Three-Leaf Clover

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, so that rock looks a little bit… no, it looks very clear in my mind as well. I see a little something in it as we approach it and zoom in. It looks like a clover. It looks like a three-leaf clover. I’ve never found a four-leaf, have you?

G: No, they are not very often that you find those.

Siddhananda: Boy, I looked. I used to go to a school called Clover Valley and all in the valley was clovers. And we would look all day for four-leaf clovers. Sometimes we’d tear one of the leaves in half.

G: And try to make it look… (laughing)

Siddhananda: Try to fake it! It didn’t go over. And then we made necklaces of the little flowers.

G: Oh, I remember making the little daisy chains and stuff.

Siddhananda: Right, when we went in and the teachers got so mad we had those on. They’d take them right off of us.

G: Oh yeah, they’d make you take them off.

Siddhananda: Yeah. It wasn’t fun.

G: They weren’t fun. They wouldn’t let us have any fun.

Siddhananda: No, that’s no fun.

G: No.

Siddhananda: But, I do see a little clover, so maybe it feels like an Irish energy.

G: Oh, okay.

Siddhananda: I do see a bit of the Irish green.

G: A little bit of the Irish.

Siddhananda: A little bit of the Irish, which we haven’t had here before. Although we do have somebody on the path who is Irish.

G: We do.

Siddhananda: So, I do feel Ireland there, though I’ve never been there. I do feel a lot of green, lush hills. It’s just a very green feeling and a wonderful feeling actually with their nature there. It’s awesome. (pause) Okay. So, I’m seeing a heart reflected in it, then a three-leaf clover in that.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: So, let’s see what the message might be. And what’s the little Irish fellow that you see in St. Patrick’s Day?

G: Little leprechauns?

Siddhananda: Little leprechauns! I see a little leprechaun there, too. I do see someone with a mug of beer. Taverns, I’m feeling. Tavern energies. So far, it was green. It was lush. Now, we’re in the tavern.

G: Now, we’re in the tavern. Okay.

Siddhananda: (laughing) What a lead in! So, they are there with a frothy beer. They are doing a lot of cheering with the beer and the froth and the goings on that go on in taverns.

G: Not our usual clientele. (laughing)

Siddhananda: They have a little red tone to their skin, which Irish sometimes can, but…

G: Especially when they are doing a lot of imbibing.

Siddhananda: I was going to say, I would say the imbibing brings a little rosy cheeks, too.

G: A little rosy. Rosy nose.

Siddhananda: Rosy nose and cheeks! So, let’s see what questions they might have. So they lived that way, doing a lot of social partying and drinking and gathering. It feels like a male energy. (pause) They feel lost now. They just feel drifting and I do still see beer. I don’t know if they still got some of that in them, maybe some toxicity. I don’t know. They’ve got that beer. That’s not good. Okay, let’s see what they desire from us.

G: Yeah, let’s see what they want. Let’s see what they are looking for.

Siddhananda: Exactly! (pause) They are saying they desire to be of good cheer.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: They desire to be social more. But, they want to continue with this… I see the beer mugs clashing together.

G: Yeah, it doesn’t sound like somebody that really wants to make progress. They just want to continue and go back into another form.

Siddhananda: Yeah, they are saying, “No challenges.”

G: Yeah, they just want to continue where they are at.

Siddhananda: Why they are here, I don’t know.

G: Yeah, so, again, they might just want to go to the guides and masters, whatever, and just ask for another birth. That’s all. I mean, just get ready for another birth, because they just want to get pulled into another birth and continue where they left off.

Siddhananda: See if they want to learn anything.

G: It doesn’t sound like they want to.

Siddhananda: They want to climb. There are some stairs. They want to climb a little higher, but I don’t see them letting go of this social thing.

G: Yeah, no, they are not really here for spiritual. That’s not their number one thing.

Siddhananda: Exactly.

G: It’s like whatever they come into. So, just ask for a rebirth where you can move forward in some direction.

Siddhananda: There you go. I think that’s the best thing for this soul. I do see the little leprechaun and the three-leaf clover is being projected. Okay, three-leafed clover. (moving the rock over to the side) Oops, should I put that there?

G: Yeah, that’s fine.

Siddhananda: Oh, you’ve got them in in the right spot there?

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Okay, yeah, so maybe they just got to keep looking for that four-leaf clover. I don’t know. (laughing) I tell you!

Holy Spirit

Siddhananda: (Showing a transparent heart stone). (pause with closed eyes). Okay, i am seeing just a white light up and down my body, and on the top there's some doves flying.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: ..which is really nice.

G: Yeah, kind of a Holy Spirit representation. 

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Very good representation of Holy Spirit.

Siddhananda: It is lovely! And i am seeing Christ coming through.

G: Yeah. That's very much a Holy Spirit manifestation, with the doves and the white lights.

Siddhananda: And Christ coming through. It's just lovely.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: i don't think they  have any questions.

G: hmm hmm. Did you have some words of wisdom that you wanted to bring through and share? Any message?

Siddhananda: i think they're in praise of that, in praise of that holiness, that spirit, that's so untouched.

G: Yeah. And the Holy Spirit is available to all. That's what one opens to as one goes through that Christ light, that kundalini and the Christ light comes through and it awakens, it enlivens and keeps that journey in place. 

Siddhananda: Yeah. Lovely image! It's there, Christ is there and the doves are flying and the white light. Lovely!

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: So, thank you. (gesturing namaste)

G: Thank you for sharing that. (gesturing namaste)

Siddhananda: (placing the stone aside)

G: Never turn down Holy Spirit.

Siddhananda: Never! That's enough in itself.

Santa Claus

Siddhananda: (Shows a pink translucent stone) There's another one. Touch down. Let's see what happens. (laughing)

G: (laughing)

Siddhananda: (long pause with closed eyes) Okay, first, i did see, i know it's odd, an image of Santa Claus.

G: (laughing)

Siddhananda: I don't know if they want a hand out or something, that's what i'm trying to sort out.

G: Aha. (pause) Now, I already told we're not Santa Claus.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: So, you know. (laughing)

Siddhananda: You said that before, maybe that's coming, because i am seeing that image. It can be silly, but, it also could have a meaning.

G: It could, we'll see where they're going with it.

Siddhananda: (pause) Yeah, they're saying, "i want what i want and i want it now."

G: Aha. Well, okay, we got [that] you're totally in ego. And, is there anything else you wanted to say other than that? (laughing)

Siddhananda: (laughing)

Spirit: I want.

G: I want, i want.

Spirit: I want all that i want.

G: I want, i want.

Siddhananda: They've got their bag that they're taking with them, like Santa.

G: Well, good luck with that and you're going to find out the longer you keep carrying that bag the heavier it becomes. So, you can want it all you want, go enjoy it, we wish you well on your journey, and when you get ready to actually to move forward and want the deeper things in life, rather that the externals, then come back.

Siddhananda: weeee (moves stone over and away to a self)

G: Thank you, bye.

Siddhananda: Santa can get back to his reindeer.

G: So, let me make sure he went on his way. (holds stone cupped between two hands)

Siddhananda: Okay. (pause) Because i'm happy to move on.

G: (pause) Yeah, there's really nothing you can give someone like that.

Siddhananda: No.

G: They come in and they wanna know how to manifest and this and that and tell them how to do it, but, it's really not going to help their journey.

Siddhananda: Aha.

G: It's really not. They're not to the point of aiding in any way, shape or form. (pause) Okay, they have gone on their way.

Siddhananda: Okay.

G: (laughing) Good luck, they need to go with the other one, the other manifesting (referring to another spirit).

Siddhananda: Oh, there they go, just go and have fun together.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Build their own club.

G: There you go. Manifesting club (laughing)

Siddhananda: Manifesting Santa Claus or something.

G: (laughing) The goodie bag.

Siddhananda: Yeah, bag of goodies.

Carrying the Cross

Siddhananda: (Showing a small round pink stone) (long pause with closed eyes) i see someone with a cross on their back.

G: Aha. (pause) So, why are they dragging that cross?

Siddhananda: In the heat and uphill and all that.

G: Right, right. They're putting themselves through that. (pause) So, why are they doing that, austerities?

Siddhananda: (long pause with closed eyes) Just hardship, hardship.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: "Hardship is the way, right?" they are saying.

G: Well, there is a hard [way], but, if he is taking it on himself, and it's not the natural thing that's coming, then, he's just burning in, giving a burden to himself that he doesn't need to carry. Christ already carried that cross.

Siddhananda: (long pause) Okay, he did set it down.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, he's walking. He does look like maybe he's also from that time. [He's] got the (moving hands around the torso indicate some type of clothing from that time).

G: Yeah, from that time.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and he's got that outfit on with the little rope belt and the robe and sandals and things.

G: Right, he was probably a monk of Franciscan friar or something.

Siddhananda: That's sounds right, yeah.

G: And, he's been doing all these austerities for all this time.

Siddhananda: That sounds right about him.

G: Yeah, very old Franciscan.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Franciscan monk.

Siddhananda: Right. So, that's a heavy tradition in that way.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: In what they were doing.

G: Yeah, some of them did a lot of self flagellation and stuff in order to become like Christ, but, that's not the way you have to become like Christ.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and as you are speaking, i do see that imagery of Christ with the thorns and blood.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Like that was the way, hurt yourself.

G: They're more into suffering.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Suffering. Why are you not into the risen Christ? Do you not want to know the risen Christ?

Siddhananda: (pasue) "I just know suffering," he's saying.

G: Yeah.

Spirit: I know just to bear suffering.

G: Right right.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: So, we're going to send in Christ to him to give him the message of letting go of that, that there's the risen Christ, you don't stay stuck in the suffering Christ. (smiling)

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay. So, Christ is appearing, almost like in a teaching manner with his hand out like he's giving some teaching there.

G: Yeah, we have to surrender into Christ. And we do walk, in a sense, that path of Christ, but, when you're taking unnecessary burden, that's not beneficial.

Siddhananda: Right, they come in the way, the course of it.

G: It will come of it's own course.

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly.

G: But, you don't push it to become that suffering persona.

Siddhananda: Oh, absolutely.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Gosh, it's enough without [any pushing]. (light laughter)

G: [It's] something different.

Siddhananda: Yeah. (pause) So, Christ is there, like i say, in a teaching pose. (pause) That other one has a darker energy, it's a darker feeling. I can see some blood in it.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: It's moving.

G: He's been so stuck in the suffering and stuff. He's so stuck in that suffering ideation.

Siddhananda: It's got such a feeling to it that is just not healthy.

G: Right, it isn't a healthy thing.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: They really get stuck in that and they don't go on to push through that to the risen [Christ].

Siddhananda: That's what's so unfortunate.

G: Freedom.

Siddhananda: Right, and that's what's so unfortunate. And i think in their hearts they love Christ dearly.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: But, they just take that, just that part of it on.

G: Right, i want to be like Christ.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: If you really want to be like Christ, then you have to accept the rising. You have to accept the regeneration, not stay stuck in the suffering. For what reason?

Siddhananda: Yeah, really just to hurt themselves on and on for all eternity.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And as you're speaking, i do see Christ there. I do see light around that darkness with the blood. It's trying to get in there (long pause) And Christ is almost rising up with that light and is coming down in there and it's definitely penetrating in there. Thank goodness, for this energy.

G: Yeah, he (the spirit) needs to clean that out.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And he needs to let go of that and go forward.

Siddhananda: I do again see that image of Christ with thorns, but, it's changing, it's starting to get more distant and more hazy.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: The best way to say, that's how you could say that, is it's dissolving.

G: It's going through transmutation.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: You'll go through a transmutation to the risen Christ.

Siddhananda: That's it, so, that's happening and i think he's very blessed to have that there and it was not by his own, i don't what to say choice, i mean he's open, but, it just had to come to him that way.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Or otherwise i don't think he would have.

G: It didn't click with him.

Siddhananda: It didn't click.

G: He got stuck in that and they got stuck in that sense of i have to surrender and suffer. Christ suffered, so i'm going to take on. It's almost like they're trying to take on Christ’s suffering so that Christ doesn't suffer, but, it doesn't work that way.

Siddhananda: Yeah, how could it.

G: It doesn't work that way.

Siddhananda: It just doesn't make sense.

G: I want to emulate Christ, therefore i have to suffer. Well, no. Christ said forgive them for they know not what they do, and he went onward to be the risen. He didn't stay in that suffering.

Siddhananda: He suffered so humanity wouldn't have to suffer like that.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: So, they could have a path and get out of that.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: So, that's there and it's going to be a bit long, because this is a heavy, long standing.

G: Right, he's in this for a very very long time. This guy was probably from early Fransican's.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Very early.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: When they first started that order.

Siddhananda: Right, and which is just an intense, an austere living.

G: Right, Very hard.

Siddhananda: But, you're meant to go beyond the austerities.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: The austerities come on their own.

G: They come on their own. It's not something you force that you are going to punish yourself.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: That's almost like you're punishing yourself.

Siddhananda: Right. It's a different thing.

G: No. Christ never wanted somebody to sit there and take a whip and flagellate (gesturing whipping)

Siddhananda: Yeah, no.

G: And beat themselves with it or take this on like this.

Siddhananda: Did he ever do that.

G: That was never what his message was.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: It was never that message. He never gave that message ever.

Siddhananda: And, he never did it himself, so, you look at his path.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: He never did that to himself.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: It's not what you do.

G: He was not punishing himself.

Siddhananda: No.

G: He walked the path he had to walk, just like we walk the path we have to walk and that stuff comes on its own.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: But, we're not sitting there saying "jee, let me make myself suffer" (gesturing whipping) (laughing)

Siddhananda: No. You got to look at how you perpetuate suffering. That's a different thing than taking on this whole trying to hurt yourself.

G: Right. Exactly.

Siddhananda: i'm glad that came out because that's a good. Really good pointings there. (moving the stone over to the healing center).

G: So, we'll leave him at the healing center for a while.

Siddhananda: Okay.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: So, we'll put him over there. We have few over there, which is good.

G: Yeah, we got a few in the healing center that are being worked with.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and they're in good hands and shape and form.

Motherly Spirit

Siddhananda: (Showing a small round stone with a mix of purple and cream colors). [We] got two more after that (referring to the next two stones to be worked with). We're getting through them.

G: Yes, we are.

Siddhananda: Okay, i see a frog (laughing).

G: Frog.

Siddhananda: The other day when i opened your door, i saw, honestly, a frog this big (using finger to show the tiny size of the frog).

G: Oh yeah, one of those little baby ones?

Siddhananda: Cute.

G: Isn't it so cute!

Siddhananda: I went to get my phone to take a picture and it hopped into the dirt, so, i couldn’t see it. They're this tiny.

G: Yeah, when they're born, they are so little.

Siddhananda: Ohh.

G: These itty bitty little frogs, so cute.

Siddhananda: Gosh, it was cute. So, anyway, i see a frog coming out of this.

G: I know, i've seen them out there before. Where they're first born, they're so cute, they're just little ity bity frogs.

Siddhananda: You couldn’t get tinier, you couldn't get any tinier.

G: No, they're so small.

Siddhananda: Yeah. So, this is a frog. Someone is trying to catch it.

G: (laughing)

Siddhananda: (laughing) It's a bright green frog, and then i see this childlike face with freckles coming up, he's got a frog.

G: (laughing)

Siddhananda: He's got little missing two front teeth and has red hair and he just looks like one of those little guys that is full of mischief and fun.

G: Yep, out there chasing the frogs, (laughing).

Siddhananda: He's got his striped shirt, he's emerging, he's smiling, big! i mean, he caught that frog and he loves that frog, he's petting, but, ahh (laughing).

G: (laughing)

Siddhananda: His mom is pulling him away, like, she's sorry he came in the scene and bothered things. So, she's kind of putting him behind her legs, like they came in as a group. (laughing)

G: (laughing)

Siddhananda: He's behind, looking like (putting on an innocent face) I didn't do anything wrong. And she, i can see her legs, i can just see her skirt, she's just swatting him back a little, lovingly. Looks like they don't have much money. It's an odd scene, i don't see her face yet. (pause) Okay. Let's see what question [they have].

G: Right.

Siddhananda: (pause) She says, she's sorry for my son disturbing things (laughing).

G: He's not disturbing, it's fine.

Siddhananda: No, it's okay. He's so cute, he's peeking between her legs.

G: He's mischievous, okay.

Siddhananda: He's just fun.

G: He's just being a boy.

Siddhananda: Yeah, she said "we come together as a unit right now, that's the way it is" (laughing).

G: (laughing).

Siddhananda: She goes, "a mother's work never ends" (laughing)

G: I know!

Siddhananda: So, anyway. Let's see what her question is. She does have a nice light heart and it seems like she's poor. (pause) "I want to live, i want to live well, i want to live pure. i want to live good," and she tries. I think she's just a good soul. I don't think there's too much there.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Meanwhile, he's sticking out his tongue and being silly. I'm sorry, i'm just (laughing).

G: (laughing)

Siddhananda: She just doesn't even see his face, but, he's making all these faces. (laughing)

G: (laughing)

Siddhananda: So, i can just see him mostly, it's hilarious.

G: [Naughty] little kid. (laughing)

Siddhananda: He's as cute as can be, with his freckles and his shock of red hair.

G: Shock of red hair everywhere. (laughing)

Siddhananda: He's (sticks tongue out and makes funny facial expressions) and all this stuff. (laughing)

G: (laughing)

Siddhananda: Between her legs and, he's just the cutest thing, but, she's just mortified by him and is like, "i swear to god" (hand on the side of the head) What am i going to do here." So, she's saying he's got a little restful funny Spirit. But, i can see her, feel her purity as a mother.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: And just as a presence. She's had a hard time, so, i think she just wants to (pause) be steady and keep going in the best way. Maybe, some good practices.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Whatever you think.

G: Yeah, we can give her the COS and then we can introduce her to Mother Mary.

Siddhananda: Well, i think that sounds like it would be a beautiful connection to her, yeah.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Because i can feel..

G: I think it's good for her.

Siddhananda: Yeah. (pause) So, the COS is going in. It's not settling that kid down, though.

G: No, of course not (laughing)

Siddhananda: (laughing) It's just going into her heart.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And, I see Mother Mary there. She's, (hand on heart center) when she saw Mother Mary, she's, ohh (in awe of Mother Mary).

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: So, they really [connected]. Mother Mary just has her arms out to her. She right away, is right there. So, that's beautiful.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: So, i think she is in good hands, (hand on heart center)

G: Yeah, will leave her there, (hand on heart center) It's a good place for her to be.

Siddhananda: I don't ever know what's coming, you know, and that was just so funny. I can see the frog kind of leaping over too, so.

G: (laughing).

Siddhananda: Can you make this stuff up? i don't think so. (smiling)

White Tara Energy

Siddhananda: Okay, so this one… (closing eyes) Okay, so from what it looks like a tree is coming forward. I do see someone sitting in front of that tree, almost looks Buddha-like sitting there. They are saying something about white Tara energy...

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: …coming back as female a lot…

G: Right.

Siddhananda: …wanting and doing that and desiring that kind of life that is in female form to represent the strength of all in the female form. So, they’ve done a lot of austerities, raised kids and not raised kids. They’ve just done the whole… a lot, a lot of strength, a lot of hardships, too, and it feels as if meditation and things as well.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: So, they are connected to that kind of energy and they just want to get any more clarity from you that might be needed for that type of path, the feminine path of stillness and wholeness and all that.

G: Right. Yeah, again, the same thing. You just walk it in clarity and truth and honesty and integrity. I would say do the COS and the other practices because it has got the completed mantra that they will be wanting to use for that path. So, if you want to continue forward in that more of a Buddhist path, definitely do that mantra.

Siddhananda: Okay. Good.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: I think that’s good.

G: We need more of that energy. It’s going to be coming in more and more. 

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And so, again, one has to be of strong countenance to come in and hold that line.

Siddhananda: Sure.

G: Yes, absolutely, women can reach realization and everything, and it was so patriarchal. A lot of the Buddhists still believe that you have to be born a male to reach enlightenment and that’s not the case at all. So, we need more coming in of the women’s form, not that there is any difference between male and female in the end, it’s an energetic thing. But, we need to have more come in to break through those traditionally established patterns. It’s time to start breaking through those.

Siddhananda: Good. They do sound determined.

G: Yeah. So, thank you. Namaste.

Dancing

Siddhananda: (Showing a small yellow stone). (pause with closed eyes). Okay, i am seeing an image of some stirring (gesturing with hand).

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: They're not upset, though. i'm just trying to see what that's about.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: They want to dance, too. (laughing) (referring to previous spirit that wanted to be outward and play like Krishna).

G: (laughing).

Siddhananda: They want to go and join that flute music (laughing). Over the pastures and the whole bit!

G: (laughing). 

Siddhananda: i can see them saying like "i wanna dance too!"

G: Well, there's no reason why you can't dance. (laughing). Nobody is stopping you from dancing. You can dance anytime you want. 

Siddhananda: Can they join that other energy?

G: Absolutely. 

Siddhananda: Thank you. They're on their way. (laughing).

G: They're on their way! That was quick. (laughing). 

Siddhananda: i don't think they came in for that, but they liked that.

G: They liked that and that will work. So, go enjoy and play for a while. 

Siddhananda: i can see them both frolicking over the hills now. So, it's all quite well there.

G: (laughing). 

Siddhananda: That took care of that. Maybe, they came in with something else, but [that took care of that].

G: Yeah. They were at the right place at the right time. So, that was good. 

Siddhananda: They all might want to go, i don't know. (laughing).

G: Yeah, you can pick as many lifetimes and experiences as you want. Not a problem.

Siddhananda: Yeah. It's your choice.

G: It's your choice. You have absolutely free will. You can go on any path you want and change..

Siddhananda: It's up to you. It's like a state of consciousness.

G: Right. It's all just different experiences, so, you learn from all the experiences. 

Siddhananda: hmm hmm.

Whirling Dervish

Siddhananda:  (showing a pink rock) Okay, so we are just going to start and get some of these going. Here’s our first one. Matches my outfit, kind of. (referring to her pink blouse)

G: You do. You match.

Siddhananda: That’s why it came up, maybe. Okay. (closing eyes) Okay, so they are saying, “Take me to God and let me fly.” So it sounds like they may have had some Sufi experiences.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: I do see the whirling dervish dance going.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: That’s always nice to see.

Spirit: I pray for stillness.

G: Stillness is a good thing.

Siddhananda: Yeah. So, maybe just practices?

G: Yeah, practices. “Om That I Am” and “I Am That I Am.” And the COS.

Siddhananda: Okay, very good recipe! (holding hand to heart) Doing the whirling dervish for you to say thank you.

G: Yes, thank you!

Being outward

Siddhananda: (Showing a white marble stone). Okay, next.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: (pause) They're saying "Peppermint. I'm sweet." (smiling)

G: (laughing).

Siddhananda: They are kind of shy, so, they don't really know how to verbalize.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: But, i'm feeling a heart-centered kind of energy.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: They're not very social.

G: They're not very social?

Siddhananda: Yeah. They just stay to themselves, a lot.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: i think they want to burst out a little more.

G: Okay. Well, if they want to burst out then (pause) i would say go more towards Krishna consciousness. Just absorb the Bhagavad Gita and have some more interaction with Krishna, if Krishna could come forward. It is very bhakti related. They can surrender into that and dance and play. That would be good for this one to break out a little more. 

Siddhananda: Yeah, he's there with his flute. It's very nice.

G: Yeah. So, that will help this one to dance and open and have little more lightness.

Siddhananda: hmm hmm.

G: First, i wanted to say Christ, but, that's a little more contemplative and surrender for that one. For this being, i would say definitely Krishna and little lighter and play for a while and be open and come out of that. 

Siddhananda: Be a little outward, and looks like it's working nicely so far for them. So, thank you. (hand on heart)

G: Yeah. That would be good for them. Thank you. (hand on heart).

Siddhananda: They're enjoying the flute right now. (smiling)

G: They're enjoying the flute, i'm sure, right now. (smiling)

Jackhammer

Siddhananda: Okay, so let’s see what this one has to say. (pause) Okay, I see a jackhammer trying to get through cement, so they are saying that’s what you’re going to need for him.

G: (laughing) That is a challenge, okay.

Siddhananda: Got a hard hat? You know, the whole business.

G: I’m a challenge. Okay.

Siddhananda: That’s what he’s saying. That’s what he’s saying! (laughing) Oh man, so…

G: Just be ready for it.

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly.

G: Construction time.

Siddhananda: He’s a hardheaded one. Exactly! Bullheaded, maybe. I’m asking, “Why are you this way?” (pause) He’s just feeling more like it’s just how the conditionings grew and really grew into this hardened thing.

G: So what is it that he is seeking? What can we help him with? With our hardheaded one? We’re always up for a challenge.

Siddhananda: He’s saying, “If you’ve got a jackhammer, bring it on.”

G: Okay, is he sure he wants that?

Siddhananda: Let me make sure.

G: We’ve got a jackhammer, all right.

Siddhananda: (laughing, closing eyes) Okay, he feels like he does. There’s a little crack in there. I see a little light at the center. So, he’s kind of saying, “Please release me from this container.”

G: All right. The Kali and the Kali mantras.

Siddhananda: Yes. (closing eyes) Okay, those are being transmitted there. There is a soft center. It’s filled with light. It is going right to that center.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Okay, so we’ll just leave him with that, I think.

G: Yeah, that will be enough to break through that.

Searching for mind

Siddhananda: (Showing a small yellow translucent stone) Okay, i see that little stone, yellow right.

G: Yep.

Siddhananda: Yeah, yellow, little thing there. It's got a nice white circular aura around it.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: And, (long pause) Okay, they're saying they misplaced their mind somewhere. They can't find their mind.

G: (laughing).

Siddhananda: (laughing) It's like you misplace your hat or something.

G: I just left it somewhere. I don't know where i left it.

Siddhananda: Looking for it again, this energy can't find his mind, his/her.

G: Well, that could be a good thing and not a good thing. It depends on which way it is. So, we'll find out a little bit more on this. (laughing)

Siddhananda: He's saying, i must have left it somewhere. (laughing) He can't remember.

G: Maybe like the guy who left his heart in San Francisco.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: I don't know (laughing)

Siddhananda: Let's see if it's a good thing.

G: Maybe he left his mind in Cucamonga or something.

Siddhananda: There you go!

G: I don't know.

Siddhananda: There you go. Who knows where.

G: (laughing)

Siddhananda: (pause) They're saying it is and isn't a good thing. They feel a little (moving body circles to indicate being disorientated). what's happening here!

G: A little.

Siddhananda: And, they are looking for that mind.

G: Why would you want the mind back?

Spirit: Because i know it. I know what it is.

G: Yeah, because you know it. Okay. Well, if you actually knew it, you know it's just full of illusion.

Siddhananda: Maybe they want something more familiar.

G: So Why would you want illusion back?

Spirit: It's just isn't it. i just felt like it was what i am.

G: Aha.

Spirit: [The mind] told me who i am and what was right and wrong and who i wasn't. I don't know myself without it.

G: Yeah. So, again, you can question, "what is this I?" (pause) Don't be so quick to take back mind. (pause) with attachment to form and of these other things that you have done and think that it's you. It's not you. So, you have a very good opportunity to now question what is this I?

Spirit: What is this I?

G: Aha. Find out what you are and more importantly what you're not.

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay. So, they're going to stay with that right now.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Thank you (hand on heart center).

G: Namaste (gesturing namaste) So, you may come back if you wish. I'm not going to put him over here to process. He can be where ever he wishes and if you want to come back and give us a progress report, we would be happy to hear it.

Siddhananda: Sounds good.

G: Thank you.

Siddhananda: Spend time on that instead of looking for the mind.

G: I left my mind in Cucamonga. (laughing)

Siddhananda: I'm seeking, trying to find it everywhere. I'm looking under the bed, i'm looking. (laughing).

G: Leave that thing alone (referring to the mind).

Siddhananda: Really, really.

G: (laughing).

Siddhananda: Take it back, you got the whole business back. So, everything that comes with it.

G: I'm sure there's a lot of people on this path that wish that they could lose the thing.

Siddhananda: Really, really.

Teaching in honesty

Siddhananda: (Showing a white translucent stone)  Shiny, shiny! (laughing) (pausing with closed eyes) Okay, [they're saying] "I speak a lot about truth, but, I don't know it." (laughing)

G: (laughing) And, how's that working for you and the poor people that are hearing you?

Siddhananda: He has a bit of a following.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: I can see them around him. He speaks from the intellect about it, but, he doesn't know it.

G: Is he still in body or doing this psychically or is he out of body?

Siddhananda: He's not in body.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: (pause) However it's transmitted, it could come through others, I don't know how he's working with that.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: Let me see... Most of that come in do have the ability to connect that way.

G: Right. [They] can continue to effect people on the other side.

Siddhananda: Yeah. Okay, let me see (pause) "I do masquerade. I'm a man of masks and trickeries, and it's not good."

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: (laughing) At least he's acknowledging it's not good. That's a start.

G: Well, it's good that at least he knows, but, then again, that carries a heavier karmic load.

Siddhananda: Because he knows.

G: If you're a teacher and you know your're full of bullshit, that carries a  heavier load. One hundred percent.

Siddhananda: He's like, "help me, forgive me, help me, i'm sorry."

G: Yeah. Well, you chose to do it. If you're purporting to be a teacher, you should know that. This is not something you take up lightly, being a teacher, because you're more responsible, because you're saying you know. If you're saying you know, then you have a heavier responsibility.

Siddhananda: Sure.

G: One hundred percent, yes.

Siddhananda: i'm asking him if he understands that and is he hearing it.

G: Aha.

Spirit: Oh, yes i do. please please, i'm sorry.

G: Aha.

Spirit: i am sorry if i mislead people, too. They seem to be drawn to me, but, i'm not completed.

G: Yeah, there are a lot of ones that are charismatic. There are ones that are charismatic and people are drawn to them because they got a good personality, but, personality is not it.  So, you need to honest up, and if you're not completed, say you're not completed and give to what you can give, up to the point that you're at. There are always those lower than what you are that you can aid, but, you have to be honest in how far you can take them.

Spirit: Should I speak to them about my masquerading?

G: Absolutely.

Spirit: It's hard.

G: It's going to be hard, of course! It's going to be hard. You got to man up and own up. And give what you can give.

Siddhananda: He's attempting to send out that energy of letting them know that he hasn't been honest and forthright and hasn't really walked the journey to the degree that he's speaking of.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: (pause) I hear him say, "I've wronged you and i'm sorry."

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: And they are weeping, some of them.

G: Yeah. So, all you can do at this point is ask their forgiveness and give what you can give, to the point were you're at, (pause) Okay, and be honest with what you can give and what you can't give.

Siddhananda: (pause) He would like to walk the path of light in the correct way now, if you would have him do that.

G: Absolutely. There needs to be more teachers, but, you need to be honest in what you can give and what you can't.

Siddhananda: (pause) Should he let go of teaching now?

G: (long pause) He can continue to give what he can give, but, just be, from this point, absolutely point blank honest. So, he can go ahead and do the "Om that I am" the "i am that i am" and "what is this I" contemplation.

Siddhananda: (pause) He's taking that and just clasping his heart with it.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: And he will continue to ask for forgiveness from the universe as well as walk the right way and if he can come back to help or however is needed.

G: Yeah, when he's done those practices and he's ready for the next step, come back.

Siddhananda: (hand on heart center) Thank you so much.

G: (hand on heart center) Namaste. Yeah, if you're a teacher, you should know you're accountable for what you give.

Siddhananda: Sure.

G: So, you have to be honest in what you can give and what you can't give.

Siddhananda: Aha.

G: There are a lot of people that are brand new to a path and even if you haven't gone the whole way you can still be a benefit to them, but, you can't tell them I can take you the whole way.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And talk about it intellectually when you don't know.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and also to build up a big following where people are being in their minds they build you up to something.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: Way more than what you are. It is not a good thing.

G: It's not a good one, because it creates more ego for you to break through.

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly.

G: And then that's tough.

Siddhananda: Breaks their heart too.

G: It breaks their heart as well, yeah.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Because, they have set you up on a pedestal that you shouldn't be on.

Siddhananda: Correct, yeah.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: So, that's good that one came out and he just came out of it. He was just ready (laughing)

G: Well, i'm glad he came back and he confessed that, but, yeah, he needs to confess it to the people he's working with and be honest with them and then again, give what you can give, but, be honest with where you're at.

Siddhananda: Absolutely.

G: Yeah.

Tantric Sex

Siddhananda: All right, so let’s see what this one sitting here (referring to a rock) has to say, present, or whatever. (closing eyes) Okay, they are talking about tantric sexual union and energies.

G: Okay and what about it?

Siddhananda: They desire that.

G: And why do they desire that?

Siddhananda: They think it would really be like an eruption of energy and it sounds like they haven’t engaged, but they have been attracted to that.

G: Yeah, sure. I can have sex and be spiritual at the same time.

Siddhananda: That’s it. That’s what’s there, too. The sex. What can I say.

G: Yeah, basically.

Siddhananda: The sex. And they can give it a reason behind it. It’s spiritual.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: But, they also say, "Is there something to that? Is there a way to go beyond, if that’s your practice all the time?"

G: Well, the thing they don’t understand is that the time they used to do the tantric sexual energy, you didn’t get to pick your partner. It was picked for you.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And this was done with the Brahmins and they would get them with the low class, what they were called, low class.  There is no such thing as a low class or a low caste.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: They would put them together with somebody that if there shadow touched them, they would be polluted. It was just there to break through the illusions of that one is higher and one is lower.

Siddhananda: For both of them then, right? For both parties?

G: Yeah, for both parties. But, more usually for the male that was put with the lower class female.

Siddhananda: Too bad for her though. I don’t know. (laughing) But, those are my feelings.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: I said that for my own self. This one is something else.

G: Right, no. I know what you are saying. But, no, what they need to find out is the energies that are balanced is the male and female within themselves and that you don’t need to have an external partner with.

Siddhananda: Yeah, no, I understand.

G: Because when you start getting into external partners and this and that, you can get into, again, a separation of being stuck on form and body.Siddhananda: For sure. My sense with this one is more he is drawn to the sex.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: He is saying, “Yes, yes, I would like that. Of course. What man wouldn’t?” or something.

G: Exactly, that’s what it’s about and when you come in with that kind of idea you get nowhere. All you get is sex. Okay, you get absolutely… you’re not going to go and progress at all.

Siddhananda: That’s right. If that’s where your consciousness is, then that’s where it’s going to remain in that.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: And it’s going to create more of it. And it’s going to be a torturous thing in the end really.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Okay, so he just wants to move on. He just wants to move on.

G: Yeah, I’m sure he does. Bye! (laughing)

Siddhananda: (wiping her hands) Okay, done! All right. So, yeah, I knew that that wasn’t going to be a good thing. Usually, it’s not, when that’s what they are just so attracted to.

G: If their focus is on sex and body, and body and sex, and sex and body, why don’t you just come in like a dog.

Siddhananda: Yeah, really, where you can go at it for all hours.

G: Right, go at it!

Siddhananda: That’s not a spiritual thing.

G: It sounds spiritual and this and that. But, it’s that same BS, you know, no. There is no intention of spirituality.

Siddhananda: That’s the thing. No, there’s purity in all the practices. I think they have some significance, but they need to be done right. And it’s not like it’s done like what they are thinking.

G: No.

Seeking Non-Dual

Siddhananda: A linga! (showing a black linga stone).

G: Linga! (smiling)

Siddhananda: (Smiling). (pausing with closed eyes). Okay, there is some circular energy in this stone (gesturing with circling finger).

G: hmm hmm. Some kundalini going. 

Siddhananda: Yes. (pause). I'm kind of.. (gesturing a circular motion)

G: Yes. That's what it does (laughing). (gesturing with circling finger).

Siddhananda: It definitely does that. That's happening here. (laughing).

G: So, their kundalini is quite active. 

Siddhananda: Yeah. (pause). I do see an image of one in the lotus position amongst that.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: So, "knowledge", they're saying.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: "Knowledge".. They want to just do non-dual, (bringing both palms together).

G: They want to cut through. 

Siddhananda: Yeah. Like how those two come together (bringing palms together).

G: Yeah, they need to come together. 

Siddhananda: hmm hmm. That's what it's feeling like.

G: So, I would say for this one, both COS and Kali. 

Siddhananda: Okay.

G: That can bring the expansion and the cutting, both.

Siddhananda: They are feeling it already (laughing).

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: They are feeling it already and are very grateful. So (hand on heart).

G: Thank you (hand on heart). 

Purifying energies

Siddhananda: (Showing a clear purple stone). (long pause with closed eyes). Okay, i know that blood moon is coming up, too. It's at the end of the month, and i'm hearing "blood moon."

G: hmm hmm. Blood moon is coming at the end of the month, okay.

Siddhananda: i think the earth overshadows over something, it looks a little red.

G: Yeah, like the harvest moon and the red moon.

Siddhananda: hmm hmm. I am seeing that red and i am seeing some burning. It looks like a tree being burnt and stuff, but, it feels more like an energy of that burning.

G: Right. Burning is coming up. Some more purification energies coming in, maybe. 

Siddhananda: Right. i'm seeing blood moon.

G: So, don't be surprised if kundalini is going a little crazy towards the end of the month. 

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: A lot of more purification and nothing to fear in it. Just accept and know that that's what is going on and will be coming up too, to go on. Yeah.

Siddhananda: Yeah. I'm just hearing "process". It's a process.

G: It's a process (nodding).

Siddhananda: Stay in the heart.

G: Right. Just stay in the heart, exactly. Stay in the heart and continue to do your mantra and relax into it. Don't fight it, don't resist it, because the more you do then the more heat will be there for the resistance to break through. So, the more accepting one can be and relax into it, the less that one will have to go through that difficult part of it, makes it easier. 

Siddhananda: Yeah, now i'm seeing that moon being brought into my heart, like stay in the heart, in that fullness and let that [be]. It is a blood moon but that does mean [purification].

G: Yeah, purification. Purifying. 

Siddhananda: Yeah. (smiling) (hand on heart).

G: Nothing to fear in it. Just go with the flow. (gesturing namaste). Thank you for the message, we appreciate it (hand on heart). 

I Am Special

Siddhananda: (closing eyes) Okay, they are saying they are special. They are not like other people.

G: Oh boy, here we go! (laughing)

Siddhananda: (laughing) I’m special! 

G: How special are they?

Siddhananda: Oh gosh. Okay. 

G: Okay, how special are you?

Siddhananda: “I really am special though,” they are saying.

G: Okay. (laughing)

Siddhananda: I can see things that other people can’t see. 

G: Okay, that’s nice for you. (laughing) And?

Spirit: I know things that other people don’t know.

Siddhananda: (laughing) Yeah, right?

G: Okay. And?

Spirit: I am just very, very special. I mean anyone would be blessed to be around me.

G: Okay, so why are you here?

Spirit: To offer wisdom.

G: Oh, okay. What wisdom are you offering, our special one?

Siddhananda: I think they are talking about manifestation. I kind of feel that. “The Secret” (referring to the book) energy, that kind of thing. And they want to let people know about that.

G: Oh, okay. So what special thing do you have to say about that today?

Spirit: That you can manifest what you want in life. You can. Whether it’s a wonderful partner that’s just everything you want, money, good food, healthy, vibrancy, you can do that. You can do that yourself.

G: Yes, and?

Spirit: And that’s what I think people can be doing more of.

G: Okay. And?

Spirit: That that’s what makes me special. I’m good at it. I’m good at it.

G: And so where are you now?

Spirit: Just in my specialness.

Siddhananda: I don’t know. They are out of body. 

G: Right. They are out of body, but where?

Siddhananda: Yeah. (pause) Place of light they think. They think they are in a place of light. But I see them being in their own thing.

G: They are in their own drama, delusion. (circling her finger by her head)

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Yeah, you can create endless realms in your “specialness.” (making quotes with her fingers) And you can be as “special” as long as you want. But, eventually, you are going to find out that that’s not the ultimate thing. You create whatever, but you may find what you want and seek what you find. But, again, that’s not the end all, be all. Eventually, you will leave that specialness and you will find out that those things are transient and you’ll want to know what is God directly. But, until that time, yeah, you may play endless realms, keep creating endless transient stuff. But, eventually, you come to that point that all of that is transient.

Siddhananda: Okay, so let’s see what choice. Would you like to keep doing what you are doing or did you want to go more inward, is what I am asking them.

G: I don’t think they are ready.

Siddhananda: No, they want to keep doing this.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: So, that’s fine. Let them keep doing it.

G: Yeah. Thank you for bringing your specialness and that special message. (laughing)

Siddhananda: If that’s what you want to keep doing, keep doing it. Whatever!

G: Well, that’s exactly the point. You can do that for endless lifetimes.

Siddhananda: Right, yeah.

G: You can go endless realms. You can keep creating. But, eventually you come to see that all of that is illusion.

Siddhananda: Yeah.  

G: And it’s transient.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: It’s transient. But, they can continue to feel special for a long time.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And stay in that loop for quite some time.

Siddhananda: Yeah, it doesn’t bring peace. Boy, it keeps that mind churning…

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: …and that individuality or that feeling of separation churning.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: Me, you and all that going.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: It’s just not good for that reason. But, people, if that’s where they are at, and they want to stay there, then that’s where they are at.

G: Exactly. They can stay there as long, as many eons, as they want to.

Siddhananda: Oh, yeah.

G: And continue to do that. And sometimes, like I said, it takes a very long time for someone like that to finally see through that illusion and get that there is something more.

Siddhananda: And I think more so than those that have that left-handed blessings of suffering.

G: Right. Of suffering.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: They come out of that much quicker.

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly. When you are in that, it’s kind of fairytale-land and you are carried away. But, boy, when you are suffering non-stop, twenty-four seven for lifetimes, you are going to want to do anything it takes.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: It’s a different thing.

G: Then you are ready to get down to brass tacks and let go of all of that.

Siddhananda: That’s right. Exactly. So anyway, there they are off doing their manifesting and all that. So, have fun!

G: In their specialness.

Siddhananda: In their specialness.

G: Because I’m so special.

Siddhananda: You mean, you weren’t convinced? (laughing)

G: No.

Siddhananda: I didn’t think so. I knew it. Okay, I knew it wasn’t going to go anywhere. (laughing)

Buckle up!

Siddhananda: (Showing a green stone) Okay, green one.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: (Pause with closed eyes). I'm hearing "shadows passing over the moon."

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: "Time of awakening [and] freedom."

G: hmm hmm (nodding).

Siddhananda: I do see a full moon with some cloud coverage over it.

G: (nodding).

Siddhananda: I just asked if that's where their consciousness is [and] they said no, they just wanted to reflect that.

G: Okay. Do you have a question or did you have a comment or an admonition as it is?

Siddhananda: I'm hearing "Get your seat belts on because there is quite an energy coming through." Buckle up! (chuckling).

G: Yeah, buckle up! Get ready. (smiling). 

Siddhananda: I'm seeing that.

G: The roller-coaster ride is coming for some, yes. (smiling).

Siddhananda: hmm hmm. Get your helmets on, crash helmets. (laughing).

G: Crash helmets, yes. (smiling).

Siddhananda: For some, but, otherwise, I've also seen ripe fruit. For those that are ready, there's some ripe fruit coming.

G: Right. Ripening.

Siddhananda: So, that's being reflected. There's lots of explosive energy that I am seeing in my mind.

G: Yeah. So, big shakeups are coming. Both consciously and probably in the world. This time, a lot of things are happening. Don't be surprised at what you see. Just maintain your path and your own.. within yourself. Just continue going forward and don't get too caught up in the externals that are going on around. Shakeups are coming, absolutely.

Siddhananda: Yes.

G: Thank you for sharing that. 

Siddhananda: Buckle up! (laughing).

G: Buckle up for safety. (laughing).

Siddhananda: Stay safe, that's for sure.

Let Go of Sorrow

Siddhananda: (closing eyes) They are saying, “Is there anything you can find in the world that makes you happy?” I don’t know if they are happy for a good amount of time because they have just found sorrow there.

G: Okay, so if they only find sorrow in the world, then it’s time for them to go within and find out what’s at the center of their being. And then bring that forward and they will be fine. Yup.

Siddhananda: They are saying they hear you, but they want to find something that they can hold on to, that they can hold. 

G: Well, that’s what they can hold. (laughing) That’s always present with them.

Siddhananda: Okay, so they are okay with that. I said, “Do you mean a physical holding?” They said that they mean spirit.

G: Yeah, spirit is spirit. It’s always present. That the center of their being, it’s always with them whether they are in form or out of form.

Siddhananda: Okay, there is still some longing in there I can’t quite touch upon yet.

G: Yeah, usually when all you found is sorrow there in that universe, it drives you within and that’s when you start the path of the mystic.

Siddhananda: Right, that’s right.

G: Because you’ll do anything to get out of suffering and then you find out that the suffering is all your own drama that you caused and you are the author of.

Siddhananda: Right. Okay, I do see them holding hands with somebody. I don’t know. Yeah, I’m just feeling some sorrow. It’s tears. I see them holding hands with somebody. They miss their love. They are still hurting for… I guess they had a lot of sorrow. It’s heavy there.

G: Then they can let go of that. Like Christ said, his burden is light. It’s not sorrow to carry that light.

Siddhananda: Okay, they feel like they just need to take some time to get the sorrow cleansed and maybe that will help them to see clearer. Because they have a heart like that’s what they want, but I think it’s just laden down by whatever.

G: Yeah, so, we’ll ask that Christ and Mary come in again. She’s the one that deals with a lot of sorrow. She had a lot of sorrow watching her son being nailed to a cross.

Siddhananda: Yeah, just a little.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Just a little there.

G: She can tell you a bit about sorrow.

Siddhananda: I would say! (closing eyes) She almost looks like a bride in this image. It’s interesting. It’s got the flowing gown, this way (putting her hands over her head and letting her fingers fall downward). And then she’s got the flowers. It’s just an interesting image. Always a lovely, lovely image no matter how it comes in. Okay, she’s turning to light pretty quickly. I just see light and this thing of sorrow is just a little shadow. It’s really over shining that little shadow there.

G: Right. Yeah, if anybody knows about sorrow on earth, she knows about sorrow on earth and overcoming it. That it is risen and there’s no reason to hang on to it.

Siddhananda: Well, she comes with Christ, so you know it’s there. It’s still there. So, it’s eternal. So, I think he’s in really good hands, he/she, so I think we can just…

G: Yeah, they are going to be in very good hands there, so we will let them work on that lesson.

Siddhananda: That was like “Whoo!” That light’s there. That sorrow is like a little tiny drop. It’s nothing compared to that light.

G: Exactly.

Stages of Enlightenment

Siddhananda: (Showing a small marble stone) Okay.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: (pausing with closed eyes). They have a question, (pause), about stages of enlightenment.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: Like, what are the levels, maybe?

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: Like, are there levels of enlightenment?

G: Not really levels of enlightenment. Enlightenment is enlightenment! But, it does take a while, once one enters realization, to settle, for things to settle (gesturing a settling down). So, in that way, you could say there are levels or stages.

Siddhananda: (nodding).

G: There's only one Truth. When that Truth is revealed, that Truth is revealed. It's the heart of being. But, again, it takes a little while to then go from that IS and zero-point balance to come back into manifestation and be able to be that still center with the rest of the manifestation revolving around it (gesturing with finger, a center with things revolving around). So, it just takes a little time for those energies to straighten themselves and fully settle. Yeah.

Siddhananda: Okay, they are hearing it. (pause). And then i am hearing "Jivan mukta" and "Videha mukta".

G: Jivan mukta and what?

Siddhananda: Videha mukta.

G: Videha?

Siddhananda: It's the one after you pass or something?

G: Or, maybe the mukti being just liberated from the body, is what they are talking about.

Siddhananda: hmm hmm.

G: One is liberation from the body and Jivan mukti is liberation of the soul. 

Siddhananda: Right. (pause). Yeah, that was being reflected, those two.

G: Yeah. 

Siddhananda: Thank you so much (gesturing namaste).

G: Thank you. Namaste. (gesturing namaste).

Non-Dual Texts

Siddhananda: (Showing a clear stone). (long pause with closed eyes). Okay, i'm seeing a heart on fire.

G: hmm hmm (nodding).

Siddhananda: With the imagery, like the manifestations, burning in it (gesturing things burning in fire).

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: (pause)

G: Do you have a message or did you come to seek something?

Siddhananda: Seems like they have a question.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: Maybe something about the scriptures.

G: Okay, what is the question?

Siddhananda: (pause). i'm hearing two - Ashtavakra Gita and Bhagavad Gita.

G: Ashtavakra and which one?

Siddhananda: Bhagavad?

G: Ah, Bhagavad Gita. Okay. Bhagavad Gita and the Ashtavakra Gita, what about them? 

Spirit: Are they the same?

G: They are the same. But, [with] the Bhagavad Gita, what you want to go to is the last Gita (Uddhava Gita). And, in the last Gita is where Krishna is more talking to his long term devotee (Uddhava) and explaining to him basically non-duality. The Ashtavakra Gita is non-duality. It's the way of non-duality. Part of the Bhagavad Gita is how to live your life, etc. etc. etc., but, when you get to the very last part of it then it talks really about non-duality. So, yes, they are the same in the end. 

Siddhananda: They said thank you for that clarification. (pause). i'm feeling the substance of those texts coming in, being brought into this soul.

G: Yeah. 

Siddhananda: Thank you so much (gesturing namaste).

G: Namaste (gesturing namaste).

Freedom Within

Siddhananda: All right, let's see what we have here. We'll just start with this little thing.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: (Showing a very small round transparent stone) There it is. (long pause with closed eyes) Okay, they're lonely, they haven't slept at all, they don't feel settled. (light laughter) That's what we’re starting out with.

G: Okay. (light laughter).

Spirit: I had a dream last night that I was free.

G: Aha.

Spirit: Please bless me with freedom.

G: Well, the freedom has to be found within yourself. Nobody can hand it to you. It's not like a magic pill. You actually have to stop and do the work and go within your own being, and see what's there and what's not. You have to take the journey.

Siddhananda: (long pause) They're saying it would be nice if it came in an instance, but, that's not true.

G: Yeah, no, no instant.

Siddhananda: Aha.

G: I think people have this mistaken notion that sometimes they can go to a Guru and it can just be handed to them. 

Siddhananda: Right, they just want that without that work and that doesn't [happen].

G: Yeah, i don't want to work.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: i want carte blanche and i want to get out of jail free card. We're not Santa Claus with a goodie bag that we can just hand it out. It doesn't work that way. All we can do is give you practices and give you guidance, but, you have to make the journey yourself.

Siddhananda: Yeah, if you bypass those lessons, it's not going to be a true thing.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: It wouldn't happen that way. (pause) Okay, are there some mantras they can have?

G: Yes, the can go ahead and do the "Om that I am" and the "I am that I am" and the "COS". That will give them a really good [foundation]. (nodding head).

Siddhananda: Yeah (hand on heart center) Thank you.

G: (hand on heart center) They're ready to go. Thank you.

Siddhananda: (gesturing a flying motion) On your way.

G: On their journey.

I Sadhu

Siddhananda: (showing a rock). We got a… uh oh! Hold on to your seats. Buckle up! Get out your popcorn. Here we are! (laughing) We never know!

G: We never know with the linga! The wild card.

Siddhananda: Mr. Linga, get ready! (closing eyes) Okay, so I’m seeing something within it.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: Let’s see what it is. (pause) Okay, he’s saying, “I sadhu.”

G: I sadhu.

Siddhananda: Okay. Get ready! (laughing) Okay.

Spirit: I sadhu. I see. I see. I seer.

G: Okay.

Spirit: I Rishi sadhu. I Rishi sadhu.

G: Oh yes, we know about those Rishi sadhus, all right. So what does this Rishi sadhu have to say here?

Siddhananda: Oh no!

Spirit: I Rishi sadhu. I meditate. I Rishi sadhu.

G: Okay. (laughing) So, what can we help you with, Rishi sadhu?

Spirit: I make light. I make light. I Rishi sadhu.

Siddhananda: Okay.

G: He’s not going to ask for bakshish, is he? (laughing)

Siddhananda: (laughing) Oh no! Gosh, it’s feeling a little off kilter. But we’ll see.

G: Exactly, exactly.

Siddhananda: I know when you said that… oh no! They are coming in this way, that wouldn’t be good. He says, “What’s wrong asking bakshish? What’s wrong with that?”

G: Because you are not a beggar. Because that’s not part of the sadhu tradition. You should know that. Sadhu tradition is to sit there and do your mantras and to do your practice. And then people see and they give out of their heart. You don’t chase and ask for bakshish. So, I think with this one we’re going to send in Big Baba Light.

Siddhananda: Oh!

G: We need Big Baba Light to come in now.

Siddhananda: He’s right over there. (looking to the left)

G: Yeah, we need Big Baba Light.

Siddhananda: Let’s have him come, because, right away I think we need that.

G: Yeah, yeah. Because I know exactly what this type is.

Siddhananda: I’m already feeling where this is going. Exactly!

G: Yeah, I know when we started and he opened his mouth, I could tell exactly what it was. So, yeah. We need Big Baba Light to come.

Siddhananda: And I see that fire coming. That fire is no joke, that dhuni fire is coming. It’s ablaze.

G: Right. Tell this one we’re going to show you what real sadhu is.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: I’m going to show you what real sadhu is, okay? (laughing)

Siddhananda: Boy, I see that fire. It’s Shiva fire is what I’m feeling. I’m just seeing the energy of it and it’s bright.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And this sadhu, this Rishi sadhu [is saying] “Why are you bringing this here? What’s happening?”

G: To see what real sadhu is and that will explain it immediately to you, why you don’t ask for bakshish. (laughing)

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly! And he is bowing; he’s down. Either that or he is covering his head. It could be that. That’s what it feels like he’s doing.

G: Yeah, exactly.

Siddhananda: He’s more protecting himself, like this. (covering her head)

G: Exactly. Do you want to know what the real deal is? Do you want to know why you don’t that? Because you are playing a game. Now, I’m going to give you the reality. Don’t come fuck with me. (laughing)

Siddhananda: (laughing) And that’s pretty much this fire, too, because he’s sheltering himself from it.

G: Exactly! Because he’s there playing. He’s playing. He wants to think he’s this big sadhu. Okay, I’m going to show you what sadhu is. These are the ones I would take the danda (staff) out and chase.

Siddhananda: Yeah, yeah, exactly.

G: I’ll show you my danda. Now, here comes the fire.

Siddhananda: Oh, that’s it, exactly.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: He’s like, “Why I wrong? I no wrong. I no wrong. I Rishi. I Rishi. I seer.”

G: Uh huh, sure you are.

Siddhananda: But, he’s hiding his head. He’s shuddering.

G: So, why are you shuddering then? If you’re not wrong then what are you fearing in this? You want to know what Shiva fire is? Now you know.

Siddhananda: He goes, “Because it hot. It burn me.”

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: It’s getting closer to him, too. It’s coming closer to him.

G: It needs to burn you. That’s why you have the fire, the dhuni, to burn to ashes.

Spirit: Don’t let it burn me!

G: All of your drama needs to burn one hundred percent and be rarefied and clean like gold. So you don’t even know the first thing about the path. You are playing a game. No more games.

Siddhananda: You know it’s burning up that imagery of him, actually. Ooh! (making a face)

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: It’s taking it away. It’s coming. Actually it’s burning that image completely away of him and his masquerading.

G: Exactly! Like I said, he’s the type I take the danda out and I chase.

Siddhananda: Oh yeah.

G: I take him to task because you are not a sadhu. You are a beggar!

Siddhananda: That’s the thing.

G: You are disgracing the sadhu clothes.

Siddhananda: That’s the thing.

G: If you are going to be a beggar, be a beggar. But, don’t sit here and play this game.  You can’t fool me.

Siddhananda: No.

G: You come here and say I’m Rishi. I’m Rishi. You’re not a Rishi. My foot! You don’t know the first thing and say you are a Rishi.

Siddhananda: Yeah, no.

G: A Rishi, a seer, is a realized being.

Siddhananda: Right, right.

G:  You are sitting here telling me you are a realized being and you don’t even know the first thing about the beginning of the path.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Oh, no, no, no, no. Uh uh. You are not playing that here. (laughing)

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: We’re going to clear this up immediately.

Siddhananda: Well, he’s burning up. I don’t really see his form like that anymore. So, let’s see what he’s got to say.

G: We’ll take the big danda in there and whack him upside the head. Now you can see what sadhu is.

Spirit: Big Baba Light! Big Baba Light is there!

Siddhananda: I do see a lotus coming [from] where his form was. So, let’s see what he has to say, if anything.

G: Yeah, he wants to be a Rishi, then he’s going to have to pay the price. You’ve got to burn up all the bullshit. You can’t have that bullshit and sit there and talk story and smoke all this bullshit and sit there and ask…

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: No, no, no. That’s not a Rishi. (shaking head)

Siddhananda: Okay, he’s saying, “Please help me. Please help me see.” (laughing) Obviously, if he needs help seeing, he was not a seer.

G: Right, right. So now you want to be a seer, you are claiming to be a seer, now you have the path to become a seer. But it takes burning out all the illusion and the drama.

Spirit: Yes, help me to see. I need to see. I’m blind. I need to see.

G: Right, well, now we’re getting better.

Siddhananda: Well, he’s burning up.

G: Now, we’re getting to honesty.

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly.

G: Honesty is the first step.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: So you want to be a real sadhu? This is the real initiation. (laughing)

Siddhananda: No doubt! Oh boy, is he getting it. He goes, “I was wrong. I need to see.”

G: Yeah.

Spirit: I was wrong.

G: So we’ll bring that in and we’ll also bring in the Kali.

Siddhananda: Oh boy! Okay.

G: He gets the double whack. He gets the big danda today. (laughing)

Siddhananda: Both of them are descending down again, the white and the black Kali. They come in like this (showing her fingers cascading downwards). They float down.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: It’s really cool. They are there as well as Big Baba Light. Oh boy, watch out, huh?

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: They have their sword of knowledge there, kali. The one, the darker Kali, is bending down and cutting things away.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Really, it’s no joke. It’s no joke!

G: It’s no joke. No. It’s no joke. You want to play that life and you want to think you have something? I’m going to show you the truth of it.

Siddhananda: It’s like I see weeds that Kali is cutting, like cutting those weeds.

G: Right. Yeah, all that drama out, all that nonsense. And a lot of these Babas do think they have it.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: They have memorized all this stuff and they can talk a good story, but no.

Siddhananda: Well, right. When he says, “I make light,” that’s just not right.

G: No. He makes light? Yeah, I’m going to show you light.

Siddhananda: Yeah, he doesn’t make light. (laughing)

G: Don’t talk to me about that.

Siddhananda: Yeah, no, wrong person, wrong thing. Well, it could be the best day for him, but we’ll see.

G: It will be his best day.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: But, it’s going to come at a toll. He’s going to find out what a genuine spiritual path is and this is what we go through in a genuine spiritual path.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: You come to me and I’ve walked the path in honesty and sincerity. I’ve done all these things and you come to me with this bullshit?

Siddhananda: Right.

G: No, it’s not going to fly.

Siddhananda: Like you are going to cater to that? Please!

G: Oh no, no. They should know better than come to me like that.

Siddhananda: That’s what’s amazing. I think they just unknowingly come and maybe to get on the right path and the grace if they do turn around. You never know, sometimes they don’t, of course.

G: Yeah, they get the grace. But they should know.

Siddhananda: Really!

G: They should know of my time in Rishikesh. Like I said, they have the one sadhu, every time he would see me, he would run the other direction. “Kali! Kali!” (laughing) He would run the other direction.

Siddhananda: Right! Well, that’s the thing. They would run from you. (laughing)

G: No, I don’t mess around.

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly.

G: This is sadhu life. This is being in that type of tradition, and especially as a woman you have to be doubly strong to be in that type of tradition.

Siddhananda: For sure.

G: If you’re going to come to me and say that you are a sadhu, then you best be a sadhu. You better not be sitting there, being a sadhu masquerading. And being like a fricking beggar.

Siddhananda: Yeah, no.

G: Because I will really take them to task and [it] really is something that is upsetting here that they do that and pass themselves off as a sadhu.

Siddhananda: Absolutely.

G: And playing a game with everybody.

Siddhananda: Absolutely.

G: Yeah.


Siddhananda: Oh boy, and they are getting the lesson here today.

G: Yeah, they will be working on him for a while. So, let’s put him on the middle shelf (in the healing center) and we will check in with him.

Siddhananda: Let him simmer there.

G: Yeah, they are going to be working with him for a while. Big Baba Light will have no problem. (laughing)

Siddhananda: It’s so nice to have good friends, isn’t it?

G: It’s nice to have friends in high places.

Siddhananda: It’s so nice to have good friends in high places. That’s right! Here, five. (raising her palm to the camera for a high five) That’s it.

G: Sadhu? Okay, we’ll call in Big Baba Light.

Siddhananda: Big Baba Light! Hey, no problem. We got him. We got this covered. Big Baba Light. Phew! (fingers like flying away) Watch out!

G: Bring your danda.

Siddhananda: That’s right.

G: Whack some sense into these sadhus.

Siddhananda: He was there waiting. Big Baba Light came like a fire, no problem. Immediately!

G: He’ll straighten them out very quickly. Because it’s the same thing. I’m sure he’s not going to put up with any of that nonsense.

Siddhananda: No, it’s just so pervasive there right now with that kind of energy. It’s just so dishonest.

G: And I don’t know if they even understand they are being dishonest with themselves.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: They’ve got the stories, this and that, and they think that’s it.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: And then they say that they’ve got light and truth that they don’t have, so they come here, they are going to get the reality not the bullshit.

Siddhananda: Right, right. And that must be it, otherwise he wouldn’t have come here, because he really did feel like he has something to say and has something.

G: He really felt he had something.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Like he really had something. But the minute he opened his mouth, from the first word I had that feeling, immediately.

Siddhananda: That energy.

G: When he said, “But what’s wrong with bakshish?” I knew immediately he was one of those types.

Siddhananda: Oh yeah! And even when he said, “I make this light…” I’m like the man is what he’s trying to say.

G: I got the light. I’m here to… yeah, you are? Oh, okay, we’ll see. We’ll see. No problem.

Siddhananda: It’s good. It comes to bring this energy of purification out to that population, which is just so pervasive and so stuck… and then they’ve got the drugs and everything else. They don’t have any clarity at all.

G: No. They think they’ve got the clarity and they think that they’ve got the wisdom and things. They sit there and they have lived... we’ll give them this. They have kept the dhuni faithfully and they have done the outer things.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: But they don’t have the inner truth of it.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: They are all stuck on the outer.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And that’s it.

Siddhananda: And it is a harsh life. Some of them do go through those austerities and things, and it’s harsh.

G: They have done a lot of austerities and that’s one reason that they are smoking that.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Because it is a very hard life…

Siddhananda: Understood.

G: …living out in the elements and doing that.

Siddhananda: Oh yeah.

G: It is very tough. It’s not a joke. It is a very, very tough life. But they don’t have what they think they have and so when they don’t have that that Big Baba Light… they come here and we’ll show you what the dhuni is really all about, what those fires of purification are.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And so we’ll let them experience the real deal.

Siddhananda: For sure. No, it’s awesome.

G: They paid some dues, so let’s let them get that chance.

Siddhananda: Yeah, yeah. No. And just that he came here. Okay, you came here, so we’re going to follow with this.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: It’s good. It’s good that this is coming out. I knew when I even picked up that one, it was looking at me. (laughing) Buckle your seatbelt. So, anyway, okay!

G: Another wild card linga.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: You never know what you are going to get when you have the linga there.

Siddhananda: No.

G: It’s usually some sort of a ride “Ooh!” (waving her hands up)

Siddhananda:  It is.

G: No one knows.

Siddhananda: It’s a ride it takes you on. So, we’ll let them simmer over there. They are on simmer. Maybe not simmer, maybe they are on hot. I don’t think they are on simmer. They are on hot.

G: They are on hot.

Siddhananda: They are on high. (laughing)

G: They are going to become that dhuni.

Siddhananda: Riiuup! (making a noise like turning the sound up)

G: Exactly! That’s what it is. They are supposed to be burning that up. They are supposed to become that dhuni.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: They are that light.

Siddhananda: They are the sacrifice, that ego. Yeah.

G: Exactly. Now he’s going to find what that fire actually is.

Siddhananda: And that’s exactly what was happening is that image of him was being consumed in that fire.

G: Exactly! And then you become that sacred ash.

Siddhananda: Yeah, yeah.

G: You become that sacred ash.

Siddhananda: That’s exactly what was happening with that one. Big Baba Light came in. It came closer, then the flames were licking him.

G: Exactly. 

Siddhananda: And then it just consumed him.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: It did show that lotus at the end, but he’s not there yet. But just that’s where it’s going, to that purity.

G: Exactly. Those are the ashes you wear. You wear those ashes.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: You burn that up and that’s the ash that you wear.

Siddhananda: Sure.

G: They cover your body with that ash.

Siddhananda: Right. Yeah.

G: That’s exactly what that’s representing. They don’t get it. The ashes of Shiva, you cover your body in ash.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And that’s exactly what that is to burn that form, to burn that.

Siddhananda: And they wear that, yeah.

G: You want the full sadhu experience? Here you have it.

Siddhananda: Ooh boy, there it is. It is on high, so we’ll let them boil for a while, not simmer. (laughing).

G: Thank you Big Baba Light! (laughing)

Siddhananda: Big Baba Light, thank you! Our friend. (laughing) Good friend. He’s a good one to have for a friend. We’ve got like I say a lot of good friends these days.

G: Yeah, when Sundir Puri comes back in some drug induced state, we’ll send Big Baba Light over and he will continue to work with him.

Siddhananda: When you said that, I still saw him and his eyes were all still blood shotty. He heard you, “Whirr!” (making a sound like spinning around). And then back again.

G: Yeah, when I call his name, he hears me.

Siddhananda: Yeah, he hears you.

G: It’s going to be a little while before…

Siddhananda: Yeah. Man, he was toxic that one. He had some haze of smoke.

G: Well, that’s how he died, in the midst of that.

Siddhananda: Yeah. I know.

G: In the midst of that. That day he was taking full on charas. It wasn’t cut with anything, so, yeah, and that’s what killed him. So it will take a while before that toxicity is out of there enough [so that] he can be worked with really.

Siddhananda: Right, and again another lesson that these things do carry on, drugs and all these things, it carries forward. If you got a chance now to get off that stuff, do it.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: That’s all.

G: Right.