Prayer with Love

Siddhananda: (holding the stone and pausing with closed eyes). I do see Mary now. It's looking more like this one behind me (pointing to statue of Mary with open arms)..
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"Mary love. Mary love has entered." (hand on heart).

There's a candle and it's big. Mary feels this energy has put too much into prayer in the way of efforts that are constricted.

G: Some people can get into prayers and they just mouth the words and they're really not connected with what it's trying to point to. So, it becomes more of a bondage than something that is liberating. Prayer should point you to the direction of something that opens you up more, not just something you do by rote.

Siddhananda: That's right, and what i'm seeing as you're speaking is the prayer book goes boom (closing gesture). It's slamming tight. If you do [the prayer] that way, you lose the notes, the musical notes, you lose the music of it.

G: It's like doing the prayer, "Mother Mary, blessed art thou among women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, mother of God, pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death." That's the one that they do a lot. But, they do it by rote. It's like a lucky charm or something.

Siddhananda: That's it.

G: It's a lucky charm. But, you can't make these prayers a lucky charm. It has to come from the heart and has to come with imbibing that and opening yourself up to that, not using it as a stop gap measure or [like] i'm going to hedge my bets with this.

Siddhananda: Or this makes me good, like you gain merit.

G: Right, like people that go and say "I'm saved by the blood of Christ, so I can do whatever," and they use it and abuse it. They don't use it in the right way. It's not coming from a place of surrender. It's coming from a place of ego covering.

Siddhananda: That's right, that's perfect. And it's also, like you say, done kind of tensely.

G: Right. It's not coming from the heart. It's like a parroting. Like you're pushing the button of  a recording, you're just saying it without feeling, without intention, without attention, by rote. And so, you're losing so much from that. She (Mother Mary) has so much to give those that really open their heart to that.

Siddhananda: Again, the feeling in the heart is in line with what you just said, what Mary is attempting to do, to transmute and put through this soul. You said it well with words and as you said, I do see those notes. What is being conveyed is a musical instrument and when you're one with that instrument and you're in love with that, you're devoted, then there's rich music. It's not like "I got to do this and get it over with."

G: Right. "This is something I have to do. I have to get to the priest, I've got to do my confession. I've got to do a number of Hail Mary's in order to save myself."  No, it should be a Love. It should be something that you come to and open that heart with love and devotion. It should be a sacred time, a time of opening, a time of blessedness for you.

Siddhananda: That's right. Also, there are some drops of blood, which means the blood of Christ,  Bread, Heart.

G: Right. Again, what she's conveying is that one should come to Christ and understand the sacrifice that he did. This is the taking of communion. When you're taking communion, you're supposed to be taking in Christ. You're supposed to be living that life, to being fed by his words, fed by his journey. You should be a follower of Christ, putting into place what he's teaching, not just hearing it and saying "Oh yeah. This is nice, this is nice. Whatever!" You should be walking that journey.  If you are a follower of Christ and walking his journey, you should be identifying with That, not as a separation, opening your heart to receiving Him.

Siddhananda: Perfect. Again, as you're saying, it's all just right, it's conveyed as best as possible. It's hard to put these in words, but your words are just right, in sync with what is being projected.

So, that's what is projected with this soul, the prayer lost its soul, lost its bread of life.

G: Right, it's losing its energy to benefit you because you are abusing its nature. It's not being come to in Love. So, if you're not coming to it in Love, you might as well not do it because you are closing yourself off from what it could be giving to you. It could be a blessing to you. It could be opening you up. It could be feeding you. It could be absolutely purifying to you. But, if you do it by rote, you're getting nothing from it. And it's actually becoming a hindrance because you're saying "I don't really want you. You're not that important in my world. You're not what i'm looking for. I'm just here to hedge my bets."

So, if you're going to be doing prayer or mantra, you have to open yourself and do it really from the heart, with Love, out of Love, within Love, and let it feed you.

Siddhananda: Perfect. That is very good.

G: So, thank you to Mother Mary for coming to give that message.

Siddhananda: So, this energy can stay and simmer for a while?

G: The message is already given. So, it's fine.

Siddhananda: I think it doesn't matter, it's like done.

G: Exactly. Let me check. It's gone. It was just to give that message and that message is now already out there in the ethers. So, there's nothing that needs to stay there.

Siddhananda: See how these things work? (smiling). We don't know.

G: That's the way it works. When it's done, it's done. The pendulum is just dead. It just sits there and wouldn't move.

Siddhananda: Absolutely.

G: It just came to give that message and that's done from that.