Moving beyond struggle

G: (Looking down, holding rock) Ok.  (Hands rock to Siddhananda)

Siddhananda: (Holding rock, eyes closed, after a few moments right hand goes up near heart and fingertips close to a point, palm up). I’m feeling some emotions that (incomprehensible word) are there. I now hear [some] thing.. this is silly, some song [just] came in.. (singing) “feelings... nothing more than feelings” and then there was a feeling of fear, but then there’s also [that] wanting to have that flame there to burn away the dross.

G: Ok, so which path have they walked?

Siddhananda: (Closes eyes for several moments) [i'm] getting "lifetimes of suffering, lifetimes of struggle," (pulling, rubbing with fingertips near heart area), "living in this secret place, mystic."

G: Yeah (nodding) I’m going to ask for Christ to come in to this one, yeah. I’m feeling more of that inner struggle, so I think that Christ needs to come in and tell them [there's] nothing to fear and that one needs to connect with that heart center and just be willing to go forward.

Siddhananda: (Namaste hands) I see these images, there was a bit of a blip and again it's hazy, this imagery, it's very different now, wow!

G: Uh-huh

Siddhananda: And now it’s a little bit clearer, and Christ is there with the open arms, there’s the robe, a cross (hand gesturing horizontally), arms open, and the robe draping down. He’s a handsome man! (Guruji laughs). [The images are] not as clear, yet it's there. I can feel that there and it's just resonating. It's vibrating outward more (changes gesture to hands moving outwards, palms facing inwards, pulsating).

G: So we’re just going to let Christ work with this person. We’ll put them in the crystal cave for a while and go ahead and let them work on that heart opening. There’s always that forgiveness and everything, I think it's more of a thing of forgiving themselves if they’ve been in this pain. I think they tried to walk a spiritual path but they’ve been so hard on themselves that they’re carrying this...

Siddhananda: Struggle

G: Yeah, struggle. They need to find out they don’t need to struggle. He’s done the struggle and they  just need to accept and relax into that and continue to go forward.

Siddhananda: Yeah, now would it be ok for this one to go in the crystal cave.

G: Sure, they can just sit there for now.