The Light is for All

Siddhananda: This one says right away, "I'm not a clear pool either," and he's laughing. I think he's a friend of the other one that came from Africa.

G: (laughing with Siddhananda) Okay.

Siddhananda: He says that it's a lot of the same issues with him.

Spirit: Hearing of this work, we both came as friends.

Siddhananda: There's a man. I'm seeing him, dark-skinned and cute." A lot of the people there," he's saying, "we were very happy. We're happy people, but something dampened our spirit with this shift in the earth planet." Anyway, he's still a happy soul. Could he find the light?

G: Yeah, anyone can find the light, anyone. Of course, it's for all, equally. All came from the one God spirit, so of course, it's equally for everyone.

Spirit: And, those ancient traditions of ours are so filled with harmony, like all the ancient traditions, if they're done rightly. Is this something ... should I do some of those ancient rituals?
 
G: If you feel more in harmony with that, absolutely, of course.

Spirit: This is like invoking pure rain…
 
G: Yeah, that's fine.

Spirit: ...and these kinds of things... to rain on me... to cleanse me.
 
G: Yeah, that's fine if that's where you're at in your practices. That's quite fine, absolutely.

Siddhananda: I just see lots of rain on me, in a good way now. He's being cleansed. He's saying though, "Would it be okay if I had the COS, too?" (breaking out in laughter)

G: Yes (laughing with Siddhananda).

Spirit: My friend is telling me that. Ask for the COS, don’t just stay with the ancient tradition, because we've been there, and we want to move forward.

G: If you want it, yes, you may have it as well.

Siddhananda: They're both laughing and smiling. They're very cute, very sweet.

G: So, we will put him over here with your friend. You can sit next to your friend (laughing).

Siddhananda: "Thank you both. We're enjoying all here, though," they said.

G: The two "not cleared pools." (laughing with Siddhananda)

Siddhananda: They're laughing so hard. They're in tears with laughing. All I see written in my head is COS. It's like a "COS, hurray!" kind of thing (laughing).

G: (laughing)

Siddhananda: I'm still getting typing (swiping her hand across her forehead)! I guess it's the crystal kundalini e-mail (laughing)! It's hilarious.

G: Down to the last two.

Siddhananda: We are getting down. So far so good ... (big exhalation).

G: We've had a lot today.

Siddhananda: Oh, my! They're all lovely souls, though.

The Pure Land

Siddhananda: This one is saying immediately, "I'm not a clear pool." (referring to previous spirit that was worked with, breaking out in laughter).

G: (laughing hard)

Spirit: Please don't kick me out today!

Siddhananda: This is the rock, see (showing a transparent, clear rock).

G: But, they're not a clear pool (still laughing).

Siddhananda: They're not a clear ...no, no (shaking her head no, emphatically) ... not even close to being a clear pool! They are laughing, but they're very ... they're very much hurting. They're very much filled with ... not negative ... just ... (pausing) ... all their conditionings. They're not a clear pool, they keep saying, "no!"

G: Okay, we get that (laughing)!

Spirit: I'm not a waterfall.

G: So, what is it going on with their conditionings? What is there? Where are they at?

Siddhananda: A lot of memories, attachments, a lot of worries ... a lot of just worrying, I guess. Worrying about themselves, about others, about the planet, you know, about the earth, the pollution, the catastrophes.

G: Okay. Okay, alright. You've taken way too much on yourself, and I think you don't have to worry, because God is at the center of all of it, and God is always pure. Okay?

Siddhananda: He's taking a deep breath.

Spirit: So, I don't have to do something about it? I feel like I need to.

G: You do the best that you can do. Of course, you do the best you can do on earth, but you don't have to put all this weight on your shoulders, because God is always pure, and God is at the center of all the creation. So, it will be cleansed in its time.

Spirit: Why does it happen? Why does it have to be in this way?

G: Well, man is the polluter and his ego.

Spirit: Mmm ...yes.

G: Man is the polluter and his ego. So, if you want to get to planetary cleansing, then find out who and what you are in the center of your soul.

Spirit: But, the animals ... the animals ... what about the animals?

G: The animals are also souls, and they move forward as well.

Spirit: What about the animals?

Siddhananda: I'm seeing just zebras ... just all kinds of animals float through my mind (chuckling). I don't know where they were from, if it was from more like an African area. Oh, it is ... it is! They were there when it was such a beautiful land, and they destroyed the land. They came and they burned ... wars.

G: Yeah, they destroyed the land, and they destroyed the elephants just for their tusks. They've done horrendous things.

Siddhananda: They hurt. They're crying. They're crying. They're crying.

G: Yeah, they have done horrendous things. They've done horrendous things.

Spirit: My land ... my land!

G: Yeah, yeah ... but know that it will be cleansed, and there will come a time when the earth will be restored to its former beauty...

Spirit: Oh, thank you.

G: ... restored in a higher vibrational state.

Spirit: Yes, I feel that movement coming forward now in me, but you know, it's hard for me ... my family, my mother, were hurt.
 
G: Right, but you have to let go of that and know that all will be righted in time in karma.

Spirit: Yes. So, for me now, should I let go of this worry?

G: Yeah! You need to let go of the worry. Like they say, the saying ... "Let go and let God."

Spirit: Yes, and this is a saying that's at the heart of all religions.

G: Exactly. Let go and let God ... there's only so much you can do as a single man, etcetera. Of course, we do the best we can do, but you need to get yourself out of the way, and let God work through you.

Siddhananda: He knows of the young boy that was here and wanted to re-live his life in that body when it was so beautiful and lush. He says that he was there, and it was that way. I see a spear and this young, frail, dark-skinned boy. He's very, very cute and sweet, and innocent. He loved that land. He roamed in it, played in it... barefoot.

Spirit: Is that a good thing to do, to go back to that time, when it was pure?

G: You need to go forward, and he understands, too, that he's going to have to go forward. Okay, but no, you need to go forward, not stay in the past. You can't stay in the past.

Spirit: That make sense for me, and I know everyone's different. For me, that makes sense. I think it would be harder for me if I went back.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: For him, it's just something else.

G: Just know that things are going to adjust, and it will get better in time.

Spirit: Thank you! So, moving forward from here, I will try to take steps forward.

Siddhananda: I see some steps.

Spirit: I'm from Africa, so is there something you can give that would harmonize with that, or does it matter?

G: It doesn't matter. You can still do the ... if you want to do the COS and the mantra, you can do that. It doesn't matter what land you're from.

Spirit: Mmm hmm ... makes total sense, because we're not all that anyway at the end of it all.

G: Yeah, exactly.
 
Siddhananda: I'm seeing a yantra now. It's his way of saying, "I see there's one heart."

G: Right.

Spirit: And, that's where we can all heal ... is by going there.

G: Exactly.

Spirit: So, the COS I've heard of, is that okay?

G: Yeah!

Siddhananda: Okay, so can I wait for that as well?

G: Yes, yes.

Siddhananda: Thank you so much. I'm seeing ... his way of saying thank you, are with a lot of animals that are very healthy and running, and his pure land. He wanted to send that to you to say, "thank you."

G: Thank you.

A Clear Pool: Soulmates

Siddhananda: Another clear pool.. crystal ... crystal, I get "crystal kundalini" sometimes, and I don't know, but I think that they love that combination.
 
G: (laughing) They like that ... crystal kundalini?

Siddhananda : Yeah, because they're saying, "Kundalini brings you to clarity," and that looks like a crystal and a deep clear pool.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: They're saying that you chose that for your e-mail.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Is that okay to say it?

G: Yeah!

Siddhananda: Oh, okay. He said that he ... he/she ... didn't want to bring out anything that wasn't okay.

G: No, that's fine.

Spirit: That is something that is just right. It is so balanced.

G: Thank you for that.

Siddhananda: Anyway, he said, "but don't worry, I won't e-mail you, or maybe I will." He said, "he's emailing Siddhananda through her psychic powers," (laughing with G).

G: There you go! We've got the psychic email going on today (laughing heartily).

Siddhananda: He's laughing, and there's a little typing in my mind that I see, which is fine (laughing hard).

G: (laughing with Siddhananda)

Siddhananda: She/he is laughing. I think two might be in this thing! I think there are two that are together in this, and that's okay. They are male and female. They love each other so much. They feel like they're one in spirit.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: So, it doesn't matter, and they didn't think you'd mind.

G: No, it's fine.

Siddhananda: Ha, ha ... okay, so I'm getting some more typing which is hilarious. So, what have you come here for?

Spirit: Beauty ... love.

Siddhananda: Boy! They're holding hands. They're one and they want to let others know that the male-female form is not separate. The energies are one, but, they also feel that they have some work to do. Their love is very connected and they're wondering if they should sever the bond, because it might be that they're dependent on each other too much.

G: Yeah, if you 're really depending on each other, ... I mean, soulmates are wonderful, but ... you have to come to the realization of what is there beyond that ... beyond that.

Siddhananda: So, I just get a feeling that they're holding hands, and then you see a severing. They wonder what that will mean for them. What will they lose?

G: Nothing will be lost in the end. It's only for a time that you separate, but once everything falls away then you can come back together again, and, it's one. It's even stronger than what it is now.

Siddhananda: They're very gentle together. They're gentle beings together. So, like I say, they still do feel like they drink from each other's spirit.

G: Mm hmm. Yeah, okay.

Siddhananda: They're refreshment for each other's spirit. He drinks from her spirit, and she from his, but they feel like they're one.

G: Yeah, soulmates.

Siddhananda: Yes, that's the main thing. I can see two lotuses together ... white lotuses together with light around them, and they're smiling (laughing). They're saying that they'll enjoy this now. When they are ready to leave, should they try to live their next life apart?

G: Yeah, just ask to be born in the aspects that would best serve to know God ... to complete.

Siddhananda: This is perfect, and they know. Again, those two lotuses are blooming, and "I understand," is what they're saying through that [imagery].

Spirits: Through that God source, we can't lose anything.

G: Right, exactly ... nothing is lost.

Siddhananda: There are some tears.

G: Yeah, nothing is lost.

Siddhananda: There are tears, but they're very sparkly, and they're sweet (laughing lightly), but you know, they're just gentle.

G: Thank you for coming and Namaste (gesturing namaste).

Siddhananda: Namaste (gesturing namaste).

Holy of Holies

Siddhananda: (showing a small, dark stone) Okay, so here's our last one [for today].

G: Whoo! The grand finale.

Siddhananda: The grand finale (smiling). A little dark one (closing her eyes).

G: A little dark one (smiling and raising her eyebrows momentarily).

Siddhananada: I do see some Mary imagery rising here with a beautiful crystal together. That is what rose out of the stone, initially. That's kind of fading. Some growth, greenery is rising. I see below a bit of blue wanting to come up. This is a message from spirit about the holy of holies, light of lights. They are just saying...

Spirit:
Darkness is gone
It doesn’t have any power
That darkness is not real
That darkness is gone
That darkness has no power

G: Yeah, it has no power.
 
Siddhananda: Mary is very beautiful above it… kind of fading, again.

Spirit:  
Make your life wondrous
Make your life one of beauty,
and love and light.


G: That’s a good one. So, again,

    Anyone can enter the holy of holies.
    It’s not reserved for anyone special.
    It's for all of mankind to go into the holy of holies and surrender into that.
    The darkness is an illusion.
    You are the one who is giving it power by feeding it or fearing it.
    You don’t open yourself to it.
    You don’t feed it.
    You don’t fear it.
     It's just a shadow.
     It has no substance, really.

Siddhananda: That’s right. It's a good ending.

G: It’s a good ending. It’s a good message to end on. Namaste.

The Sadhvi

Siddhananda: This one is a woman Sadhvi.

G: A Sadhvi, mmm ... (nodding intently).

Siddhananda: A Sadhvi. I can see her toothless. She's quite weather-beaten.

G: Yeah, it's a tough life.

Siddhananda: Yeah. She has grayer hair, but she's younger than she looks. She has something in her hand.

G: Trishul?

Siddhananda: Mm huh ...

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: She's lived the Sadhvi life. She's a gritty woman (laughing). She's a ... jeez, man,  don't mess with her.

G: Yeah, to be a Sadhvi, you have to be a very strong woman to work and be able to endure in that lifestyle. It's very, very hard ... very hard on the form.

Siddhananda: Yeah, she's lived mostly outside, or near rocks ... caves.

G: Yeah, exactly. Most Sadhvis have to stay awake at night, and they sleep during the day.

Siddhananda: Hmm ... she says, "very little sleep."

G: Yeah, exactly. It's very dangerous for Sadhvi women. Yeah, I know ...  I understand.

Siddhananda: She is in form. She's traveled here psychically.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: They're in some kind of Indian ... caves, you know ... remote.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: She's heard of us, and she has knowledge ... if she can help. It sounds like she's maybe not fully enlightened, but she's lived very traditionally, and if there's anything she can do to help ... that's all.

Sadhvi: I [have done] a lot of austerities ... eating very little ...

G: Mm Hmm ... keeping the Dhuni going.

Sadhvi: Oh, yes ... oh, yes!

Siddhananda: She lit up with that, and I can see that burning fire.

G: Yes. Yeah, because that's very, very important, in that you don't get very much sleep, because if you are alone, you have to keep that fire burning. That fire is representative of Shiva and burning away all of the dross, etcetera, etcetera.

Siddhananda: Yes! She's getting excited from you saying that, and that you understand, ...  and also, um ... (the overhead lights flicker and shut off)  ... interesting (laughing)!

G: Oh, that was interesting! The ... uh ... I think the power might have gone out.

Siddhananda: Interesting ... oh, well, hopefully we're still moving here ... but, um ... (taking in a deep inhalation, then sitting back, silent) ... (long pause) ... mm ...

G:  ... (long pause, sitting silently) ... Did we lose connection with her?

Siddhananda: No, there's just a deep stillness ... all pervading.

G:  There's a stillness ...  (the lights flicker back on) ... oh, okay.

Siddhananda:  (inhaling deeply) ... okay, now I can speak.

G: (chuckling)

Siddhananda: There was ...  I ... I just ... I couldn't speak ... it was just still.

G: We had stilling. Now we can [talk].

Siddhananda:  Now I can speak! It's like the energy is back to speak! Really!

G: (laughing with Siddhananda) That was interesting! The whole thing just ... we blew out the energy here into so much stillness that everything stilled, even the lights (laughing).

Siddhananda: Me, too! I honestly lost the energy to speak, and it was so still. So, now, it's coming back, ...  but there is ... yeah, okay ... so, I'm getting this connection back, again (pausing). Oh, she was saying, also, she needs to stay awake as a protector of herself.

G: Right, exactly.

Siddhananda: It's very ... I just see her club, ... she's gonna beat 'em off ... I mean ...

G: Yeah, no ... exactly. Yeah, that's what I mean, you don't get much sleep, because you are alone, and the men are not respectful of it. It's very dangerous to be a Sadhvi.

Siddhananda: She's getting very excited by this, and saying that she's happy to ...

Sadhvi: This is a life that so few even realize and know is out there. We are the keepers of faith.

G: Right. Are you the one that uses the staff, does the mantras, and infuses the lingas ... going into the town?

Siddhananda: She's getting excited about that.

G: Yeah, yeah.

Siddhananda: She's saying, it's not always her, but she knows that happens.

G: Yes, there are some that do the mantras, and they infuse it in. They go into the city, like once a year, and touch the linga and imbue it with life.

Siddhananda:  I see a fire now. It's her way of saying, "That's the fire. That's the creative spark, and without our sacrifice and austerity, people don't realize, that's where the fire of the heart is."

G: Exactly, exactly. They're what keeps the lingas activated in the temples, but most of the general populous doesn't know that. They think it's through the Brahmans, the ones that are doing the things in the temple, but it's not.

Sadhvi: Yes! She's right.

G: It's through the Sadhus. It's through the Sadhus that are doing the austerities.

Sadhvi: She's right. She's right, yes!

Siddhananda: I do see a big picture of a Brahman man. He's stuck in his ego.

Sadhvi: No, that's not right. That's not the way.

G: Exactly. They're not a Brahman.

Sadhvi: Yes.

G: They're not a knower of Brahman. They are not a Brahman.

Siddhananda: She doesn't feel like she wants to ask anything of you. She just wants to let you know that she's here, and wanted to speak for this beautiful tradition that has been soiled and know that there are some out there that are very [genuine].

G: There are some genuine [Sadhus]. I have run into a couple of genuine ones that I saw. When I was in Rishikesh, 99% of them were not genuine, but I did see a couple of genuine Sadhus that got up in the morning. They didn't ask for anything, they went in, and they did their mantras. They went out into the Ganges. They did everything they were supposed to do.

Siddhananda: She's getting excited. She's saying, "that's right."

G: Those are the ones you leave a donation for, and you say nothing to. They are not out there ... (extending her hand out like a beggar) ... bakshish, bakshish ... asking for anything.

Siddhananda: uh huh ... she's getting excited.

Sadhvi: That's right, and that's been me.

G: They were true Sadhus, yeah.

Sadhvi: That's been me, I feel.  I don't feel like I am female. I have walked that life like just a regular Sadhu, but you can call me a Sadhvi or Sadhu. But, I really had to defend myself in my path.

G: Exactly, exactly. I understand. There are very, very few genuine Sadhvis and Sadhus out there.

Siddhananda: I am getting an image of  ...  it's female, but  then it's kind of a male-female blending. So, she is saying, ...

G: Yeah , ardhanarishvara.

Siddhananda: Yeah, that is ardhanarishvara. That's what her heart is, that blending, and even though her body is female ...

Sadhvi:  ... why are people hurting me? Because I'm not ... I am not that.

G: Right, I'm not that form. I'm not that body.  I am that spirit.

Siddhananda: Yeah, she's getting excited. She's getting excited.

G: I am that ardhanarishvara. I am that. Yeah, I understand.

Sadhvi: And, that fire burns in all hearts.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: Why do you hurt me because I'm female?

G: Right, right ... well, there's a lot of ignorance still on the earth. That's all I can say (chuckling).

Siddhananda: Yeah, she knows.

G: It's just a lot of ignorance.

Siddhananda: She'll just continue with this tradition because it's where she's at and where her body is.

G: Perfect.

Siddhananda: She wanted to just tell you that she knows of this work. She's glad that there are others out there that walk in the ordinary society that are lights like this, because we need it everywhere. We're the same.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: So, she's saying, "We're the same, though. We're the same."

G: There's only single ... there's only one Brahman. It doesn't matter (gesturing to indicate all appearances in the mundane world).

Siddhananda: Yes, yes, she's getting very excited. She says, thank you with her staff, with her love, with her lingam and the unborn beauty.

G: Thank you and Namaste (gesturing namaste).

Siddhananda: Namaste (gesturing namaste).

G: Yes, there are a few Sadhvis that are doing the traditions, that are locked away. They're not doing so much of the hashish, the very strong [stuff].  

Siddhananda: People don't know, but, that's the reality. Thank goodness they are out there and doing their [work].

G: Yes, there are some genuine [ones], but, very very few.

Siddhananda: That's a hard life, and they're doing it to keep that flame going.

G: It is a very hard life. It's a lot of surrender and a lot of sacrifice, a lot of austerity. So, you really learn the hard way.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: Really, really have to learn the hard way.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: Yeah, challenging the ego with [this].

What is this I?

Siddhananda: (Picking up a new stone from the pile and starting to place it down in front of her). This one doesn't want me to let it go yet (laughing). So, I'll just hold it for a minute (clasping her hands around the stone, bringing it close to herself and laying her cheek down on her clasped hands).

Spirit: Seeking to know truth.

G: Hmm...

Siddhananda: Seeking to know truth.

G: It's a good thing to seek to know.

Spirit: Wanting to know God.

Siddhananda: With this [stone] in the hand, she's not able to speak much. So, I don't know. This one doesn't want me to let go of this rock right now (laughing).

G: (laughing)

Spirit: Who am I?

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Who am I? That's the question.

G: It's better to ask, "What is this I?"

Spirit: Okay.

G: Contemplate, "What is this I?"

Spirit: Okay.

G: Rather than, "Who am I?"

Spirit: Okay. I'm enjoying being in Siddhananda's hands and lightening. I can feel yours emanating through her, and you two are one. What is this I?

G: That will give you something to work on.

Spirit: Okay, thank you. I could sit here, but I don't want to take up others time. So, I will just go ahead and move on. Thank you so much for that contemplation.

G: Thank you and Namaste (gesturing namaste). If you want to come stay in the energy, you can go into the crystal cathedral there, and stay in that for a while.

Spirit: Oh, I have heard that's coming, or it's here?

G: It's here. We have one.

Siddhananda: Oh, thank you so much! Thank you so much.

G: So, you see the amethyst crystal cathedral behind the computer. You can go in there, if you'd like to rest for a while.

Spirit: Oh, thank you so much. I wanted to be respectful, and I didn't know if I could stay longer. Thank you so much.

G: You're welcome. Namaste (gesturing namaste).

Siddhananda: Namaste (gesturing namaste).

Death is Transformation

Siddhananda: I am seeing ferns, like fern trees. I don't know, I'm getting all this nature imagery today.

G: Nature, it's been a lot of nature today (laughing).

Siddhananda: Yeah, it's kind of a cold area with fern trees. Cold, not cold in a bad way, but like in snow, you know.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Snow fall, and that's another blessing, they're saying ... snow falling, because it's so pure.

Spirit: Anyway, I am here. That's my way of saying, I feel blessed to be here, and you are love and light and purity. You are both pure. I would like to know about death.

G: What do you want to know about death? In what aspect?

Spirit: Is it a dark thing?

G: No, you're disembodied now. Are you a dark thing?

Spirit: No, I am not (laughing).

G: There is your answer (laughing).

Siddhananda: He is laughing, but he's saying, ...

Spirit: Death is something I feared, and we do still fear it here, even though we are out of body, because what it means is the unknown.

G: Yeah, but you know where you are, so what's unknown at this point (chuckling)?

Siddhananda: He's laughing like a light bulb, and he's saying, "Surely, I'm here."

G: Absolutely, there is no death. There's only a transformation from one form to an energy to another form.

Spirit: So, nothing dies, really?
 
G: No, the only death, that you would say is as death, is for those that are against the light. Eventually, they will go out of existence, and be reabsorbed without consciousness.

Spirit: Wow! Will they ever have a chance again?
 
G: If they have chosen absolutely the darkness, no.

Spirit: Okay, without ... okay, well, that will be a beneficial thing, then.

G: I'm sure that you have nothing to worry about in that regard (laughing hardily).

Spirit: No, that's not where I am at. So, in terms of [being against light]... no, no!

G: So, there is nothing to fear (still laughing).

Spirit: I'm not worried about that part, but what I'm saying with death...

Siddhananda: I am just getting an imagery of it as being dark only, because he is saying "if you go there and are absorbed in that, it means a loss" ... is what he's kind of saying.

G: For them ... for them, for the very dark that have gone away from truth, it's actually a blessing. Otherwise, their total existence forever would be torture, because they have drawn themselves away from the light 100%.

Spirit: Thank you. That really is wonderful to hear. So, death, in its own way, is not ever really bad, then.

G: No, it's a transformation, that's all. You're leaving one form, or one type of existence ... going into energetic [form], being able to look at that ... and then move forward to another set of experiences for growth.

Siddhananda: What I am seeing now, is earth, a seed, a stem, flower ... death...

G: It goes back again into the earth.

Siddhananda:  ... seed, stem, flower ... maybe it comes out a little different, but it comes from that same earth.

G:  Right, exactly, exactly.

Siddhananda:  And I am seeing that.

G: Yes, good.

Siddhananda: I mean, I'm seeing it, but I think that's what he's feeling. He's getting that energy, a little bit, of what that [is]. I can see it. He's getting that a little. He's ... (pausing) ...
 
G: Right, he's starting to cognize that.

Siddhananda: Yeah, right, like a light bulb.

G: Right, an aha moment (laughing).

Siddhananda: Yes, and he's quiet now. Yeah, he's very still now. He's very peaceful now. Thank you.

G: Thank you for coming, namaste (gesturing namaste and laughing).

Siddhananda: Namaste (gesturing with hands). Should we keep him with the quiet [stones]?

G: Ah, we can keep him with the quiet for a while.

Siddhananda: I think that would be nice for him.

G: I'll go ahead and put him in the quietude area.

Siddhananda: He nodded up a little and said, "Oh." I can feel he's saying, "Thank you. I'd like to stay a while longer." (laughing)
 
G: We'll leave him there in the contemplative area, and he can sit there, and continue to feel that, and get that message. Excellent. Next.

Siddhananda: Next!

Let Go of the Mask

Siddhananda: Okay (closing her eyes).

Spirit: I am not in this darkness because I'm dark, I want you to know. I'm not a deceiving one.

Siddhananda: [Also] He wants to say that ...

Spirit: I'm praying that Siddhananda ... that whatever energies may have come from anything in the past, is completely clear.

G: That's been worked on very rapidly (nodding head once decisively and then laughing).

Siddhananda: He says that he can feel it, and he also feels the love that is overpowering. Thank you.

G: Excellent (nodding with approval)! 

Spirit: So, anyway, I am kind of a spunky spirit.

G: Hahahaha ... we like spunk!

Spirit: (laughing) I know you are, too, Guruji, and Siddhananda, is beautiful. I have fun and laugh, and make it seem so exuberant.

Siddhananda: ... almost like on a trampoline ... of, I don't know ... just like ... Yeaahh!!! ... (dancing on her chair with a happy energy).

Spirit: ... am happy to be here.

Siddhananda: It's just a happy spirit that's brought a lot of joy to others just by being very cheerful, and sunny, and cute. But, wanting to say that in some ways that was a mask, because, for him ... inside ... he's been hurting.

G: That's the way it is for a lot of comics on the earth. The ones that do a lot of comedy, they wear that mask, and their comedy comes really out of a lot of pain.

Spirit: Yes, and, you know, that is so it! I don't know about all that are this way, but I know about me ... that I've carried a string of pain ... like a continuous pain, in spite of my outer persona, and others would not see that. They really had no idea. They thought I was very happy. I mean, I was a good person, but my aching has come from ...

Siddhananda: I'm seeing a lot of tears, like a rain of tears. I'm seeing rain of tears and a rock ... mountains, and things ... sorrow.

Spirit: Anyway, I'd like to have this be dissolved and have nature in her beauty come forward.

G: Mmm hmm

Spirit:  What is true in nature.

Siddhananda: They're kind of saying, whether it's nature of truth.. I think it is something like that, ... the seasons of nature taking me over.

G: Right, then you have to let go of wearing the mask, for one. You have to open the heart, and spend more time in nature. Be willing to commune with that, and begin to have that start to move through you. You can gain a lot of lessons from that.

Spirit: Mmm hmmm! I love nature so, and I know Siddhananda does, too. That's it. I think more solitude, too, because I have been very social in my life.

G: Yeah. Yeah, social sometimes is a running away, not wanting to be quiet and to face our demons, etc.

Spirit: ... parties, and comic ... things that are very social.

G: Right, a lot of my path was just spending time next to the Ganges, and opening my heart and let that flow through. So, you might want to spend more time around nature type settings, and just begin to open the heart instead of shielding it all the time.

Siddhananda: I see an image of a river, going through now ... Ganges.. more like mother. He feels that that is beginning to rinse him clean. It's a strong imagery of the Ganges and the Ghats, and he feels the energy of you being Ganga wash him clean.

G: So, you can begin there, and when you are ready, you know, you could start with the COS.

Spirit: Oh, thank you so much! I am so grateful!

G: If you want to do that, ... or just the text of it. If you don't want to [do] the mantra, you can do the rest of it and it would be beneficial to you.

Spirit: Not the mantra?

G: You could do the mantra as well, if you like.

Spirit: Thank you ...

Siddhananda:  not the mantra (laughing) ... they like that mantra (laughing and makes huge eyes)!

G: (laughing) You can do the mantra as well, if it's not too much for you. You can do that as well.

Spirit: And, to know, too, ... I know Siddhananda is psychic, and I can receive the information of the COS psychically. That is not a problem. I can read it that way.

G: Okay, excellent. So, thank you for coming.

Spirit: And, the mantra, do I read the mantra?

G: No, you will say it. So, if you just hang around until the end of our session, we will do the mantra for you.

Spirit: I want to ensure that I had that right, because that mantra is what ... yes (laughing)!

Siddhananda: He wants to say that he can see all of nature in that.

G: Yes!

Spirit: ... like every aspect of God in that.

G: Yes!

Siddhananda: ... and that is what the self ... I guess, the self being the center with the light, and the emanations of God (gesturing with hands to indicate light emanating in all directions).

G: Yes. Right. That's like going into that void. You know, [it's] like the Lingam.  You have the Lingam, which is the void ... that IS of God ... that un-manifest. Then, it comes out through the Yoni, which is the Shakti, or the manifestation of everything that subdivides into what you see ... the seen world. So, yes, that practice and that mantra helps to connect you with that, so you can go into deeper, deeper levels of that.

Spirit: Oh, I can't wait, thank you!

G: Okay, so I am going to put you to the side here. When we finish with the rest of the readings, we will go ahead and close that down, and give that mantra.

G & Siddhananda: Namaste (gesturing with namaste hands)

Moving Forward

Siddhananda: This person's name is Sharisha, or Sharisa. It's something female.

G: Okay. Welcome. Namaste (bringing the hands together in the namaste gesture).

Siddhananda: Namaste (gesturing with hands). Loving light ... I like the love today (laughing)!

G: (laughing with Siddhananda)

Siddhananda: She's just another loving spirit, and she is from another level, too. She knew the other man that came, that was having ... I'm seeing that one foot here, one foot there, man.

G: Right, the [one from the] light body realm.

Spirit: So, we are psychic. We don't speak so much with words. [We communicate with] telepathy ... telepathy and just union, or blending energies.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: She's somehow a mother there. I can see little lights that are around her. It's just cute (laughing). It sounds like right now she needs to stay. She has work to do there with raising her children, but may want to, eventually, move forward. She's wondering what she can do now to prepare. She doesn't feel like the other man. I don't remember what his name was. I'm not getting his name. I just see those feet in two [places], and he's kind of like this still (gesturing with a back-and-forth motion), but he is working on it (laughing).

G: (laughing)

Siddhananda: He's laughing, too.

Spirit: I don't feel that I was like him to where I just stayed and enjoyed the pleasures. I felt that I needed to live a life here, and to cultivate the richness here in me, and I really have drunk this in, in a good way. It's not that I feel like I need to stay, and it really doesn't matter to me, but I do want to definitely, in whatever ways it is most beneficial, move on, eventually. So, I'd like to know, ... because I have a husband and children here ... how can I prepare for that? In me, what I do now is I sit a lot. The nature here is unbelievable, and it's so pure. The energy is so heightened ... sparkling waterfalls, and sun and mountains and lush. So, I sit there a lot, and that in itself is incredible, but there's still an individual person here, you know.

G: Right

Spirit: I know that it hasn't all broken down, so I just sit in that. I bask in that. I love, and I put out love.

Siddhananda: There's a little bit of a Buddhist feeling to me that she may have had in her life.

Spirit: So, what now, do you think, [is needed] to prepare, to open, because after the rearing of my children, I'm really desiring, whatever comes, to move forward. What should I do now?

G: Yeah, that realm is a little difficult to transcend, because when they have their relations, they are totally heart to heart and totally bonded. So, it's not that they don't have that Bhakti element already there, ...

Siddhananda: That's there, right.

G: It's 100% there.

Siddhananda: I feel that. I can feel her light. I can feel her love.

G: Yeah, they're totally Bakhti.

Siddhananda: I mean, anyone here would love to be at that level, trust me ... huh, huh!

G: It's like the Krishna realms, where he talks about the different lokas, and you can go into the heavenly realm, and stay there and enjoy that until you run out of your ... however many credits you have, so to speak (laughing).

Siddhananda: That's it. No, exactly.

G: When you run out of your credits for all of the good deeds you've done, etcetera, you'll be drawn back into the more corporeal type of realms.

Spirit: That's it. That's it! I don't know how many more credits I have, but that's exactly it. Once this time is done, it's done.

G: Yeah. And then you just go back into body form and you continue on from there. So, while you are there, you just continue to remain in the heart, and, you have a very good starting place when you come back to form again.

Spirit: So, more than likely it will be. But, I don't know.. I don't know where I will go from here.

G: We don't know where it will go or what dimension they will be in, but, they will be definitely in a more corporeal type of form to move forward.

Siddhananda: "Sure, and that's fine with me", she said, and I do feel like a purifying energy, that is like the Ganges, and very purifying and rich, and..

Spirit: So, if that's what's meant to be, I am not worried, like my children and people here are so blessed with light, that I don't worry. And that's about all then, so I should just kind of continue with [what] I am doing?

G: Exactly.. exactly.. Just stay very opened in the heart, etcetera, and you know, again, when you leave, it's not like you have real difficult things, you have already made it to some of the heavenly realms and some of the Lokas. And so, you know, I am sure, that you have been doing your path quite well.

Siddhananda: And I am seeing, I'm getting lotuses today too, cause I see a beautiful pink lotus unfolding and beaming (showing how its beaming with her hands).. that she is holding.. that's her way of saying I love you both.

G:Thank you, Namaste (gesturing with hands). Thank you for coming.

God is the Zero

Siddhananda: There's a connection with Amir, or an Aditya connection.

G: Mmm hmm, okay.

Siddhananda: So, he's a logical man. He's a stubborn man (laughing). Another stubborn one (closing her eyes).

G: (laughing)

Siddhananda:  I just see computations, some math ... meaning that's how he is. He's logic based.
 
G: Right.

Siddhananda: He has not pierced through that. He's curious here. He's a man that was looked up to for his, I am just seeing, math.

G: Math? Mmm hmm.

Siddhananda: Maybe, he was someone that was very revered for whatever kind of, you know, computation. I don't know, maybe a scientist.

G: Right, there are some that think in computations. I have met someone like that. They think in computations. So, let me give him something to aid him at this point.
 
Siddhananda: Oh, okay.

G: The best thing you could do now is to start to contemplate God as the zero.
 
Siddhananda: Mmmm ... it hit him so strong there ... (pausing). He can barely speak. I can see the zero in his heart. It's like something that went right there.
 
G: Yeah, God is not the one. God is the zero.

Siddhananda: I can see numbers being absorbed into that thing (gesturing with her hands as if numbers are streaming down through the head into the heart center).

G: Right, because he thinks in computations.

Siddhananda: Yeah, you've got him, it sounds like. That's me speaking for him. I mean, that was me speaking, and not him (pausing). He's in his heart.
 
G: Yeah, he can stay there to contemplate that for a while. As a math [type being], that will ... (turning her hands over one another to indicate processing). It's like a math machine, you put that in there, and that ... (gesturing to indicate it's working through the mind). They think in computations, so that's the best way for him to begin to understand that, and open to that.

Siddhananda: And, I'm speaking about the situation. He's unable to speak real clear now. He said ... I'm saying for him ... [this] is one of the first times [he can't speak], because usually he can speak quite clear, but this has broken down some kind of logic, I guess.  I can just see 1 2 3 4 going into this zero and this light ... (clasping both hands over the heart center) ...  1 2 3 4 5 6 ... you know, it's just all kind of like coming ... (gesturing to show a streaming flow).

G: Yeah, it's all of them dissolving into that.

Siddhananda: Yes, it's just like a string of those numbers coming into that, and there is a light, and then, the zero (making a zero with her fingers, then folding the hands over the heart center). He's floored because this has never... he can't use his logic at the moment in the way he [did] before (laughing). Again, he's quieter. "This is the source from what that comes from," he's saying.

G: Right, right.

Siddhananda: And, that is?

G: The zero adds value to all the numbers, yet it has no value in itself. It's empty in nature, yet it gives all to everything. So, all of this he's going to be computing in his mind through numbers.

Siddhananda: Yes, ...  again, he's quieter, but I can feel the energy of it.

Spirit: Those are shafts of light from this singular zero.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: Those are not the thing. He's been stuck in that, ...  the numbers versus the emptiness where they come from.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: I think he's quite fine right now.

G: Okay, thank you for coming. Namaste (holding hands together and laughing).

Siddhananda: Okay ... good work (laughing)! I know you've known someone like that, similar, right?

G: I have. When I lived in Rishikesh, there was a math professor there that had written a paper that only like 16 people on the planet would understand, and all of his thinking was done in computation. He overheard me one day saying, God is the zero. He just like ... (gesturing to indicate someone startled to full attention). That drew him immediately.

Siddhananda: For sure.

G: We had some nice conversations and things.

Siddhananda: Mmmm ... that's been a good thing here. It's carried on forward.

G: Yeah, you know, I asked him to do [the internal journey]. He said maybe one day he will do a leisurely inventory of himself, but then he said, no, he doesn't want to see what's there (laughing).

Siddhananda: Oh, jeez ... that's funny (smiling broadly).

G: Yeah, it was very interesting to meet someone that does think in computations.

Siddhananda: Really fascinating ... fascinating. I can see how that is now. I mean, I've never been that way, so that's just interesting.

G: Neither have I (laughing).

Siddhananda: Right ... to venture in there and see it, and [be] like ... Oh, that's how it is, okay.

G: I am not a logic, math type person, but, yeah, he was very shocked when I said that, and we had some nice conversations and things.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: He wanted to know if I was a math person, because he got it when I said that, and he was just shocked. I said, no, I have nothing to do with math (laughing).

Siddhananda: Hmm, interesting. We have come to the core of lot of things, so that's what really matters.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: Alright, so moving forward!

The Path and the Practices

Siddhananda: [I'm hearing] perfection ... reality ... [they're saying] "Namaste"

G: Namaste (gesturing Namaste).

Siddhananda: (pause) I'm kind of feeling that they've journeyed along this path with us a little bit. They haven't [been with us in body]. We don't know them in body, but they've come along for the ride.

G: Yes.

Siddhananda: The path that you've created is so unprecedented and they're asking, is it okay that they've kind of sat and listened, and tried to walk it.

G: Yeah.. absolutely (smiling).

Siddhananda: Okay (laughing). Is that okay?

G: (laughing) No teacher is ever going to turn a student away that comes in sincerity ... absolutely.

Siddhananda: They're saying, "Thank you, G. Thank you, Siddhananda." They've done that. They've seen you come forward as a light, and how you carved this path out, and your difficulties there. They just wanted to be a part of it and enjoy the practices that you've given. Is it okay for me to say some of the practices they do, or no?

G: Yeah, what practices?

Spirit: "Om That I Am." I do, "I Am That I Am”

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: They like that breaking down of barriers and things, and they've been using that. They wanted to make sure that [it was okay]. They felt like you wouldn't mind.

G: No, the “Om That I Am” and “I Am That I Am” are given to anybody, you know, anyone can use that.

Siddhananda: They said they didn't want to be sneaky.

G: Yeah.. I'm glad you came forward (smiling).

Siddhananda: (chuckling) But, they ... something about ... i feel like some kundalini may have awoke through being on this path.

G: hmm hmm (nodding), okay.

Siddhananda: ... and, I'm feeling that's in the energetic form of the spirit of this person. I don't know, I'm kind of hearing, kriyas and other things.

G: hmm hmm

Siddhananda: Anyway ... or that is to come, i don't know ... but now they're hearing the mantras. Is that okay for them?

G: Yeah. I would start with the COS, and then, as you progress, - later when you get ready to really cut through things - then we move on to [what are] called the Morning Mantras, the Kali mantras. But, start with the COS and do the expansion. Once we get to that point, then we do the cutting.

Siddhananda: This one is saying that they certainly know of those things that are out there. They've done their best not to let that penetrate, but, being on the path, those energies have penetrated. Is that okay?

G: That's fine. That's fine ... (smiling) ... absolutely.

Siddhananda: They didn't take it and do it, but they're feeling they're connected with these [mantras]. They do feel the vibration of it.

G: Right, and it's quite fine.

Siddhananda: They do want to say that [with] that connection there is a transmission. If you're on this Path, and whatever practices you're doing, you feel the energy ... all of the transmission of it.

G: Right (nodding)

Siddhananda: They feel that. They feel how potent that is, and it's balanced ... it's balanced ... but, they're so grateful. They just came right to this path when it opened up.

G: hmm hmm ... well, thank you for coming (gesturing namaste). Namaste.

Spirit: Thank you so much. Namaste.

The Soft Stone

Siddhananda: Another nice pretty stone. Let's see (closing her eyes).

Spirit: When I came the energy is very lovely here, thank you. I'm hoping to get to the non-dual state and be free. I chose the soft stone because I feel, maybe, I have some calcification in there (laughing).

G: (laughing)

Siddhananda: They hope to break that down. I see some hard substance.

G: Yeah, some rigid things that need to be addressed.

Spirit: Right, but I chose the soft stone because I feel that I am wanting to soften that and break through that. It's an energy from past things, past actions.

G: Right, and so what can we help you with?
 
Spirit: This energy is good and soaking it in is beneficial in itself, but ... I don't know about my past life, and all my choices, I just have a feeling that maybe I did something not right. I don't know if it has to do with you (G and Siddhananda), or more the energy of that ... Kali, or maybe, I'm running away from that.

G: Right, right ... and that's okay. You don't have to know exactly what it is that you had done, but just resolve to move forward.

Spirit: Okay.

G: ... and just pray, ask for guidance, and that the Universe would put you in a form that will allow you to rectify that ... to go beyond it, and to learn the lessons you need to resolve what that was. 
 
Spirit: Okay. That sounds so simple compared to going back ... I mean, how far back do I have to go back to ask for forgiveness?

G: You don't. Just open your heart and ask sincerely for forgiveness. Yeah, that's all.

Spirit: ... and then what comes, comes from there.

G: Right. 
 
Spirit: Because, I don't really know what it is. It's a feeling, an energy, but I am open.

Siddhananda: I just got a flash of a male, but ... (shaking her head) ... it's been stuck in kind of an ego, toughness, or something ... masks, a lot of masks ... a lot of illusion. Maybe, he, in some ways nurtured that, or something. I don't know.

G: Right. So, just ask the Universe to provide the form that would best serve to break through that. 

Spirit: Okay. Thank you so much. Nothing else is coming now. I really have a feeling just through the energy connection, it's going to really begin to break down whatever is in there, and I am open to that now. I'm sooo happy to be here. I feel the combination of souls that are here, and all this, that have reached spiritual ripeness on what all levels that are open are going to make good for humanity, and the planet, and all ... all that are here. Thank you.
 
G: So, just be sincere in your search, and go forward, that's all ... and, a wise choice to pick a soft stone (laughing).

Spirit: (laughing) Thank you, namaste.

G: Namaste. I'm sure it's not the most comfortable for that energy (laughing).
 
Spirit: No, no, but it's ... I am squirming in here a bit (smiling).

G: I'm sure! (laughing)

Spirit: But, I was ready for the challenge. Namaste.

G: Good, good. Namaste. You're welcome and many blessings on your journey.

Siddhananda: Namaste.

Spirit: Thank you!

Christ is Risen

Siddhananda: Palestine, I see some older buildings ... Palestine.

G: Palestine?

Siddhananda: That's what I'm hearing.

G: Palestine.

Siddhananda: Palestine ... ancient ... (pause). So, that's what I'm getting, just some older buildings, I don't know. It looks like a very ancient place, and I see somebody walking down a path ... walking.

G: The old Palestine.

Siddhananda: Yeah, I think that's what they're reflecting now, like that's their homeland.

G: Hmm hmm

Siddhananda: I do see that they are aware of the wars, and things like that, but [I'm asking] what do you need from us? I get a little ... "to be made pure," but ... (pause) something about the holy bible. I just can't [get the full details].

G: Yeah, I think they're Christian. They must have been a follower of Christ in the old Palestine.

Siddhananda: Yeah ... they're saying, "yes, and holy bible." I'm seeing a picture of the bible, and it is old ... kind of their way of saying, "yes, it is older," ... they've studied that.

G: Probably more from the old testament times.

Siddhananda: It's feeling that way.

G: Yeah, the old testament times.

Siddhananda: A lot of it ... lot of complex ...

G: Were they with Christ directly, or no?

Siddhananda: Are they with Christ?

G: No, WERE they with Christ directly?

Siddhananda: Oh, I see what you're saying. You know, I'm feeling maybe ... Jesus.

G: Were they with Yeshua Ben Joesph? At that time, he wasn't called Jesus. He was Yeshua Ben Joseph.

Siddhananda: You know, there's a bit of a feeling of that's around, or something about that.

G: Yeah. He's not a direct disciple of [Jesus].

Siddhananda: I'm glad you're saying that, because something about that feels right for this person, or about all that's been spoken of, you know, ... whatever puzzle is there to put this energy together.

G: Hmm hmm 

Siddhananda:  ... something, again, about the Christ journey, and the cross and the surrender and, ... I guess, they're still aching for that.

G: Yeah. All they have to do [is ask Christ directly]. Have they asked for Christ to come to teach them directly?

Siddhananda: They're saying, "yes," and that that's been like a spring of wonderment, but it also seems like they're stuck on that cross ... not that they're stuck, but on what happened to Christ.

G: Ah ... and that fear is keeping the door closed to Christ.

Siddhananda: YES! That's what they're saying. They're saying they're stuck with that torture.

G: Christ is risen, and he's no longer in that torture. So, if they want they can access Christ directly. I'm sure that Christ would be more than happy to come and teach them directly (smiling).

Siddhananda: They're saying, ...

Spirit: Wow! I never even thought of that.

G: Yeah, Christ is risen and he's in the other realms, and he can come to any realm at any time. All you have to do is open your heart to that and ask him.

Siddhananda: They just were so stuck with that part of it.

G: Yeah ... that part of it. So, the fear kept that door closed from moving forward, but there's nothing to fear. Christ himself said there's nothing to fear. 

Spirit: And, he was reborn.

G: He's reborn, yes. 

Spirit: He's reborn .... (they're crying). Is that true of all spirits?

G: Yes. He was reborn, but he didn't have to come back into an embodied state. He's there. He's 100%  spirit, and he can be with you immediately.

Siddhananda: The feeling is there's more of some dissolving of that picture of the cross. I don't know, maybe it had to do with what's behind (pointing to a cross that was behind them). I don't know, something connected this soul here like that, but not necessarily a bad way.

G: Hmm hmm

Siddhananda: [I see] some dissolving of that imagery of that torture, and of the body. They're saying, ...

Spirit: We're not the body.

G: Yeah, we're not the body. Ask  for the risen Christ.

Spirit: They can do anything with the body, but they can't touch our spirit.

G: Right ... right, exactly. So, ask the risen Christ to come to you, to teach you, and you can be there. I'm sure he'll be more than happy to impart everything to you.

Spirit: Thank you. I'll certainly do that, and I'll drink heartily from that.

G: Yeah, do that now. Don't even wait. Do that now.

Siddhananda: (long pause) I am getting an image of Jesus ... more holding out arms ... just wide and open arms ... like risen from that [cross] ... like the other is gone, and this is what remains. I see another sort of light thing by it (gesturing with hands). So, this is their way of saying, ...

Spirit: I'm doing that, and I'm feeling nourished by that. I didn't know, I was so stuck in that one part of it, and I didn't really get into the other side. I was just hurting, aching for what happened. Thank you so much.

Siddhananda: I can see that energy [of] Jesus Christ holding that light (gesturing with hands close to heart).

G: So, they're with Christ now.

Siddhananda: Yeah ... very nice ... very nice.

G: So, be with Christ, and Christ will explain the whole thing to you (laughing).

Siddhananda: They are saying. "Amen!"

G: Amen

Quan Yin

Siddhananda: (selecting the first stone for the day) Oh, it's a pretty one.

Spirit: Hello. I am a pure spirit, I feel. I'm a pure spirit and I desire to go back in body to aid others.

Siddhananda: It sounds like a Quan Yin kind of manifestation that is hoping to help others towards enlightenment. I'm seeing an image of Quan Yin.

Spirit: I'm not fully realized, but I want to help others. I feel I can. I follow the Quan Yin type of energy. I'm here to seek your blessing on this because you and Siddhananda have a mother type of energy, and, that's known in the ethers. I seek your protection and guidance for this work that I feel I'm embarking on.

G: Better than to seek my blessings and guidance, just ask God directly.

Spirit: I want to keep to this path, so it's hard for me to ask if this is an okay path to follow, because I'm really not interested in letting go of this path. So, maybe, I shouldn't even ask.

Siddhananda: I guess, there's a little bit in there of that ... you know, a little whiny voice that says, "Is this the right thing?"

Spirit: Is this the right thing for myself, and for others, to follow this Quan Yin type of energy forward into humanity?

G: Yeah, there are a lot of different paths and not everyone resonates with the same path. So, that's fine, as long as your ultimate goal is to reach God directly, and be a knower of God, and to know what God is, and to join with that, and to join with That and be absorbed in That ... to understand That. Then, it's quite fine.

Spirit: Does that mean, though, that I will lose this energy, this Quan Yin, if I lose my individual self?

G: No, it will be completed.

Spirit: And, then this Quan Yin, will die, though.

G: Yeah, but nothing dies.

Spirit: Okay.

G: Nothing dies. God is the author of Quan Yin. God is the author of all manifestation, so how can it die?

Spirit: Okay.

G: Okay (laughing). You won't lose anything.

Siddhananda: I'm seeing a flower now ... a pink lotus that's opening ... a heart is opening. It's pink, and very beautiful ... glowing. That's her way of saying, "Thank you very much, Mother."

G: Yeah, thank you for coming and may you help humanity (gesturing with namaste hands).

Siddhananda: ... and it's glowing ... a very beautiful, very pink, beautiful lotus ... and thank you to us both, namaste.

G and Siddhananda: Namaste (gesturing with namaste hands).

Absolute Bonding

Siddhananda: (showing a brown, striated rock) Same pretty one with nice striations.

G: Yeah, a nice tiger stone.

Siddhananda: Tiger, yeah ... it's tiger-y. Okay, they do have a partner. It feels like, and I'm hearing, "enmeshed."

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: Like one, in a way, too.

G: They're very close (smiling).

Siddhananda: Very close (laughing).

G: They've done a lot of lives together (laughing).

Siddhananda: That's it! I don't know if their partner is there, or not. So, they're speaking for both of them, but I feel that other one there ... kind of attached. They're just like one. I almost see them like being merged (bringing both hands together).

G: Right ... like Ardhanarishvara ... half and half, sort of.

Siddhananada: Yeah, it feels that way. Okay, so questions or concerns, or messages? Okay, there's a lot of stillness, so it's hard to say. I do see as both of them are bonding together, they kind of come like this ... (bringing the palms of her hands together with the fingers of each hand opening apart) ... it looks like a heart. So, they're bonded, and then, there's a heart. Together they look like a heart! So, maybe they're just going to convey something with more imagery.

G: Yeah, maybe that is just the message that one can have that absolute blending where it becomes one. It's like Ardhanarishvara. You can have that, and it is possible ... especially on other planes where there's more of that integrative ... where your just integrating on an energetic level. So, when you're integrating on an energetic level, not a corporeal form, they can have that blending where it becomes one ... absolutely becomes one.

Siddhananda: And, that's what it looks like ... a blend of energy that has become a heart ... one.

G: Right. They become really enmeshed as one. It's not two corporal bodies. When they get into that more rarefied, energetic realms, and planes of existence, then when there's a marriage ... it is like a marriage ... I mean, the two really become one.

Siddhananda: Eternal marriage.

G: Yeah, right ... eternal marriage where it becomes one.

Siddhananada: Right, because the imagery I'm seeing, again, is of the two roses ... the two roses have come together, and they're as one ... one rose, one flower.

G: Right ... right, they become so in sync that they have the same thought patterns, the same time ... everything is very much in sync with it.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and it's in a good way. You know, sometimes you hear, "enmeshed," and that's not always a good thing.

G: We're not talking about co-dependent.

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly!

G: It's different here. Co-dependent is something different, but when it's this, these energies have totally blended to become one energy.

Siddhananda: That's it.

G: There is no separate energy with that. It is a single energy ... energetic signal, or signature ... at that point.

Siddhananda: Yeah, I know you mentioned twins a little bit, and this has [similarities], but it's different than that, too. It's kind of ... what's that word? Symbiosis? Where they come together mutually nourishing ... it's like a mutually nourishing partnership that's one.

G: Right (nodding continuously, yes).

Siddhananda: That's the best way to put it. Sometimes twins are that way, though.

G: Sometimes they are ... very, very close.

Siddhananda: Not always, though. This is still on a different plane ... more on an energetic level.

G: Right, this is on a different plane, yeah.

Siddhananda: And, you know, you don't have to be twins for this to happen.

G: No, you can have like a soul mate, or something, but two energies that have gone through lots of existences, and existences, and existences, ... and are really, absolutely in the same mind set, path, or however you want to say it ... and have absolutely become one.

Siddhananda: No doubt. A good thing. So, they are shining that heart (placing her hand on her heart).

G: Thank you for showing that (smiling).

Shepherd Your Heart

Siddhananda: (showing a small, transparent rock) So, a little clear one. Okay, friendly energy, they are ... friend to mankind, humankind.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: Interesting, I do see a shepherd there with the sheep ... a kind of rising of those older days. Okay, let's see what messages or questions there are. They are kind of a shepherd of heart, is what they're
saying, in a way.

G: A shepherd of heart? That's a good one to be.

Siddhananda: Yeah, they're showing that imagery, but then I heard, "shepherd of the heart."

G: Mmm hmmm

Siddhananda: And, just tending to that ... in a good way ... in a spirit way of keeping that alive. They're just keeping it alive. My feeling, a little bit, is that it's maybe like what some of the sadhus do. They just keep that energy alive with their presence and all. This is what this one does like a shepherd.

G: It's an interesting way to look at it. Yeah, people should shepherd their heart and take care of it. If it starts to go astray, it's like the shepherd, you know ... you bring it back and you take care of it. Absolutely.

Siddhananda: That's a good way to put it, that's exactly what they're saying. You know, reign it in. If the mind is going, bring it in, and bring it back to the center point (bringing both hands to the heart center). That's the work, really. So, that's what they're conveying in that way.

G: Right. You keep your heart, ... and you keep it [safe] from predators, like the shepherd. The shepherd has new born, little sheep, and they have to guard against wolves, guard against predators, and things. Yeah, same thing. You have to guard your heart against predators, against wolves ... you know, against wolves in sheep's clothing, so to speak. All of the things that come along, one has to raise and guard the heart, and take care of it. Be gentle with it.

Siddhananda: There ya go! Also, the sheep and the lamb are also symbolic of innocence and purity.

G: Right ... right.

Siddhananda:  ... and just gentleness. These things are to be nourished, and make sure that they're protected, you know. So, very nice (placing her hand on her heart)!

G: Right, so keep protection of the heart, and it's nice that he's showing how to shepherd the heart.

Stop and Smell the Roses

Siddhananda: So, we've got an interesting selenium piece (showing a white, square stone). There's a little color in there, though (closing her eyes). It's rising up. It looks like a vase of flowers. I see some hands reaching for that vase, and bringing it to them. They're smelling those flowers. Okay, so question or message today?

Spirit: Such a sweet fragrance, or taste, when life is imbibed in its purity ... fresh.

Siddhananda: They are just offering those flowers.

G: Right, so, the minute you said that, this is what I got immediately. So, basically, it's stop and smell the roses. Take time, live your life, don't be in a rush, witness what's around you, and take time to really pull it in, and savor it ... 100%, yeah.

Siddhananda: And, that's the key (placing her hand on her heart).

G: (bringing her hands together in the namaste gesture) And, that was the message this morning (laughing).

Siddhananda: A nice start. A very nice start to the day (smiling)!

Take Care of Nature

Siddhananda: Is this that blue laced agate?

G: Mmm hmmm

Siddhananda: (showing a milky, light blue stone) I'm getting the names! I know two names now because of Guruji (laughing). She's said them to me hundreds times by now, but it's coming (smiling).

G: (smiling)

Siddhananda: This one is cute the way it's shaped, though. I like the little triangular shape (closing her eyes).  They're saying that they're new like the Riviera. I do see some waters ... blue waters ... pretty waters. I do feel like someone is lounging with a nice drink near these beautiful, crystal blue waters on the Riviera.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: I asked them where are you? On the Riviera? And, they said, "yes, they are." So, they're lounging there. Maybe, it's their friends doing that. I don't know, but let's see what they really mean, because they look pretty comfortable right now.

G: (chuckling)

Siddhananda: What do ya need from us? That looks good, ya know? Transport us there, and we'll be fine, too!

G: (chuckling in amusement)

Siddhananda: Okay, they're showing a little more of the motion ... motion? ... of the OCEAN (correcting herself with a smile) ... motion of the ocean (smiling)!

G:  ... motion of the ocean (smiling)?

Siddhananda: Yeah. So, what is it you're trying to say with this imagery that's helpful? They are speaking about ocean life a little bit.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: That makes a little more sense. Ocean life ... first of all, the richness in it, and also the soiling of it ... the oil spills, the pollution, and the way people just leave their garbage on it, ... and it (the ocean) just takes it, you know? That's what it's going to do. I see some of the birds that have gotten the oil [on them], or they've gotten the ... um ... from the cans, you know, when they have the six packs and they have that plastic ... their webbed feet get caught up in it. You know.. sad things.

G: Right. It's more of a wake up call for taking care of nature, and watching your footprint.

Siddhananda: Totally, and, you know, every little bit that you can do ... even just picking up after yourself, little things ... being more conscientious of that. They're saying, "I would be so grateful," (placing both hands on the heart and bowing slightly). They are just really connected with that.

G: We don't want to lose that beauty of nature.

Siddhananda: Yeah, so ... (placing her hand on her heart)

G: Okay, thank you for that (gesturing with namaste hands). This is our commercial of the day (laughing). Take care of nature! If you want to be able to go to the Riviera, and lounge and enjoy it, you have to take care of it, or you will no longer have it. Either that, or you'll get the oil birds that have their webbed feet tangled up in the [plastic can holders], and you're going to lose your places of refreshment.

Siddhananda: No doubt. Nice way to tie it all up together. So, thank you for that. Sometimes we have those come in that just want to bring out [messages] about helping nature and the planet, which is good, too. For sure.

G: Right. I feel like those are our little commercials, commercial blurbs.

Siddhananda: (laughing) We have such a variety that are coming in, that you can't just say they're all seeking the path of light, but they are seeking healing for the planet, and that's important. It really is.

G: It is! That is important, as well, yeah. They're just not looking at themselves at the moment. They're still caught up in the externals and everything, and that's fine. That's where they're at.

Siddhananda: Right, and what do you do? You just kind of leave that, but it's still not gonna hurt to be more conscientious (shrugging shoulders).

G: Exactly.
 

Continue to the Finish Line

Siddhananda: (showing a little rock resembling a tooth) So, we've got this little one. It's kind of making a V ... a light [shaped] like a V. I am hearing, victory. What is that ... jaya?

G: Yeah, jaya, victory.

Siddhananda: Victory! You can have that on your t-shirt and do your victory dance (smiling).

Spirit: The finishing line ... victory.

Siddhananda: You know, after you've done that. I do see it's kind of like a marathon. It's that hard where you ...

G: Exactly. You can't give up in the middle of it. You have to plan to go the distance. It's not a sprint (laughing).

Siddhananda: That's it. You get dehydrated. You get thin. I mean, it's all those kinds of austerities that one goes through along the way. You just keep going even if you're dragging (closing eyes).

Spirit: The victory is sweet.

G: Exactly. When you get to the end, it's very sweet, but, yeah, it takes a lot. There are minutes when you think you're not going to make it, and it's just an absolute effort just to get to the next minute. You can be praying ... just get me to the next minute. I mean, it can be really that drastic in the middle of the journey. It can be very, very difficult, you know, it's not easy. Sometimes one can go through really tortuous points in the journey.
 
Siddhananda: You do.

G:  ... just absolutely ... absolutely, you don't [know] how you'll make the next breath, and that's all you can do is get to the next breath. But, one passes through that, and, eventually, one does get to the end line, and there is victory, ... and victory is sweet.

Siddhananda: For sure. You know, sometimes more than once. All I can do is talk about my journey - but it does show with this that sometimes there's a casual easy [way] as you're walking through, and then other times, it's like a marathon.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: You're thirsty. You're dry. You're aching. You can barely move. Then other times, you've got the rain, and at other times, the sun. You know, it's like that. With those little bits of breaks, if you are lucky to have a little bit, you just keep on.

G: Exactly. So, the message is just continue forward. It is a marathon. It's not a sprint. You are not going to start it and be done in a week. You know, it could take lifetimes. One has to just continue to go towards that finish line and know that there is victory waiting at the end of it. So, continue forward. Namaste, thank you for that (gesturing with namaste hands).

Siddhananda: Thank you (gesturing with namaste hands).

Limitless

Siddhananda: (showing a small, rough, earth colored stone) This one is a little bit of a heavier rock. It has a little more weight to it.

G: A little more depth, heaviness, ... weighty.

Siddhananda: Want to feel this one (handing the rock to G).

G: Oh, it does! It's actually heavy for the ...

Siddhananda: ... for how small it is. Surprised at how heavy it feels which is always interesting.

G: It's always interesting when we get the heavy weight ones (giving the stone back to Siddhananda).

Siddhananda: Even with how small this is, I do feel my hand being pulled down by the weight of it.

G: Yeah, you feel that heavy weight. So, let's see what's there.

Siddhananda: Yeah! Oh, this is interesting, too (smiling with intrigue)!

G: They're heavy for what the size is.

Siddhananda: Absolutely! (closing her eyes) Okay, there's a rich darkness in this rock.

Spirit: Like Shiva Absolute. Like Kali in her blackness. Like the rich black earth.

G: Right. Tantrik. It's Tantrik.

Siddhananda: It is Tantrik. That's exactly what I felt immediately.

G: Yeah, every time you get that heavy ... it just pulls you down ... just heavy, it's usually Tantrik in nature. It's very Tantrik based.

Siddhananda: I knew that right away. When I was feeling it, there's something unusual about this rock. When you felt the other two, they weren't that much smaller, and they were just nothing to pick up.

G: It's such an odd phenomena that the Tantrik ... every time you get a Tantrik, it's very, very heavy, grounded ... ground, ground, grounded.

Siddhananda: From my hand, it was pulling it down to the floor, and just stuck my hand there, because it's just the ground.

G: It's almost magnetic. It's just very, very grounded like the weight of the earth is behind it.

Siddhananda: Yeah, magnetic energy ... that force! It's just amazing compared to all the rest.

G: The rest are more focused in the atmospheres, and the higher [realms] and stuff. Tantrik is more, very earth based, and from the Mother. They go in through that way. They go through the transient form of nature, but it always does have that still point within it. They just come at it from a totally different level.

Siddhananda: Completely. It's the heaviest element, the heaviest energy that can be felt here. So, I do see that richness, and there's some red there, too ... just powerful, is all I can say. Just power beyond belief in this Tantrik feeling, which, again, runs like a thread through all things. It not like ... here's Tantra ... there's Shaivism ... here's this, here's that. It's all of it. It's the whole thing. It's feeling poowerfuul. It's kind of like if you go to the center of a volcano, or something. You've got that ... (gesturing with her hands to indicate something very concentrated)

G:  ... compressed energy.

Siddhananda: It's sooo powerful. That's the feeling, that it just can run things.

G: Very strong.

Siddhananda: It just runs things, man! If you're in the wake of this, be careful, but it's very good as well. It's very purifying. Okay, is there a message or a question? I doubt a question, but I don't know. They do want to convey the potency of this Tantrik energy. "Packed in Power," is what they're saying. There are siddhis within it, there's a lot within it, but that's not IT, they're saying. It's just all in one, just one. Do you have a question or anything that you want to ask, Guruji?

G: Is there something really specific that you would like to convey? Something that would be really beneficial for anyone here.

Spirit: Don't believe yourself to be small, limited. You are limitless. No boundaries.

G: Right. Limitless. That's a good message. So, we'll leave it at that. Thank for that (placing her hand on her heart).

Siddhananda: That was powerful (placing hand on her heart).

G: Yeah, the Tantrik is very heavy. It feels like lead weight when you hold this [stone] even though it's so small ... just lead weight, yeah. They're going now. It's light. Here feel it now (handing the stone to Siddhananda).

Siddhananda: I felt like it was going when I was transferring it out. It's so light. It's gone.

G: Yeah, it's light

Siddhananda: When I picked it up here, I started feeling it going, because I couldn't believe how easily I picked it up.

G: It was starting to go already. Now it's very light, but it was very heavy. When you pick one up that's Tantrik, if it's a Tanrik master, you can't miss it. It reminds me of the [saying], the Guru is heavy with knowledge. It's that type of thing ... very heavy knowledge.

Siddhananda: Exactly. Grounded.

G: I mean, it's just compressed knowledge.

Siddhananda: (nodding in agreement) No joke. No joke.

G: They're really connected with the earth. I mean, all of the earth. They really go through that. The Earth Mother is where they go through, the Tantriks.

Siddhananda: That makes sense. It did have that female feel.

G: Yeah. First they have that connection to everything, then they go into that still point. They do carry the weight of all that (bringing the hands forward from a wide distance until they meet at one point in the middle).

Siddhananda: It's not anything you want to play with though like the way people want to do. That's for sure (shaking her head no with an air of foreboding).

G: People don't know what real Tantra is.

Siddhananda: Wow ... you mess with that and ... (shaking her head like you're asking for trouble)!

G: They're playing with that, but they don't know what real Tantra is. Real Tantra is very, very ... very, very substantial.

Siddhananda: It's just like when you see a cement slab. I mean, it's just SOLID.

G: (nodding yes) Solid ... weighty.

Siddhananda: I don't know, but it's the most power I've felt packed in one  ... condensed ...

G: Yeah, it's like those kind of Gurus that if anybody tried to budge them, they wouldn't be able to move their body. They become like those strong magnets that hold, and you cannot break it ... you cannot move it. I mean, it's just absolutely not going anywhere. So, they can be that strong ... very, very, very strong.

Siddhananda: I wonder what it's like when some of them pass. You know how they have that un-corrupt forms and things, because it's just so interesting to have all of that power, that energy there.

G: Yeah, it's just absolutely condensed power.

Siddhananda: Oh, my gosh! But, you know, to have that there ... to have a teacher like that, they can really ...

G:  ... very heavy weight.

Siddhananda: Yeah (laughing) ... surrender, okay!

G: (laughing) Yeah, just surrender ... my suggestion is surrender… exactly!

Siddhananda: (laughing) And, surrender immediately … Don’t open your mouth.

G: (laughing) ... because you’re going no where.

Siddhananda: Yeah (smiling). Not saying you should to any teacher. That's not right. I'm just saying that power is like a volcano ... huh!