Warm memories

Siddhananda: Okay, another one (showing a small green square)

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: (long pause) i'm hearing "if I remember myself, I remember myself as young innocence."

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: "That's my memory of myself."

G: And then if you don't remember yourself, then what? (smiling)

Siddhananda: (pause) "Not anything at all, like that."

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: I think that's fine, too, to them.

G: Yeah. One doesn't need to cling to a persona, a face, a time, a body, that's not needed.

Siddhananda: (pause)

G: The spirit has those experiences, but, the experiences are not that consciousness, okay.

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, they're hearing that. They just like that memory (smiling).

G: They like that memory? (smiling)

Siddhananda: Yeah, but they are hearing you. They understand that's another type of covering.

G: Yeah, and innocence is still there. 

Siddhananda: hmm hmm.

G: You don't have to have that face or that remembrance to have that innocence. It is still there, present at some point. 

Siddhananda: i see an image of them being connected with that memory, sitting with their grandma and learning things, in a ways that she transmitted to them, it was such a warm bond.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: i think with them, it just brings a lot of warmth to them to remember that or to bring that to their heart.

G: Right. That's fine, if that's where they're at then that's fine. They can have that remembrance. They're still in the transient journey and that's fine. 

Siddhananda: Let me see if there's anything else they want to ask. (pause). They just want to remember.

G: Yeah. 

Siddhananda: That's okay.

G: And one can have those remembrances. That's fine. As long as you're in that journey and you continue to go into corporeal form, you'll have more and more experiences and things. One doesn't have to forget ones that have gone before. It's part of the transient journey, that's all. 

Siddhananda: Yeah, and as you say, just to put out there, that you don't lose anything.

G: Right, nothing's lost. 

Siddhananda: Whether it's remembered or not, that love, that bond is there without all that. But, if you want to be in remembrance, that's okay.

G: Right, if you want to put a name and a face to it, that's fine. If you want to keep that love aspect as it is, you can do it without putting a name and a face on it. 

Siddhananda: Perfect way to put it.

G: Where you are at now, if you want to commune with that being, you can commune with that being. 

Siddhananda: That's what i was going to say, grandma can be there (smiling).

G: She can be right there. If you want to commune with that being, there's nothing that stops you from doing that, from the other side. All you have to do is think and say you would like to be with them and you can instantly be with them (snapping fingers). One hundred percent. 

Siddhananda: i think they are there with them, in a certain way. i think that's partly why they want to stay in that.

G: Yeah. One can stay in that, for a time. Of course, you're going to have to reincarnate, both of you continue your journeys. Many times, you will reincarnate with the people that you are close to so you can learn other lessons. You'll have a tendency to reincarnate in groups and learn different lessons and play different roles. 

Siddhananda: hmm hmm.

G: Okay? So, just be open to that and know that that can happen. You can have many other roles and many other journeys with that person. 

Siddhananda: i'm hearing them asking, "does this keep me in a regression, if i stay with my grandma?"

G: Like i said, you have to be willing to go back into form, into different things. Maybe, you'll go back into another life and you will be her parent, or you will be her brother or sister. You can have many, many, many different relationships. Many, many, many, many different learning scenarios. So, just be willing to go forward and experience more with them. Don't stay stuck in one thing.

Siddhananda: Yeah, that's the thing.

G: Don't just stay stuck there. Then you're missing out on more experiences and more journeys and more things that you can learn.

Siddhananda: and growth.

G: Yeah. 

Siddhananda: That's the thing. So, letting that resonate. i do see the COS popping out, i don't know if this is the thing for them or not, Guruji.

G: hmm hmm. Yeah, if they want the COS they can go ahead and use it, that's fine. 

Siddhananda: It will help them loosen up.

G: Yeah, they can start experiencing on other levels. They'll see that there's more expansion, other things to experience rather than staying focused on that one thing. 

Siddhananda: hmm hmm. Makes sense.

G: i'm sure in that life time, that one thing that's really really important and that's what they clung to and got them through, based their existence around, but, there's much more to life and existence than one experience.

Siddhananda: Good, very good. Thank you (hand on heart)

G: Yeah. (hand on heart)

Siddhananda: That was a good one. Good lessons in that.

Dancing

Siddhananda: (Showing a small yellow stone). (pause with closed eyes). Okay, i am seeing an image of some stirring (gesturing with hand).

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: They're not upset, though. i'm just trying to see what that's about.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: They want to dance, too. (laughing) (referring to previous spirit that wanted to be outward and play like Krishna).

G: (laughing).

Siddhananda: They want to go and join that flute music (laughing). Over the pastures and the whole bit!

G: (laughing). 

Siddhananda: i can see them saying like "i wanna dance too!"

G: Well, there's no reason why you can't dance. (laughing). Nobody is stopping you from dancing. You can dance anytime you want. 

Siddhananda: Can they join that other energy?

G: Absolutely. 

Siddhananda: Thank you. They're on their way. (laughing).

G: They're on their way! That was quick. (laughing). 

Siddhananda: i don't think they came in for that, but they liked that.

G: They liked that and that will work. So, go enjoy and play for a while. 

Siddhananda: i can see them both frolicking over the hills now. So, it's all quite well there.

G: (laughing). 

Siddhananda: That took care of that. Maybe, they came in with something else, but [that took care of that].

G: Yeah. They were at the right place at the right time. So, that was good. 

Siddhananda: They all might want to go, i don't know. (laughing).

G: Yeah, you can pick as many lifetimes and experiences as you want. Not a problem.

Siddhananda: Yeah. It's your choice.

G: It's your choice. You have absolutely free will. You can go on any path you want and change..

Siddhananda: It's up to you. It's like a state of consciousness.

G: Right. It's all just different experiences, so, you learn from all the experiences. 

Siddhananda: hmm hmm.

True Fulfillment

Siddhananda:  Okay, we've got our little linga (showing an oblong, black stone). So, here's our next feeling, or our next energy (laughing).

G: Well, that's it ... the next energy.

Siddhananda: (pausing with eyes closed) Hmm ... taking a long time with this one. I'm hearing, "Brushing heaven ... strokes of heaven," like painting that, or something.

G: Okay, is there something that you came to ask, or something you came to say, as the case may be?

Siddhananda: (sitting with eyes closed) What I'm hearing, and I asked if this was correct, is "Heaven here on earth."

G: (nodding) It can be, yes. [There's] no separation.

Siddhananda: They are disembodied now. With the strokes, maybe they're saying you create your own...

G:  ... your own reality.

Siddhananda: [You create your own] land, or reality, and that's what the strokes are, like in a painting.

G: Right, you create your own story.

Siddhananda: He's painted things for his story, which is the realm he's in right now. This realm of sun, really pretty sunsets and sun rises, and the sky is always beautiful colors. [There are] really nice mountains with flowing waters. This beautiful place, he said that he's painted that, and he's there.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Sometimes he changes it, and paints it a different way (chuckling lightly with a smile).

G: (laughing)

Siddhananda: A different color today (grinning)!

G: Just want a different color today (laughing).

Siddhananda: He saying, "You can do that."

G: Yes, you can.

Siddhananda: Let's see what he's wanting here, though (closing her eyes). I think he's ready to move on. At least, I'm hearing that. I don't know if it's immediately, but I think he's trying to look at things a little more. Like is this really satisfying? Is it fulfilling ... eternally? [It's] that kind of thing.

G: Right, right (nodding).

Siddhananda: And I don't think it is for him (nodding).

G: No, no. You can do all that, yeah. You can create and you can call into being all of these different things, and these experiences, etc., but until one knows what's at the heart of being, that IS, that God presence, then after awhile it becomes un-fulfilling.

Siddhananda: I'm sure (nodding). It's just like the lokas, or ...

G:  ... the lokas, right ... the heavenlies. Mm hmm, right. They're kind of like vacation spots, one can say (laughing).

Siddhananda: Mm hmm, exactly.

G: [They're] like vacation spots for a time, but eventually one has to want to know what is truly at the heart of being. So, when you get ready to truly know what's at the heart of being, that's when you have to submerge into the heart.

Siddhananda:  He's really hearing you. I think he's been at this awhile (chuckling). He's painted his beautiful life, and he wants to say, that it's not all that it's cracked up to be in some ways. He's saying, "That's what ego would like, [what it's] always hankering after, and thinks that's it."

G: Ego thinks it wants it, but eventually finds out that that's not fulfilling.

Siddhananda: Right, and I think what he's saying is [that] it's still of ego.

G: It is still of ego (nodding).

Siddhananda: It's of a persona ...

G:  ... in control.

Siddhananda:  Yeah!

G:  It's still from control. I (ego) want to control my universe.

Siddhananda:  Of course, it does.

G:  It doesn't matter if you have control of the universe, and you make it as beautiful as you can, it's still empty of something.

Siddhananda: Right. For sure. For sure, and that's what he's feeling is there, that [emptiness]. There's still that ache there. There's that separation there.

G: Yeah. That's what he needs to find out. The separation is that he's attempting to control.

Siddhananda:  Mmm ... (closing her eyes).

G: You have to let go of all that control.

Siddhananda:  He's trying to be the manipulator of his reality.

G: Right, right, right. You have to let go. Like they say, let go and let God. Then, you'll find out there's nothing to control.

Siddhananda:  (pausing with closed eyes) This is hard for him to hear. It's a hard lesson.

G: It's a hard lesson (nodding yes).

Siddhananda:  Wooh ... it's a hard lesson for him! I mean, he's been at this for a long time.

G:  Yeah, exactly.

Siddhananda:  Even maybe while he was in body, he's been at this kind of thing, creating his own rightness for himself.

G:  Exactly!

Siddhananda:  This is a hard lesson, but I am feeling that he's open to it, but GOSH it hurts him.

G: It's hard to let go of that control when you've wanted that control for so long a time, and you've had that type of control to manipulate this and manipulate that. Having to let go and let God can be a difficult thing. Yeah, but you have to let go. Let go, and you will find out there was nothing to control (smiling).

Siddhananda: Oh, that's hard for him (shaking her head).

G: Yeah, it's tough (nodding with a smile).

Siddhananda:  I'm seeing a lightning bolt, though. I am seeing how that's ripping on him in a way that he doesn't even know, really, what he's asking for. But, that was at his heart ... that this has gone on too long ... that it's not true fulfillment.

G: No, it's not true fulfillment. The only true fulfillment is knowing that IS, that ever present IS that gives life, that is Life.

Siddhananda:  Absolutely! What you're saying is piercing him. What I saw is an image of this beautiful sunset with the mountains. I saw a ripping of that, but there was some light, like Christ, or energy, coming through that. It was like a torn canvas (gesturing as if slicing through a canvas with a knife).

G:  (nodding) It's the illusion. The illusion has to be torn, and one has to step into reality, because he's in a dream state of his own making.

Siddhananda:  Yes, that's it exactly!

G:  You have to wake up. Wake up! (laughing)

Siddhananda:  Yeah, this is hitting him. This is hitting him (nodding gravely).

G:  Absolutely, it's going to hit.

Siddhananda:  It's like those [Zen masters] ...  like you say, wake up! ... they hit you over the head, because you are just ... ehhhh (gesturing as if floundering in a kind of sleep) ... in your own ...

G:  ... in your own dream state ... in your own delusion.

Siddhananda:  Yeah, delusion ... fantasy world.

G:  Delusion and fantasy, yeah.

Siddhananda:  Which you may think is pleasant, but it's like that one guy that came in that ate all the sweets with the cavities. It does create [dis-ease]. It's not a healthy thing.

G: No, in the end, it's not, but it takes a long time to come out of that, and to see that that is not [beneficial]. You can tell people this for a long time, but they're not going to believe you. It takes a very long time, as is evidenced by this [soul's situation], to get that, and to find out that it is the truth, and that it is not fulfilling in the end. It's not.

Siddhananda: For sure. No, and you can really get [trapped] in your own world with that.

G:  Yeah, you can get lost in that for a lot of eons.

Siddhananda:  Wooh! ... and this one did.

G: It's a lot of eons, a lot of eons, and lifetimes, and ... yeah, yeah (nodding).

Siddhananda: Again, I think it's what people think they want sometimes, but ... boy! (shaking her head).

G:  Exactly!

Siddhananda:  But, think again! That's all. Just take some time to consider that.

G:  Yeah, yeah (nodding in full agreement).

Siddhananda:  So, anyway, that image is there with that ripping apart [of the illusion], the light, and Christ there. It's strong! He's feeling that. That's what he's saying. He's really feeling that in his heart with that lightning bolt like a Vajra (opening her eyes wide).

G: Yep, like the Vajra (nodding gravely).

Siddhananda:  Like the Vajra!

G: Yeah, it's very, very strong. We'll let him go ahead to find out [what] Christ [is], and surrender into that, surrender into God. Have no fear in that, and find out what is at the center of being.

Siddhananda:  Christ is there, yeah (nodding).

G:  He's chased the illusion long enough.

Siddhananda: Oh, man (shaking her head).

G:  He knows what all the illusion is (laughing).

Siddhananda: Yeah (nodding and smiling). You know what you want, or maybe, it's what you don't want now, but still ...

G:  Exactly, ... but now find out the truth (laughing).

Siddhananda:  I am seeing some dripping colors (gesturing as if paint is melting down a canvas). They're starting to drip. It's his sorrow, but also it's ...

G:  Yeah, yeah ... he's starting to let that go of it (mimicking Siddhananda's gesture of paint dripping).

Siddhananda:  ... letting go, yes.

G:  Yeah, it's starting to melt (nodding with approval).

Siddhananda:  It's releasing all of the emotions attached. That's melting. I can see it's like melting colors in the rain just dripping down, and then there's Christ there.

G:  When he sees what the reality is, he'll see it's much more beautiful than anything he could ever create (smiling joyfully).

Siddhananda:  Mmmm ... he's drinking that in. He is. He is. It's going to be a little while maybe, but I don't know. No one can say with these things in time. Who am I to say, but it is beginning ... quite intensely, actually. So, that's a good thing.

G: (gesturing namaste) So, we will leave him with that.

Siddhananda: (gesturing namaste)

G: He's got enough to process for awhile (laughing).

Siddhananda:  I think so! (laughing as she places the stone aside)

G:  Thank you for coming.

Siddhananda: Thank you for melting! (laughing)

G:  (laughing) I'm melting!

Siddhananda:  I'm melting! No, but it's all good (smiling).