I'm not that form. I'm not that body.  I am that spirit.

Siddhananda: Yeah, she's getting excited. She's getting excited.

G: I am that ardhanarishvara. I am that. Yeah, I understand.

Sadhvi: And, that fire burns in all hearts.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: Why do you hurt me because I'm female?

G: Right, right ... well, there's a lot of ignorance still on the earth. That's all I can say (chuckling).

Siddhananda: Yeah, she knows.

G: It's just a lot of ignorance.

Siddhananda: She'll just continue with this tradition because it's where she's at and where her body is.

G: Perfect.

Siddhananda: She wanted to just tell you that she knows of this work. She's glad that there are others out there that walk in the ordinary society that are lights like this, because we need it everywhere. We're the same.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: So, she's saying, "We're the same, though. We're the same."

G: There's only single ... there's only one Brahman. It doesn't matter (gesturing to indicate all appearances in the mundane world).

Siddhananda: Yes, yes, she's getting very excited. She says, thank you with her staff, with her love, with her lingam and the unborn beauty.

G: Thank you and Namaste (gesturing namaste).

Siddhananda: Namaste (gesturing namaste).

G: Yes, there are a few Sadhvis that are doing the traditions, that are locked away. They're not doing so much of the hashish, the very strong [stuff].  

Siddhananda: People don't know, but, that's the reality. Thank goodness they are out there and doing their [work].

G: Yes, there are some genuine [ones], but, very very few.

Siddhananda: That's a hard life, and they're doing it to keep that flame going.

G: It is a very hard life. It's a lot of surrender and a lot of sacrifice, a lot of austerity. So, you really learn the hard way.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: Really, really have to learn the hard way.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: Yeah, challenging the ego with [this].

Let Life In

Siddhananda: (showing a very translucent, triangular shaped stone) So, this is actually the last one that was abiding in the absolute. We have others in quietude that I’ll grab in a minute.

G: The ones in quietude that are ready to move on.
 
Siddhananda: Yeah, we’ll get them in a sec here (closing her eyes). Okay, they’re feeling still, feeling quiet. I’m asking is there any knowledge you would like to impart?

Spirit: People should let down their guard. They keep it up too much. Let life in.

G: Yeah, if you want to reach the Absolute, you've got  to surrender totally, 100%. You can’t hold one iota, not one hair back ... absolutely nothing.

Siddhananda: That's what they’re showing ... not even a fine hair, you know.

Spirit: Not even a fine hair. There’s nothing to fear.

Siddhananda: I just asked, how is it now, then, for you?

Spirit: No words ... no words.

Siddhananda: So, it’s beyond words.

G: Yeah, words are all duality. You can’t say anything from there (shrugging shoulders) that could really give an estimation of what it is, no.

Siddhananda: They're very nice. I asked them if they would like to stay by the healing center (chuckling). I tried, but they did say they want to move on to aid others, which is good. That's just equally good.

G: Yeah, that is good. Wherever they are pulled to aid others, it will be perfect.

Siddhananda: Absolutely! It really felt good today! I could feel the stillness in the majority of these stones.

Fairy of Light

Siddhananda: (holding up a clear, crystalline stone - smiles and closes her eyes) Okay, so, a little nice, bright stone. Very clear. There's lot of light coming from it, emanating out into kind of a pink color, and now it’s becoming a nice pink rose looking feeling. So far, so good.

G: So far, so good (smiling). No magic tricks (laughing).

Siddhananda: Not yet (chuckling). So ... oh, boy. So, there's a little fairy looking thing above it (a little burst of laughter).

G: (laughing)

Siddhananda: What is happening lately (shaking her head and smiling)? That full moon’s kind of ... whoosh (gestures with hand to indicate something diving down) and changing things. Yeah, it’s a Tinker Bell fairy looking thing above this rose. Let me see what it has to say (closing her eyes).

Spirit:
I'm a Fairy of Light
I dance in light
I dance with all that’s good
That's what humanity should do
They should be with all that's good

Siddhananda: It’s like the building of a character. I do see some bricks kind of being built and laid one on top of the other. It's like that’s your foundation that you build. It does have different things within it in terms of honesty, transparency and an open heart. That’s the foundation that they’re showing they’re building. So, there's a good message in that.
    I do still see that fairy there though (both Siddhananda and G are laughing). Let me see what the fairy is about there (closing her eyes again) just because they’re playful, and that's an okay thing.
    They are, though, showing this foundation. They have their little wand there, and they’re touching it with light (gesturing as if there's a wand in her hand that she's tapping here and there).

G: (chuckling)

Siddhananda:  They are saying that this light can then enter. They’re just touching each brick that they’ve laid with light to really infuse that (gesturing again as if tapping with a wand). So, okay, thank you so much little fairy (both Siddhananda and G make heart gestures with hands).

G: Little fairyyyy (saying merrily and chuckling).

Siddhananda: At least there was something okay in that message though (smiling).

G: Yeah, no, it was okay. That was an okay message.

Siddhananda: Are you sure you don’t want me to call it back so that you can have a little fairy on your shoulder (joking with G)?

G: No, I think Tinkerbell can go on her way (laughing).


Siddhananda: Ohhh, darn it ... I  figured. Alright, Tinkerrr Bell is on her way.

Dissolving Fully

Siddhananda: Here's another heart (smiling and showing a small white heart).

G: Lot of hearts! (smiling)

Siddhananda: And, a lot of soft colors that we have, and that's ok.

G: For the most part. (laughing)

Siddhananda: Yeah, for the most part. (laughing)

This one says, they're not real fluffy. They're laughing.

(G and Siddhananda burst into laughter)

G: Not a fluffy one.

Siddhananda: They're showing ... I'm seeing little pink slippers. They're laughing .. they're saying that they're not those fluffy little bunny rabbit slippers. (laughing)

So, that was cute and they're still laughing. They're saying we do have a sense of humor.

G: The spirit has a sense of humor, so...

Siddhananda: They're saying "we do," and this one knows that was brought up somewhere.

G: Yeah, exactly. The other side does have a sense of humor, of course. God has a sense of humor! 

Siddhananda: Yeah, the Universe does.

G: I mean, look at creation, look at zebras and giraffes. I mean, you know, come on.

Siddhananda: There's a lot of fun in it, let's face it.

G: There's fun!

Siddhananda: There's fun, there's humor, there's play. They're saying, "It's no different here. Why would it be different here?"

G: It is not different. 

Siddhananda: No.

G: One just passes from a more corporeal body to a more ethereal body, that's all. 

Siddhananda: I'm seeing a mountain now. The fluffy slippers are dissolving (laughing), and there's a mountain there behind that.

So, what did you come here for?

Spirit: Brought here through Grace ...

G: (nodding)

Siddhananda: They're a substantial being. I see someone in meditation that's very heavily grounded.

G: Hmm hmm

Siddhananda: Maybe male, but a grounded, earthy, rooted consciousness.

So, what are your questions for us?

They're not sure. It feels to me like they're not fully done. There's an embodiment of something still. I think that's what I'm seeing ... maybe seeing that heavy body. I think they've done a lot of meditation, communing, spirit, God ... something ...

G: They haven't totally laid down and surrendered 100%.

Siddhananda: Yeah ... and I do see pranams ... laying fully on the floor, and saying "no, not yet."

G: Right ... right ... but nothing is lost in the end. Nothing is lost. A lot of people go, and they want the knowledge and stuff, but they don't want the direct experience. They want a little objective ... kind of like ...

Siddhananda: ... an understanding versus ...

G: An understanding like what was the name of the one from India, very well known? The one who wanted to taste the sugar not be the sugar (referring to Rama Krishna).

Siddhananda: Oh umm (trying to remember). I see him ... he's a Kali devotee.

G: Yeah, Kali devotee.

Siddhananda: God ... (laughing)

G: He said he liked to have that duality, and he wanted to taste the sugar and not be the sugar ... so, he had a quick glimpse of the absolute ...

Siddhananda: Rama... it's almost there ... (laughing)

G: It'll come eventually.

Siddhananda: It'll pop in.

G: Anyway ... yeah ... it's more like not direct yet.

Siddhananda: He does understand that. I'm seeing a split of what you're saying like the sugar here, and the body taking it versus dissolving fully into that presence. He lived that way for a long time ... a long, long, long time.

I keep seeing this man in a lotus position, rooted though, and very grounded. There is knowledge there, and there is a lot of wisdom there ... there are still thoughts there.

G: Right, it's still dualistic, and it's more into shakti, more into manifestation of the tantric type of stuff (waving hands in circular motion).

Siddhananda: I think that's right. When you mentioned tantra, I did see something darker around him in terms of covering. I don't know, does that sound right?

G: Yeah, tantra is not always dark.

Siddhananda: Not that it is dark, not that that's dark, but I was just ... I didn't know ... it was not a light fluffy color, it was more rich color.

G: Right, more rich.

Siddhananda: That's what I was seeing. I guess he's saying the COS for him.

G: Yeah, absolutely. He's more than welcome to do the COS.

Siddhananda: Okay, I think he has a little sadness of letting go of this.

G: Yeah ... there's nothing ... (laughing) trust me, you're not going to lose anything.

Siddhananda: I don't know if people looked up to him like this but, you know, he wants to dissolve though.

G: Yeah, nothing is lost.

Spirit: Okay, thank you so much.

G: Once you go into the absolute, you come out the other side. You still see the play of Shakti, but you're looking from another reality, and it is just as beautiful, if not more so than what you're experiencing now.

Siddhananda: He got very still from that.

G: Good.

Siddhananda: Okay, just letting him move along.

Pure Spirit of Heart

Siddhananda: (showing a little caramel colored rock with swirling patterns) I'm seeing this little rock and it's there.. so sweet. It's got some nice sparkly lights coming from it. It's really nice. We're doing pretty good so far today (smiling). They're saying, "I am a pure spirit of heart. I came to give myself to others." Nice.

G:  There's a few there that could use it.

Siddhananda:  (smiling with a little chortle)

G:  Seriously. If they came there for that, there's a few (spirits) there that are waiting, that are there processing, that could really use that right now.

Siddhananda:  So, they're flowing out as this wonderful, pure, graceful presence.

Spirit:  "I came to say that life is undivided and not at all what those in mind feel it to be. It's whole, complete, and lives eternal."

G: (nodding in full agreement) Right, exactly! There's only one heart of being. It's the same within all. It's undivided ... it's never actually divided. It just has the appearance of division. Just like when you have one light bulb, and a lampshade with many holes that has the appearance of having many lights but there's really, in the end, only one. It comes from that singular.

Siddhananda:  Yeah, that's the exact same message that's being put forward.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: (long pause with eyes closed) I'm sorry. I'm just kind of basking in this energy. It's so nice (laughing).

G: Oh, no, that's fine ... it's okay (laughing).

Siddhananda:  Hey, I have some perks! Let me take some of them that I get. I get a few here and there because who knows what the next one is gonna be. (smiling)

G: (chuckling with a big smile)

Siddhananda: Yeeah (sighing) They're okay with staying if you feel like you need this one to help.

G:  Yes, tell them, especially those Mayan ones that are  going through such hell right now. The victim and the perpetrator could both really use some light. They both really, really need some light right now.

Siddhananda: They're really throwing light on that imagery.

G:  Yeah, they need as much as they can get.

Siddhananda: Yeah, it's really hell. What I saw was all that happening there, and then this light came in ... and the light just broadened like this (indicating with her hands how the light opens from a smaller point, increasingly expanding up and out until completely open).

G:  Right, because that's coming from the internal of the being ... not coming from without. It's coming from within. So, if they can really spark that from within, they won't have to go through all of those layers and stuff. They're not trying to penetrate it from outwards in, it's from inwards out so they would have much better success.

Siddhananda:  I hear what you're saying. It makes sense. It's just much more expansive with that imagery (gesturing, again, how expanded the light is). That's all I can say.

G:  Yeah, because that comes from within. They have to feel that from within, and if they can connect within to that single heart, it can expand through (motioning with hands to indicate the circulation of expanding energy moving up and out) in order to break through those illusions.

Siddhananda:  Right ... rather than struggling with this is dark and this is light (gesturing to indicate a back-and-forth tug of war)... but coming from inside, all of a sudden it's a different thing (clasping hands over the heart and gesturing to indicate great relief with a big sigh as if a weight has been lifted).

G:  Exactly. When they get that heart, they get that wisdom within, and then they can start letting go of the rest of it and not resist it.

Siddhananda:  This energy is pretty potent in the way that I can feel it in my heart, too. It can really connect in quickly. So, I'm seeing a beautiful, white lotus ... beautiful.. aahhh!. It brings tears to my eyes almost ... it's so pristine! They want to stay! So, I'm going to put them over here by these white birds.

G:  Put them in the healing area with the rest of our healers, absolutely!

Siddhananda:  Absolutely!

G:  If you can cognize that one heart of being within yourself, it starts releasing all the rest of the illusion. For sure.

Siddhananda:  That white lotus ... I can feel the stem up my body (holding her arms and hands together in front of her torso), and then the flower of it is right here in my mind(opening the tips of her fingers and hands outward like a flower opening within the upper portion of the head). It's so nice ... woo! Okay, moving on ...

G:  (smiling) Right ... it goes through the whole channel of the kundalini and the whole system ... all the nadis (gesturing with the hands of a flower opening in the mind). It's like how it's sometimes shown with the kundalini when it comes up, it blooms in the sahasrara ... it blooms throughout all the nadi systems. That's a very typical symbol they use ... that lotus comes up and it flowers. It goes through that system and begins to flower.

Siddhananda: (smiling and nodding, yes) Oh, beautiful! That's exactly what it was.

G:  So, it's perfect!

Siddhananda:  Really nice. Thank you for adding more clarity to that. Alright, hey, so far so good (saying in a sing-song way)!

G:  So far, it's really what's been needed. We really especially needed that. If they can reach that heart center much more easily, it's a big, big help.

Siddhananda:  For sure, absolutely ... instead of that light-dark, good-bad struggle ...

G:  Exactly. That lets go of all of the resistance. Once you can feel that, it starts to melt the heart and one lets go of the rest of those fears and all of the other stuff around it.

Siddhananda:  Right, and surrender ... surrender comes forward more.

G:  Right!