First Projection

Siddhananda: (Holding the stone) "Dark, dark, dark, dark."

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: "Dark, dark, dark, dark. Silence. Dark" (trying to feel what the spirit's conveying). "Stop it. Stop that mind. Silence."

G: They want silence. 

Siddhananda: I don't know if that or a message because it feels so rich and deep.

G: Ok.

Siddhananda: "Heart message." It does not feel that heavy though. I do feel some of that tantric [energy], but it doesn't have that heaviness. I'm not sure. It's been amazingly light. My hand could go like this easily (lifting the stone). Actually, I feel like I could float with it if I held it, which is interesting.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: [See] if you feel the lightness (handing the stone to Guruji). It feels hollow.

G: Oh yeah. 

Siddhananda: I don't know how long that will last, but, it's interesting.

G: Yeah. It's got like a center of almost just that energy explosion.

Siddhananda: But, there's not that heavy [ness].

G: No, no, no. It feels like coming from that bindu and that first explosion of energy that takes place. That first I Am and that first projection. 

Siddhananda: Interesting.

G: Yeah, it's very light (handing the stone back to Siddhananda). It's almost like in that linga and it's coming down and [going through] that first projection of shakti, that shakti that starts to take place. 

Siddhananda: Interesting. When I hold it, it feels like a hollowed out egg.

G: Yeah, that pregnant void. Pregnant void.

Siddhananda: Yeah, almost feels empty. It's such a contrast to that tantric [energy] that pull you down to the ground. This is just (pointing upwards). Empty feeling. It's so light, it's just amazing.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: "Secret place, heart, tantra." Something about tantra. Could be that they have both, that light and heavy together.

G: It's feeling like they're in that Bindu, but right at that point where it's starting to move out into Shakti. Right at that apex, that point where it's starting to come from that unmanifest to the manifest. Right at that juncture. 

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: It's almost like that quantum where you have the explosion of the world starting to take place, from that unmanifest to the manifest. It's like right there at that juncture. 

Siddhananda: Interesting, wow! They're saying "Bindu sounds right, sounds good. But, this is heavy too. It's all of it. It's here."

G: It's like being in the middle of the linga where the two are meeting, where the linga is meeting the yoni, where that point is where it goes from the unmanifest to the manifest. 

Siddhananda: Nice!

G: They're right at that apex. Kind of like the Arthanareeswara, where you have the unmanifest on one side and the manifest on the other side, and they're right there in the center and heart of that. That makes the best feeling for expansion. Yeah, Arthanareeswara, half of it is Shiva, that unmanifest energy, that still point and the other half is Shakti, the motion. He's in the heart of that, right in the center of it. It starts to move and express. 

Siddhananda: That sounds right. It's about balance, [about] how it's all there in the heart. There's that ethers and earth connection.

G: hmm hmm. It's right at that very point. It's feeling like that Arthanareeswara, half is that Shiva and half is that Shakti, and they're right there in the center where that's connected and starting to make its motion into that manifest.

Siddhananda: Interesting to hear your words and the feelings expressed that way because here, I just get those [images, feeling].

G: The dichotomy of it, the one with the lightness and the heaviness. 

Siddhananda: Not so much, but the way that it's expressed. I'm feeling the light in this but the feeling is that there's also that rich connection to the earth.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: The ethers, heavens and the earth meet in the heart, I suppose, and that's how that is. This is nice, the lightness of it.

G: Yeah, it is so light. You can feel that pregnant energy just ready to expand, just to explode. Yeah.

Siddhananda: Yeah. Those lingams are interesting, they're mysterious.

G: You never know what you'll get with them, the lingam is always the wildcard. This one is [nice], you can feel that overwhelming bliss, that Sat Chit Anand, Truth Existence Bliss compressed condensed in that. It feels like it just goes straight up, it's that Sat Chit Anand. Sat Chit Anand. Sat Chit Anand. Just ready to explode.

Siddhananda: It's very nice!

G: It's wonderful!