Love and Forgiveness

Siddhananda: This one is so pretty and different, too! (showing a small blue colored stone).

G: Aha. A little blue laced agate.

Siddhananda: See how thin it is? (showing the stone edge on to the camera)

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: It's very thin. Really pretty.

G: It would be a good one for skipping (moves arm and hand in way as if to skip something along the water)

Siddhananda: It would, it would.

G: Yes.

Siddhananda: Because it's smooth.

G: Flat, flat surface.

Siddhananda: Look at the little striations or lines in there.

G: Yes, so pretty. I like blue, blue laced agates, it's very pretty.

Siddhananda: That's just nice.

G: Very soft color.

Siddhananda: Blue laced, that makes sense for that.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: Lace! Okay (pause with closed eyes) So, there it is, sitting (pause) i'm seeing some light coming from underneath it, nice so far, but no one can say.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: Okay. So, do you have question or message today? (long pause) Okay, i guess it's not so good.

G: Oh oh.

Siddhananda: They are saying they're in a kind of a doomed place.

G: Okay. You're in a doomed place.

Siddhananda: Though, it didn't look real black. There was some light in this imagery.

G: So, why are they doomed? What has happened?

Siddhananda: "Because i was imprisoned." Again, another kind of imprisoned and it feels like a darker ages thing where people wore like armor and stuff.

G: Yeah, like in one of those dungeons where they are shackled and stuff.

Siddhananda: Like all those horrors they did to people.

G: Right, right.

Siddhananda: I'm just seeing someone in armor that's guarding their cell there.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: And, then in their cell, all i see is darkness. i don't know if they'll take me in there or not.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Right now, that's what i'm seeing and i'm hearing they were like a shackling.

G: Right, you feel it in the wall (gesturing with hands over the head as if shackled to a wall).

Siddhananda: Right.

G: Shackled and just, yeah.

Siddhananda: Left to starve.

G: Yeah..

Siddhananda: ..or however that works and they were beaten, wow.

G: Yeah, a lot of times back then, they where beaten, tortured..

Siddhananda: Yeah, poor things.

G: ..to say things that were not true.

Siddhananda: Yeah, that's the thing.

G: To just stop pain, they would say it, yeah.

Siddhananda: i don't know what they did.

G: There was a lot of really horrid tortures and things back then.

Siddhananda: Yeah, but, here's this rock with some light and then i see this image beside it.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: So, it's not like..

G: It's not so engulfed in by it.

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly, and yet it's still there, but, there is some link or thread or something there.

G: Aha. So, why did this take place? Let's look as why it took place.

Siddhananda: You want to know more why that happened to them?

G: Yeah, so that we can give them something to go forward with.

Siddhananda: Okay, let's see what happened to cause this. (pause) Okay, i'm seeing some aggression happening and fighting.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: The one has a suit of armor, the other, i can't quite tell. So, let's see if they did something against the law or.. What did you do? (pause) Okay, they say they didn't do anything.

G: Why did they put you in there? What did they say?

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: the reason you're there?

Siddhananda: I do see a scroll, of sorts.

G: A scroll.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and a pen in their hand, like you where saying.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: ..to take their land or take their home or destroy something they've had to sign and then from there they weren't honest in their thing and they just took them.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Something about their land being taken, is all i'm feeling.

G: They wouldn't say it, so they..

Siddhananda: Well, i think they may have signed, they did sign, but, what they didn't honor what they said that set them free. They took them anyway.

G: Aha, right.

Siddhananda: And they took the land too. They did the whole thing.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: They just weren't being honest.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: They're saying "no honesty". So, they were left there.

G: Left there to die.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Can't tell if they were male. I think they were male.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: So, they're still linked up with this darker time. Let me ask why they're still linked up.

G: Yeah, why are you staying there?

Siddhananda: (pause) They are floating, like someone holding a helium balloon. (has hand out as if holding something).

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: And it's floating there. It's like they're holding that still. They could just set it free. (pause) Okay, they're holding it because they desire to change that, in the way of not having these horrors come again like that.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: So, yeah.

G: So, the best way to do that is to let go of that experience and be willing to come back into form, back into manifestation to begin to work for those kind of rights, for peoples rights. But, you got to let go of that experience so that you can move forward.

Spirit: What about those people that died that way?

G: They'll all get an opportunity to go forward.

Siddhananda: (pause) They're severely still hurting for that situation.

G: Yeah, not a fun experience.

Siddhananda: Yeah, they're torn to bits with it.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: But, i still see some light there. i think it's more of just that replaying.

G: Yeah. So, i would say for this one is to have Christ and Mary come to them..

Siddhananda: I'll ask of that.

G: ..and give them some peace and let them know that the objects are not it. And while that was a horrid thing to happen, one has to have forgiveness and go forward, be willing to go forward. 

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay. So, they are looking up as this angel of Mary and Christ come in. Angel light, really!

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: And, more than that. Just light, but, they are looking more angelic (pause) Wow (laughing) i'm just always floored by the imagery and it's always different and this one is more arms up and i just have to say wings and and this (has hands over the head region) as if there was a center of light that came out (moving both hands from the head down through the center of the body).

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: Brilliant in that way. Just brilliant! And they are turning to look, almost like they're in their own world or their own planet and looking at that floating there.

G: Yeah, i think that Christ and Mary are just (pause) wanting to present that in the way the other could best accept it.

Siddhananda: Sure. Makes sense. Because sometimes it's more dulled down, but, man sometimes it is like gold.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Brilliance, and better than that. (pause) So, they're growing big above that image, especially Mary, i feel. She is above it and she is scooping it up, like this (gesturing with arms as if holding something).

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: She's scooping it up, just like a mother, to love that.

G: Yeah, to love it.

Siddhananda: That spirit.

G: Take away some of that pain, yeah.

Siddhananda: Before it gets to getting the slamming, because you got to get to a place where you can open.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And that's what it feels like, she's just nurturing with the most pure love and like it would be her own child.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: It's very sweet and tender. So, that spirit has been held that way, which isn't a bad way to be held. So, and then she's going to send it forward from there.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: I think they're good.

G: Okay, that you for coming. (gesturing namaste)

Siddhananda: (hand on heart) Yeah. Nurture it up, raise it up a little and send it on it's way, then it will be ready to bloom.

G: Exactly.

Drop the Armor

Siddhananda: Okay, so I see this little rock with a white aura around it. Okay, so they remember when they were young and so carefree. They feel like they have been hardened now. They were running through the fields, laughing and playing. No worries about tomorrow.  Now, it’s different, of course, with them. Calloused. Hardened.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: Protecting themselves.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Like a suit of armor, almost.

G: Right.

Spirit: How can I break out of this coat of armor?

G: By giving themselves permission to let go of the armor and find out that they are fine.

Siddhananda: They will be vulnerable then, they feel.

G: Yeah, well, now you are encased in a prison of your own making. Do you like the prison?

Siddhananda: Shut, you choose, right?

G: Right, you choose.

Siddhananda: They don’t like it. They can’t really feel this way.

G: Exactly!

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: So let go and be free.

Siddhananda: I see that child in their heart. It’s laughing and playing. It’s in their heart. But, they’ve got this armor around them, so it can’t really be that joyful and all of that innocence can’t be released.

G: Right, but they put that armor on and they can take it off.

Siddhananda: What will happen if they take it off, they are wondering.

G: Nothing. They will be lighter. (laughter)

Siddhananda: (nodding) They have a sword, too.

G: Yeah, they are ready for battle.

Siddhananda: Yeah, they are defending or ready to protect whatever they are protecting. You know, come on!

G: Exactly, exactly! There is in the end no death. So, what are you protecting?

Siddhananda: Okay, they are crying now. They are afraid of being vulnerable and their emotions were so strong and things that they are just afraid to feel. They are afraid to feel. They want to feel though now.

G: Then they have to let go of the fear first and they have to be able to move forward. You have to open the door. You can’t sit there be in fear and not open the door, because you have got yourself in a prison of your own making. You have to be willing to open the door and let in the light. Be able to stand out.

Siddhananda: Okay, there is some kind of connection being made now. I see that suit of armor. There is a door that’s open. There is some kind of darkness, but it could just be his own releasing of whatever.

G: Right, it’s his own shadows that he has collected, fears and dramas, and things around it. But, obviously, now he is no longer in body. He can see, what is there to protect any longer?

Siddhananda: Not even a body.

G: No, there’s not even a body there. There’s not even a corporeal. You are that eternal spirit. At this point, there’s nothing there that you need to protect.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Yeah. So, I think that in this case it would be good to have the feminine in there as well. Ask Mother Mary to come in. (pause)

Siddhananda: Such a soft, beautiful, gentle, loving, pure energy compared to them. You see this whatever energy in this armor and it’s brown and dark. And this contrast, it couldn’t be more different. It couldn’t be more polar opposites than what you would imagine.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: So, that soft light is touching that shield and there’s more quietude. He’s kind of like, “Okay, what’s this?” It’s working with that. It’s really like the sun, just working to melt the ice, is really what it is.

G: Exactly! Exactly. So he’s got to see that there is nothing there for him to fear.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: What’s opening is that love and acceptance, so he needs to be willing to drop the armor and step into that.

Siddhananda: Okay, I see part of a foot like with pants. It’s more looking like a regular person that may step out of this armor just a little bit and it’s starting to fade a little bit with this armor kind of dissolving. It was an energetic holding or pattern that’s beginning to disperse and it’s going… it’s swirling.

G: Yeah, you can always let go of old patterns, but you just have to step into the consciousness that you want to be in.

Siddhananda: He didn’t realize that, that’s what he’s saying. He didn’t know what to do.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: So that’s the situation. But, he is feeling this and it is dissolving that calcification and that pure beauty is there.

G: Right. What you seek is within. He seeks that childlike space. Well, it’s right there within him, but he’s got to let go of the exterior that is keeping it from manifesting. It’s still right there.

Siddhananda: As you mention child, I do see more of a child running freely through these green pastures, catching butterflies and all that beauty, innocence, laughter and joy.

G: Absolutely, they haven’t lost it. They just calcified around it to where it’s not manifesting outward any longer. They’ve got themselves in a prison, trying to keep themselves safe. They sit there and they’ve really got themselves locked away and they aren’t safe at all like that. They are miserable. (laughing)

Siddhananda: He’s crying. Yes, it is miserable. It is indeed miserable to be locked in and locked out.

G: Right. So you’ve got to open the door.

Siddhananda: It’s coming. I can see more of an energy on their knees and then I see part of the shield (moving her hands around her face), so it’s not covering him anymore. He’s crying. He’s melting. You can see that child running more free, not just locked in his chest, or wherever… chest more with sorrow there.

G: Right. Yeah.

Siddhananda: Yes, it’s definitely melting things down.

G: Yeah. We’ll leave them over in the healing center.

Siddhananda: Okay.

G: We’ll leave them to work on that, yeah. He’s just got to see that he created that shell and he can take it off.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: That’s really as simple as that.

G: It’s as simple as that. You just have to be willing to come out of your fears and challenge it and pick a better way for yourself. That’s all.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and what you see with this, whether in body or not, these are just energetic patterns. In their mind, there is a body, there is a persona. It’s like an energy, it’s more of a holding of a pattern or something.

G: Exactly. It’s one thing if you are actually in form, corporeal form, and you are being abused or something and you are protecting yourself in whatever way you can.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: But, it’s another thing when that’s gone that you no longer need to have that.

Siddhananda: Right, and as you say even without a body and in that arena, it would seem like even less of a threat. But then again, you are also totally open. It just feels like that so much with this spirit, many times they don’t always sense the difference. They kind of stay in that same…

G: Right.

Siddhananda: That’s it. They are not sensing…

G: They haven’t seen that they are no longer in corporeal form.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: There is nothing there to protect.

Siddhananda: Exactly.

G: It’s absolutely free.

Siddhananda: Exactly. You would think that would be cognized, but it’s really not for some.

G: It’s not. They are still so stuck in that mentality and that consciousness they haven’t taken a look to see that there is no corporeal form.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: The form they are in is eternal.

Siddhananda: That’s the thing. It just continues on that same course. Okay, the body falls away, the same course. That’s the wake up call that’s here and the ones that get it, they don’t need this counsel. They are off with whatever they need.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: So, anyway, it’s just interesting. Okay!

G: It’s like what they say. It’s the ill that needs the physician, not the well.

Siddhananda: For sure! They are not going to come.

G: They are already off continuing forward.

Siddhananda: Yeah. In that regard, then it comes down to the exact same counsel as here. For them, many feel that they are still in that same kind of conditionings, same exact thing.

G: They still have those conditionings and they are still wound up by it. But that just shows how important it is to do the work here.

Siddhananda: Totally, one hundred percent! I think that’s the main message that should hit home, because you don’t get out of it.

G: You don’t get out of it.

Siddhananda: You continue… yeah, it continues…

G: You don’t get out of things, so you need to do the work while you are here.

Siddhananda: That’s right.

G: You can still stay stuck in the same dramas on the other side as you are here if you don’t handle your stuff while you are here.

Siddhananda: Exactly! That’s really the main “bing” and I see in my head red “Ring! Ring! Ring” (like an alarm). That’s it. (laughing) Listen, because that’s really the main message. You’ve got some flashing lights.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: Trying to get your attention to that. It’s just something else.

Spirit is Eternal

Siddhananda: I’m hearing, “When I came here, mind began to not be so stirred (gesturing with finger going around). I desire to live peacefully. I lived during the time of…” I'm hearing kind of Inca or Maya…

G: Incan or Mayan?

Siddhananda: Yeah…

G: That was kind of a rough era.

Siddhananda: Yeah.. (laughing) we get everything here. It was, yeah… I’m hearing in my mind, Mayan ruins… but, also the energy is very strong there. It's very healing in some ways, and… seeing something about caskets, I don't know, being buried like that or something, or some way of burying… being, you know, whatever the way they do the rituals then… in that time…

G: Ok.

Siddhananda: But there was something done on the body… and [am] seeing that image of the body and then the wrappings… the rope or something… I think maybe just more [of], you know, how they're still connected there. That's kind of my feeling, that they're maybe connected to that body that is not even alive anymore.

G: Ah…

Siddhananda: I don't know… maybe that experience and whatever happened with that death and the following ritual that took place… they watched it… they saw… they're still not able to have left that fully…

G: And, what is the reason that you have not left [that fully]?

Siddhananda: That time was hard… that thing… that whatever they [did], you know, wrapped the body… kind of that feeling is still with them.

G: Yeah… You know you can be free of that. There's no reason to cling to that. 

Spirit: Ah (sighing with relief)… really? Wasn't that really who I am? It happened to me though.

G: No, it's not.. That was a temporary thing and a temporary journey, but now, it's time to move forward. You can go on to other experiences, other lives, other…

Spirit: Really, I’m not that body with that thing?

G: No, you're not that body, you're not that experience. It was something that you experienced but you are not that. There should only be an awareness of that but not being that. 

Spirit: Hmm (sighing with relief)… I just don't think I did anything; I was a good woman.

G: Mm hmm…

Spirit: You know, I lived my life good.

Siddhananda: I don't know, something may have happened towards the end that was, maybe, kind of violent… I don't know, i just can't quite connect [to that].

G: It was a very violent culture.

Siddhananda: Yeah… something happened to her.

G: There was a lot of violence. There were lot of sacrifices. She could have been a sacrifice.

Siddhananda: Hmmm.. could have been (nodding)… and, that's my feeling [that] something happened.

G: Yeah… there were a lot of… during that time, people sacrificed and they were very violent… and they would actually, some of them, rip out the heart and the heart's still beating!(gesturing with hand near the heart). They had some very very [violent sacrifices].

Siddhananda: That's my feeling… something happened and she was wrapped. I don't know how her body was handled completely, but, something that bound her so tight that she feels…

G: You should be free of the bindings. There's nothing to be bound any longer. You're not that body. You're spirit. Look and see that you are spirit.

Spirit: (deep sigh) Ohhhhh…

Siddhananda: You know, she revisits that in her head, and…

G: Yeah… there's no reason to go back there.

Spirit: Ohhhh... i'm not that anymore.

G: No, you're not that. You've never been that. You are that Light that's within the heart of being. You are That. 

Siddhananda: And she was saying she died with God in her heart and…

G: Mm hmm… then go to the God that's within the heart, rather than seeing the external shell. The other was a shell, that's all. 

Spirit: I’m so… ahh… afraid to… what's going to come…

Siddhananda: I think she's been with that identity for so long.

G: Yeah. it's been a lot of time [that] has passed [since] that was there. But, no, you are That. Within the heart of being is that God essence, and, that God Essence experiences, through the form, different realms, different experiences… but, they're only experiences.

Siddhananda: And she's feeling light, she's feeling lighter… kind of like that, i guess, i'm seeing some chains starting to break.

G: Mm hmm… yeah… 

Siddhananda: Yeah… that's all I can say. I see chains and her message [with] those [is] that's where I was and with this Light. It's feeling like it's beginning to soften that imagery that was being identified with being a woman… She's a good woman. She's loving… and, I think, that part, she's like why would they do this?

G: Right.

Siddhananda: So, now she feels she can, you know, [move forward]…

G: The spirit is eternal... the spirit is eternal. So, you know, let go of that former body and that former experience and you can move forward. Just allow more of that Light to come in and to cleanse and to purify and to let you move forward, and, ask to move forward.

Spirit: Mm hmm.. (deep sigh of relief)

Siddhananda: She's really kind of, you know, releasing… sad and releasing and just more present, for sure.

G: (picking up her puppies)

Siddhananda: (laughing) Oh gosh… you're going to hold them both?

G: Yeah, he wants to [be held]… (laughing) you know how he is, he's jealous… if Raj [puppy] gets held, he (Max the other puppy) wants to get held.

Siddhananda: (laughing) Yeah, the two little muffins in your hands… She's smiling [referring to the spirit]… she's smiling because she knows that's what we're talking about. She's smiling and she's almost thinking as she smiles, “Some things don't change. Life is kind of just life, I guess." That kind of gave her that insight.

G: Yeah exactly. life is life. It's all experiences and then you can go forward to new experiences. You don't need to remain stuck in that. That is not the only experience in your existence. 

Siddhananda: She's "oh..." and enjoying looking at the puppies.

G: (laughing) The two monkeys!

Siddhananda: (laughing).. and kind of just, you know, feeling lighter and feeling more present and she can kind of just be whatever, herself, now, I guess, without that [binding chain] being there… and i now see the chain again, without that chain…

G: Right (nodding). You don't need that chain. There's no reason to hang on to that chain. It doesn't benefit you in any way. 

Siddhananda: Ohh… she's so… you know, so grateful.

Spirit: How should I proceed?

G: Just ask for Light and ask those on the other side to aid you to get you ready to move forward into another existence that would benefit you.

Siddhananda: (pause) And she's much quieter and she's much, I would say, gentle but strong, I mean, she's got both. And she's just, kind of… and now I see a pitcher of water that can carry her, and she's okay with letting that carry her wherever that destination goes.

G: Excellent! That's much better. Go with the flow! (laughing)

Siddhananda: (laughing) She's smiling… really, really smiling, like it's very genuine.

G: Yeah. (smiling)

Siddhananda: That's that one. I don't know, did you have anything else with her?

G: No. We can let her continue to ask guidance from the other side and they can help her get ready and prepare her for the next leg of the journey (smiling).

Siddhananda: That's there (nodding)… that [the guidance] is there for her.