I Sadhu

Siddhananda: (showing a rock). We got a… uh oh! Hold on to your seats. Buckle up! Get out your popcorn. Here we are! (laughing) We never know!

G: We never know with the linga! The wild card.

Siddhananda: Mr. Linga, get ready! (closing eyes) Okay, so I’m seeing something within it.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: Let’s see what it is. (pause) Okay, he’s saying, “I sadhu.”

G: I sadhu.

Siddhananda: Okay. Get ready! (laughing) Okay.

Spirit: I sadhu. I see. I see. I seer.

G: Okay.

Spirit: I Rishi sadhu. I Rishi sadhu.

G: Oh yes, we know about those Rishi sadhus, all right. So what does this Rishi sadhu have to say here?

Siddhananda: Oh no!

Spirit: I Rishi sadhu. I meditate. I Rishi sadhu.

G: Okay. (laughing) So, what can we help you with, Rishi sadhu?

Spirit: I make light. I make light. I Rishi sadhu.

Siddhananda: Okay.

G: He’s not going to ask for bakshish, is he? (laughing)

Siddhananda: (laughing) Oh no! Gosh, it’s feeling a little off kilter. But we’ll see.

G: Exactly, exactly.

Siddhananda: I know when you said that… oh no! They are coming in this way, that wouldn’t be good. He says, “What’s wrong asking bakshish? What’s wrong with that?”

G: Because you are not a beggar. Because that’s not part of the sadhu tradition. You should know that. Sadhu tradition is to sit there and do your mantras and to do your practice. And then people see and they give out of their heart. You don’t chase and ask for bakshish. So, I think with this one we’re going to send in Big Baba Light.

Siddhananda: Oh!

G: We need Big Baba Light to come in now.

Siddhananda: He’s right over there. (looking to the left)

G: Yeah, we need Big Baba Light.

Siddhananda: Let’s have him come, because, right away I think we need that.

G: Yeah, yeah. Because I know exactly what this type is.

Siddhananda: I’m already feeling where this is going. Exactly!

G: Yeah, I know when we started and he opened his mouth, I could tell exactly what it was. So, yeah. We need Big Baba Light to come.

Siddhananda: And I see that fire coming. That fire is no joke, that dhuni fire is coming. It’s ablaze.

G: Right. Tell this one we’re going to show you what real sadhu is.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: I’m going to show you what real sadhu is, okay? (laughing)

Siddhananda: Boy, I see that fire. It’s Shiva fire is what I’m feeling. I’m just seeing the energy of it and it’s bright.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And this sadhu, this Rishi sadhu [is saying] “Why are you bringing this here? What’s happening?”

G: To see what real sadhu is and that will explain it immediately to you, why you don’t ask for bakshish. (laughing)

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly! And he is bowing; he’s down. Either that or he is covering his head. It could be that. That’s what it feels like he’s doing.

G: Yeah, exactly.

Siddhananda: He’s more protecting himself, like this. (covering her head)

G: Exactly. Do you want to know what the real deal is? Do you want to know why you don’t that? Because you are playing a game. Now, I’m going to give you the reality. Don’t come fuck with me. (laughing)

Siddhananda: (laughing) And that’s pretty much this fire, too, because he’s sheltering himself from it.

G: Exactly! Because he’s there playing. He’s playing. He wants to think he’s this big sadhu. Okay, I’m going to show you what sadhu is. These are the ones I would take the danda (staff) out and chase.

Siddhananda: Yeah, yeah, exactly.

G: I’ll show you my danda. Now, here comes the fire.

Siddhananda: Oh, that’s it, exactly.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: He’s like, “Why I wrong? I no wrong. I no wrong. I Rishi. I Rishi. I seer.”

G: Uh huh, sure you are.

Siddhananda: But, he’s hiding his head. He’s shuddering.

G: So, why are you shuddering then? If you’re not wrong then what are you fearing in this? You want to know what Shiva fire is? Now you know.

Siddhananda: He goes, “Because it hot. It burn me.”

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: It’s getting closer to him, too. It’s coming closer to him.

G: It needs to burn you. That’s why you have the fire, the dhuni, to burn to ashes.

Spirit: Don’t let it burn me!

G: All of your drama needs to burn one hundred percent and be rarefied and clean like gold. So you don’t even know the first thing about the path. You are playing a game. No more games.

Siddhananda: You know it’s burning up that imagery of him, actually. Ooh! (making a face)

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: It’s taking it away. It’s coming. Actually it’s burning that image completely away of him and his masquerading.

G: Exactly! Like I said, he’s the type I take the danda out and I chase.

Siddhananda: Oh yeah.

G: I take him to task because you are not a sadhu. You are a beggar!

Siddhananda: That’s the thing.

G: You are disgracing the sadhu clothes.

Siddhananda: That’s the thing.

G: If you are going to be a beggar, be a beggar. But, don’t sit here and play this game.  You can’t fool me.

Siddhananda: No.

G: You come here and say I’m Rishi. I’m Rishi. You’re not a Rishi. My foot! You don’t know the first thing and say you are a Rishi.

Siddhananda: Yeah, no.

G: A Rishi, a seer, is a realized being.

Siddhananda: Right, right.

G:  You are sitting here telling me you are a realized being and you don’t even know the first thing about the beginning of the path.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Oh, no, no, no, no. Uh uh. You are not playing that here. (laughing)

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: We’re going to clear this up immediately.

Siddhananda: Well, he’s burning up. I don’t really see his form like that anymore. So, let’s see what he’s got to say.

G: We’ll take the big danda in there and whack him upside the head. Now you can see what sadhu is.

Spirit: Big Baba Light! Big Baba Light is there!

Siddhananda: I do see a lotus coming [from] where his form was. So, let’s see what he has to say, if anything.

G: Yeah, he wants to be a Rishi, then he’s going to have to pay the price. You’ve got to burn up all the bullshit. You can’t have that bullshit and sit there and talk story and smoke all this bullshit and sit there and ask…

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: No, no, no. That’s not a Rishi. (shaking head)

Siddhananda: Okay, he’s saying, “Please help me. Please help me see.” (laughing) Obviously, if he needs help seeing, he was not a seer.

G: Right, right. So now you want to be a seer, you are claiming to be a seer, now you have the path to become a seer. But it takes burning out all the illusion and the drama.

Spirit: Yes, help me to see. I need to see. I’m blind. I need to see.

G: Right, well, now we’re getting better.

Siddhananda: Well, he’s burning up.

G: Now, we’re getting to honesty.

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly.

G: Honesty is the first step.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: So you want to be a real sadhu? This is the real initiation. (laughing)

Siddhananda: No doubt! Oh boy, is he getting it. He goes, “I was wrong. I need to see.”

G: Yeah.

Spirit: I was wrong.

G: So we’ll bring that in and we’ll also bring in the Kali.

Siddhananda: Oh boy! Okay.

G: He gets the double whack. He gets the big danda today. (laughing)

Siddhananda: Both of them are descending down again, the white and the black Kali. They come in like this (showing her fingers cascading downwards). They float down.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: It’s really cool. They are there as well as Big Baba Light. Oh boy, watch out, huh?

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: They have their sword of knowledge there, kali. The one, the darker Kali, is bending down and cutting things away.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Really, it’s no joke. It’s no joke!

G: It’s no joke. No. It’s no joke. You want to play that life and you want to think you have something? I’m going to show you the truth of it.

Siddhananda: It’s like I see weeds that Kali is cutting, like cutting those weeds.

G: Right. Yeah, all that drama out, all that nonsense. And a lot of these Babas do think they have it.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: They have memorized all this stuff and they can talk a good story, but no.

Siddhananda: Well, right. When he says, “I make light,” that’s just not right.

G: No. He makes light? Yeah, I’m going to show you light.

Siddhananda: Yeah, he doesn’t make light. (laughing)

G: Don’t talk to me about that.

Siddhananda: Yeah, no, wrong person, wrong thing. Well, it could be the best day for him, but we’ll see.

G: It will be his best day.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: But, it’s going to come at a toll. He’s going to find out what a genuine spiritual path is and this is what we go through in a genuine spiritual path.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: You come to me and I’ve walked the path in honesty and sincerity. I’ve done all these things and you come to me with this bullshit?

Siddhananda: Right.

G: No, it’s not going to fly.

Siddhananda: Like you are going to cater to that? Please!

G: Oh no, no. They should know better than come to me like that.

Siddhananda: That’s what’s amazing. I think they just unknowingly come and maybe to get on the right path and the grace if they do turn around. You never know, sometimes they don’t, of course.

G: Yeah, they get the grace. But they should know.

Siddhananda: Really!

G: They should know of my time in Rishikesh. Like I said, they have the one sadhu, every time he would see me, he would run the other direction. “Kali! Kali!” (laughing) He would run the other direction.

Siddhananda: Right! Well, that’s the thing. They would run from you. (laughing)

G: No, I don’t mess around.

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly.

G: This is sadhu life. This is being in that type of tradition, and especially as a woman you have to be doubly strong to be in that type of tradition.

Siddhananda: For sure.

G: If you’re going to come to me and say that you are a sadhu, then you best be a sadhu. You better not be sitting there, being a sadhu masquerading. And being like a fricking beggar.

Siddhananda: Yeah, no.

G: Because I will really take them to task and [it] really is something that is upsetting here that they do that and pass themselves off as a sadhu.

Siddhananda: Absolutely.

G: And playing a game with everybody.

Siddhananda: Absolutely.

G: Yeah.


Siddhananda: Oh boy, and they are getting the lesson here today.

G: Yeah, they will be working on him for a while. So, let’s put him on the middle shelf (in the healing center) and we will check in with him.

Siddhananda: Let him simmer there.

G: Yeah, they are going to be working with him for a while. Big Baba Light will have no problem. (laughing)

Siddhananda: It’s so nice to have good friends, isn’t it?

G: It’s nice to have friends in high places.

Siddhananda: It’s so nice to have good friends in high places. That’s right! Here, five. (raising her palm to the camera for a high five) That’s it.

G: Sadhu? Okay, we’ll call in Big Baba Light.

Siddhananda: Big Baba Light! Hey, no problem. We got him. We got this covered. Big Baba Light. Phew! (fingers like flying away) Watch out!

G: Bring your danda.

Siddhananda: That’s right.

G: Whack some sense into these sadhus.

Siddhananda: He was there waiting. Big Baba Light came like a fire, no problem. Immediately!

G: He’ll straighten them out very quickly. Because it’s the same thing. I’m sure he’s not going to put up with any of that nonsense.

Siddhananda: No, it’s just so pervasive there right now with that kind of energy. It’s just so dishonest.

G: And I don’t know if they even understand they are being dishonest with themselves.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: They’ve got the stories, this and that, and they think that’s it.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: And then they say that they’ve got light and truth that they don’t have, so they come here, they are going to get the reality not the bullshit.

Siddhananda: Right, right. And that must be it, otherwise he wouldn’t have come here, because he really did feel like he has something to say and has something.

G: He really felt he had something.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Like he really had something. But the minute he opened his mouth, from the first word I had that feeling, immediately.

Siddhananda: That energy.

G: When he said, “But what’s wrong with bakshish?” I knew immediately he was one of those types.

Siddhananda: Oh yeah! And even when he said, “I make this light…” I’m like the man is what he’s trying to say.

G: I got the light. I’m here to… yeah, you are? Oh, okay, we’ll see. We’ll see. No problem.

Siddhananda: It’s good. It comes to bring this energy of purification out to that population, which is just so pervasive and so stuck… and then they’ve got the drugs and everything else. They don’t have any clarity at all.

G: No. They think they’ve got the clarity and they think that they’ve got the wisdom and things. They sit there and they have lived... we’ll give them this. They have kept the dhuni faithfully and they have done the outer things.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: But they don’t have the inner truth of it.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: They are all stuck on the outer.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And that’s it.

Siddhananda: And it is a harsh life. Some of them do go through those austerities and things, and it’s harsh.

G: They have done a lot of austerities and that’s one reason that they are smoking that.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Because it is a very hard life…

Siddhananda: Understood.

G: …living out in the elements and doing that.

Siddhananda: Oh yeah.

G: It is very tough. It’s not a joke. It is a very, very tough life. But they don’t have what they think they have and so when they don’t have that that Big Baba Light… they come here and we’ll show you what the dhuni is really all about, what those fires of purification are.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And so we’ll let them experience the real deal.

Siddhananda: For sure. No, it’s awesome.

G: They paid some dues, so let’s let them get that chance.

Siddhananda: Yeah, yeah. No. And just that he came here. Okay, you came here, so we’re going to follow with this.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: It’s good. It’s good that this is coming out. I knew when I even picked up that one, it was looking at me. (laughing) Buckle your seatbelt. So, anyway, okay!

G: Another wild card linga.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: You never know what you are going to get when you have the linga there.

Siddhananda: No.

G: It’s usually some sort of a ride “Ooh!” (waving her hands up)

Siddhananda:  It is.

G: No one knows.

Siddhananda: It’s a ride it takes you on. So, we’ll let them simmer over there. They are on simmer. Maybe not simmer, maybe they are on hot. I don’t think they are on simmer. They are on hot.

G: They are on hot.

Siddhananda: They are on high. (laughing)

G: They are going to become that dhuni.

Siddhananda: Riiuup! (making a noise like turning the sound up)

G: Exactly! That’s what it is. They are supposed to be burning that up. They are supposed to become that dhuni.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: They are that light.

Siddhananda: They are the sacrifice, that ego. Yeah.

G: Exactly. Now he’s going to find what that fire actually is.

Siddhananda: And that’s exactly what was happening is that image of him was being consumed in that fire.

G: Exactly! And then you become that sacred ash.

Siddhananda: Yeah, yeah.

G: You become that sacred ash.

Siddhananda: That’s exactly what was happening with that one. Big Baba Light came in. It came closer, then the flames were licking him.

G: Exactly. 

Siddhananda: And then it just consumed him.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: It did show that lotus at the end, but he’s not there yet. But just that’s where it’s going, to that purity.

G: Exactly. Those are the ashes you wear. You wear those ashes.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: You burn that up and that’s the ash that you wear.

Siddhananda: Sure.

G: They cover your body with that ash.

Siddhananda: Right. Yeah.

G: That’s exactly what that’s representing. They don’t get it. The ashes of Shiva, you cover your body in ash.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And that’s exactly what that is to burn that form, to burn that.

Siddhananda: And they wear that, yeah.

G: You want the full sadhu experience? Here you have it.

Siddhananda: Ooh boy, there it is. It is on high, so we’ll let them boil for a while, not simmer. (laughing).

G: Thank you Big Baba Light! (laughing)

Siddhananda: Big Baba Light, thank you! Our friend. (laughing) Good friend. He’s a good one to have for a friend. We’ve got like I say a lot of good friends these days.

G: Yeah, when Sundir Puri comes back in some drug induced state, we’ll send Big Baba Light over and he will continue to work with him.

Siddhananda: When you said that, I still saw him and his eyes were all still blood shotty. He heard you, “Whirr!” (making a sound like spinning around). And then back again.

G: Yeah, when I call his name, he hears me.

Siddhananda: Yeah, he hears you.

G: It’s going to be a little while before…

Siddhananda: Yeah. Man, he was toxic that one. He had some haze of smoke.

G: Well, that’s how he died, in the midst of that.

Siddhananda: Yeah. I know.

G: In the midst of that. That day he was taking full on charas. It wasn’t cut with anything, so, yeah, and that’s what killed him. So it will take a while before that toxicity is out of there enough [so that] he can be worked with really.

Siddhananda: Right, and again another lesson that these things do carry on, drugs and all these things, it carries forward. If you got a chance now to get off that stuff, do it.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: That’s all.

G: Right.

True Rishi

Siddhananda: Okay, our first one that we're going to check in [with] has been on the second shelf.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: And i believe this was the Sadhu that was helping, or the one that came in the linga, i don't know. we'll find out.

G: Okay. 

Siddhananda: (pause). Okay, i'm hearing "clearing, clearing".

G: Okay. 

Siddhananda: "Getting help, thank you for the help."

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: Wasn't that the one that Baba Light was helping too?

G: i think this is the one, but, maybe we'll have to ask. (Addressing the spirit) was Baba Light helping you? the one that came with the fire?

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, i'm seeing that fire. So, that's a way to confirm that.

G: Yeah. That was the one that came in, the one that knew everything.

Siddhananda: That's it. And that's exactly what i'm feeling.

G: (laughing).

Siddhananda: (laughing). i don't know what they know now. But, we'll find out.

G: We'll find out what they know now, compared to what they thought they knew when they came in, that they were going to let me know how intelligent and how all-knowing they were. (laughing).

Siddhananda: That's what that was. (smiling).

G: So, we'll check in now. 

Siddhananda: (pause) So, [i'm hearing] "clearing, clearing".

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: "hard clearing", they're saying.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: So, let's see what else they have to say today. (chuckling).

G: Yeah, how is your knowledge compared to what it was?

Siddhananda: (pause). "i go through hard things now, this is hard!". Oh, they were the rishi, rishi-sadhu, great seer.

G: Yeah, that's exactly [right]. They were the great seer, rishi, sadhu.

Siddhananda: That's right. [They were saying] "i make light".

G: ..and i make light. This is the rishi sadhu that came in and was going to let me know how much he knows. Typical Rishikesh [sadhu].

Siddhananda: That's what this one was. Oh, and the baksheesh, you were mentioning.

G: Yeah. 

Siddhananda: "No more baksheesh", they're saying. (laughing).

G: (laughing).

Siddhananda: "No more putting my hand out for baksheesh. Not good."

G: Right, that's not good. 

Siddhananda: Let's see if there's anything else.

G: So, what have you learned about the dhuni and the ashes?

Siddhananda: What i'm hearing is that, this is just their feeling, that this is the beginning of their Path versus..

G: ..versus when they thought they were at the end. Whereas now they have just really begun to do their journey. So, now that Big Baba light can help to open kundalini so that they can actually become the dhuni and they can do the path they should have been doing. Yes, absolutely.

Siddhananda: Yeah, they're saying this cuts away that darkness, that feeling that you know or you have some knowledge of anything, really. And that this is just hard, this is a hard cutting, burning, like the dhuni. i do see that dhuni and they are bowing to it. It's big, it's bright, like the Baba Light, and they're bowing to it like an honoring of it.

G: Right. And this dhuni that's burning is representative of what needs to take place inside of you. You must become that dhuni, and those ashes that you cover yourself with are what the ego burns down to. So, then you become Shiva. You become That which you are honoring now. You must become That.

Siddhananda: (pause). They're getting quieter with your pointings. So, i'm not sure where you want this one to..

G: i think we're going to just keep him. He's going to be doing his path for a while. We can go ahead and leave him up there and check in a while. He's going to be doing this for awhile.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Let's ask if he knows if he'll be coming back into form anytime soon.

Siddhananda: (pause). He says he doesn't know.

G: Yeah, he may, he may not. It's not necessary that they come back. [It's] quicker, if you can, but, it's also much more intense, much more difficult. 

Siddhananda: hmm hmm.

G: So, at that, Namaste, thank you for coming.

Siddhananda: (gesturing namaste).

G: We just wish you to continue well on your journey. So, we'll put you over there so that you can continue to do your practices. 

Siddhananda: (placing them on the shelf).

G: Yeah, i just want to see these ones actually making some progress. They think that they have gathered all these knowledge about something, it's the same thing as you read lot of books and you think you have knowledge, but you really don't have anything until you begin to find it within. 

Siddhananda: Sure.

G: And that's what they have to find. It's not external thing of i can do this ceremony and that ceremony. They'll have to find out that the ceremony is themselves. So, we want to see them actually begin the journey. 

Siddhananda: hmm hmm. It sounds like that's happened for that one.

G: Yeah, he's starting the journey now. He's got some good background foundation, but, if he can understand now that that is what you become, that's not external to you but it is what you are internally at the end point.

Siddhananda: hmm hmm. Totally different focal point.

G: Totally different focal point from where he was at, yes. But, like i said, this is what you find in Rishikesh. This is why i had such a difficult time while i was there. You find lot of the babas that think they know something, and, they're very patriarchal. They don't want to hear anything from a woman. They think they know it all. But, most of them haven't even really begun their journey in earnest. 

Siddhananda: Sure. That's an issue, especially when they're doing things that are dishonoring of the robes they're wearing.

G: Well, exactly! This is why i would be so angry and i'd take the danda (stick) and i'd chase them! i'd literally chase them! Because the people that come to India are thinking these are all holy men. 

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And they're really abusing it. They're not doing the practices like they should be and they're playing a game with themselves and with the tourists, and taking the tourists for a ride because they don't know. 

Siddhananda: Sure.

G: They don't know really what it takes to do the internal path. They're just see these externals, what these guys are wearing. They tell a good story, they live outside. Yes, it's a tough life. But, you have to really do the journey. 

Siddhananda: hmm hmm.

G: Like i said, while i was there, i did see a few that were really honest-to-goodness sadhus. And when i saw them i did honor them by leaving some money for them. You do leave some baksheesh, but, it's not when they're coming over and saying "baksheesh, baksheesh." You tell them you're a beggar, you're not a sadhu, get away from me.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Go become a beggar and take off the sadhu clothes, don't disgrace them. Either that or do the practices like they're supposed to be done.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Because while i was there, i would do practices. i'd sit by the banks of the Ganges, in Haridwar, and people would see me that i was genuinely in practices and they would leave little offerings of some little fruit or couple of rupees here and there. But, they could see that you are really doing the journey and they would honor that.

Siddhananda: Makes sense.

G: Yeah, absolutely.

Siddhananda: That's good that that's coming forward out of this and it's turning around there.

G: Yeah, i want to see it again become another place of the rishis, those that are the knowers. But, right now, it's not that and it needs to turn around. 

Siddhananda: Yeah, true rishis.

G: True rishis. True knowers. That they have a good foundation. This is not to say that they're not doing it sincerely. I'm sure a lot of them think they are doing it sincerely. And they think they do have something. But, they don't know the difference. That's the problem. 

Siddhananda: Yeah. i think that is, in a lot of ways, especially when it's the general climate of things, all have that mindset.

G: They're caught up in the externals and think the externals are it. And they put so much attention on the externals, knowing the stories, doing the 'bam bam bole nath..'.. But, they've got to find the internal of that and surrender to that. 

Great Baba Light

Siddhananda: (Showing a small clear stone). (pause). Okay, with this one, i don't know where i am getting this from, but, i am hearing "great Baba light."

G: Great Baba light, okay.

Siddhananda: "Great Baba light of love. Baba presence. Baba blessings."

G: (nodding).

Siddhananda: "No birth, no death. Great Baba."

G: Good. Okay. Which one was that?

Siddhananda: This is the clear one (showing the stone again). i don't remember [who is in it]. (laughing).

G: Yeah, i don't know who that one is. 

Siddhananda: And i am seeing some of the babas there. So, let's see.. (pause). "Great Baba light, Great Baba fire, like a dhuni." That's what they're saying.

G: Yeah. Burn like the dhuni, the light. Right.

Siddhananda: hmm hmm. "Dhuni, dhuni fire."

G: Yeah, it is like coming to the Shiva presence to find out really what it is and what it's not. Yeah, exactly.

Siddhananda: Wow, i see a really nice fire. i do see some other babas around it. Maybe, it's also trying to help that energy.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: i think that's it. i think he's trying to send that to that population, to get that burning going.

G: Yeah, to get what that really entails. So many are caught up with the externals, they don't get the full realization of what it is. 

Siddhananda: That's it! And i do see those babas, how they live there and so many are not focused on the true journey, the true path.

G: It's true.

Siddhananda: And this light is so bright! He wants to spark their passion to move forward in the right direction.

G: (nodding). Right. Less drugs, let's do it the right way.

Siddhananda: Right. So, he's just saying let this dhuni fire burn bright like Shiva to burn away impurities. And it's growing higher and those babas are little bit [like] "woah, where did that come from? that really grew big!"

G: Yeah. 

Siddhananda: They stopped whatever they were doing, with the ganja and everything, (laughing) and they go "wow! what's happening here?"

G: Yeah. They need a wake up call. 

Siddhananda: Yeah. It's growing taller and taller, and he's saying "Great Baba light, burning tall, burning bright. burn away the bad stuff, burn away the wrong."

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: So, he's working on that, this one, and it's growing.

G: Good. Fabulous.

Siddhananda: So, let him move on and continue with that, huh?

G: Yeah, he can move on. If he wants to visit the healing center on occasion, that would be excellent. We might have to call him in if we get anymore babas. (laughing).

Siddhananda: Yeah, because as i'm holding this rock and shut my eyes, i can see a fire coming from it, that dhuni fire that's really bright and strong and purifying.

G: He's great baba light (smiling).

Siddhananda: He's great baba light (laughing).

G: We'll ask him if great baba light would come back if we have any other sadhus that need some help. 

Siddhananda: (pause). "Yes, yes, yes!" he's bowing, "yes, yes, yes." He heard you.

G: Maybe, he can go visit Sundarpudi (referring to a baba that was a previous acquaintance of G), and wake him up from his drug-induced stuff. 

Siddhananda: (pause). He heard you and he will give his best shot with that. (laughing). He did hear you. He knows, he knows.

G: (smiling). 

Siddhananda: Great baba light! (laughing) Thank you, great baba light. (hand on heart).

G: (hand on heart). Baba light was fun this morning.

Siddhananda: Really fun! You just don't know that's going to happen.

The Sadhvi

Siddhananda: This one is a woman Sadhvi.

G: A Sadhvi, mmm ... (nodding intently).

Siddhananda: A Sadhvi. I can see her toothless. She's quite weather-beaten.

G: Yeah, it's a tough life.

Siddhananda: Yeah. She has grayer hair, but she's younger than she looks. She has something in her hand.

G: Trishul?

Siddhananda: Mm huh ...

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: She's lived the Sadhvi life. She's a gritty woman (laughing). She's a ... jeez, man,  don't mess with her.

G: Yeah, to be a Sadhvi, you have to be a very strong woman to work and be able to endure in that lifestyle. It's very, very hard ... very hard on the form.

Siddhananda: Yeah, she's lived mostly outside, or near rocks ... caves.

G: Yeah, exactly. Most Sadhvis have to stay awake at night, and they sleep during the day.

Siddhananda: Hmm ... she says, "very little sleep."

G: Yeah, exactly. It's very dangerous for Sadhvi women. Yeah, I know ...  I understand.

Siddhananda: She is in form. She's traveled here psychically.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: They're in some kind of Indian ... caves, you know ... remote.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: She's heard of us, and she has knowledge ... if she can help. It sounds like she's maybe not fully enlightened, but she's lived very traditionally, and if there's anything she can do to help ... that's all.

Sadhvi: I [have done] a lot of austerities ... eating very little ...

G: Mm Hmm ... keeping the Dhuni going.

Sadhvi: Oh, yes ... oh, yes!

Siddhananda: She lit up with that, and I can see that burning fire.

G: Yes. Yeah, because that's very, very important, in that you don't get very much sleep, because if you are alone, you have to keep that fire burning. That fire is representative of Shiva and burning away all of the dross, etcetera, etcetera.

Siddhananda: Yes! She's getting excited from you saying that, and that you understand, ...  and also, um ... (the overhead lights flicker and shut off)  ... interesting (laughing)!

G: Oh, that was interesting! The ... uh ... I think the power might have gone out.

Siddhananda: Interesting ... oh, well, hopefully we're still moving here ... but, um ... (taking in a deep inhalation, then sitting back, silent) ... (long pause) ... mm ...

G:  ... (long pause, sitting silently) ... Did we lose connection with her?

Siddhananda: No, there's just a deep stillness ... all pervading.

G:  There's a stillness ...  (the lights flicker back on) ... oh, okay.

Siddhananda:  (inhaling deeply) ... okay, now I can speak.

G: (chuckling)

Siddhananda: There was ...  I ... I just ... I couldn't speak ... it was just still.

G: We had stilling. Now we can [talk].

Siddhananda:  Now I can speak! It's like the energy is back to speak! Really!

G: (laughing with Siddhananda) That was interesting! The whole thing just ... we blew out the energy here into so much stillness that everything stilled, even the lights (laughing).

Siddhananda: Me, too! I honestly lost the energy to speak, and it was so still. So, now, it's coming back, ...  but there is ... yeah, okay ... so, I'm getting this connection back, again (pausing). Oh, she was saying, also, she needs to stay awake as a protector of herself.

G: Right, exactly.

Siddhananda: It's very ... I just see her club, ... she's gonna beat 'em off ... I mean ...

G: Yeah, no ... exactly. Yeah, that's what I mean, you don't get much sleep, because you are alone, and the men are not respectful of it. It's very dangerous to be a Sadhvi.

Siddhananda: She's getting very excited by this, and saying that she's happy to ...

Sadhvi: This is a life that so few even realize and know is out there. We are the keepers of faith.

G: Right. Are you the one that uses the staff, does the mantras, and infuses the lingas ... going into the town?

Siddhananda: She's getting excited about that.

G: Yeah, yeah.

Siddhananda: She's saying, it's not always her, but she knows that happens.

G: Yes, there are some that do the mantras, and they infuse it in. They go into the city, like once a year, and touch the linga and imbue it with life.

Siddhananda:  I see a fire now. It's her way of saying, "That's the fire. That's the creative spark, and without our sacrifice and austerity, people don't realize, that's where the fire of the heart is."

G: Exactly, exactly. They're what keeps the lingas activated in the temples, but most of the general populous doesn't know that. They think it's through the Brahmans, the ones that are doing the things in the temple, but it's not.

Sadhvi: Yes! She's right.

G: It's through the Sadhus. It's through the Sadhus that are doing the austerities.

Sadhvi: She's right. She's right, yes!

Siddhananda: I do see a big picture of a Brahman man. He's stuck in his ego.

Sadhvi: No, that's not right. That's not the way.

G: Exactly. They're not a Brahman.

Sadhvi: Yes.

G: They're not a knower of Brahman. They are not a Brahman.

Siddhananda: She doesn't feel like she wants to ask anything of you. She just wants to let you know that she's here, and wanted to speak for this beautiful tradition that has been soiled and know that there are some out there that are very [genuine].

G: There are some genuine [Sadhus]. I have run into a couple of genuine ones that I saw. When I was in Rishikesh, 99% of them were not genuine, but I did see a couple of genuine Sadhus that got up in the morning. They didn't ask for anything, they went in, and they did their mantras. They went out into the Ganges. They did everything they were supposed to do.

Siddhananda: She's getting excited. She's saying, "that's right."

G: Those are the ones you leave a donation for, and you say nothing to. They are not out there ... (extending her hand out like a beggar) ... bakshish, bakshish ... asking for anything.

Siddhananda: uh huh ... she's getting excited.

Sadhvi: That's right, and that's been me.

G: They were true Sadhus, yeah.

Sadhvi: That's been me, I feel.  I don't feel like I am female. I have walked that life like just a regular Sadhu, but you can call me a Sadhvi or Sadhu. But, I really had to defend myself in my path.

G: Exactly, exactly. I understand. There are very, very few genuine Sadhvis and Sadhus out there.

Siddhananda: I am getting an image of  ...  it's female, but  then it's kind of a male-female blending. So, she is saying, ...

G: Yeah , ardhanarishvara.

Siddhananda: Yeah, that is ardhanarishvara. That's what her heart is, that blending, and even though her body is female ...

Sadhvi:  ... why are people hurting me? Because I'm not ... I am not that.

G: Right, I'm not that form. I'm not that body.  I am that spirit.

Siddhananda: Yeah, she's getting excited. She's getting excited.

G: I am that ardhanarishvara. I am that. Yeah, I understand.

Sadhvi: And, that fire burns in all hearts.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: Why do you hurt me because I'm female?

G: Right, right ... well, there's a lot of ignorance still on the earth. That's all I can say (chuckling).

Siddhananda: Yeah, she knows.

G: It's just a lot of ignorance.

Siddhananda: She'll just continue with this tradition because it's where she's at and where her body is.

G: Perfect.

Siddhananda: She wanted to just tell you that she knows of this work. She's glad that there are others out there that walk in the ordinary society that are lights like this, because we need it everywhere. We're the same.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: So, she's saying, "We're the same, though. We're the same."

G: There's only single ... there's only one Brahman. It doesn't matter (gesturing to indicate all appearances in the mundane world).

Siddhananda: Yes, yes, she's getting very excited. She says, thank you with her staff, with her love, with her lingam and the unborn beauty.

G: Thank you and Namaste (gesturing namaste).

Siddhananda: Namaste (gesturing namaste).

G: Yes, there are a few Sadhvis that are doing the traditions, that are locked away. They're not doing so much of the hashish, the very strong [stuff].  

Siddhananda: People don't know, but, that's the reality. Thank goodness they are out there and doing their [work].

G: Yes, there are some genuine [ones], but, very very few.

Siddhananda: That's a hard life, and they're doing it to keep that flame going.

G: It is a very hard life. It's a lot of surrender and a lot of sacrifice, a lot of austerity. So, you really learn the hard way.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: Really, really have to learn the hard way.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: Yeah, challenging the ego with [this].

Great Baba Light

Siddhananda:  (showing a transparent rock shaped like a heart) I don’ t know where I am getting this, but I am hearing, "great Baba light."

G:  Great Baba light. Okay.

Spirit:  Great baba light of love. Baba presence. Baba blessings. No birth ... no death. Great baba.

G:  Good, okay. Which one was that?

Siddhananda:  This was a little clear one. I don't know. I don’t remember. I‘m sure we had some ... I don't know (laughing lightly as she shrugs her shoulders).

G:  I don’t know who that one is.

Siddhananda:  I'm seeing some of the babas there. I don’t know, let's see.

Spirit:  Great baba light ... great baba fire like a dhuni.

G:  Yeah, burn like the dhuni ... like the light (nodding her head and smiling).

Spirit:   Dhuni fire!

G:  That's what that is, becoming that Shiva presence to find out what it really is and is not. Yeah, exactly.

Siddhananda:  Wow ... I see a really nice fire! I do see some other babas around him. Maybe he is trying to help that energy ... the baba energy. Yeah, I think that’s it.  I think he’s trying to send that to that population to get that burning going ... a true effort to get that fire burning.

G:  Yes, to give what that really entails. So many of them are caught up in the externals, and they don’t get the full realization of what it is.

Siddhananda:  That's it. I do see how those babas live there ... so many are not focused on the true journey, the true path.

G:  Yes, it's true.

Siddhananda:  This light is so bright. He  wants to spark their passion to move forward in the right direction

G:  Right! Less drugs ... let's do it the right way (nodding the head with big yeses).

Spirit: Dhuni fire burn bright like Shiva to burn away impurities (seeing a fire growing higher)

Siddhananda:  Those babas are a little bit like ... Whoa! (leaning back with big eyes) ... where did that come from? That fire really grew up ... grew big. They stopped whatever they were doing with their Ganja and all that (chuckling) and are kind of ... Wooow! ... what's happening here (leaning back again with an expression of startled surprise)!

G:   Yeah, they need a wake-up call ... they need to wake up (raising her eyebrows with a slight smile and giving one decisive nod of yes).

Spirit: (the fire is growing taller and taller) Great Baba light, burning tall, burning bright, burn away the bad stuff. Burn away the wrong.

Siddhananda:  Yeah, so he's working on that , this one , and it’s growing (speaking emphatically).

G:  Good. Fabulous.

Siddhananda:  So, let him move on and continue with that, huh?

G:  Yeah, he can move on, and if he wants to visit the healing center on occasion, that would be excellent.  We might have to call him in if we get any more babas (laughing).

Siddhananda:  Yeah, because as I'm holding this rock and shut my eyes, I see a fire coming from it (sweeping her hand upwards to indicate fire flaming up) ... that dhuni fire that's really bright, and strong and purifying (opening her eyes wide and pursing her lips slightly).

G:  So, for now on, he's Great Baba Light.

Siddhananda:  He’s a Great Baba Light (laughing) ... he's Great Baba Light (smiling and placing her hand over her heart).

G:  Ask Great Baba Light if he will come back if we have any more sadhus that need some help?

Great Baba Light: Yes, yes, yeees (speaking with an Indian accent, deep voice and bowing)! Yes, yes, yes. He hears G.

G:  Maybe he can go visit Sundar Puri and wake him out of his drug induced stuff?

Siddhananda:  He heard you and he will give it his best shot. He did hear you and yes, he knows ... he knows.  Great Baba Light! Thank you Great Baba Light (placing hand over the heart and bowing slightly).

G:  Great Baba Light (placing her hand over her heart and smiling).

Siddhananda:  Great Baba Light (leaning forward with laughter).

G:  Great Baba Light was really fun this morning.

Siddhananda:  Really, fun! I just don't know what's ever gonna happen. That was really fun. Great Baba Light (chortling) ... I love the name (smiling and rocking from side to side).

G:  Yeah, Great Baba Light ... that's good (smiling big). I can see that dhuni (sweeping both hands upward to indicate flames shooting up) and them finally getting the import of the dhuni ... how it needs to burn within, too. It needs to burn those impurities.

Siddhananda:  That's right, exactly, yeah. It's just going to keep growing until you notice it.

G: Yeah, it's not giving up easily (laughing)..

Siddhananda: (laughing) Yeah, that was great.