The Guru’s Sandals

Siddhananda: Okay, they tried to live (closing eyes)… I just want to get this a little bit, because I’m seeing the guru’s sandals and some roses.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: I’m getting a feeling… I hear that they had a perfect life, but maybe they haven’t lived perfect. But, I don’t know if that’s right. (pausing) Things are just fading again and I’m just seeing the guru’s sandals with the roses, the padukas, or however you [say it].

G: Right, padukas, yeah.

Siddhananda: Padukas, okay.

G: Yeah. It sounds like they had the perfect opportunity, but maybe they didn’t take full advantage of it.

Siddhananda: That’s my feeling because they say it was perfect and yet they have not lived perfectly.

G: Right, they had a great opportunity, but they didn’t take full advantage of it.

Siddhananda: Yeah, that’s the truth. I almost hear that they walked with some saints and then the guru’s sandals are there. So, they really had quite a lot of wonderful energies in their life and maybe they just didn’t, like you say, take full advantage [of it.]

G: Yeah, maybe they didn’t recognize it until [it was] too late. Okay this is nice, kind of thing. They had a lot of opportunity, but maybe they didn’t get the full [benefits]. So what is it we can help them with? So what is it they are here for?

Siddhananda: So, again, I’m seeing the guru’s sandals and they are wanting to take that into them more now.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: They see that there was some time lost and opportunity lost. So, what to do now? They are following those rose petals.

G: They can go ahead and do the COS.

Siddhananda: Okay and that’s being transmitted to them.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: There is a little bit of murky energy with this being.

G: Right, they didn’t take advantage of what they had before. So now they are going to have to prove themselves and open themselves to it because they kind of closed the door.

Siddhananda: Totally!

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: They are picking up those sandals and holding them to their heart, kissing them and just crying.

G: It’s one of those kinds of things, you don’t know what you got until it’s gone.

Siddhananda: Yeah, yeah.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: So they are just trying to hold those near to have that energy, too, and so that wasn’t totally a lost thing for them.

G: Right. So, now they have another opportunity. Don’t blow this one off! (laughing)

Siddhananda: They are saying, “No,” and they are crying and holding the sandals. And they have taken the COS. They are very sad though, but they are going to keep on.

G: There’s no reason to be sad. They need to go forward.

Siddhananda: Okay.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Okay. So, thank you!

G: Namaste.

Siddhananda: There’s always another opportunity. But, it’s better if you can, if you do have these opportunities, to take them when they are there, but, certainly there’s always another one. Just something to consider!

G: Exactly!

Wake Up!

Siddhananda: Okay, so… (closing eyes) I just was asking him (the spirit) a couple of times and he wants me to say, “I’m Simon, the Sandman.” I don’t know what that’s about.
 
G: Okay, Simon the Sandman. So, what’s up?

Siddhananda: Oh my goodness! 

G: I hope he’s not the sandman between La La Land.

Siddhananda: I know, that’s the thing.
 
G: Or like Sandman, he was very good as a tap dancer.

Siddhananda: Oh, interesting!
 
G: Yeah, Sandman. (laughing)

Siddhananda: Okay, he’s saying he’s kind of sleepy or he puts people to sleep. I don’t know, I can’t quite gather it. (laughing) Well, let’s see what he has for questions. He wants to wake up. He wants to wake up more.
 
G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: Because he’s saying he puts people to sleep. Well, maybe because he is so sleepy, his energy. I don’t know.
 
G: Exactly, that’s it. He needs to wake up.

Siddhananda: Right. Other people get sleepy and kind of tired around him. He doesn’t want that. He wants to be more alert and awake. (laughing)
 
G: Right, right. So I would say for that one he needs the Kali mantra.

Siddhananda: Oh boy, that will get him going. (laughing) Yeah, you’re right because the other is more heart opening. That will give you a nice jolt. Okay, so, he’s not sure what that is, Kali mantra. I’m just asking if he’s accepting of that.
 
G: He needs a good cup of espresso, that’s what it is, yeah.

Siddhananda: Yeah! (laughing) He’s saying, will it hurt?

G: Will it hurt? No, not particularly. (laughing)

Siddhananda: Well, this other isn’t so good.

G: It could shake him up a bit. It can shake him awake.

Siddhananda: That’s the thing. This other is not so good, he’s numbed out!

G: Yeah, he can’t stay in La La Land. He needs to wake up.

Siddhananda: He’s saying, okay. (laughing)

Spirit: Give it to me.

Siddhananda: He’s going to take it.

G: (laughing) It’s all yours.

Siddhananda: Oddly, I do see someone with really blood shot, heavy eyes.

Spirit: Where am I?

Siddhananda:  He’s saying it’s not drugs though, so I just want to establish that.
 
G: Well, that’s good that it’s not drugs. He’s been in that La La Land for so long.

Siddhananda: Yeah, that’s it. I think I saw smoke and he said, “No, it’s not drugs.” 

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: I just see these big blood shot eyes with heavy lids.

G: Yeah, he’s like Rip Van Winkle. He’s been out for a while.

Siddhananda: Exactly, even a little drool! (laughing)

G: Yeah! (laughing)

Siddhananda: But it’s not good. He’s saying he’s trying to meditate. But that’s not good.

G: No, that’s not it.

Siddhananda: That’s not it.

G: He can have the mantra and let that resonate for him. He doesn’t need to meditate.

Siddhananda: Get up and move, right? (laughing) Get up and move around!

G: Right.

Siddhananda: All right, so let’s make sure he’s got those.

G: We need to get him out of slug mode.

Siddhananda: Totally! Yeah, that’s being transmitted. You can see his eyes…

Spirit: Oh! What’s happening?

Siddhananda: (laughing) They are being transmitted. I see a richer energy. Hello! Like, “Whoa!” Ding, dong!

Spirit: Whoa! What’s happening?

Siddhananda: So those are being transmitted. He is accepting of them. He’s in a lull, just a really sleepy state. But he’s accepting of them and so they are there.

G: Yeah, that will help him wake up.
 
Siddhananda: Oh yeah!

G: It might take him a while. It will [wake him up].

Siddhananda: I think it will. Oh boy, he was out! (laughing)

G: Out for the count, huh?

Siddhananda: Yeah! I’m sure others around him just nod off, too! That’s not good. 

G: Yeah, [just like] pfft… (head falls forward like falling asleep)

Siddhananda: Yeah, totally, exactly! Maybe thinking this is how you sit and meditate and that’s not good. So, anyway, hopefully, that will definitely shift his energy.

G: A little bit. (laughing)

Siddhananda: (laughing) Careful what you ask for, right? I want to wake up. Well, here you go, here’s a lightning bolt for you! Here’s a lightning bolt cup of java for you. (laughing) That’s it!

Driven By Desires

Siddhananda: So, another guy here (shows a small cream stone with a golden edge on one side). I'm hearing, “Influenced by so many things."

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: (pause) So I'm asking, what kind of things are you influenced by?

G: Mm hmm.

Siddhananda: (pause) I'm seeing an image of the chakras.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: I'm asking him if he's focusing on the chakras. He said that he was ... he/she.  I can see the whole scale of the chakras and it feels like he, this energy, is particularly focused on the lower chakras.

G: Ah, Okay.

Siddhananda: Is that correct?

Spirit: I'm here.

G: Why would you focus on the lower chakras (laughing)?

Siddhananda: (laughing) Good question!

G: For what reason are you doing that (laughing), pray tell?

Siddhananda: (laughing) Stop it! No, just kidding (laughing).

Spirit:  Because ... (pausing for a time) ... ego? Driven by desires.

G: Mm hmm (nodding).

Spirit: Driven by desires.

G: Okay, and that's helped you how?

G and Siddhananda:  (laughing)

Spirit: To feed my desires and cravings.
 
G: Mm hmm ... mm hmm ... are you willing to let go of those yet?

Spirit: Yes!

Siddhananda: He's had his fill there ... he/she.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: That's what he feels like ... he's done. I don't think it was necessarily a practice, but maybe it's his way of saying that’s the way he's [been].

G: Yeah, he's been run by his desires rather than pure light.

Siddhananda: Yes, and cravings ...

G:  Ask, instead then, for the pure light of wisdom rather than seeking pleasures of the form. This is not to say if you seek the true light of wisdom that you won't have pleasures (laughing).

Siddhananda: Right!

G: Guaranteed, they are better pleasures than you had before (laughing).

Siddhananda: He's saying, "Thank you for telling me that."

G: Also, understand that you don't focus on chakras. They are just levels and layers of consciousness that one passes through. That is the indication of what it is.
 
Spirit: So, they're not ...What's that saying? So, that's not what has to do with yourself so much ... the chakras?

G: In a way, but it has to do more with going through the levels and layers of consciousness  ... ideals and ideations. One passes through each level, each layer, and gets a chance to dispel them, to see them, to encounter them and to let go of them.

Siddhananda: Okay, so now, as you're speaking, I do hear more of a balancing,  a fluctuation between the lower [chakras], and getting a little higher (laughing).

G: Right, yeah.

Siddhananda: Aiming higher, which is nice (laughing).

G: That's good (laughing). We're making progress.

Siddhananda: It's a good thing! Aim higher! He's laughing.

Spirit:  I want to aim higher.

G: Aim higher, yeah (laughing).

Siddhananda: (laughing) Get past those base primal [desires]...

G:  ... Yeah, let's get past the base primal stuff.

Siddhananda: Come into spirit more, and, that's what he, this energy, is wanting ...

Spirit:  ... to come more to the heart.

G: Aha (nodding).

Spirit: Okay, so that's more focus on the heart then?

G: Yeah, focus more on the Heart ... exactly.

Siddhananda: He's like, "Oh, that's so nice," (chuckling).

G: Yeah!

Spirit: It's nice to be out of that kind of turmoil!

G: Yeah, so he can do the "Om That I AM" and the "I AM THAT I AM."

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Just OM ... OM, the sound of the universe. Connect with the sound of the universe.

Siddhananda: I see an OM in my Heart. So, it's his way of saying, yeah, he's getting that energy into his Heart.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: He's ready to be quieter .

G: It's a good place to start.

Siddhananda: So I think that's good!

G: (gesturing Namaste). So, we will let him proceed from there. Thank you!

Siddhananda: Why are you doing that (laughing)? Sometimes, it's just that question that kind of rattles people ... yeah,  why am I doing that?

G: (laughing)

Siddhananda: That's stupid! No, just teasing.  But, sometimes people have to get their fill of something before they’re ready to move on.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: You know, that's part of a process.

G: Exactly. Sometimes people have to fall and hit rock bottom before they're ready  to move forward.

Siddhananda: Exactly.

G: it's the harder way of doing it, but sometimes that's the case.

Siddhananda: Right, but he did make that shift pretty well and I think they were really tired of that.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Being in that kind of energy.

G: Yeah!

How To Be A Saint

Siddhananda: Okay. (long pause)

Spirit: How do I be saintly? How do I be like a saint?

G: Why do you want to be like a saint?

Spirit: Because they seem pure, holy.

G: Yeah, you don’t need to be a saint, self-sacrificing, to be pure. One just has to let go of the ego, that's all.

Siddhananda: Okay, it’s resonating but they still are drawn to being a saint. You don’t [just] say that and become a saint.

G: Do they want the truth or the mask of piety?

Siddhananda: You’re really cutting out [referring to the audio in the video]. Do they want the truth or do they want the other, the mask, did you say?

G: I’m asking [do they want] the mask of piety or the truth of the purity?

Siddhananda: I see. I hear that now..  (pause) yeah. They do desire truth. They are hearing more of what you are saying there. They desire truth.

G: Good choice! (laughing)

Siddhananda: A lot of people can have that appearance.

G: Yeah, in order to do that, one doesn’t need to become a saint. If that’s the life they are drawn in and they are called to sacrifice, then that is one thing.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Just let go of the fact that [you have to be like a saint to find truth].. it’s not that you have to do something in order to find what’s there now.

Siddhananda: Right, that brings in them in a whole different doorway than trying to act like they are this or that or become this or that. It’s just letting go of that fallacy that they have to become this way or that way.

G: Right, because it’s already there. If they let go of the fallacy that they want to be that, [then they can realize] they are already that… let go of the illusion.

Siddhananda: Okay, so they are sitting with that.

G: Let them sit with that for a while.

Siddhananda: Okay, I can put them over [there in the healing center].

G: Everybody is kind of going to school.

Siddhananda: I know, it’s kind of like, “Sit with this? Okay.” Well, we can use one of those levels over there to have them lined up there.

G: We need a school room and an infirmary. (laughing)

Siddhananda: Now, it seems like we need an infirmary, intensive care unit. I think we need an intensive care unit. I got to get my nurse’s garb on today. (laughing)

G: Yeah, you may need your nursing garb today.

Siddhananda: I did get a flash of bandages being taken off. (referring to a previous spirit mentioned in the blog post “Mummified.”)

G: Yay! (clapping)

Mummified

Siddhananda: Alright, so we’ve got our next one! (pause) A lot of calcification in there. I think this is the one that said they had some hard stuff.

G: Ah, yeah.

Siddhananda: Calcification. Times of sorrow.

G: Yeah, you just become petrified.

Siddhananda: Right. Times of sorrow and not being present. Not standing up for herself. Those kinds of things. Letting people walk on them and also just shrinking in life … shrinking to it.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: And sort of getting into their own calcification and isolation from whatever experiences, or whatever persona they clung to as being this way or that. Yeah. So let’s see what they desire. They do desire light, but they do feel really hardened. It doesn’t sound like in a mean way. It’s more in an isolating [way].

G: No, it’s not in a mean way. It’s just a self protective way.

Siddhananda: That’s it exactly. More like a really hard casing.

G: You have to understand that when you are trying to protect yourself, you are just putting yourself in a prison.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: So, are they ready to open the prison door and walk out of it. They can walk out of that prison. They don’t have to keep themselves in that.

Siddhananda: Yeah, I do see a hard box or prison. The door is open. But it is still pretty, pretty solid.

G: Oh yeah, it’s pretty solid and it will be. They are going to have to take the initiative to step out of that door. But that door is open. It’s not locked and they can step out of it, for sure.

Siddhananda: Boy, I’ll tell you, prison sometimes looks better than this because at least it has bars. But this is a heavy, heavy cement box with not even much light coming in there.

G: Yeah, they really have themselves closed in, yeah. So, I want them to, at this present time, to do inwardly the “I Am That I Am” and connect with that God center, that God light within that burns and gives them life.

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay. I can feel more energy moving within the cell. I don’t even see them. It’s just so enclosed.

G: Right. So I now ask also that some of those beings of light would come to their doorway and hold their hand through so that that being can hold their hand and come out.

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, so that’s there for them. They are not stepping out. They are kind of in there. I can see a little image of someone sitting, but turned away. More just there in their own world. That light is there, but they’re not [responding]. At least, I can see in there a little bit more.

G: So, let’s connect with them again. Do you want the freedom?

Siddhananda: What are you asking? (motioning to try to hear spirit)

G: Do they want the freedom?

Siddhananda: Okay. (pause) They do desire freedom.

G: Then they need to ask Christ to take up their bed. You need to stand up.

Siddhananda: The light is trying to help them up, but they are not wanting to stand up. I’m feeling something got to its feet a little bit.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: They are just almost like they had to be pulled up like this heavy thing. They couldn’t get their legs [under themselves].

G: Right. Again, you have to find that there is strength within you and you can stand up. All you have to believe is that what I am telling you is the truth and stand up, and go towards the door. There are hands stretched through the doorway for you to grab. And they will be more than happy to help give you strength and move you through.

Siddhananda: Yeah, it feels like the light has come more within that boxed area, and kind of helping them up, but then they are not really wanting to use their legs.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Their legs keep collapsing under them. They are back down and then they are being helped up.

G: So, at this point, real quick, I’m going to … (long silence, closed eyes). I’m just going to relay this to them. So, you cannot just sit and think about it. You need to just listen and get up and do it. Don’t 'try' to do it, just stand up and do it.

Siddhananda: Right, and I was telling them you need to walk. You need to walk. Get up and walk, because they are just wanting to limp along.

G: Exactly. Because that’s their free will. If she is not going to even manage her free will that much, nobody can aid her. This has to come within her. Everybody is there to help her, but she has to make that initial standing up. That’s all she has to do.

Siddhananda: Okay, because I do see the light trying to help her up. But, still I see a person with some bandages on. They are limping.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Limping along like they just have none of that strength in there, within themselves, to even move their legs one in front of the other.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And then the bandages, the gauze and stuff.

G: She has to let go of the pity party and all of the drama that she had.

Siddhananda: For sure. I am seeing some more light resonating from her heart, which is good.

G: Good.

Siddhananda: So, I’m feeling that, which is feeling different. And then she’s got the light trying to help, but she’s just like not wanting to get her legs to work well. She’s still gauzed up.

G: She can do it. She can do it. One hundred percent, she can do it.

Siddhananda: She’s saying, “Help me! Help me!”

G: We can help you, but she has got to help herself [first]. Remember God helps those that help themselves. This is what that means. This means you have to take the first step.

Siddhananda: The light is trying to encourage her out and things.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: She’s still all gauzed up, her face, hands, legs.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Just kind of mummified.

G: Yeah, mummified there. (laughing)

Siddhananda: Yeah, mummified, like the living dead. That’s what it looks like (laughing), [with how she's] moving that way.

G: She needs to stand up.

Siddhananda: She is walking, but it looks like the living dead. That’s what it looks like.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: She does have some light in her heart [within] this scene. There is some light emanating from her heart.

G: Once she reaches out [for the help], that pulls her out and take off those bandages.

Siddhananda: She’s still in her cage. There’s some light coming in through her cage and some light in her heart. She is going to try and blindly walk towards that light. But she’s completely covered up like a mummy and the way she is walking so stiff.

Spirit: Help me!

G: Yeah, well, that’s all she has to do. They’ve got her hand and [will just] pull.

Siddhananda: Maybe we can let that one sit a little while. The light is there, trying to usher her out.

G: Yeah, they will get her out.

Siddhananda: You want me to put it aside and we’ll check in a little bit? Or do you want to leave this one? What did you want to do with this?

G: You can put her aside. We’ve got a few we can work with for a little while.

Siddhananda: She needs some time there. It’s going to take a while. So, okay, we’ll leave that one aside and go on to the next one.

A Fresh Start

Siddhananda:  Another little one here (showing a small crystal clear stone). (pausing with closed eyes) 


Spirit: I never meant to be bad.


G:  Ok, well that's good (laughter). So, if you never meant to be bad then you can let go of that.


Siddhananda:  (laughter)


G:  Forgive yourself and learn from it.


Siddhananda:  Good point.


G:  Use it as a left-handed blessing that you are not to do that again (smiling).


Spirit:  So, I'm not bad?


G:  No, you made bad choices, but that which is the light of being is always pure. But, you can't continue to make those choices because you'll keep yourself in mental turmoil and suffering. So, just be willing to let go of those choices and change them from bad to the light, to the good.


Siddhananda:  (pause) Yeah. So, he is absorbing that.


G:  Aha.


Siddhananda:  He/she is kind of saying "Okay" (slumps shoulders).


Spirit: I don't have to feel bad about all these things?


G:  No, you'll get a chance through karma to make up for it (smiling). Okay? So, just be willing for a rebirth, for a new birth into a new corporeal form. Be willing to make amends for those actions.


Siddhananda:  Ok, so they're open to that.


G:  Yeah.


Siddhananda:  I think that is good?


G:  Yeah, when you come back in again, then you can right the wrongs that you did and stand up for the truth against that. Yeah, and you get another chance to balance the scales.


Siddhananda:  (pause) I think it’s enough for this soul and that's fine.


G:  Yeah, just...


Siddhananda:  [They can] shed some of that.


G:  (nodding yes) He can shed some of that and...

 
Siddhananda:  …[and] start a fresh adventure.


G:  Get ready for a new adventure, yeah.


Siddhananda:  That’s all they really needed was permission for that.


G:  Yes. (hands together gesturing Namaste)


Siddhananda:  Okay, sometime it takes so little and other times it [takes much more].


G:  Yes, you have to give yourself permission to [move on].


Siddhananda:  That's it. Permission in itself is huge.


G:  Sometimes, you give yourself permission and then you can go ahead and move forward.

Siddhananda:  Sure. Just [giving oneself] permission to let go, open up and start fresh.


G:  Permission to let go and start fresh, and know that you have another chance. Okay.


Siddhananda:  Absolutely! So, okay.

Merge with the Divine

Siddhananda:  Okay, this one (showing an opaque, pink tinged stone). (pausing with eyes closed) I feel an animal spirit. "Animal spirit," they're saying. It's some kind of dog. At least, I'm getting that image right now.


G: Mm hmm, okay.


Siddhananda: Then, I also see someone in the snow, and there's a dog with them. Okay, they're not an animal spirit. I think that was just being reflected... Maybe they lived in a time when there was a lot of cold, and they had their dog.


G:  Mm hmm.


Siddhananda:  So, anyway, let's see (closing her eyes). I'm still seeing wolves.


G:  Wolves? 


Siddhananda:  So, what questions do you have for us today? [They] want to merge with the divine.


G:  To merge with the divine? We've got a lot [coming in] that are good for the COS, again... to start that expansion.


Siddhananda:  I think that's perfect. They're quite grateful for that, and that sounds just right.


G:  Yeah. 


Siddhananda:  I think that's what was needed (gesturing Namaste).


G:  We've got a lot of them on the other side doing the COS, I'm telling you (chuckling).


Siddhananda:  Yeah, I tell you, when that comes, they're like, "Okay, thank you. Bye." They're good (chuckling).


G:  (laughing) That's good!


Siddhananda:  That does it! Even at the very end of talking, when we're ready to stop, I hear, "COS, COS."


G:  Get the COS... okay! (laughing)

Coming into Fullness


Siddhananda:  Another heart (showing a clear stone).

G:  Another heart (smiling).


Siddhananda:  Okay (closing her eyes). Right away, it's a cosmic [image], and I'm hearing, "Moon phases, shadow, and full moon."


G:  Right. That's the new consciousness coming in. 


Spirit:  Moon rising.


G:  Did they have a message or do they have a question?


Siddhananda:  I think they feel a little bit that that's their consciousness ... changing like that. Sometimes it's in the shadow and sometimes it's full.


G:  Mm hmm, okay.


Siddhananda:  It's not completely [still], but I think they're okay with it. So, they'd like that to be the risen full moon, though.


G:  Yeah, they want to come into the fullness of it.


Siddhananda:  Sure, yeah. I see that full moon with a lot of flowers growing within it.


G:  That's what they want. They want that fullness.


Siddhananda:  (nodding yes) They worship ... not so much worship, but are devoted to nature, to the moon, and to that kind of thing. They just really want that fullness, the risen moon.


G:  They can go ahead and do the COS. That would be good for them.


Siddhananda:  (pausing with eyes closed) Even when just that word, COS, is said, there's always a lovely shift ... a beautiful shift, and that's why they're here.


G:  That will help them with that expansion. So, that's a good one for them.


Siddhananda:  Yeah, for sure.

Piercing the Veil

Siddhananda: Okay, next (showing a clear, heart shaped stone).

G: There we go! (laughing)

Siddhananda: Getting better (referring to bringing the stone into view).
 
G: Getting better!

Siddhananda: (closing her eyes) Just some poetry... I'm getting a little of that feeling. I'm hearing something like a "misty veil" that they have. I do see this kind of mistiness, and I see a body in white on one side looking over. Then, on the other side, there's just this empty space. They're there with this misty veil.

G: Okay. That's interesting.

Siddhananda: It is. So, let's see what kind of presence they have. They're saying, "God is energy, flow is divine." There is something still to break through.

G:  Right. They're at the last little [part].
 
Siddhananda:  It feels that way. They're a pure being. I feel that, but they're just kind of there, and not going over even though it's just mist.

G:  Right... nothing solid.

Siddhananda:  Yeah, exactly. It's actually a really lovely image. I see the whole cosmos on the other side. It's the whole universe... moons, and stars. I'm getting the feeling they're shifting over there now.

G:  Yeah.

Siddhananda:  It wasn't much (laughing).

G:  Yeah. No, they don't have far to go (laughing). They can step through the veil any time.

Siddhananda:  Oh, yeah.

G:  They're ready. They can go ahead and just step through that veil... pierce the veil.

Siddhananda:  They didn't really need much words, or any words. I think it was just...

G:  They just needed permission to step through the veil... to go ahead and pierce the veil, and step through.

Siddhananda:  I feel that universe becoming just that. I do feel the stars, the moon, and peace.

G:  Yeah.

Siddhananda:  Big peace.

G:  They're good where they're at now (laughing). So, we will leave them there to enjoy the universe... the joy of the universe (gesturing Namaste).

Siddhananda:  (gesturing Namaste and smiling)

Resurrection

Siddhananda: Okay, what's next in store here (showing a crystal clear stone)? (pausing with closed eyes).

Spirit: Take away my suffering.

G: Aha (nodding).

Siddhananda: I am seeing an image of a cross, someone carrying that cross up a hill. They've worked hard.

G: So, a tough, tough one.

Siddhananda: Yeah, they're really struggling with that. What should we explore a little more here?

G: In what time were they incarnated?

Siddhananda: Gosh, I hear, "time of Christ," and something [about] Palestine.

G: Yeah, they could have [incarnated at that time].

Siddhananda: Again, that era [was] a very hard time.

G: Very hard, yeah. He could have been a follower of Christ that had gone through an actual crucifixion at that time.

Siddhananda: Yeah, it could have been. Again, I'm hearing, "time of Christ."

G: Did you go through  a crucifixion as well? 

Siddhananda:  I think they watched them.

G: They watched it, but they didn't have to [go through crucifixion]?

Siddhananda: It felt like they watched them, and I don't know if it was Christ [they saw], but they've seen a lot of those.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda:  I'm hearing, "No," not themselves, but they observed that quite a bit.

G: They're fortunate. There were a lot people that were crucified. There were a number of followers of Christ that were crucified as well.

Siddhananda: Exactly, yeah. It wasn't just Christ.

G: No, it wasn't just Christ. There were many that went through crucifixion as well.

Siddhananda:  I'm thinking of someone upside down.

G: Right, Peter.

Siddhananda: Okay (nodding). I see an image of them upside down.

G: Yeah, one of the apostles said, "I am below Christ, therefore do not crucify me like the Christ. I'm not worthy," and he asked to be crucified hanging upside down.

Siddhananda: So, this was a hard witnessing.

G: So, he saw that one? He saw that one crucified? 

Siddhananda: He's saying, "Yes."

G: Yeah, yeah (nodding).

Siddhananda: That one (nodding sadly).

G: Yeah, yeah, yeah. It was one of the apostles. It was either Peter or Paul. I don't remember which one it was, Peter or Paul, but one of them had said that ... "I am unworthy to be crucified like my Lord, therefore crucify me upside down, because I'm unworthy." Yeah.

Siddhananda: (inhaling deeply) I can see wounds on him, almost like he's carrying those wounds on himself, even in his hands and his heart.

G: Right, he's taken that wound. Right, and this has happened. This is why some of them develop the wounds of Christ. There have been those that have developed this. It's called stigmata. They will actually bleed from the wounds because there is such a [strong] identification with the suffering, and taking on the suffering.

Siddhananda: There you go. Interesting.

G: But there is no need to take on the suffering of others.

Siddhananda: I am seeing him bleeding in his hands and in his heart, and his eyes, even (drawing her fingers downward from under her eyes to indicate blood dripping down).

G: People do take on that stigmata. They take on that true suffering, but there's no need to take on that suffering. It does nothing to aid Christ. It does nothing to aid you. It does nothing to aid humanity. So, you are suffering needlessly. So, I ask now (closing her eyes), again, that Christ come to this individual and show him the reality of that. [Show him] that he should only focus on, not the suffering, but the risen aspect (opening her eyes). Everyone has to face their own crucifixion of sorts, but then don't stay in that crucifixion.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: You need to move on to the resurrection, and that's the message.

Siddhananda: You're leaving that part out, you know?

G: Exactly! You need to go forward to the resurrection, and that's the beauty of it.

Siddhananda: The flower of it.

G: The flower of it, yeah.

Siddhananda:  ...  perfect, fresh flower.

G:  It's to show that no matter what it is, it's eternal. Life is eternal. There is no death. It is eternal.

Siddhananda: Like you said, what purpose [does focusing on suffering serve]? How is this benefiting them or anyone?

G: It's not benefiting any. No, it's not benefiting any.

Siddhananda: Boy, I saw a BIG image of Christ with the thorns and the blood.

G: Yeah

Siddhananda: Christ [is] coming in now.

G: Yeah, right (nodding). To dispel that, to show him the resurrection.

Siddhananda: Right, that was there (the image of Christ with the thorns).

G: He needs to see the resurrection.

Siddhananda:  Then, Christ is there, coming forward from that, and it's like that [image of suffering] is a shadowy thing.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Then, Christ is coming in with his arms [open], and then the light [is emanating], and that image of the tears, the blood and the thorns is fading.

G: It's fading, and what will come forward is the reality, not his skewed interpretation of it and his holding.

Siddhananda: That's it. What I can feel from that is just the love and compassion that was there within Christ. Nothing like even what you are seeing with that. I mean, there was suffering, but there's SUCH love and compassion beyond belief.

G:  (murmuring yeah softly as Siddhananda speaks)

Siddhananda: And that has risen into this, this rebirth of this soul ... just so pure and untouched by any of that.

G: Right, right. He's totally untouched and that's His message. You're not touched by any of this. He went to the Father, [and said], "I've gone to the Father that sent me and these things you will do and even greater, for I go to the father that sent me."

Siddhananda: See, and that's the message of not getting stuck in the other. That's not it.

G: Exactly. He was not the only one that came. He came to show the way. [He said], "I came to show the way." [It's] not what people have taken [it to be] ... "I am the only way." That's not what he was saying.

Siddhananda:  He showed the way for your own soul, too.

G:  I came to show the way (placing strong emphasis on each word).

Siddhananda:  That's the reality of it.

G: [He said], "Therefore follow me, do what I do, do the things that I do, for I have come to show you." If he were the only way, he wouldn't say, "do the things I do." He wouldn't say that, but he said, "Come follow me, do the things that I do, learn from me." Basically, that's what he was saying, "learn from me."

Siddhananda: Right. Why would he say it's in you? You ... you [have to] move out of this [suffering].

G: Right.

Siddhananda: It's what it is. It's what the whole thing is about.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: So, I hear this soul saying, or at least the feeling is, [that] there is no death.

G: Right. There is no death.

Siddhananda: Again, only your body may be touched, but your spirit, no.

G: Right, your spirit is never touched (smiling softly).

Siddhananda:  It's a really a beautiful image of that intermingling of that with the thorns and just the full face and figure, but Christ [is] there with those [outstretched] arms (gesturing to indicate how one image is overlaid by the other).

G: Right.

Siddhananda: That's the heart of it. That's the beam of light from the Heart. (inhaling deeply) So, that's really powerful. Woo! And the cross, I still see that a little bit.

G: Yeah, it's time to let go of the cross. It's time to move into that fullness now. You've carried the image of that cross for so long. It's time to release it and just go into the arms of Christ and the celebration now. It's time for the celebration.

Siddhananda: (pausing with eyes closed) It's definitely getting quieter and less images, and just more of a feeling of that peace.

G: Mm hmm (nodding). Right.

Siddhananda: There's more of just a light shining versus those images.

G: Right, yeah.

Siddhananda: It's better.  It's still a little there, but it's fading.

G: Yeah, he just has to accept the heart of Christ and let it be within him, that same light.

Siddhananda: Yeah, it's really turned into more of just an energy of spirit versus any of that [suffering]. It is just that untouched spirit.

G: Right, yeah.

Siddhananda: So, very nice.

G: So, thank you for coming (gesturing Namaste).

Siddhananda: (gesturing Namaste) Always a good lesson, that one, with the ones that are holding on to that kind of thing.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: Torturing themselves.

G: Exactly. You torture yourself. Yeah, it's so strong, it's so imprinted on you, that you will actually develop the wounds and bleed. Yeah (nodding).

Siddhananda:  Yeah, that energy did.

G: Oh, yeah.

Siddhananda: Very realistically.

G: Many have. Padre Pio also had that.

Siddhananda: That's amazing.

G: Padre Pio had that stigmata. They've identified so much with the suffering Christ rather than the risen Christ, that they develop actual stigmata.

Siddhananda: Mm hmm (nodding). You see that with people with all their imagery of the cross and the suffering. Not to say that imagery is bad, but that's where they're connecting their energies.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Look at [it]. You're leaving out the other [part about risen Christ].

G: Right, right. So, I'm sure people will see that I'm wearing a cross with the Christ on it. Not to say that you have to remain in suffering, but one has to understand everyone goes through and bears their own cross at some point in time, to some degree. You have to be willing to lay yourself down on that cross.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: You have to be willing to sacrifice yourself into God, but there's no loss. There's no loss in the end.

Siddhananda: So, if anything, that cross can be like a message of that, [to] lay it down.

G: Exactly, and that's what it is. You go through your own type of a crucifixion, but then there's the risen after that.

Siddhananda: Right

G:  Then one rises at that point. But, you can't just go in and say I'm not going to [do that]. I don't want to go through that.

Siddhananda: No, it's part of it.

G: Exactly, it's part of it. Everyone has to face their own journey, and it's like I said, when Christ came he had all the temptations and went through. He showed us the path that one walks. He was a great light as a teacher to show the path that one walks, and the journey that one has to take. So, that’s all it's saying. This (showing the cross around her neck) is saying be willing to take the journey, and know that in the end, there is the resurrection and the rebirth.

Siddhananda: Oh, exactly. There is certainly a message there, but it’s not to stay stuck there but to move forward from that.

G: Exactly. Don't stay stuck in the suffering.

Siddhananda: Yeah! You do it to yourself.

G: (laughing) So, maybe that’s why we have some [such souls coming], because I am wearing a cross.

Siddhananda: It could be.

G: So, maybe that’s drawing a few?

Siddhananda: It ends up being a good thing.

G: So, it's okay. It's a good thing (laughing).

Siddhananda: It's been a really good message, a very important message.

Hungry For Truth

Siddhananda: Okay, so we’ll start with this one. (pause) They are saying they are hungry for truth.

G: That’s always good. I like to hear that. (smiling)

Siddhananda: They have just done practices, just try and sit in quietude, and that kind of thing. So, I am seeing some boxes. It sounds like they may have broken out of some, which is nice.

G: (nodding) Which is good.

Siddhananda: Yeah, so they are hungry for Truth.

G: Okay. Are they geared more towards Christianity. What is their leanings?

Siddhananda: More like open heart, flowering kind of thing. I’m not hearing Christianity as much.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: I mean, they are open. They are open.

G: Yeah, Christianity is very open hearted. (laughing) If he gets to really know what Christ was teaching, that’s really an open heart.

Siddhananda: Of course! And they are open. So it’s not like they are saying no to that. Maybe they haven’t had as much [experience with that].

G: Yeah, I would say let Christ come and teach that one because his message is so succinct. They’ve got love, they’ve got lust in the Bible. They polluted it.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: But he can give it to him really, really quickly in an easy way.

Siddhananda: (long pause) Okay, so that seems to be making things more fluid. Maybe stirring a little mud, too, and flushing it out is what's happening

G: Yeah. Right. Because like Christ said, if you have seen me, you have seen the father that sent me. Well, that goes for all beings, same thing. If he lets go of the erroneous things, he can go to that light of Truth. Absolutely!

Siddhananda: Well, at first I saw a lot of light and then when Christ came in, there was mud that was being flushed. So, I think there was a lot there that this soul was not even completely aware of, as those things are in there and being dislodged.

G: Right. And it’s like that. You think you are further than you were sometimes, and all of the sudden that mud gets stirred. And, you go, “Ooh! Where did that come from?” (laughing)

Siddhananda: Well, right. Exactly! And that’s what’s happening.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: At least what I’m seeing is that it’s fluid and it is rising to the surface. But there is some darkness there. I don’t mean darkness, bad in that way, but just clinging, mental images.

G: Yeah, and that stuff needs to be washed out. But, if you ask for truth, that’s what you are going to get. You are not going to get a half truth, you’re going to get pure, undiluted truth.

Siddhananda: Yeah, so it’s definitely got more darker aspects that are whatever … mental ideations, clinging, past stuff, who knows. But, the energy is just sort of there allowing that, so that’s good.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: So we’ll let that process be.

G: Yeah, we’ll just leave him for a while again. We’ll put him to the side and let him have those rivers of living waters just complete … (running her hands down like a waterfall). The river flushing that … flushing that … flushing that, yeah. Oh, yeah, all that stuff has to come to the surface one way or another to be seen and let loose of.

Siddhananda: Of course.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: It’s a process, so who knows. With some, maybe it’s longer than others. But that one had a lot more to be flushed than what they even knew of.

G: Yeah, more than they knew was there, yeah. And it has to come. You have to see it. You have to let it go. It’s not just going to magically disappear.

Siddhananda: No.

G: That’s the process.

Siddhananda: At least that’s not what I think most of us know is the process … boom, gone! I’m sure that can happen. It can happen, but it’s also a process, too.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: All you can do is keep open and let things continue to flush through.

G: Exactly!

Change is Always Possible

Siddhananda:  Next (showing a little white stone)!

G:  Next (laughing)!

Siddhananda:  (closing her eyes) Okay, so I'll just put out the first image, which is of a Christmas tree in a home, and a nice fire. It's nice and warm.

G:  Nice, comfy, cozy.

Siddhananda:  Nice, comfy, cozy ... yeah. They're saying that they're not really that kind of a being, though. They would like to be more of an open, inviting presence versus a stubborn, hard one.

G:  Well, if you'd like to change, you can change it. If you want to be that being, you can be it. Just stop being the other.

Siddhananda:  (laughing)

G:  (laughing) So, what's preventing you from stopping to be the other?

Siddhananda:  It feels like there's some anger.

G:  Anger. That's helping you how? How is that serving you?

Siddhananda:  "It's not helping me. Not at all," he's saying.

G:  Mm hmm, right. So, you see the fallacy of that. Be willing to drop that, let that go, and leave it in the past.

Siddhananda:  It feels like they don't even know who [the anger] is for anymore.

G:  Right. They're just angry to be angry.

Siddhananda:  Yeah (laughing). It's been held onto for so long that they don't even know what the initial cause of it was anymore.

G:  Right. Sometimes it's that way. So, you're not enjoying that at all and you want to be the other. So, be the other.

Siddhananda:  As you're speaking, I do see some bubbling in there. It's starting to bubble and heat up in there, in a good way.

G:  Yeah, in a good way. There's no reason why you can't go on to be the other. You just have to be willing to let go of the [anger], open the door and walk through to the other.

Siddhananda:  I am seeing the shadow of a body walking into that initial scene. They're in there, and [can] maybe sit there themselves, and start inviting that warm feeling into their own heart.

G:  Yeah, exactly. Open the heart and allow that warmth to come in there. Then, you can extend that outward to others.

Siddhananda:  (pausing with eyes closed) They are sitting there and trying to enjoy that feeling themselves.

G:  Mm hmm.

Siddhananda:  It is a dark body that's in that space. So, hopefully, they'll get warmed up by that. It'll take a little time. They carried these things for a long while.

G:  Exactly.

Siddhananda:  I feel like it's another one of those beings that just needed permission.

G:  Right. There's always permission to do that. There's always permission to drop the old. It's not beneficial. It's not aiding yourself or aiding anyone else. Why would you not have permission to drop that and go to something much better, much lighter?

Siddhananda:  I do see an image of some chains. They're loosening. They're unlocked.

G:  Mm hmm. They're never locked, because they're put on there by yourself. You carry your own chains. So, anyway, you have to just be willing to take that off and move forward.

Siddhananda:  Okay. So, they're in that new scene now and I think that sounds pretty good.

G:  Yep, so we will leave them there to process that and to contemplate that. Yes, they have that ability to change. Absolutely.

Siddhananda:  They do like the COS.  They're asking me to put it out there if they can have the COS.

G:  Yes, good. That will help.

Siddhananda:  Okay, good. They're happy that I said that, of course (smiling).

G:  (smiling)

Dissolving the Ego

Siddhananda:  Next one (closing her eyes). Right away, I'm hearing, "rambling mind."

G:  Raambling mind ... uh huh.

Siddhananda:  I do see an image of that ego that's being stepped on, like with Shiva Nataraja, where he's stepping on that little ego, and then there's that life cycle (gesturing to indicate the ring that encircles the form of Nataraja). So, I'm seeing that image and I think it's being reflected back [to say] that that's really like that. The ego is really a nuisance for them. Ego is a nuisance, but it's really a rambling thing for this particular energy. It's that way for a lot of people, actually.

G:  Yeah.

Siddhananda:  They would like that to be suppressed, or [go] in the background, or to be dissolved, however that works.

G:  It's not about suppressing it. It's about seeing through it and dissolving it ... seeing the fallacy of it.

Siddhananda:  When you say that, he is seeing that when [he] holds it back it gets worse.

G:  Yeah (nodding), right.

Siddhananda:  If he goes like this ... (gesturing as if pushing something away), then it [rises] up more, and that's very exhausting with this suppression, though.

G:  Right. Suppression doesn't work. You can't suppress because [then] you're giving it more energy.

Siddhananda:  Yes, that's exactly what he's experiencing.

G:  Yeah, then you're feeding it, giving it too much substance.

Siddhananda:  Right, giving it more energy (nodding). So, he's saying, "Okay, there's suppression. Is the other way looking with awareness, with pure awareness?"

G:  You're aware of it, and then you see the fallacy of it, yeah (nodding). You see that it's not a solid thing. It's only as solid as you make it.

Siddhananda:  I can see some light shine on this energy. It's definitely got some sunlight coming into it.

G:  Mm hmm, yeah.

Siddhananda:  I think it's been an exhausting battle.

G:  Yeah, yeah, yeah, and it's a battle you won't win by trying to battle it that way (laughing). So, one has to [watch it] more. By watching the ego, all its drama and its stories, you see the fallacy of them. You see how much [of it] you've taken to heart. Eventually, you see it as nothing more than a movie playing on a screen.

Siddhananda:  (pausing with eyes closed)

G:  It's just another dream state ... not solid in nature.

Siddhananda:  Yeah, there's a lighter energy. There's not that struggle so much. So, that's great. Maybe, the COS, is that okay?

G:  Yeah, he can also do the COS. That would benefit him.

Siddhananda:  He's very grateful, very grateful, to have something else, another energy, to help with this.

G:  He just needs to shift that energy and stop fighting it, stop suppressing it, but to see into it and question it on the deepest level. Then, that will dissipate. That will clear up the erroneous assumptions about it.

Siddhananda:  It's a different way.

G:  (nodding) A different way to do it, yes (chuckling).

Siddhananda:  One is beneficial, helps flush it out, and the other makes it stronger.

G:  ... just makes it stronger, yeah.

Encountering Oneself

Siddhananda:  On to the next one. Why am I not getting it in the [viewfinder]? There (showing a transparent, heart shaped stone)!

G:  There you go (laughing)! Where is it? Where is it? 

Siddhananda:  If it goes up here, down there, I don't know. Alright. I'm coordinated in that way (smiling).

G:  (laughing)

Siddhananda:  (closing her eyes) So, let's see what this one needs today. "Trigger points," I'm hearing.

G:  Mm hmm.

Siddhananda:  I think what he's saying is whatever buttons get pushed.

G:  Right ... buttons. He's got some buttons (laughing)? What are his particular buttons (chuckling)?

Siddhananda:  (grinning) Whatever his particular ones are, we'll see here (closing her eyes). It sounds like they get pushed easily for him. I do see a picture of buttons lined up.

G:  Mm hmm, right, like an elevator (laughing).

Siddhananda:  Yeah (nodding yes). It's like that, exactly. Kind of like where the chakras would be lined, [could find] a button in there, I guess.

G:  Yeah, got plenty of buttons. 

Siddhananda:  Yeah. He/she is just kind of that way.

G:  Mm hmm.

Siddhananda:  I do see that imagery needing to be dissolved in more light and not having, like you say, those knee-jerk reactions.

G:  Knee-jerk reactions, right. 

Siddhananda:  It sounds like whatever they're around, in terms of who they love and care for, they can sometimes go off.  They don't mean to because that person isn't coming at them [aggressively] in that way, but ...

G:  ... but that's the way they've reacted.

Siddhananda:  Right. They go off with these kinds of things.

G:  So, they might want to sit and look at why they've gone into those types of reactionary [responses], because if they come [and] ask the universe [to] clear those buttons, to make that better, what you're going to have is those buttons] pushed even more. You'll get plenty of opportunities to confront it. 

Siddhananda:  That's a big lesson.

G:  It's a big lesson, yeah.

Siddhananda:  "It's not like they're just going to go away," they're saying (laughing).

G:  No, it's not like they're just going to go away. If you ask for peace, they're going to give you a lot of opportunities to try to find peace. You're not instantly (snapping her fingers) going to get peace. They're going to bring up all sorts of situations where you're really going to have to learn the hard way. That's what it is. It's not that all of sudden it's swept away, and ... oh, now I'm going to be this very peaceful [being]. You have to really look at your own life and see what it is that's pushing those buttons, and you get so riled with it, upset with it, immediately. 

Siddhananda:  (rocking gently to and fro with eyes closed)

G:  It takes introspection in order to find out what the key is, to look deeper than that, and then, let go of that.

Siddhananda:  (pausing with eyes closed) That is being absorbed. I think they do understand that there's got to be a cause, and that they need to look at whatever cause is there ... what's triggering that, rather than having it just go away.

G:  Right, and then, playing blame games on somebody else.

Siddhananda:  (nodding) Pointing ... finger pointing ...

G:  ... finger pointing, because that's not going to help the situation, either. Well, it's your fault that I'm doing this. That finger pointing, blame game, is not going to work. 

Siddhananda:  Yeah, that's what I'm seeing ... a ricochet [effect] with those energies bouncing off of others like a ricochet.

G:  Right, because what you put out, you get back.

Siddhananda:  It does come back.

G:  It'll come back, exactly.

Siddhananda:  It'll come back making it worse.

G:  Exactly. Yeah, so, like I said, if you ask for peace, there will be a lot of heavy situations that you can attempt to find peace in (laughing). 

Siddhananda:  (laughing) It's not like all of a sudden it just melts off.

G:  No, it doesn't melt off. You have to learn it within yourself. So, in order to learn it within yourself, you're going to find a lot of things that are not peaceful so that you can learn peace. So, whatever you're looking for, really, you're going to draw in the opposite for a time so that you can find it. You'll have more opportunity to find it because you have to find it in your own life (chuckling).

Siddhananda:  So, basically, he should get ready and try to get stabilized.

G:  Exactly. Really just sit with it and see what it is that makes that knee-jerk reaction [occur], and see the fallacy of that. That's the way to diffuse them. 

Siddhananda:  He's trying to settle down with this. I see a lot that's stirring in there (moving her hand back and forth). He's trying to just stay present and sit as best as possible, but I can see that [that] is being stirred within him.

G:  Yeah, yeah. So, one just has to continue to sit with that. Look and see it more deeply. Yeah, he's got to confront himself. 

Siddhananda:  That's the work we all have to do. No one gets out of that (shrugging).

G:  No, no one gets out of that. We all have to do that work and have to sit there with it, look deeper, and see, because we're the ones that are our own worst enemies. We're the ones that cause ourselves the pain.

Siddhananda:  Yeah, I think for him, too, he doesn't want to, like you were saying, blame or hurt others anymore with his own issues.

G:  Right. The only one that can solve his own issues is himself. 

Siddhananda:  "It's hard," he's saying.

G:  Yeah, it's very hard. It's not easy, but one has to be willing to confront their self, and their own patterns, their own dramas, and see beyond to break through it. That takes, first, becoming aware of it. It's good that he's become aware of it, and he's willing to stop the blame game. That's good. That's a big step forward. 

Siddhananda:  Okay (smiling with a nod).  Okay, good (gesturing Namaste).

G:  (gesturing Namaste)

Siddhananda:  I do hear, "COS." Is it okay for him to [have that]?

G:  Yeah, he can go ahead and do COS. 

Siddhananda:  That's kind of [jumped] in there in the end.

G:  Mm hmm. Yeah, that should help to still him to some point and expand him a little bit so that he doesn't get so caught up in the emotional [energies].

Siddhananda: Right, and right away, with that energy going in, there was a lighter feeling. So, I think that's a good one for him to have, of course. Okay, well, namaste (smiling).

G:  Moving right along (chuckling softly).

Request to Serve Humanity

Siddhananda:  (sitting with eyes closed) Okay. I'm hearing, "Coming to earth [soon]."


G:  Okay.


Siddhananda:  It sounds as if they might be a light body now, but they're coming to earth. I see an image of some greenery. They want to bring some fresh growth and light to the planet, but I'm feeling that they're not completely still. They're not completely done with their work.


G:  Right. 


Siddhananda:  In terms of doing all that, they still have their own work to do, I'm feeling (closing her eyes). They do seem like they have an open heart, made of light. So, they've got a good start.


G:  Exactly. So, what is [it that] they are asking here?


Siddhananda:  It sounds like they want to be of best service to humanity and the earth, as they're coming into earth. It feels like they're coming into body soon, coming into form.


G: So, to do that, all they have to do is let the universe know that, [and] trust that the universe will send them to the right place [where] they need to be. 


Siddhananda:  That’s good enough then.


G:  They have a choice where they go. So, that's all they need to do is [to] ask the universe to bring them to the place where they can serve best and continue forward with their own lessons. 


Siddhananda:  Okay. They say, "Namaste."


G: Namaste. Thank you.

Pure Love

Siddhananda: Ok (showing a pink translucent stone), back on the tow truck. (laughing) You can almost see it (referring to the stone being shown in the camera).

G: (laughing)

Siddhananda: Gearing up to go to the next round here, right! (pausing with closed eyes)

Spirit: I came in as an energy of love.

Siddhananda: I guess they want a distinction between… Let me ask if this is correct before I [say it]. (pause) They want a distinction between the individual kind of love and pure love. And how they just live with the pure love, what happens to that individual love, like love for family, love for God, love for…

G: It still remains, yeah.

Siddhananda: It's within that.

G: It just becomes absorbed in it. It becomes absorbed, but it's not really that separate. But, what happens is you start losing that. As one goes further they lose that individuality, [that] feeling of separation between anything, so it's just love.

Siddhananda: It just remains that.

G: It just remains that, yeah.

Siddhananda: I'm hearing, “Without revolving…”

G: Yeah, it's not…

Spirit: …thoughts or emotions.

G: Right, right, it’s…

Spirit: Those things go.

G: Right, right. The mind stills and one just remains in that "IS,” that state of non-duality and "IS,” and yeah, the eyes register duality. You see duality through the eyes and you see the various forms, but one is no longer in the illusion of everything is separate, separate, separate.

Siddhananda: I hear a little bit with that being [that]…

Spirit: It is sad though. I mean, would you stop…

G: No, it's not sad.

Spirit: …loving someone…

G: Absolutely not!

Spirit: …[that you] care about.

G: No.

Spirit: Is that…

G: No. One gets to realization and goes back into the world and enjoys it for what it is, yeah. Nothing's lost... nothing's lost.

Spirit: No, can't be…

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Right away I felt, whatever this one was conveying, I felt that went away. It just went away and just really dissolved there. (pause) Yeah, they really let go. It's very nice.

G: Oh, that's good, that's good.

Siddhananda: Not saying too much.

G: Yeah, no, I think that's all they needed. They're going to sit with that and then let that expansion of love [come].

Siddhananda: That's all that they are really here for.

G: Let that expansion of love come, instead of that contraction…

Siddhananda: That's right.

G: ...of ideation about it, yeah.

Siddhananda: Perfect way to put it... So grateful for that.

G & Siddhananda: (gesturing Namaste)

True Fulfillment

Siddhananda:  Okay, we've got our little linga (showing an oblong, black stone). So, here's our next feeling, or our next energy (laughing).

G: Well, that's it ... the next energy.

Siddhananda: (pausing with eyes closed) Hmm ... taking a long time with this one. I'm hearing, "Brushing heaven ... strokes of heaven," like painting that, or something.

G: Okay, is there something that you came to ask, or something you came to say, as the case may be?

Siddhananda: (sitting with eyes closed) What I'm hearing, and I asked if this was correct, is "Heaven here on earth."

G: (nodding) It can be, yes. [There's] no separation.

Siddhananda: They are disembodied now. With the strokes, maybe they're saying you create your own...

G:  ... your own reality.

Siddhananda: [You create your own] land, or reality, and that's what the strokes are, like in a painting.

G: Right, you create your own story.

Siddhananda: He's painted things for his story, which is the realm he's in right now. This realm of sun, really pretty sunsets and sun rises, and the sky is always beautiful colors. [There are] really nice mountains with flowing waters. This beautiful place, he said that he's painted that, and he's there.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Sometimes he changes it, and paints it a different way (chuckling lightly with a smile).

G: (laughing)

Siddhananda: A different color today (grinning)!

G: Just want a different color today (laughing).

Siddhananda: He saying, "You can do that."

G: Yes, you can.

Siddhananda: Let's see what he's wanting here, though (closing her eyes). I think he's ready to move on. At least, I'm hearing that. I don't know if it's immediately, but I think he's trying to look at things a little more. Like is this really satisfying? Is it fulfilling ... eternally? [It's] that kind of thing.

G: Right, right (nodding).

Siddhananda: And I don't think it is for him (nodding).

G: No, no. You can do all that, yeah. You can create and you can call into being all of these different things, and these experiences, etc., but until one knows what's at the heart of being, that IS, that God presence, then after awhile it becomes un-fulfilling.

Siddhananda: I'm sure (nodding). It's just like the lokas, or ...

G:  ... the lokas, right ... the heavenlies. Mm hmm, right. They're kind of like vacation spots, one can say (laughing).

Siddhananda: Mm hmm, exactly.

G: [They're] like vacation spots for a time, but eventually one has to want to know what is truly at the heart of being. So, when you get ready to truly know what's at the heart of being, that's when you have to submerge into the heart.

Siddhananda:  He's really hearing you. I think he's been at this awhile (chuckling). He's painted his beautiful life, and he wants to say, that it's not all that it's cracked up to be in some ways. He's saying, "That's what ego would like, [what it's] always hankering after, and thinks that's it."

G: Ego thinks it wants it, but eventually finds out that that's not fulfilling.

Siddhananda: Right, and I think what he's saying is [that] it's still of ego.

G: It is still of ego (nodding).

Siddhananda: It's of a persona ...

G:  ... in control.

Siddhananda:  Yeah!

G:  It's still from control. I (ego) want to control my universe.

Siddhananda:  Of course, it does.

G:  It doesn't matter if you have control of the universe, and you make it as beautiful as you can, it's still empty of something.

Siddhananda: Right. For sure. For sure, and that's what he's feeling is there, that [emptiness]. There's still that ache there. There's that separation there.

G: Yeah. That's what he needs to find out. The separation is that he's attempting to control.

Siddhananda:  Mmm ... (closing her eyes).

G: You have to let go of all that control.

Siddhananda:  He's trying to be the manipulator of his reality.

G: Right, right, right. You have to let go. Like they say, let go and let God. Then, you'll find out there's nothing to control.

Siddhananda:  (pausing with closed eyes) This is hard for him to hear. It's a hard lesson.

G: It's a hard lesson (nodding yes).

Siddhananda:  Wooh ... it's a hard lesson for him! I mean, he's been at this for a long time.

G:  Yeah, exactly.

Siddhananda:  Even maybe while he was in body, he's been at this kind of thing, creating his own rightness for himself.

G:  Exactly!

Siddhananda:  This is a hard lesson, but I am feeling that he's open to it, but GOSH it hurts him.

G: It's hard to let go of that control when you've wanted that control for so long a time, and you've had that type of control to manipulate this and manipulate that. Having to let go and let God can be a difficult thing. Yeah, but you have to let go. Let go, and you will find out there was nothing to control (smiling).

Siddhananda: Oh, that's hard for him (shaking her head).

G: Yeah, it's tough (nodding with a smile).

Siddhananda:  I'm seeing a lightning bolt, though. I am seeing how that's ripping on him in a way that he doesn't even know, really, what he's asking for. But, that was at his heart ... that this has gone on too long ... that it's not true fulfillment.

G: No, it's not true fulfillment. The only true fulfillment is knowing that IS, that ever present IS that gives life, that is Life.

Siddhananda:  Absolutely! What you're saying is piercing him. What I saw is an image of this beautiful sunset with the mountains. I saw a ripping of that, but there was some light, like Christ, or energy, coming through that. It was like a torn canvas (gesturing as if slicing through a canvas with a knife).

G:  (nodding) It's the illusion. The illusion has to be torn, and one has to step into reality, because he's in a dream state of his own making.

Siddhananda:  Yes, that's it exactly!

G:  You have to wake up. Wake up! (laughing)

Siddhananda:  Yeah, this is hitting him. This is hitting him (nodding gravely).

G:  Absolutely, it's going to hit.

Siddhananda:  It's like those [Zen masters] ...  like you say, wake up! ... they hit you over the head, because you are just ... ehhhh (gesturing as if floundering in a kind of sleep) ... in your own ...

G:  ... in your own dream state ... in your own delusion.

Siddhananda:  Yeah, delusion ... fantasy world.

G:  Delusion and fantasy, yeah.

Siddhananda:  Which you may think is pleasant, but it's like that one guy that came in that ate all the sweets with the cavities. It does create [dis-ease]. It's not a healthy thing.

G: No, in the end, it's not, but it takes a long time to come out of that, and to see that that is not [beneficial]. You can tell people this for a long time, but they're not going to believe you. It takes a very long time, as is evidenced by this [soul's situation], to get that, and to find out that it is the truth, and that it is not fulfilling in the end. It's not.

Siddhananda: For sure. No, and you can really get [trapped] in your own world with that.

G:  Yeah, you can get lost in that for a lot of eons.

Siddhananda:  Wooh! ... and this one did.

G: It's a lot of eons, a lot of eons, and lifetimes, and ... yeah, yeah (nodding).

Siddhananda: Again, I think it's what people think they want sometimes, but ... boy! (shaking her head).

G:  Exactly!

Siddhananda:  But, think again! That's all. Just take some time to consider that.

G:  Yeah, yeah (nodding in full agreement).

Siddhananda:  So, anyway, that image is there with that ripping apart [of the illusion], the light, and Christ there. It's strong! He's feeling that. That's what he's saying. He's really feeling that in his heart with that lightning bolt like a Vajra (opening her eyes wide).

G: Yep, like the Vajra (nodding gravely).

Siddhananda:  Like the Vajra!

G: Yeah, it's very, very strong. We'll let him go ahead to find out [what] Christ [is], and surrender into that, surrender into God. Have no fear in that, and find out what is at the center of being.

Siddhananda:  Christ is there, yeah (nodding).

G:  He's chased the illusion long enough.

Siddhananda: Oh, man (shaking her head).

G:  He knows what all the illusion is (laughing).

Siddhananda: Yeah (nodding and smiling). You know what you want, or maybe, it's what you don't want now, but still ...

G:  Exactly, ... but now find out the truth (laughing).

Siddhananda:  I am seeing some dripping colors (gesturing as if paint is melting down a canvas). They're starting to drip. It's his sorrow, but also it's ...

G:  Yeah, yeah ... he's starting to let that go of it (mimicking Siddhananda's gesture of paint dripping).

Siddhananda:  ... letting go, yes.

G:  Yeah, it's starting to melt (nodding with approval).

Siddhananda:  It's releasing all of the emotions attached. That's melting. I can see it's like melting colors in the rain just dripping down, and then there's Christ there.

G:  When he sees what the reality is, he'll see it's much more beautiful than anything he could ever create (smiling joyfully).

Siddhananda:  Mmmm ... he's drinking that in. He is. He is. It's going to be a little while maybe, but I don't know. No one can say with these things in time. Who am I to say, but it is beginning ... quite intensely, actually. So, that's a good thing.

G: (gesturing namaste) So, we will leave him with that.

Siddhananda: (gesturing namaste)

G: He's got enough to process for awhile (laughing).

Siddhananda:  I think so! (laughing as she places the stone aside)

G:  Thank you for coming.

Siddhananda: Thank you for melting! (laughing)

G:  (laughing) I'm melting!

Siddhananda:  I'm melting! No, but it's all good (smiling).

Melt into Openness and Harmony

Siddhananda:  Here we go (showing a clear, heart shaped stone).

G:  The last [one] for today!

Siddhananda:  The last one. Another little heart. That'll be nice (closing her eyes). I am getting a picture of snow, and things. We'll see where that goes (pausing with eyes closed).

G:  Mm hmm, okay.

Siddhananda:  Iciness ... not in a bad way. It's a pleasant scene. So, there is some iciness in them ... like a block of ice.

G:  Oh, yeah ... frozen.

Siddhananda:  Yeah, frozen in time, or frozen in the heart.

G:  In the heart, yeah. So, what is frozen? What is that? What is it that's frozen?

Spirit:  Frozen memories ... frozen seeing.

Siddhananda:  (pausing for a time) "Frozen heart," I hear. So, I'm seeing an ice pick. [They're saying], "You're going to need an ice pick," (gesturing as if holding an ice pick poised to begin chipping away).

G:  They've got themselves so blocked up, so blocked up. They need to ...

Siddhananda:  They need some sun (opening her eyes wide and chuckling).

G:  Ask if they would allow for the sun (closing her eyes), for that light, to melt that icy heart.

Siddhananda: (closing her eyes) I can feel that being brought in ... the light. There are a lot of souls over there that are working towards good things, and I can feel that energy there as well. I think they've been trying to be there for this soul. They've been encouraging them, too, to come here and get this going.

G: Right, right ...

Siddhananda:  Again, to get that frozen up, it's been a long time, and you can see that wind, a storm.

G:  It's been a long time, right. There's nothing pleasant in it. (closing her eyes) They need to open to that light, let the sun [in], and let that thawing take place. Let the springtime come. Let that regeneration take place.

Siddhananda:  What I'm seeing is that block of ice and then I see all the beauty growing around it, but that block of ice is not [affected].

G:  But, it [is] not allowing anything in.

Siddhananda:  That's exactly right!

G:  It's not allowing anything in (closing her eyes).

Siddhananda:  [Not allowing] that transformation.

G:  Exactly. They have to let that to melt. The springtime is here. They've had themselves in that frozen vacuum for a long time. Whatever that hurt and pain is, it's time to release it. It's not benefiting them (opening her eyes). There's no reason to have that there, to have the heart so closed in that ice.

G and Siddhananda:  (sitting for a time with closed eyes)

Siddhananda:  I am seeing the sun touching it, at least. Before, it wasn't really that way. [There's] at least some contact with it to begin to ...

G:  ... melt that ... to begin to melt that ... mm hmm (nodding).

Siddhananda:  Yeah.

G and Siddhananda:  (Both sitting in silence with close eyes for a time)

G:  I ask that Mary, mother of Christ, come in and be with that individual, because she faced a lot of pain in watching her son being crucified. So, whatever that pain is that they're ...

Siddhananda:  ... so maybe they can have some empathy from that.

G:  Yeah, right. So, maybe she can get [through to them].

Siddhananda:  That's a good start. Okay (closing here eyes). She does have that heart that got that ... that ... dagger (turning toward G)?

G:  Right, [it's] that pierced heart, and the burning heart, yeah (nodding).

Siddhananda:  He's feeling that. He wants to cry. He, She ... I feel it's more like a He, for some reason. Anyway, they're reflecting that pierced heart, that aching, within the ice.

G:  (closing her eyes, again) We also ask that Christ would come to him and show him that there is resurrection. [Show him] that it doesn't matter what pain one has gone through, what one has suffered through, that there is a possibility for resurrection and absolutely life ... that there's nothing one needs to protect themselves from.

Siddhananda:  Mm hmm, that's what he's done. It's a box.

G:  Yeah, it's a box.

Siddhananda:  It's an icy box.

G:  He's got himself locked in so that he doesn't get hurt any longer.

Siddhananda:  He's in there ... (mimicking someone trapped under sheets of ice]. Like I say, it's not like he's a mean person, or anything like that.

G:  No, it's something from sorrow.

Siddhananda:  Exactly.

G:  It's something that he had that was just so difficult to bear that he's closed himself off.

Siddhananda:  That's exactly right. I'm feeling both Mary and Christ there. Christ is there with the open arms, and Mary with the ... (crossing both hand over her heart).

G:  Let that light start to burn in the heart. Let that heart be lit so that the burning heart can begin to dissolve and melt the ice that's been around there.

Siddhananda:  Mm hmm.

G:  Yeah, he needs to allow that heart to live again and awaken. He's closed it down so hard that it's become ice.

Siddhananda:  That's right.

G:  So, he needs to allow that light, life and love to come back into his heart.

Siddhananda:  That warmth.

G:  Whatever it is that he lost, it's not lost. It's there, and it's still alive on the other side. So, I ask (closing her eyes), at this point, that whoever it is, whatever it is, that he lost to come to him now so that he can see that there is still life ... that nothing has been lost ... that they haven't died, and that they are still there. They are very much alive, and always have been.

Siddhananda:  I am seeing a woman and child. They're made of light, and they're really quite a nice presence there. [It's] a young child and a woman. They're by him. The woman touched the ice with her hand.

G:  Mm hmm, right (closing her eyes). So, let that heart open to that love that you felt for them while in life. Let that love spring forward again and reignite the heart so that it burns this ice away.  There's no reason to have that.

Siddhananda:  There is some dripping on the ice. I don't know if that's tears, but, also, it is melting. I'm feeling some of that force there of Christ, and also their loved ones and the child.

G:  Mm hmm.

Siddhananda:  It looks like the woman and child are quite fine.

G:  Yeah, they're quite fine (nodding decisively).

Siddhananda:  They're made of light. They're quite fine. The love is there. The connection is there.

G:  That's never been gone, but because their physical body left, he was mourning so much that he closed off and lost the ability to feel that they were still around him.

Siddhananda:  That's it, exactly. Yeah, and they're right there with her hand [touching the ice]. She's wanting to say to him, "I'm fine and you're fine, too."

G:  So, may his ears be opened, and his eyes be opened so that he may see them for what they are. May he allow that light, that love, to come forward into his heart again so that [it] would melt [the ice] from the inside out. That that would allow the ice to be broken because it doesn't need to be there.

Siddhananda:  There's a lot of beautiful loving energy around there. There is some melting, and de-frosting (chuckling softly).

G:  It's going to continue to defrost.

Siddhananda:  It's good, and you can really feel it there. His sorrow and his emotions are starting to drip down.

G:  Right, yeah (nodding).

Siddhananda:  I guess they are thawing. This icy [mass] is thawing.

G:  It's going to take a few minutes for him to see that they really are there. Once he sees that, cognizes that really they are there ... because it hasn't really entered his consciousness fully yet. Once he sees that, it should break that apart right away.

Siddhananda:  Yeah, exactly. It is mostly thawing. Certainly, that ice is there, and he can't feel that hand there yet, but it is there on the ice. The ice isn't him, though, but it is taking place. It's taking place, yeah.

G and Siddhananda:  (both sitting in silence with eyes closed for a time)

G:  I just want to say, if he can hear my voice, to have the courage to look up [to see] that they are there waiting right in front of him.

Siddhananda:  As you said that, I do see some of that happening. His form is [emerging]. He's still got some ice around him, but I can feel him looking there more.

G:  Yeah, wake up to the presence of them there.

Siddhananda:  I don't see them now as much as individuals, but more of a merging of energies there.

G:  Right, right ... good.

Siddhananda:  It's not like I see a mother and a child. It's more of a merging of energies ... like it has  always been as one [energy].

G:  Right.

Siddhananda:  Very nice.

G:  So, thank you for coming (gesturing namaste).

Siddhananda: (gesturing namaste) Thank you.

G:  We will leave them to continue to merge and surround that (laughing).

Siddhananda:  Yeah, to merge and defrost. (laughing)

G:  Yeah, merge and defrost (laughing).

Siddhananda:  Feel the warmth of the love (smiling)!

G:  Once he sees that they're actually there, that will break forward. He just needs to come back up to a conscious point to where he can see it, rather than [focusing] on that sorrow.

Siddhananda:  Yeah, I know, and it's coming around. Again, he's in very good hands there. It sounds like those ones that are there, those energies, will stay very present there.

G:  Exactly. They will stay until he's actually out of that.

Siddhananda:  Again, I think the main theme is to just open up ... open up ... allow.

G:  That's the thing. One has to be willing to be open rather than so focused on whatever it is, sorrow, or whatever drama you have going on.  The more you focus on that, the more you close yourself off ... the more you are [held] in that rigid pattern ... and the more it congeals, making something more difficult to come out of.

Siddhananda:  Yeah, that's the main message. As soon as that opening takes place, a different energy flows in. That's beneficial for you and everyone else, too, really. So, it's all good.

G:  Exactly. So, this appears to be the lesson of the day (laughing). Don't close off. Be willing to be open and allow things to come into harmony.

Siddhananda:  It seems simple, but, my gosh, it can make a huge shift for someone.

G: Yeah, let go of the drama (laughing).

Siddhananda:  Haven't heard that one before, right? (smiling coyly and laughing)

G:  No, never (laughing)! So, that's it for today. Namaste and thank you.

Siddhananda:  Thank you.