Moving beyond struggle

G: (Looking down, holding rock) Ok.  (Hands rock to Siddhananda)

Siddhananda: (Holding rock, eyes closed, after a few moments right hand goes up near heart and fingertips close to a point, palm up). I’m feeling some emotions that (incomprehensible word) are there. I now hear [some] thing.. this is silly, some song [just] came in.. (singing) “feelings... nothing more than feelings” and then there was a feeling of fear, but then there’s also [that] wanting to have that flame there to burn away the dross.

G: Ok, so which path have they walked?

Siddhananda: (Closes eyes for several moments) [i'm] getting "lifetimes of suffering, lifetimes of struggle," (pulling, rubbing with fingertips near heart area), "living in this secret place, mystic."

G: Yeah (nodding) I’m going to ask for Christ to come in to this one, yeah. I’m feeling more of that inner struggle, so I think that Christ needs to come in and tell them [there's] nothing to fear and that one needs to connect with that heart center and just be willing to go forward.

Siddhananda: (Namaste hands) I see these images, there was a bit of a blip and again it's hazy, this imagery, it's very different now, wow!

G: Uh-huh

Siddhananda: And now it’s a little bit clearer, and Christ is there with the open arms, there’s the robe, a cross (hand gesturing horizontally), arms open, and the robe draping down. He’s a handsome man! (Guruji laughs). [The images are] not as clear, yet it's there. I can feel that there and it's just resonating. It's vibrating outward more (changes gesture to hands moving outwards, palms facing inwards, pulsating).

G: So we’re just going to let Christ work with this person. We’ll put them in the crystal cave for a while and go ahead and let them work on that heart opening. There’s always that forgiveness and everything, I think it's more of a thing of forgiving themselves if they’ve been in this pain. I think they tried to walk a spiritual path but they’ve been so hard on themselves that they’re carrying this...

Siddhananda: Struggle

G: Yeah, struggle. They need to find out they don’t need to struggle. He’s done the struggle and they  just need to accept and relax into that and continue to go forward.

Siddhananda: Yeah, now would it be ok for this one to go in the crystal cave.

G: Sure, they can just sit there for now.

Faith

Siddhananda: (Showing a white marble stone) i'm hearing "gates of hell, gates of heaven."

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: They're going back and forth between those gates.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: "Mental anguish to peace, mental anguish and then peace."

G: Okay, what's the mental anguish about?

Siddhananda: i guess when they're in heaven, they're worried about going back.

G: Back where?

Siddhananda: To the anguish.

G: Well, they don't need to worry if they let go of it. They are the ones that keep bringing it in themselves. If they have already reached heaven, if they're at the gates of heaven then they have nothing to fear. They are pulling themselves back out of it.

Siddhananda: Yeah. (pause). They're becoming much lighter now. And those two gates are fading, like those aren't part of the picture as much, they're just present in that lightness. Those gates are like they're not even existing.

G: Right. Like he reached over the illusion of that. 

Siddhananda: Yeah, i see the gates on this side, but there's light in between and those are more distant. SO, that's not happening, it's better.

G: So, since he's worried about the gates of heaven, we ask that Christ or Mary come to him and aid him. He can enter the light and just step through. He doesn't need to keep himself in a purgatory, like in no-man's land. 

Siddhananda: i'm seeing a little different image with Christ coming, there's a dark cloud being dispelled, it's turning grey and circular, like washing away with the presence of that light.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: Lot of times i see that they're there, but, this has some clouds being dispelled.

G: hmm hmm. Yeah, this guy has some stuff that he needs to let go of. 

Siddhananda: Some issues. (smiling)

G: Yes, that little dark empty crap that he's holding on to, so he needs to dispel that.

Siddhananda: Exactly. So, that is being worked on, there is grey, black to light, so it's been revolving a bit, and being worked on with the light. Not full gone yet, there's something in need of being worked on.

G: Right. He's got to understand he can let go of that in an instant. If he just gives it over to Christ, it can move on in an instant. For what reason does he continue to hold this? Christ is there to take that away permanently.

Siddhananda: Yeah. It is getting better.

G: He's just got to let it go and let him have it.

Siddhananda: Yeah, i think that's what it's about. He's having a hard time releasing that, for whatever reason, oddly enough. It happens, people get familiar with things and [don't let go].

G: Right. It's like a false identity, one identifies with being ill or identifies with this and that, and oh, if i let go of that what will i be now. That's familiar, that's what i know. 

Siddhananda: Right.

G: And it's not beneficial. He's got to see that it's not beneficial and it's holding him back. The only one holding him back is himself, he has to be willing to give that up to move into that light. 

Siddhananda: There's still some swirly dark grey stuff happening.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: (pause) It's flushing out now a little better.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: Yeah, it's slowly getting better. I think he didn't have that same resistance after a while. Just couldn't hold it.

G: Yeah, couldn't keep it up.

Siddhananda: It's flushing out.

G: You can only keep up that resistance so long against that Light. 

Siddhananda: It's feeling better. I still see a stream of dark at the bottom but at least it's fluid, the rest is more Light.

G: Right. He's got to understand that he has to let it all go, one hundred percent, so that he doesn't re-manifest that again. All seeds of that have to be gone. 

Siddhananda: (pause) Yeah, still lingering residue.

G: Tough one, he doesn't want to let go of that. 

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Again, he's got to understand, like the Bible said if you have the faith of the grain of a mustard seed, there's nothing that can't be accomplished. But, on the other hand, if you have the doubt like a grain of mustard seed, it can grow and flourish and pull one away. So, pick what seed you want to plant, the seed of doubt or the seed of truth. Their choice. But, you have to be willing to let go of the falsehood to go to the Light. 

Siddhananda: It's a tough cookie, this one, not wanting to really fully let go. There's definitely a shift in energy.

G: It's faith that makes you whole, you have to be willing to move from doubt to faith. 

Melting

Siddhananda: i am seeing a lot of ice, icy mountains and formations that are being melted down.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: There is some sun there, starting to happen, as we speak.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: That's what they're saying, they're feeling like now.

G: Right. That things are starting to thaw and melt and things. 

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: So, what can we aid you with today?

Siddhananda: (pause) They want to be more like the sun.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: To keep that, make more of a connection. At first, that wasn't really felt, but now i am feeling more and more sun as we are speaking.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: So..

G: Yeah, we can introduce them to Christ, the son. And the sun that can melt that. 

Siddhananda: (pause) That's taking place, nice!

G: Yeah. It's a good thing to have in his heart, the wisdom of Christ and what that is, and allow that to melt and dissolve. 

Siddhananda: Always a good thing.

G: Yeah. 

Siddhananda: Thank you (hand on heart)

G: Thank you (hand on heart)

Love and Forgiveness

Siddhananda: This one is so pretty and different, too! (showing a small blue colored stone).

G: Aha. A little blue laced agate.

Siddhananda: See how thin it is? (showing the stone edge on to the camera)

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: It's very thin. Really pretty.

G: It would be a good one for skipping (moves arm and hand in way as if to skip something along the water)

Siddhananda: It would, it would.

G: Yes.

Siddhananda: Because it's smooth.

G: Flat, flat surface.

Siddhananda: Look at the little striations or lines in there.

G: Yes, so pretty. I like blue, blue laced agates, it's very pretty.

Siddhananda: That's just nice.

G: Very soft color.

Siddhananda: Blue laced, that makes sense for that.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: Lace! Okay (pause with closed eyes) So, there it is, sitting (pause) i'm seeing some light coming from underneath it, nice so far, but no one can say.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: Okay. So, do you have question or message today? (long pause) Okay, i guess it's not so good.

G: Oh oh.

Siddhananda: They are saying they're in a kind of a doomed place.

G: Okay. You're in a doomed place.

Siddhananda: Though, it didn't look real black. There was some light in this imagery.

G: So, why are they doomed? What has happened?

Siddhananda: "Because i was imprisoned." Again, another kind of imprisoned and it feels like a darker ages thing where people wore like armor and stuff.

G: Yeah, like in one of those dungeons where they are shackled and stuff.

Siddhananda: Like all those horrors they did to people.

G: Right, right.

Siddhananda: I'm just seeing someone in armor that's guarding their cell there.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: And, then in their cell, all i see is darkness. i don't know if they'll take me in there or not.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Right now, that's what i'm seeing and i'm hearing they were like a shackling.

G: Right, you feel it in the wall (gesturing with hands over the head as if shackled to a wall).

Siddhananda: Right.

G: Shackled and just, yeah.

Siddhananda: Left to starve.

G: Yeah..

Siddhananda: ..or however that works and they were beaten, wow.

G: Yeah, a lot of times back then, they where beaten, tortured..

Siddhananda: Yeah, poor things.

G: ..to say things that were not true.

Siddhananda: Yeah, that's the thing.

G: To just stop pain, they would say it, yeah.

Siddhananda: i don't know what they did.

G: There was a lot of really horrid tortures and things back then.

Siddhananda: Yeah, but, here's this rock with some light and then i see this image beside it.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: So, it's not like..

G: It's not so engulfed in by it.

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly, and yet it's still there, but, there is some link or thread or something there.

G: Aha. So, why did this take place? Let's look as why it took place.

Siddhananda: You want to know more why that happened to them?

G: Yeah, so that we can give them something to go forward with.

Siddhananda: Okay, let's see what happened to cause this. (pause) Okay, i'm seeing some aggression happening and fighting.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: The one has a suit of armor, the other, i can't quite tell. So, let's see if they did something against the law or.. What did you do? (pause) Okay, they say they didn't do anything.

G: Why did they put you in there? What did they say?

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: the reason you're there?

Siddhananda: I do see a scroll, of sorts.

G: A scroll.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and a pen in their hand, like you where saying.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: ..to take their land or take their home or destroy something they've had to sign and then from there they weren't honest in their thing and they just took them.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Something about their land being taken, is all i'm feeling.

G: They wouldn't say it, so they..

Siddhananda: Well, i think they may have signed, they did sign, but, what they didn't honor what they said that set them free. They took them anyway.

G: Aha, right.

Siddhananda: And they took the land too. They did the whole thing.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: They just weren't being honest.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: They're saying "no honesty". So, they were left there.

G: Left there to die.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Can't tell if they were male. I think they were male.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: So, they're still linked up with this darker time. Let me ask why they're still linked up.

G: Yeah, why are you staying there?

Siddhananda: (pause) They are floating, like someone holding a helium balloon. (has hand out as if holding something).

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: And it's floating there. It's like they're holding that still. They could just set it free. (pause) Okay, they're holding it because they desire to change that, in the way of not having these horrors come again like that.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: So, yeah.

G: So, the best way to do that is to let go of that experience and be willing to come back into form, back into manifestation to begin to work for those kind of rights, for peoples rights. But, you got to let go of that experience so that you can move forward.

Spirit: What about those people that died that way?

G: They'll all get an opportunity to go forward.

Siddhananda: (pause) They're severely still hurting for that situation.

G: Yeah, not a fun experience.

Siddhananda: Yeah, they're torn to bits with it.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: But, i still see some light there. i think it's more of just that replaying.

G: Yeah. So, i would say for this one is to have Christ and Mary come to them..

Siddhananda: I'll ask of that.

G: ..and give them some peace and let them know that the objects are not it. And while that was a horrid thing to happen, one has to have forgiveness and go forward, be willing to go forward. 

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay. So, they are looking up as this angel of Mary and Christ come in. Angel light, really!

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: And, more than that. Just light, but, they are looking more angelic (pause) Wow (laughing) i'm just always floored by the imagery and it's always different and this one is more arms up and i just have to say wings and and this (has hands over the head region) as if there was a center of light that came out (moving both hands from the head down through the center of the body).

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: Brilliant in that way. Just brilliant! And they are turning to look, almost like they're in their own world or their own planet and looking at that floating there.

G: Yeah, i think that Christ and Mary are just (pause) wanting to present that in the way the other could best accept it.

Siddhananda: Sure. Makes sense. Because sometimes it's more dulled down, but, man sometimes it is like gold.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Brilliance, and better than that. (pause) So, they're growing big above that image, especially Mary, i feel. She is above it and she is scooping it up, like this (gesturing with arms as if holding something).

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: She's scooping it up, just like a mother, to love that.

G: Yeah, to love it.

Siddhananda: That spirit.

G: Take away some of that pain, yeah.

Siddhananda: Before it gets to getting the slamming, because you got to get to a place where you can open.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And that's what it feels like, she's just nurturing with the most pure love and like it would be her own child.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: It's very sweet and tender. So, that spirit has been held that way, which isn't a bad way to be held. So, and then she's going to send it forward from there.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: I think they're good.

G: Okay, that you for coming. (gesturing namaste)

Siddhananda: (hand on heart) Yeah. Nurture it up, raise it up a little and send it on it's way, then it will be ready to bloom.

G: Exactly.

Holy Spirit

Siddhananda: (Showing a transparent heart stone). (pause with closed eyes). Okay, i am seeing just a white light up and down my body, and on the top there's some doves flying.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: ..which is really nice.

G: Yeah, kind of a Holy Spirit representation. 

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Very good representation of Holy Spirit.

Siddhananda: It is lovely! And i am seeing Christ coming through.

G: Yeah. That's very much a Holy Spirit manifestation, with the doves and the white lights.

Siddhananda: And Christ coming through. It's just lovely.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: i don't think they  have any questions.

G: hmm hmm. Did you have some words of wisdom that you wanted to bring through and share? Any message?

Siddhananda: i think they're in praise of that, in praise of that holiness, that spirit, that's so untouched.

G: Yeah. And the Holy Spirit is available to all. That's what one opens to as one goes through that Christ light, that kundalini and the Christ light comes through and it awakens, it enlivens and keeps that journey in place. 

Siddhananda: Yeah. Lovely image! It's there, Christ is there and the doves are flying and the white light. Lovely!

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: So, thank you. (gesturing namaste)

G: Thank you for sharing that. (gesturing namaste)

Siddhananda: (placing the stone aside)

G: Never turn down Holy Spirit.

Siddhananda: Never! That's enough in itself.

Carrying the Cross

Siddhananda: (Showing a small round pink stone) (long pause with closed eyes) i see someone with a cross on their back.

G: Aha. (pause) So, why are they dragging that cross?

Siddhananda: In the heat and uphill and all that.

G: Right, right. They're putting themselves through that. (pause) So, why are they doing that, austerities?

Siddhananda: (long pause with closed eyes) Just hardship, hardship.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: "Hardship is the way, right?" they are saying.

G: Well, there is a hard [way], but, if he is taking it on himself, and it's not the natural thing that's coming, then, he's just burning in, giving a burden to himself that he doesn't need to carry. Christ already carried that cross.

Siddhananda: (long pause) Okay, he did set it down.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, he's walking. He does look like maybe he's also from that time. [He's] got the (moving hands around the torso indicate some type of clothing from that time).

G: Yeah, from that time.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and he's got that outfit on with the little rope belt and the robe and sandals and things.

G: Right, he was probably a monk of Franciscan friar or something.

Siddhananda: That's sounds right, yeah.

G: And, he's been doing all these austerities for all this time.

Siddhananda: That sounds right about him.

G: Yeah, very old Franciscan.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Franciscan monk.

Siddhananda: Right. So, that's a heavy tradition in that way.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: In what they were doing.

G: Yeah, some of them did a lot of self flagellation and stuff in order to become like Christ, but, that's not the way you have to become like Christ.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and as you are speaking, i do see that imagery of Christ with the thorns and blood.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Like that was the way, hurt yourself.

G: They're more into suffering.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Suffering. Why are you not into the risen Christ? Do you not want to know the risen Christ?

Siddhananda: (pasue) "I just know suffering," he's saying.

G: Yeah.

Spirit: I know just to bear suffering.

G: Right right.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: So, we're going to send in Christ to him to give him the message of letting go of that, that there's the risen Christ, you don't stay stuck in the suffering Christ. (smiling)

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay. So, Christ is appearing, almost like in a teaching manner with his hand out like he's giving some teaching there.

G: Yeah, we have to surrender into Christ. And we do walk, in a sense, that path of Christ, but, when you're taking unnecessary burden, that's not beneficial.

Siddhananda: Right, they come in the way, the course of it.

G: It will come of it's own course.

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly.

G: But, you don't push it to become that suffering persona.

Siddhananda: Oh, absolutely.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Gosh, it's enough without [any pushing]. (light laughter)

G: [It's] something different.

Siddhananda: Yeah. (pause) So, Christ is there, like i say, in a teaching pose. (pause) That other one has a darker energy, it's a darker feeling. I can see some blood in it.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: It's moving.

G: He's been so stuck in the suffering and stuff. He's so stuck in that suffering ideation.

Siddhananda: It's got such a feeling to it that is just not healthy.

G: Right, it isn't a healthy thing.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: They really get stuck in that and they don't go on to push through that to the risen [Christ].

Siddhananda: That's what's so unfortunate.

G: Freedom.

Siddhananda: Right, and that's what's so unfortunate. And i think in their hearts they love Christ dearly.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: But, they just take that, just that part of it on.

G: Right, i want to be like Christ.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: If you really want to be like Christ, then you have to accept the rising. You have to accept the regeneration, not stay stuck in the suffering. For what reason?

Siddhananda: Yeah, really just to hurt themselves on and on for all eternity.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And as you're speaking, i do see Christ there. I do see light around that darkness with the blood. It's trying to get in there (long pause) And Christ is almost rising up with that light and is coming down in there and it's definitely penetrating in there. Thank goodness, for this energy.

G: Yeah, he (the spirit) needs to clean that out.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And he needs to let go of that and go forward.

Siddhananda: I do again see that image of Christ with thorns, but, it's changing, it's starting to get more distant and more hazy.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: The best way to say, that's how you could say that, is it's dissolving.

G: It's going through transmutation.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: You'll go through a transmutation to the risen Christ.

Siddhananda: That's it, so, that's happening and i think he's very blessed to have that there and it was not by his own, i don't what to say choice, i mean he's open, but, it just had to come to him that way.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Or otherwise i don't think he would have.

G: It didn't click with him.

Siddhananda: It didn't click.

G: He got stuck in that and they got stuck in that sense of i have to surrender and suffer. Christ suffered, so i'm going to take on. It's almost like they're trying to take on Christ’s suffering so that Christ doesn't suffer, but, it doesn't work that way.

Siddhananda: Yeah, how could it.

G: It doesn't work that way.

Siddhananda: It just doesn't make sense.

G: I want to emulate Christ, therefore i have to suffer. Well, no. Christ said forgive them for they know not what they do, and he went onward to be the risen. He didn't stay in that suffering.

Siddhananda: He suffered so humanity wouldn't have to suffer like that.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: So, they could have a path and get out of that.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: So, that's there and it's going to be a bit long, because this is a heavy, long standing.

G: Right, he's in this for a very very long time. This guy was probably from early Fransican's.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Very early.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: When they first started that order.

Siddhananda: Right, and which is just an intense, an austere living.

G: Right, Very hard.

Siddhananda: But, you're meant to go beyond the austerities.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: The austerities come on their own.

G: They come on their own. It's not something you force that you are going to punish yourself.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: That's almost like you're punishing yourself.

Siddhananda: Right. It's a different thing.

G: No. Christ never wanted somebody to sit there and take a whip and flagellate (gesturing whipping)

Siddhananda: Yeah, no.

G: And beat themselves with it or take this on like this.

Siddhananda: Did he ever do that.

G: That was never what his message was.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: It was never that message. He never gave that message ever.

Siddhananda: And, he never did it himself, so, you look at his path.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: He never did that to himself.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: It's not what you do.

G: He was not punishing himself.

Siddhananda: No.

G: He walked the path he had to walk, just like we walk the path we have to walk and that stuff comes on its own.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: But, we're not sitting there saying "jee, let me make myself suffer" (gesturing whipping) (laughing)

Siddhananda: No. You got to look at how you perpetuate suffering. That's a different thing than taking on this whole trying to hurt yourself.

G: Right. Exactly.

Siddhananda: i'm glad that came out because that's a good. Really good pointings there. (moving the stone over to the healing center).

G: So, we'll leave him at the healing center for a while.

Siddhananda: Okay.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: So, we'll put him over there. We have few over there, which is good.

G: Yeah, we got a few in the healing center that are being worked with.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and they're in good hands and shape and form.

Let Go of Sorrow

Siddhananda: (closing eyes) They are saying, “Is there anything you can find in the world that makes you happy?” I don’t know if they are happy for a good amount of time because they have just found sorrow there.

G: Okay, so if they only find sorrow in the world, then it’s time for them to go within and find out what’s at the center of their being. And then bring that forward and they will be fine. Yup.

Siddhananda: They are saying they hear you, but they want to find something that they can hold on to, that they can hold. 

G: Well, that’s what they can hold. (laughing) That’s always present with them.

Siddhananda: Okay, so they are okay with that. I said, “Do you mean a physical holding?” They said that they mean spirit.

G: Yeah, spirit is spirit. It’s always present. That the center of their being, it’s always with them whether they are in form or out of form.

Siddhananda: Okay, there is still some longing in there I can’t quite touch upon yet.

G: Yeah, usually when all you found is sorrow there in that universe, it drives you within and that’s when you start the path of the mystic.

Siddhananda: Right, that’s right.

G: Because you’ll do anything to get out of suffering and then you find out that the suffering is all your own drama that you caused and you are the author of.

Siddhananda: Right. Okay, I do see them holding hands with somebody. I don’t know. Yeah, I’m just feeling some sorrow. It’s tears. I see them holding hands with somebody. They miss their love. They are still hurting for… I guess they had a lot of sorrow. It’s heavy there.

G: Then they can let go of that. Like Christ said, his burden is light. It’s not sorrow to carry that light.

Siddhananda: Okay, they feel like they just need to take some time to get the sorrow cleansed and maybe that will help them to see clearer. Because they have a heart like that’s what they want, but I think it’s just laden down by whatever.

G: Yeah, so, we’ll ask that Christ and Mary come in again. She’s the one that deals with a lot of sorrow. She had a lot of sorrow watching her son being nailed to a cross.

Siddhananda: Yeah, just a little.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Just a little there.

G: She can tell you a bit about sorrow.

Siddhananda: I would say! (closing eyes) She almost looks like a bride in this image. It’s interesting. It’s got the flowing gown, this way (putting her hands over her head and letting her fingers fall downward). And then she’s got the flowers. It’s just an interesting image. Always a lovely, lovely image no matter how it comes in. Okay, she’s turning to light pretty quickly. I just see light and this thing of sorrow is just a little shadow. It’s really over shining that little shadow there.

G: Right. Yeah, if anybody knows about sorrow on earth, she knows about sorrow on earth and overcoming it. That it is risen and there’s no reason to hang on to it.

Siddhananda: Well, she comes with Christ, so you know it’s there. It’s still there. So, it’s eternal. So, I think he’s in really good hands, he/she, so I think we can just…

G: Yeah, they are going to be in very good hands there, so we will let them work on that lesson.

Siddhananda: That was like “Whoo!” That light’s there. That sorrow is like a little tiny drop. It’s nothing compared to that light.

G: Exactly.

Lost Sheep

Siddhananda: (closing eyes) So, this little stone is there with a nice little light around it. [It’s] saying, “What has God to say to me?”

G: What has God to say to you? In what reference? As far as what?

Siddhananda: Okay, something about Bible passages. [There’s a] Christian flavor to this soul.

G: Okay, and what is it they are looking for specifically?

Siddhananda: Let’s see. I see a Bible open. I see a sheepherder tending to the flock. That kind of thing.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Let’s see. Yeah, they want to know about that setting or something like that. I’m just getting the sheepherder imagery.

G: Yeah, I would say the best [is that] we’ll just send Christ to them and Christ can give it to him directly. He wants to know about the Bible and stuff. We’ll let Christ tell him in his own words. Can’t get any better than that! (laughing)

Siddhananda: For sure! Christ did come in holding a little lamb. A very sweet image with his halo and he’s got his staff [that] they use for the herding of the sheep, which is sweet. It’s very gentle imagery. He (the spirit) is a little bit astonished at first, but very grateful turning right away to that (image of Christ), like “Wow! I got that. I don’t have to sit and wonder. It’s like, there it is!”

G: It’s right there, right!

Siddhananda: So, he’s there. He’s kneeling low and it’s just a gentle image. So, I think they are good.

G: All you can hear with that is that “The Lord is my shepherd. I shall not be in want... He guides me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.” Twenty-third Psalm.

Siddhananda: It’s so beautiful and gentle, I think, that one.

G: Yeah. We’ll leave the sheepherder to the one that collects the lost sheep.

Siddhananda: There you go! To the source directly, can’t beat it!

G: To the source directly. You can’t get any better than that!

Siddhananda: No, my goodness. The other is more secondary understanding.

G: Exactly! Some of it has been changed and it is not all there in its purity. So better he gets it from the pure source.

Siddhananda: Maybe he felt a little like one of the lost sheep.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: He wanted Christ to come find him anyway.

G: Right… [He’s] gone astray. Baa, baa!

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly. He wanted that sheepherder to come collect him, so that worked out.

G: Right, right.

Siddhananda: That works out. Okay. So, they are communing and we’ll go on to this next one.

Christ Light

Siddhananda: So, here we go with this next one. It's another nice little one (showing a clear translucent stone).

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: (long pause with closed eyes) Okay, i'm seeing some different things flowing through. So, i need to let that settle a little bit.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: (long pause) Okay. I guess the main thing is they want to find the right path to God.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: I saw some things float up. I did see a tree, like a birch type of tree. I have seen an image of Mother Mary. I did see the cross.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: That may give you an idea of where this one's energy is.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: So, more christian based.

G: Right. And Christ has opened that, anyone can enter the holy of holies which the heart is, you enter into the holy of holies.

Siddhananda: (long pause) Okay, they start to say a few things and that falls away, so, that's nice (laugh) They're getting more still.

G: Yeah. (pause) Yeah, it used to be [that] only the high priest could enter the holy of holies. If anybody else did, they would die. In fact, when the priests go in, they used to be really old tradition.

Siddhananda: Aha.

G: They would tie rope on them [so that] in case they died, they would have to pull them out, because nobody was allowed to go into the holy of holies, you would die.

Siddhananda: Wow!

G: And, it's like the ego death, but, if you go in the holy of holies, there is that ego death.

Siddhananda: Aha.

G: But, nothing really dies.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Nobody sees the face of the father and lives, is what they say too.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: They would hide in the crevices and when God would go by they wouldn't look because you would die. You see the face of the father, you die. It talks about the ego death. The ego dies the illusion.

Siddhananda: Aha, yeah.

G: Okay. Like Christ said, if you see me you have seen the face of the father that sent me, his energy and what he is, in his message. [It] is directly that.

Siddhananda: Right. It's like one and the same.

G: Yes. So, this one can go and sit at the feet of Christ and really get that message and really get that teaching and that lesson.

Siddhananda: (pause)

G: Many many lessons. Many many teachings.

Siddhananda: Okay. So, Christ is there, just vibrant white today and just white! (pause) Sometimes the image comes through a little different, but, this is one of just white robes.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Everything white. A white candle, halo, the whole works. (laughing) In all his splendor. What can i say! Decked out, in beauty.

G: (smiling) Yes.

Siddhananda: So. (pause) It looks like they are more up from afar a little bit. Usually sometimes they are right there at Christ's feet. This one is more form afar looking.

G: Yeah, tell him he can go there. There is nothing that needs to keep him separate from Christ.

Siddhananda: Okay.

G: Christ is there. He is always present. He's available.

Siddhananda: Literally as you spoke, i see this energy walking forward.

G: Yeah. He doesn't need to stay away, he doesn't need an intermediary. He can be there.

Siddhananda: They just were looking, but, now they are walking there and i can feel their walk, walking there. Getting closer. (pause) They are sitting there. They (the spirit) are bowing their head on his feet and Christ is looking down. Christ is just, like i say, decked out.. i mean, so beautiful. He (the spirit) is putting his head on his feet. And Christ has the Candle. Christ is touching his head, what a lucky fellow.

G: Oh, giving him the light.

Siddhananda: He is a lucky, lucky one!

G: Yes. Bringing that light. The holy spirit and that light. Yeah, i'm sure with that he is going to give him internal light, so.

Siddhananda: He is good to go, i would say.

G: He's in very good hands.

Siddhananda: No doubt.

G: So, he will find what he is seeking right there.

Siddhananda: Always, always, like i say, never fails, that energy coming. Always beautiful to behold.

G: Yes.

Surrender like Christ

Siddhananda: This one's cute (picking the next stone), almost looks like a heart.

G: hmm hmm. A nice blue heart! Doesn't it look like a blue heart? (smiling)

Siddhananda: Yes. It matches my dress!

G: It does! (smiling) Your little blue heart. 

Siddhananda: Very blue.

G: Yes, sparkling blue.

Siddhananda: (pause). Okay, they're saying "i try my hardest to be in Christ consciousness."

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: "And i am not there, how come?"

G: And you're not there, how come? Have you surrendered one hundred percent to what's been brought to you? The difficult as well as the easy?

Siddhananda: (pause) They bemoaned some things.

G: They what?

Siddhananda: Bemoaned or were not happy with some things that came.

G: Exactly. One has to accept them. When the difficult times come, one has to surrender into that, like Christ was surrendered into the cross. That was his Path. He surrendered to it. It wasn't easy. He sweat blood in the Garden of Gethsemane. He was not thrilled to go there, but, he accepted that. That's what had to be done. He accepted and surrendered into it fully and surrendered into God.

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, this energy is saying your words sound sweet, and they're just resonating and shifting the energy there.

G: hmm hmm. So, we're going to call Christ in and let Christ instruct this one and give the full depth of that, what that is to walk the journey. 

Siddhananda: (pause). Christ is there.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: Still little murky. i'm asking if this one feels Christ there.

G: Yeah, you have to open to the genuine Christ, not your ideas about [Christ].

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, there's an image rising up now from the rock, it's like a female coming forward with that. So, they are coming forward.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: They just felt separate from that [before].

G: Now's their chance to open and commune directly with Christ, a hundred percent communing with that energy. 

Siddhananda: Okay, so they are moving forward into that energy, and, i do see some light beam coming into their heart, into their presence, which is really nice.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: Feels a little distant to me, but, that doesn't matter as some of them can be farther away.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: Okay, now there's a clear seeing of Christ there, becoming more clear.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: It's good. Again, it's that thing of looking up and Christ coming down. So, i think it's a good thing.

G: Right. Exactly. So, we'll leave them to process here for a while. 

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Sometimes, they have an idea about something and haven't really opened to it. Sounds like she's got ideas about what it is to be Christ and that Christ energy. 

Siddhananda: Yeah, sure.

G: And, it's different than what the actual path of Christ is. 

Siddhananda: Oh, my goodness, sure!

G: She needs to be clued into the reality versus her ideas about it. 

Siddhananda: Totally.

There's hope

Siddhananda: Okay, a big dark one (showing a dark stone).

G: Yes, a nice big dark smokey quartz. 

Siddhananda: It got a lot of different layers to it, it's really nice in the light.

G: Yeah. In the light, it's very nice. It's interesting to see what energies choose what stones. 

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: They're specific to what they choose, i think. It's what's comfortable for that one.

Siddhananda: Sure.

G: It's either something that they need to develop or it's something that is comfortable for them at that moment.

Siddhananda: Yeah. At times, if it is a darker stone, they have a more shadowy energy.

G: Sometimes. Yeah. Sometimes they do. 

Siddhananda: You can never say.

G: Once in a while, no, but sometimes, yes. 

Siddhananda: Yeah. Let's see what this one has going on. (pause). i see the stone, it is pretty black-looking in my mind with some black aura streaming from it.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: Okay, they are saying "i have a twisted mind, i have a dark mind."

G: hmm. Okay, why did they go off and when did that begin that you started to have a twisted [mind], because nobody comes in like that. That develops. So, what caused it to develop?

Spirit: i've been involved in some wrong things.

G: Right. 

Spirit: Playing around with fire.

G: Okay, playing around with fire?

Siddhananda: Like arson, [maybe], i don't know.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: (pause) Yes, they like to play with matches, with burning things. It could be symbolic of something else.

G: Was anyone hurt?

Siddhananda: i'm hearing "yes, some animals", maybe. i don't know, i'm just getting the feelings, and all i can do is convey the feeling of it is not good.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: Maybe some innocent life.

G: was hurt?

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Yeah, they can get very twisted. This is what happens with serial killers and stuff. They start out and they develop, they abuse animals and they get very abusive.

Siddhananda: That's never a good sign.

G: It's not a good sign. (addressing the spirit) So, what caused the beginning of that twisting away from light? Do you remember?

Spirit: Pain, wanting to hurt something else.

G: Yeah. So they were in pain and usually they want to then afflict it on others. So, what caused that pain for you?

Spirit: i was beaten and abused.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: Maybe, they were young then, impressionable.

G: Exactly. Because nothing comes in originally like that, you just don't. They could have had a number of incarnations where they had that [abuse] and they just.. 

Siddhananda: Right.

G: Do you know that that can be changed? Do you know that that pain can be taken away?

Siddhananda: i'm seeing that he's holding that imagery of hurt things, innocent life, and..

G: You know you can seek forgiveness for that and come back in to right the scales, to work for those that you hurt. 

Spirit: Can i?

G: Yes, you can. 

Spirit: i just feel like a deamon, a deamon spirit.

G: We can have Christ come in right now and work with that. Christ can cast that out. Christ is very good at casting that out. 

Siddhananda: (pause). Okay, Christ is there, very big in the scene, maybe even more. The rock is very small, it's nothing compared to that.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: It's like a big angelic image standing above this rock.

G: Yeah, if you ask for forgiveness and you ask for Light, Christ can come in and take that away. He can take that away. 

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, the rock is not so black looking in my mind, as Christ is working with penetrating light and presence.

G: Right. One can seek forgiveness, but, you have to be willing to turn your back on those things and go from that point into a new path. It's possible, one can be regenerated. They can be forgiven. 

Siddhananda: i see this soul almost like laying down asleep, almost like they were in such a deep dream with this stuff.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: Like they were in this deep maya.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: You see them just asleep and some of that dream imagery coming up. They were just very thick in this.

G: Inundated with it, right. This consumed them.

Siddhananda: It's sad, you see them almost like an embryo in there. It's like it consumed their every cell.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: But, Christ is working and the light is penetrating that image, which was just saturated. i don't think they had any awakeness, at all.

G: No, when it becomes really really dark, really really dark, they can go into that almost sleep state and get reabsorbed into the Absolute, with absolutely no consciousness. 

Siddhananda: Wow, that's interesting.

G: Yeah. 

Siddhananda: It's feeling that way a little bit, because i don't usually see this heavy dreaming that they're in.

G: Right, they can become unconscious and be reabsorbed. 

Siddhananda: Loose their chance.

G: Yeah. But, that's mercy in the end. In the end, it's Grace. 

Siddhananda: Yeah, for them and for others.

G: For others, too. But, they do have a chance to turn around. If they have consciousness, they can be turned around and have life. 

Siddhananda: Well, this soul is very deep asleep. Although, i feel Christ there.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: That will probably need some work.

G: Yeah, that's going to need some time. So, we ask that Christ be there and we also ask that Kali be there. Kali sometimes works with that very dark energies and can again help to cut away. 

Siddhananda: Christ and Kali, nice combination. i like that blend (smiling).

G: Yeah, Christ and Kali. 

Siddhananda: (pause). It definitely comes in with a very different energy when Kali enters the scene.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: i see something that went in there, like wooosh.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: But, they're still thick in the dream.

G: Yeah. it's going to take some time. Again, they have to be consciousness enough to let go of it. It can't be taken away from you, against your will.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: No one, not Christ, not Kali, none of the guides, masters, even God themself, cannot take something away unless you are willing to let it go. You have to let it go. 

Siddhananda: Yeah, and as you are speaking, i see their eyes open a little, but they are red and rolly, they're just really thick in this dream of dead consciousness.

G: Right, the dead consciousness gets deeper and deeper until it just closes down entirely. So, you have an opportunity to move forward, but, you have to try with all your being to be conscious and give this over and ask for that help from Christ and Kali.

Siddhananda: That's it.

G: You have to be conscious, you have to stay awake and allow them to help you. 

Siddhananda: They are rolling over a little bit, they are moving. They are not just a dead weight. Their eyes are opening a little bit.

G: (Picking up the stone, holding in hand and closing eyes)

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, it's got a bit more quietness. i just see some different colors coming. They're still in their bed of dreams, lost there.

G: Yeah. Let's ask Christ is there help for this one. Is there anything else we can do?

Siddhananda: (pause). i do see that heart shining when you say that.

G: Yeah. That there is some hope for them. Is there something we can do to make it better for these types?

Siddhananda: "Sit them in stillness," i'm hearing, "sit them in Grace." Pretty much what we've been doing.

G: hmm hmm. So, we'll just do what we've been doing. We'll go ahead and put this one over by the healing center because it might take some time for this. The ones that are real heavy like that can take some time to breakthrough those dreams. 

Siddhananda: Oh, yeah.

G: The consciousness gets suppressed, it gets so dark, it's got no energy left. 

Siddhananda: That's it, it's dead energy. Nothing to circulate.

G: No. They think that when they are in that dark, they got more energy, they got more power. But, the further they go, they become dead. It just loses everything. 

Siddhananda: They didn't move, they were just dead weight. They were so deep asleep.

G: Right, one goes into unconscious realm of sleep, and those ones that are really unconscious will be absorbed back. It's like going into a black hole.

Siddhananda: Wow. i'm amazed that they even care.

G: If there's enough clarity to even come, then there's some hope. 

Siddhananda: That they made it here, there's hope. i do see in mind that there's that tiny seed.

G: Yeah. There's always that seed of light. If they can grab that seed of light, it can grow. But, they've got to tend it, nourish it and they've got to turn their back on that darkness. They have to be willing to turn their back and not engage it any longer. 

Siddhananda: There's some compassion for those ones that had to endure that, but, again you hear about these heinous acts and it's hard to even understand it.

G: Exactly. But, there has to come compassion because they're driven to do what they do. And they're driven in pain. They're in an absolute hell-realm doing what they're doing. 

Siddhananda: And they don't have any feelings anymore.

G: Right. They are so dead, they're trying to feel something. So, yeah, it's drawn all to the negative, unfortunately.

Siddhananda: Yeah, it's sad, but all we can do is have them there by the healing center. Things have turned around here. We've had some dark ones but nothing to this degree, but, we'll wait.

G: We'll wait and see what happens with them.

Siddhananda: The heart is shining.

G: The heart shining means there's some hope. We can't give up hope on it. All we can do is pray for that one, pray for forgiveness and that they would open up to that Light. That's all. We can pray for that the best be done in this situation at hand. 

Absorbed into That

Siddhananda: We've got some other little guys here.

G: Yes, we'll check in with them and see where they're at. 

Siddhananda: Yeah. Here's one. (pause). i don't know, at least i'm getting some imagery, things shift around a little, but, what i'm getting is that this may be the one that was trying to jump off the cliff.

G: Oh, right, right. That wanted to end their life in not a beneficial way. 

Siddhananda: Right. So, they're still at that altar with Christ there.

G: Good. 

Siddhananda: They are looking very.. they have such a sweet, gentle presence and there is Christ there above, with the Cross.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: He's there, more in Light, and she's there with her head down on the altar with candles. So, it's continuing that way. Definitely better than the other.

G: Oh yeah, definitely better. So, we'll ask her, (addressing the spirit) you've seen that this is not the way to end life. If you want to go forward, if you know God directly, fully [then] you can fully absorb into that. That's a beneficial way to go. 

Siddhananda: She's acknowledging what you're saying.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: i'm not hearing too many words from her, but, she just has her head down like "yeah."

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: So, this is where she'd like to be right now.

G: So, we'll leave her here. We can leave them at the healing center for a while and check in. When they're done they can go ahead and go beyond their way.

Siddhananda: Yeah, whenever they're done.

G: We'll just leave them by the healing center and they can continue to process.

Siddhananda: Okay.

Revenge or Forgiveness

Siddhananda: So, this next thing, it is a darker stone  (showing a dark stone).

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: (pause) And i am seeing a darker stone in my mind, it does have a darker aura around it. So, that's interesting.

G: Right. So, we'll see what that is about.

Siddhananda: Yeah, you never know.

G: No, we'll find out soon.

Siddhananda: (lauging), we'll get to the bottom of it. (pause) Okay, they're saying the darkness is about drama.

G: It's about what?

Siddhananda: Drama.

G: Drama?

Siddhananda: Drama.

G: Drama, yeah. Well, that's a pretty good explanation of it. It's about drama, alright (laughing).

Siddhananda: Yeah. They're saying it's about drama.

G: Not a lot of light in the drama, so.. (laughing).

Siddhananda: No, no. I do see a black hooded thing in there, coming a little bit.

G: Aha. What's his drama about?

Siddhananda: (long pause) I don't know, something about being killed brutally.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: Yeah, murdered or something.

G: Does he not see that he is on the other side now, that he has passed?

Siddhananda: (pause) The situation with this one is [that] they want revenge.

G: Ahh, we are not in the revenge department, and, if he goes out for revenge he will have himself in a way darker place than he is in now.

Spirit: Yes, but, i want to get them back.

G: The Universe takes care of it, trust me. They're not going to get out of it with nothing. (pause) But, if he wants to enter into the same hell-realm they're going to, he's more than welcome to. (laughing) I don't think he wants that. That's the only thing he's going to get out of it, to put himself in a hell-realm. Is that what he wants?

Spirit: No.

G: He think's it's dark now, he's seen nothing yet.

Siddhananda: Yeah, really. i do see a little image of a rose, behind the darkness, so, that's good.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Because he was, at first, before you were speaking, saying i want to get them back.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: But, i do see a little image of a rose now. So, that part's good.

G: Yeah, understand that the Universe is not going to let them get away with it. They will go through suffering hell-realms. But, if you take revenge, you will also go through suffering hell-realms. I don't think that's what you want.

Siddhananda: (pause) Now, i just see this image of a corpse holding that rose.

G: Yeah (nodding).

Siddhananda: i think they're still moaning about that, [about] how they died, quite a bit actually! (laughing).

G: Yeah. He's got to let go of this.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: He can let go of this and be healed, but, he's got to be willing to let go of this revenge thing. He's keeping himself in darkness and from the total healing. He could have been healed a long time ago.

Siddhananda: Yeah, because i am hearing they were not involved in the evil part of it, even though i do see that dark cloak thing. So, i am hearing that.

G: Right, yeah.

Siddhananda: It could have been an older woman, that sometimes they wear the dark things (moving hands around the head).

G: Right.

Siddhananda: I don't know, it's hard to say, but, now i'm seeing a skeleton, i think they're still reflecting on that death.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: But, it is being flushed through, at least i'm seeing that death image (moving hands in front of the face) with the skeleton with the hood.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And, then there is a rose in the hand of that skeleton.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: So, let's see what they're more into now. Let's see if they are ready to move out of this wanting revenge thing.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: (pause) I don't know, i'm seeing an image of a gun, i'm thinking guns and roses, no. (laughing). And i see that gun being fired. So, (pause) they're still harboring this revenge thing.

G: Yeah, because there's no forgiveness when you are harboring revenge. That's on them then. If they do that, there's no forgiveness. They will have to suffer the consequences of that. (pause) So, they'll put themselves in  a hell-realm as well.

Siddhananda: Okay, now i'm seeing a pool with tears.

G: Yeah, they can feel sorry for all they want, but, if they let go of this and ask for the light of Christ, they can be healed immediately. But, they need to let go of the revenge. The Universe takes care of that.

Siddhananda: Okay, i do see the gun being released form the hand.

G: Aha (nodding).

Siddhananda: That's good, falling into the water.. letting go.

G: Right. You need to let go and let God take care of it.

Siddhananda: I see that skeleton fading a bit. There's a rose.

G: Aha (nodding).

Siddhananda: (pause) They want to offer you the rose.

G: Okay, would they like the Christ light to come in to heal them?

Siddhananda: They would like whatever you can give them (laughing).

G: Okay, we're going to ask Christ to come in to help with this one.

Siddhananda: (pause) It's kind of sweet actually, Christ has all these roses in the hand, in the arms..

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Fresh, lovely roses. They are looking up at that, such beautiful image!

G: Aha (nodding).

Siddhananda: With Christ in white (moving hands over the head) and those bright red roses. Striking, really! And they are looking up, they have their rose, they're offering the rose to Christ, their little rose they had (laughing).

G: Aha (nodding).

Siddhananda: Which is sweet.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: And again Christ takes the chin and looks up, so they can look.

G: Yeah..

Siddhananda: It's just sweet, it's a very beautiful image with those roses there, and that one is embracing Christ's legs and feet, because they're down.

G: Yes.

Siddhananda: And again, beautiful arms there, what can be said (smiling), So, the gun is fading off.

G: Yeah, that's gone, that idea of revenge needs to go, they keep themselves in a hell-realm.

Siddhananda: I am still seeing some flashes of those images, but, i think they're just getting flushed.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: As the light is working, it doesn't go all immediately. There definitely was a connection there that was working in the better direction, so..

G: Good, good.

Siddhananda: Yeah. (hand on hear center).

G: She'll be okay now.

Siddhananda: Absolutely.

G: You have to let the Universe take the revenge. They're not going to get out of it without facing consequences.

Siddhananda: No, exactly. It will get taken care of. If you harbor that, it just ends up being hate.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: ..and you don't want that.

G: You don't heal.

Siddhananda: Yeah. And you end up lashing out in anger in other places.

G: Right. So, make yourself go through one brutal death and cause yourself more suffering on top of it. (laughing).

Siddhananda: That's so idiotic, when people [do that]. Really, if you could stop and look at that. To harbor the imagery of revenge and different things, it's a disease for you, really, for your own self.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: Not a good thing ever! So, forgiveness is better and moving forward and letting the Universe take care.

G: Right.

Time to Rest

G: (Showing a small light pink stone).

Siddhananda: So, is that like a little [one]? Okay, i see [it now].

G: Nice pink one. 

Siddhananda: It's pink, did you say?

G: Yes. (Showing the stone again).

Siddhananda: Okay, thanks. It looked more white on the screen, but it's pink. Nice.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: (pause). Okay, they were born in Mexico.

G: (nodding).

Siddhananda: [They] came to you to find their way to God.

G: Okay. 

Siddhananda: (pause). i do see a light burst, i do see Christ there with open arms. So, i don't know what the trouble is.

G: hmm hmm. Do they not see Christ right there?

Siddhananda: They're looking startled, because Christ just burst out there. They're looking startled! They were there, it's a woman [with] dark hair and flower dress. It's like she was still doing work or something, she was still doing the same work that she did there when she lived.

G: (nodding, smiling in amazement).

Siddhananda: She had her pots, she had her things, it's like it never stopped! (laughing in amazement).

G: (laughing).

Siddhananda: She was doing all of her same work that she's done there with her pots and grinding corn and all that stuff. Isn't that something? (laughing).

G: (laughing) Just kept busy! Busy, busy, busy! Well, it's time to rest. Let Christ come in and he'll give you some rest. (laughing). It's time to rest. 

Siddhananda: There's some children there, too, that just popped up. Maybe that was her reasoning for [doing the work]. She's taking care of her children, she's saying.

G: Yeah, she was watching them growing. She probably left early. 

Siddhananda: She's continuing to take care of them, she's making good meals (smiling). It's cute, it's a bitter-sweet feeling that she's doing that. I see these little ones, she's tending to them and sending them all of her love and good yummy food, all of her skills and knowledge of what she made. It's hard for her to leave that.

G: Yeah, they're fine, they're fine. They're all fine. She needs to go to the arms of Christ now. She'll see the children again, she'll see them on the other side, for sure. 

Siddhananda: (pause) She's sending her hearts to them, to you, to all of it. So, she's hearing it. She knew when she came to you that this was going to be [her] time to go. She just had a feeling.

G: She'll still be able to see them from the other side. She'll still be able to know what's going on. But, she does not need to be contained where she is at, she can go forward. 

Siddhananda: She feels relieved and she's been letting down and sitting. She's sitting because she's been working hard!

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: So, she's tired. She is turning there, but, she's tired. That Light is going into her and she is turning towards it. She knows it's time.

G: Yeah. 

Siddhananda: She knows it's time. I think she knew and she just wanted your help with that.

G: Yeah. 

Siddhananda: i do see the little children that she's been caring for, she's just sending her love to them and knowing your Grace is there. So, she's ready. (smiling).

G: Excellent! (gesturing Namaste).

Siddhananda: That was sweet. (hand on heart).

G: May she have a wonderful journey. (smiling).

Siddhananda: Yeah, that was sweet. (smiling).

G: Absolutely!

Family Attachment

G: So, now we have what's come from here (referring to stones at G's place). Where they are from remains to be seen. (smiling). But, i went to [inaudible] and came back and now i have eight beings sitting here, waiting for me. 

Siddhananda: Brought some friends! (smiling)

G: (Smiling). So, here we have the first one (showing a brown stone to the screen).

Siddhananda: Okay. (pause). [They're saying] they're not from the Mayan ruins.

G: Okay. 

Siddhananda: They just hitched a ride along the way (laughing).

G: They just jumped in somewhere along the way. (laughing). That's what i was wondering about where they are coming from. 

Siddhananda: (laughing) i saw an image of a train, it's moving and someone's running and they just jumped on it. That's what they did.

G: Jumped in along the way, okay (laughing). 

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, so they are not from that area. What i am hearing is that they have family there, they have hung out there because they have family.

G: Ah, okay. 

Siddhananda: So, let's see why they came to you and what's going on.

G: (nodding).

Siddhananda: (pause) They're saying they came to you because they felt like you are a Master of Truth and that through me, i could translate [for them] (smiling)

G: There you go (smiling). 

Siddhananda: So, let's see what questions [they have]. (pause) i do see a nice white lotus flowering, which is nice.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: First of all, let me see if they want to stay where they are [because] why are they attached there.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: Okay, they became a little rumbly when i brought out that question. (pause). They're saying [they became rumbly] because "you might rip me from my family."

G: hmm.

Siddhananda: [That we might] cause them to detach from that. They really had a bit of that darkness. First, they had that rose, and when i brought that up it really became angry.

G: Yeah. Do they know that the family that is in a corporeal body will not be in there for long? 

Siddhananda: (pause). They do, but like all things, they don't cognize it fully. You know how that is.

G: Right. So, they chose to stay there, but when family departs they'll be stuck there by themselves. Just because they go to the other side doesn't mean they cannot watch in on the family. 

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: They have access to see them from there all the time. 

Siddhananda: Okay, they're starting to sob "my mother", "my father", my this, my that..

G: They're not going to lose anything. Who do they have that's passed to the other side? Do they have grandparents or other ones that are on the other side?

Siddhananda: i guess this is their primary attachment, their family that is there.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: i see a rope attached there, i'm getting a bit of that Mexican feeling.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: They're showing me some of the things that they did together and the love that was there.

G: Right. So, for what reason did they come today?

Siddhananda: i'm seeing that lotus flower so i'm feeling they want to know God, but, on the other half of it i see that rope attached.

G: That attachment. 

Siddhananda: Right, they're wanting to know God but then they don't. It's feeling like they very much don't want to detach. So, it's a hard thing.

G: Right, right. Well, they have to understand that life is eternal and they're not going to lose them by going to the other side and being ready to continue on with their journey, that they have an opportunity when they pass and go on the other side they can again re-incarnate together in another different type of unit so that they can continue to learn. 

Siddhananda: (pause) i do see that rope and it does seem like there is a bit of a tear in it. So, there is some hope there for them starting to get this and some Light there.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: They just are asking for whatever could help with this, a mantra or a practice.

G: Are they Christian?

Siddhananda: Yes.

G: Let Christ come in and explain to them that there is no death. (smiling).

Siddhananda: (pause) Again, some nice image of someone holding on to that rope for dear life and suddenly startled like "what is this Light that's coming in".

G: Yeah. 

Siddhananda: A new feeling. They're looking towards it and not as focused on the rope, of keeping that hold there. (pause) So, they are loosening that, they're looking towards the heavens [with] doves flying, with Christ's presence, the sun rising.. it's just a nice setting. (pause) i think they're in very good hands with that.

G: hmm hmm. i think they're in very good hands with Christ. So, we'll leave them with Christ and i'm sure Christ will tell them all they need to know, that they're not going to lose their family. (smiling).

Siddhananda: Yes (smiling).

Karma

Siddhananda: (Showing a small lime green stone) Okay, this is the one that always has the little dot (showing the other side of the stone that has a purple spot).

G: You never know! (referring to a message that came from the last session).

Siddhananda: Okay.

G: But, that was a nice message to begin with (referring to the last session).

Siddhananda: Really nice to start out, yeah. Okay, (pause) So, what i'm seeing is a rose, but it then has the thorns.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: And, a finger was pricked on the thorns.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: (pause) So, i see a body [that had] been cut on those thorns a lot.

G: Okay. Ask them if they can tell a little bit more of what that's about?

Siddhananda: Yeah. (pause) I'm just hearing "hardships."

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: (pause) "Sticking points."

G: There you go! That's a good one, sticking points. (laughing).

Siddhananda: (laughing) Is that perfect or what? That's exactly what those thorns are, aren't they? (laughing).

G: They are sticking points, you can't argue with that.

Siddhananda: I love it. This imagery says it all!

G: That's a good one, sticking points.

Siddhananda: I know, it's perfect!

G: Because it hurts a lot (laughing).

Siddhananda: It's perfect, it's perfect. But, i am seeing bleeding with those sticking points.

G: Yeah, they must be some gnarly sticking points. So, what are the sticking points that they're stumbling over?

Siddhananda: Well, i see them putting their finger on there, for goodness sake. It's getting stuck all this time.

G: Why do they want to keep doing that?

Siddhananda: I know! That's the thing.

G: Haven't they done it enough to see that it hurts? (laughing)

Siddhananda: I see a band-aid being put on the finger and (pause) they don't want a band-aid solution.

G: Right, and that's what most people do, they put a band-aid on and they keep doing the same thing again. It's like (throwing arms up in air).

Siddhananda: It's like they purposely put it on there.

G: I know, they keep doing the same thing, it's like, are you not going to learn that that's not advantageous to do?

Siddhananda: i do see some tears with this being...

G: So, what is his sticking point that he's not letting go of? That he keeps torturing himself with.

Siddhananda: Right, yes, exactly. Because I do see more gashes on him. He's really been self-punished. (grimacing).

G: He's been through kind of a rose briar. Into it and..

Siddhananda: Yeah. That's it, exactly.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: He's on his bare skin. So, anyway, let's see (pause).. He can't find his way out of it.

G: Yeah, well, he needs to let us know what the problem is so [that] we can help him.

Siddhananda: Yeah. i see some sunglasses on his eyes, so, he's not very clear at all with his seeing, obviously.

G: Right. He's not looking a lot towards the light, let's put it that way.

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly.

G: He's seeing through a glass, darkly.

Siddhananda: (laughing)

G: That's what that Bible verse is.. "seeing through a glass, darkly".. Spy glasses, yeah.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: Yeah, he looks through the shades.

Siddhananda: That's right.

G: Hence, again, what's up?

Siddhananda: (pause) I'm hearing "I ran away from a miserable situation."

G: Aha.

Spirit: ..in which i felt used or misunderstood.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: So, let's see what happened there, it could be anything.

G: It could be anything, but, at this point, it sounds like a royal pity party going on. So, let's find out what it is.

Siddhananda: Yeah. I see him, there's a person there and then, i think, [there's] a woman. I think this being is male, he's pushing her away and, she's heavy handed with him and heavy in her threats. i just think they had a lot of conflicts somewhere in there.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: I think he pushed her.

G: He did what?

Siddhananda: He pushed her.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: I see a woman being pushed down, and [she] ran away. I'm going to ask if he's always been honest or what's been his character a little, or what do you think?

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Okay, so, (pause) he hasn't always been honest in his dealings. He's been rough.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: He's been rough, he's been abusive. He's been harsh.

G: Yeah, he's been an abuser.

Siddhananda: That's what it feels like. He's been an abusive, harsh, gnarly kind of soul.

G: Yeah, now he's feeling the pain he put her through.

Siddhananda: Yeah. He's really cut up, he's really..

G: Good.

Siddhananda: Yeah, i mean, that's the way it works.

G: That's a lesson, don't do this to people.

Siddhananda: Yeah. (pause) He's really been put through a ringer now.

G: Well, that's karma.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: Oh, i'm not joking when i tell people [that] if you're doing these things to people, when you go on the other side, you're going to have to feel the pain you put them through. You're going to have to endure that.

Siddhananda: Yeah, he is.

G: So, you can do [the] changing now.

Siddhananda: And he definitely is [feeling the pain]. He's really lost in all these thorns and getting really cut up. He's blinded. He's stuck there. He's thirsty. He's dry..

G: Aha (nodding).

Siddhananda: It sounds like he had put people through some harsh things.

G: Yeah, he only ought to, again, take rebirth and do right to balance the scales, to be willing to come back and fight for the rights that he was abusing.

Siddhananda: Very Good.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Let's see what he has to say about that.

G: That's a door to  open for him to make it right.

Siddhananda: Now, with this one, i do see some scales that are not balanced, that he's reflecting.

G: Aha (nodding)

Siddhananda: (pause) He's feeling so imbalanced.

G: Well, yeah. But, he has to get out of his pity party. You can't be an abuser and then come and bemoan your own situation, when you get what you put out.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Does he understand that? He may not like it, to hear that.

Siddhananda: He's saying that is very hard for him to hear.

G: Of course, it's hard for him. Does he think it was easy for what he put them through? Does he think that was easy for them? He thinks he should get off scot-free from that?

Siddhananda: Right

G: And not have to be accountable?

Siddhananda: (pause) Yeah, he's trying to take this in. He's just kind of down now. He’s sitting down, head down.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: I think he's just lost his energy too, even. He doesn't have much strength in himself to keep [going forward].

G: Yeah, like i said, he can go forward. But, to go forward he has to be willing to go back in and right the scales, to make it right.

Siddhananda: I do see a heart reflected, all of a sudden. So, i think he did hear some of that.

G: Yeah (nodding).

Siddhananda: It touched him in another way.

G: There is that option, there is that option. If he wants to make it right and quits having the pity party for himself now, that doorway would open for him.

Siddhananda: Yeah, that heart is there, but, then it gets shadowy too. But, at least it's showing he did hear something, something touched his heart.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: And he wants to go forward. He's in a really in a bad shape right now, so..

G: Right. So, we'll ask Christ to come in and to work with him. He needs to learn some of those lessons and hear it and put it into practice.

Siddhananda: (pause) Actually, this image is very nice! It's turning out nice. The very clear, crisp image of Christ.

G: Aha (nodding).

Siddhananda: ..and the light going into his soul that is bent down.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: His head looks very shabby and he almost looks now a little more like he was in that time of Christ, where he's got something over his head, like [the way] they wore here (gesturing something worn around the head). He's down and it kind of shifted with a bit of a feeling of him becoming more open to that.

G: Right. You can change. Any of them can change, but, they have to have that heart and willingness to change. And like i said, sometimes you have to fall and fall hard before you're ready for the light.

Siddhananda: Right, and it's been a long time [that] he's been in this condition.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: So, i see Christ lifting up his chin, like how they do in looking up. So, they're looking at each other's eyes.

G: Aha, good.

Siddhananda: And this one is really nice. I think he's in really good hands now and it came pretty quickly, like that.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: This one is very lucky in that way, maybe he's endured a lot and is really ready.

G: Yeah, he heard it and it opened up his heart and that's all it takes.

Siddhananda: That's what it took.

G: You've got to come to a thing of being honest with what he's done and accepting that and being willing to make it right.

Siddhananda: i see a nice image, with those sticking points, like those thorns he kept putting his own finger on, i saw his hand being moved away from that. He was not doing that to himself anymore.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: That was a nice image and so then that heart is there. i think he it really pierced through something and he's quite fine right now.

G: Yeah, good deal.

Siddhananda: Yeah (hand on heart center). Nice, huh?

G: (gesturing Namaste).

Siddhananda: You never know, it felt so hard, but then I saw that heart just flash, it's like something broke through. You never know, some are longer some are not.

G: Sometimes, they have to go through a lot of suffering before they're open and willing to hear it.

Siddhananda: And he, I don't think he had another ounce of energy left to take another step. He was very much pummeled.

G: He is one of them who has to fall hard, all the way to the bottom, and then there's nowhere to go but up at that point.

Siddhananda: And i did just get a flash of him being back in that situation and he was hugging whoever he pushed down. So, i think he's looking for forgiveness in himself.

G: Good. Taking reparations.

Siddhananda: Yeah, really nice!

G: i think that more often the ones that have been abused move on much quicker than the ones that were the abuser.

Siddhananda: Interesting.

G: They come to heal much quicker.

Siddhananda: Aha, the ones that were abused.

G: Right, the ones that were the victims of that, yeah. [They] come around much quicker.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: The perpetrators take a long time to [heal].

Siddhananda: This one seemed like he was an abuser type, though, in a way, huh?

G: Right, that's why it took him along time.

Siddhananda: Oh, i see what you mean. Yes, he had to go through a lot, absolutely. The victim would seem like a whole different thing, exactly. I think you're right, because who knows how long he was in those conditions. But, nice that he was ready.

G: Another case in point, we got our two Mayan [souls]..

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: The woman that was sacrificed, she was able to heal much quicker than our other Mayan.

Siddhananda: Oh, good point.

G: It took him a little while longer.

Siddhananda: Sure, and we don't know how long they have been in these conditions when they come to us. We don't know all that sometimes, but, you're right about that situation, because you got him out pretty fresh.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Yeah, interesting to see.