Walking in Stillness

Siddhananda: (showing a clear stone) Pretty with the clear and the lavender around the edges there.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: (pause with closed eyes) From this, i see some nice bright lavender roses appearing.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: And looks like more hills in the background.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: (asking the spirit) What messages or questions do you have for us today? (long pause)

Spirit: "When i walk with stillness, life is true."

G: (nodding)

Spirit: "When i walk in suffering, that gets clouded."

G: (nodding)

Siddhananda: So, with this soul, they are in and out of that reality of stillness and then back into mind.

G: hmm hmm. 

Spirit: i seek the way to that refreshment, that garden, a straight course.

G: Right. So, yeah, when you go back into the suffering mind then you see with all the filters in place. It's like putting on a pair of glasses with grey in it. That's what you're viewing, that's what you're focused on. So, we'll go ahead and let them have the "Om That I Am", the "I Am That I Am", and the COS. And just to work on staying in that stillness, taking time, letting things unfold, and when you see you're starting to go back into that pattern, pull yourself back out. 

Siddhananda: That's really all that can be done (hand on heart).

G: And use the practices and they will help with that. Namaste (gesturing namaste).

Siddhananda: Yeah, they have some tools now, as well, which is a good thing.

G: Yes. 

Searching for mind

Siddhananda: (Showing a small yellow translucent stone) Okay, i see that little stone, yellow right.

G: Yep.

Siddhananda: Yeah, yellow, little thing there. It's got a nice white circular aura around it.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: And, (long pause) Okay, they're saying they misplaced their mind somewhere. They can't find their mind.

G: (laughing).

Siddhananda: (laughing) It's like you misplace your hat or something.

G: I just left it somewhere. I don't know where i left it.

Siddhananda: Looking for it again, this energy can't find his mind, his/her.

G: Well, that could be a good thing and not a good thing. It depends on which way it is. So, we'll find out a little bit more on this. (laughing)

Siddhananda: He's saying, i must have left it somewhere. (laughing) He can't remember.

G: Maybe like the guy who left his heart in San Francisco.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: I don't know (laughing)

Siddhananda: Let's see if it's a good thing.

G: Maybe he left his mind in Cucamonga or something.

Siddhananda: There you go!

G: I don't know.

Siddhananda: There you go. Who knows where.

G: (laughing)

Siddhananda: (pause) They're saying it is and isn't a good thing. They feel a little (moving body circles to indicate being disorientated). what's happening here!

G: A little.

Siddhananda: And, they are looking for that mind.

G: Why would you want the mind back?

Spirit: Because i know it. I know what it is.

G: Yeah, because you know it. Okay. Well, if you actually knew it, you know it's just full of illusion.

Siddhananda: Maybe they want something more familiar.

G: So Why would you want illusion back?

Spirit: It's just isn't it. i just felt like it was what i am.

G: Aha.

Spirit: [The mind] told me who i am and what was right and wrong and who i wasn't. I don't know myself without it.

G: Yeah. So, again, you can question, "what is this I?" (pause) Don't be so quick to take back mind. (pause) with attachment to form and of these other things that you have done and think that it's you. It's not you. So, you have a very good opportunity to now question what is this I?

Spirit: What is this I?

G: Aha. Find out what you are and more importantly what you're not.

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay. So, they're going to stay with that right now.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Thank you (hand on heart center).

G: Namaste (gesturing namaste) So, you may come back if you wish. I'm not going to put him over here to process. He can be where ever he wishes and if you want to come back and give us a progress report, we would be happy to hear it.

Siddhananda: Sounds good.

G: Thank you.

Siddhananda: Spend time on that instead of looking for the mind.

G: I left my mind in Cucamonga. (laughing)

Siddhananda: I'm seeking, trying to find it everywhere. I'm looking under the bed, i'm looking. (laughing).

G: Leave that thing alone (referring to the mind).

Siddhananda: Really, really.

G: (laughing).

Siddhananda: Take it back, you got the whole business back. So, everything that comes with it.

G: I'm sure there's a lot of people on this path that wish that they could lose the thing.

Siddhananda: Really, really.

Dragged Around by Mind

Siddhananda: (Showing a small grey stone). So, there's that one. And, (counting the remaining stones) we have thirteen after this one (smiling).

G: Thirteen more? (smiling).

Siddhananda: Thirteen more. We don't have to do them all now. We have one more day this week. Whenever you want to quit Guruji, just let me know. (smiling).

G: Yeah. (smiling).

Siddhananda: So, let's see, with this one. (long pause). Okay, they're saying "I let my thoughts rule me and over-shine God."

G: (nodding).

Siddhananda: Yeah, so. That happens (laughing). What can we say, that's what happens!

G: Exactly (nodding).

Siddhananda: [They're saying] "I let my thoughts be the conductor of things, the one that tells me the way to go, this way or that way, don't do this or do this, that's right and that's wrong.."

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: (pause). So, they want to go to the clear waters now, because that was really exhausting being ran around by mind.

G: Yeah!

Siddhananda: Like they have the mind dragging you by the nose and leading you around. (gesturing with hand holding the nose and pulling).

G: Right. It drags you like the bull by the nose, it drags you around.

Siddhananda: And they're exhausted. They want to tame that animal, tame the beast.

G: Yeah. If they want, they can have the COS. Do the 'Om That I Am', the 'I Am That I Am' and the COS.

Siddhananda: Okay. (pause). So, we will let them do that. They've got to start somewhere and that's the best thing right now. So, thank you. (hand on heart).

G: Yeah.

Web of Mind

Siddhananda: We’ll start with this one. (showing a rock)

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: Okay. I’m seeing the rock reflected in my mind and some different shades of light and different things coming off of it. A little bit of darkness, too, but we’ll see. Okay, he’s just saying I want to be led to God.

G: Okay, that’s a good place to be.

Siddhananda: Okay, I can see a net, like a web or something, reflected in this stone.

G: He’s getting caught where? What’s his sticking point?

Siddhananda: That’s the thing. It’s a web of mind he’s in.

G: Yeah, a sticking point and all that stuff going on. So if it’s a mental thing, then I would say the COS.

Siddhananda: Okay.

G: COS and the “Om That I Am,” the “I Am That I Am.” And just to continue to be in the moment. Be quiet and be more still. Allow those things to take into effect and slow the mind. And still it and calm it.

Siddhananda: Okay, so that’s being transmitted to him and we’ll just move forward now. So, thank you!

G: Thank you!

Dissolving the Ego

Siddhananda:  Next one (closing her eyes). Right away, I'm hearing, "rambling mind."

G:  Raambling mind ... uh huh.

Siddhananda:  I do see an image of that ego that's being stepped on, like with Shiva Nataraja, where he's stepping on that little ego, and then there's that life cycle (gesturing to indicate the ring that encircles the form of Nataraja). So, I'm seeing that image and I think it's being reflected back [to say] that that's really like that. The ego is really a nuisance for them. Ego is a nuisance, but it's really a rambling thing for this particular energy. It's that way for a lot of people, actually.

G:  Yeah.

Siddhananda:  They would like that to be suppressed, or [go] in the background, or to be dissolved, however that works.

G:  It's not about suppressing it. It's about seeing through it and dissolving it ... seeing the fallacy of it.

Siddhananda:  When you say that, he is seeing that when [he] holds it back it gets worse.

G:  Yeah (nodding), right.

Siddhananda:  If he goes like this ... (gesturing as if pushing something away), then it [rises] up more, and that's very exhausting with this suppression, though.

G:  Right. Suppression doesn't work. You can't suppress because [then] you're giving it more energy.

Siddhananda:  Yes, that's exactly what he's experiencing.

G:  Yeah, then you're feeding it, giving it too much substance.

Siddhananda:  Right, giving it more energy (nodding). So, he's saying, "Okay, there's suppression. Is the other way looking with awareness, with pure awareness?"

G:  You're aware of it, and then you see the fallacy of it, yeah (nodding). You see that it's not a solid thing. It's only as solid as you make it.

Siddhananda:  I can see some light shine on this energy. It's definitely got some sunlight coming into it.

G:  Mm hmm, yeah.

Siddhananda:  I think it's been an exhausting battle.

G:  Yeah, yeah, yeah, and it's a battle you won't win by trying to battle it that way (laughing). So, one has to [watch it] more. By watching the ego, all its drama and its stories, you see the fallacy of them. You see how much [of it] you've taken to heart. Eventually, you see it as nothing more than a movie playing on a screen.

Siddhananda:  (pausing with eyes closed)

G:  It's just another dream state ... not solid in nature.

Siddhananda:  Yeah, there's a lighter energy. There's not that struggle so much. So, that's great. Maybe, the COS, is that okay?

G:  Yeah, he can also do the COS. That would benefit him.

Siddhananda:  He's very grateful, very grateful, to have something else, another energy, to help with this.

G:  He just needs to shift that energy and stop fighting it, stop suppressing it, but to see into it and question it on the deepest level. Then, that will dissipate. That will clear up the erroneous assumptions about it.

Siddhananda:  It's a different way.

G:  (nodding) A different way to do it, yes (chuckling).

Siddhananda:  One is beneficial, helps flush it out, and the other makes it stronger.

G:  ... just makes it stronger, yeah.

Shatter My Ego

Siddhananda: Next, we got a pretty heart. (showing a clear heart-shaped stone) So, that was nice. Right away, I'm hearing "Satan rules."

G: Oh really!

Siddhananda: (laughter) (makes a facial grimace) Yeah.

G: We in the ego, ha? Little bit in the ego?

Siddhananda: Shatter my ego, he's asking.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: This energy...

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: Shatter my ego...

G: Right, Satan doesn't rule. Satan may rule your mind and Satan is nothing more than that mental spin that's gone off in and away from the light. It has no substance.

Siddhananda: So, I'm hearing some of that energy dissipate, like kind of just Satan.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: Like, it's drifting as you're speaking.

G: Yeah, yeah, it has no light within it... and without light it has really no substance…. it's a shadow.

Siddhananda: As I'm feeling this, I think with this energy it was saying they were in a really dark place, I feel.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: ...because I'm seeing the shattering and some light bursting through.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Almost like in a pleading way, like... (places her hand on the heart)

G: So, so yeah, they came for help.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: They came for help.

Siddhananda: There you go.

G: And they don't know... but, at this time, we really need to have Christ to come in and shatter that, you know, get behind me Satan, and you need to say within yourself, get behind me Satan, that I'm not going to go into those temptations and those things that have ruled my life. I'm ready to lay those things down and find the truth of God and the light of God. because he said he would bow to the light of God. So, now is your chance to bow to the light of God. May Christ come in and show him that
Christ energy and that light... and that acceptance and the fallacy of Satan.

(Long pause)...

So, while you're waiting then, we'll go ahead and... Satan was originally, if  people remember and maybe some here don't know, so I'll just say it briefly. Satan was one of the heavenly angels and was there at the head of the music... and he fell... he fell because he went into ego and he wanted all the glory to himself, he did not wanna give any glory to God, and so that's what created what's known as Satan. But, originally Satan came from Light, and again his skewed mentality took him away from that Light and into ego...

Siddhananda: Ok.

G: ...And that separation, that feeling of separation. Yeah, so that's what the allegory of what Satan is, it's that mental mind spin that makes you feel as if you are separated from God, but you can never be separated from God. And to come back into that harmony with God all you have to do is to let go of that and understand that you are a child of God.

Siddhananda: ...And again thankfully that image of Christ is there, and there’s mercy there. And that Light is being thrown on this energy that is at Christ's feet.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda:  And again, this is Grace...

G: Right.

Siddhananda: ...with this kind of thing, but to see this darkness dissipate so quickly, you can see that it does not have any reality to hold.

G: It has no hold, or reality. If it were as people thought, they wouldn't be able to get out of it, but it's not.

Siddhananda: Exactly, it wouldn't shift.

G: It's not. It’s the mental spin is what it is and ego. Satanists are all about ego... Just doing whatever they want and thinking they're supreme.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And their ego can do whatever they want.

Siddhananda: Their will over the divine will, kind of thing.

G: Their will, their will, and exactly... that's exactly what Satan is.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Yeah, it's very... it's the height of egotistical.

Siddhananda: The height, and that's a good way to put it because there are... there's ego and there's the height... it is a whole...

G: The height of ego which is just...

Siddhananda: ...another spectrum of it.

G: Yeah, those on the path to God say "not my will but thine be done" and they (Satanists) say "it's only my will."

Siddhananda: There you go and that's the absolute difference.

G: There's an absolute difference.

Siddhananda: They're the center of the universes.

G: Yeah, they're the center... they think they're the center of the universe. (laughter)

Siddhananda: Think they are, think they are... and again it's an energy because it hasn't any substance.

G: It's an energy, exactly, it's an energy, and, once you understand those energies you see that has no substance… it has been pulled away from the Light which gives it meaning. So if you're within that light that gave this meaning and gives it life then which is stronger - the illusion or the Light? 

Siddhananda: The source. (smiling)

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Come on.

G: The light, the light is always stronger than the illusion.

Siddhananda: It wins out.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: You gotta open your heart, too, and… This one I think was just suffering badly.

G: Yeah, I got... I'm sure he was being driven and and did not do great things in life and said he must be under the control of Satan.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And he thought he could not get out.

Siddhananda: Yeah, mistaken.

G: Mistaken idea.

Siddhananda: Notion, yeah.

G: And so, he kept himself basically in a hell realm for no reason.

Siddhananda: Like a sinner.

G: Right, right I'm a sinner.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And I've gone against God.

Siddhananda: That’s correct.

G: And therefore I must be a [sinner]... but he's really not... if he really were that he would not be here for the light and for the Truth.

Siddhananda: And it did come to him.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: This one is at Christ's feet. And I see as I say that mercy, he's bowing low. He is held there right now and by his own choice.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: In a good way... I mean, it's just that connection there.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And he's there, and I can feel that there, and light.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: There's still this, I guess, around the edges. (makes the shape of a ball as if to illustrate there are still some rough parts)

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: The darkness that's been... but not in that light... not in that...

G: Right, it's just the residual of things that need to be released.

Siddhananda: That's right, that’s all.

G: That's all, and if he opens his heart, his heart totally and let's go of that fabrications and sees that was not the Truth, then it will dissipate very fast and...

Siddhananda: Quick... amazing!

G: Very quickly, immediately.

Siddhananda: And that's the thing, it can, and I don't... I think sometimes people think they got to wait, forever wait and do all this work... it really just takes opening and things can change very...

G: Immediately!

Siddhananda: Immediately! (pointing to G to agree)

G: Immediately, yeah.. an immediate change.

Siddhananda: One hundred percent, that's the way it is. Your life can change just like that (clicking fingers), and obviously for this, the way this energy came in and the way it's feeling now (waves her hand to say such a big difference) come on.

G: It's between night and day.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and it's a beautiful thing, and there he's quite fine there so...

G: Yeah, so we'll thank him. (gesturing Namaste) Amen!

Siddhananda: On your way!

G: And may you go forward, yeah.

Siddhananda: Another mistaken notion dispelled.

G: A mistaken notion! (laughter all round)

Reality of the World

Siddhananda: [They’re] just saying, "Be well."

G: hmm hmm

Spirit: Gentle spirit, be well.

Siddhananda: Okay. So, can we help you with something today? (pausing) He has, or she has, some mistaken knowledge.

G: hmm hmm

Siddhananda: ... that of the world, or the physical world, ... I'm hearing, "lessons," which sounds right, but [I'm] seeing someone's feet walking in this physical world, ... feeling that, I don't know, and saying that that has some reality ... or, is that your question (pausing)?

Spirit: World is real ... concrete world is true.

Siddhananda: I don't quite [get it].

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: Do you?

G: Yeah, I'm finally getting a little bit of an inkling.

Siddhananda: Okay.

G: I think they're asking if that world is real. It's real as long as your mind is making it real.

Siddhananda: I think that's [what they were asking], exactly.

G: It's real as long as your mind is making it real, but when you wake up into realization, then it becomes like a dream state. As long as your mind is interacting in it, and taking it as total substance, then it appears to be real during that time of experience.

Siddhananda: Hmm ... that's their experience. Let me see where they are at now (pausing).

G: Yeah, the further you go on your path, the less heavy substance it becomes, and more energetic embodiment. Do they understand that?

Siddhananda: I believe they do. Especially, as you're speaking, I'm feeling [it] just as more of energy, you know. I think that's their way of saying, "Yeah, and thank you for actually bringing that." You know, I want to say they don't feel like they're such a ... [holding fists trying to convey something] …

G: ... heavy substance.

Siddhananda: Right, heavy substance, or like less substantial.

G: Right. Everything, even the form, is corporeal, but in the form are all the cells, and in the cell is the nucleus, and in the midst of that is the empty space. So, really, [in] the form is a lot of empty space. There's a lot of room between the particles of energy that hold the body together. So, it's not really as solid as you would make it seem.

Siddhananda: They said, "Is this true?" They said, right away, "Then everything has a different vibration."

G: Right.

Siddhananda: They just got that, like everything [has different vibrations].

G: What one sees as far as color, sound, whatever, it depends on the vibration of it ... some are faster, some are slower, and then when it all comes together, it makes it a physical type of reality that's seen.

Siddhananda: Yeah, I think he got [that]. There was an insight there.

G: hmm hmm

Siddhananda: He's seeing the vibration. The seeing of something solid is a slower [vibration].

G: It's a slower vibration which makes it appear to be much more solid.

Siddhananda: There you go. That's exactly [right].

Spirit: But, I think it's the same energy.

G: It's the same. It's all the same energy. One is just vibrating at a slower vibration. The ethereal bodies, light bodies, are vibrating at a much higher resolution, so they appear to be lighter.

Siddhananda: Hmm hmm, and he's getting that. I think he's good with that. I mean, as we're speaking, he's feeling less heavy. He's feeling less bound by something heavy.

G: Yeah, the more he can sit and resonate with that, the lighter he'll feel, and the less of that heavy substantial thing will be there. He'll begin to understand that more, and come into that higher vibrational state.

Siddhananda: Right, I think he's beginning to convey something solid here, and something light here (gesturing with hands), and saying, you know, "They can merge, but they can also be ... just the light can be ..." He's kind of saying that, and I think it was kind of an 'aha' for this energy.

G: Yeah, a little 'aha' moment (laughing) ... light bulb! (laughing)

Siddhananda: Yeah, light bulb! (laughing) Sometimes, the light bulb gets transmitted as getting (laughing)... Okay, light bulb, finally! Oh, this is funny! (laughing) He did show a picture of a light bulb with a chain cord, and your hand pulling it (gesturing with hand and laughing) …

G: (gesturing with hand and laughing)

Siddhananda: ... which was cute. I get a kick out of these things. What can you say? They do have a sense of humor... He's laughing. He's happy that we're both laughing, too. So, anyway, I don't know if a mantra might be good for this one, or what do you think?

G:  hmm hmm. Is he asking for a mantra? If he's not asking, he doesn't need it.

Siddhananda: I wasn't sure if that's ... I kind of got a mix. We can just let it be then.

G: Yeah, if he wants a mantra, he can ask the other side, and they'll be happy to pass it to him.

Siddhananda: That's true. You're not going to be left out of whatever you need.

G: Right, if he needs the mantra and he wants to go into the vibration of that, he's quite welcome to do so.

Siddhananda: That's right. Okay.

Frog Wisdom

Siddhananda: (showing a green stone) This green is very nice, and, as you say, very pond-y.

G: Pond-y (repeating comically).

Siddhananda: Pond-y (smiling).

G: A little mossy.

Siddhananada: We made up a new word, pond-y ... pond-y-esque (saying with dramatic flair and chuckling).

G: Pond-y- esque (smiling). It reminds me of moss under the water ... this beautiful (wiggling her upward pointed fingers like moss moving under the surface of the water).

Siddhananda: Totally. In a good way.

G: Yeah, a nice moss.

Siddhananda: (closing her eyes) There's that little pond-y-esque rock (taking in a deep breath). Okay, I'm seeing a kind of frog type energy. I hope I don't see another little kid coming up again!

G: hahaha ... that little kid with no teeth.

Siddhananda: hahaha ... I know, he was so cute.

G: (making a face and putting her thumbs against the sides of her head, wiggling her fingers)

Siddhananda:  mischievous little thing!

G: (laughing heartily) They're monkeys, I'm telling you!

Siddhananda: Oh, gosh! So, it's a little frog, and they are reflecting a pond, which is kind of cute. There's a pond. There's lily pads, and the frog is leaping from lily pad to lily pad like frogs do, enjoying themselves and catching dragonflies. So, let's see. Is it about the frog, or is there more? I do see someone picking up that frog, and they're just looking at it. They're just kind of communing (chuckling).

G: A little frog communing today?

Siddhananda: They're like holding it (pretending to hold the frog up to her face) and looking into each other's eyes (laughing). You know, anything can happen. You can be in love with the whole bit like that (closing her eyes). So, the legs are long ... kind of hanging down like that.

G: (laughing with Siddhananda)

Siddhananda: There's always a weird one in the bunch! We seem to be going pretty well, but we have ...

G:  ... until the dangling frog legs (laughing heartily with Siddhananda).

Siddhananda:  ... and the throat is bulging out, but they're holding it with love. They're looking deeply into that frog with love. So, ... Oh, maybe that's like their prince charming in that frog (laughing)?

G: Maybe, they're looking for their prince charming in that frog. I hope they're not going to kiss the frog.

Siddhananda: No, exactly, and it turns into a handsome stud, and there they are by the pond. I don't know, but they are looking at it lovingly. (closing her eyes) Okay, so let's see what is happening. I see a bit of light coming from both the frog and the energy that's holding it. So, what do you have to say to us today?

Spirit: Hopping is not good in the mind.

Siddhananda: The hopping mind - not good (laughing silently and grinning).

G: Hopping mind is not good, no. You kind of want to sit on that lily pad for awhile.

Siddhananda: You have to contain the hopper (saying with a comical straight face). So, you just pick it up, and it's just getting tamed with this beautiful ... penetrating energy of love (smiling). So, the frog is still now (chuckling). I'm sorry, I'm doing my best to [describe] what's coming.

Spirit: Hopping not good. Stillness better.

Siddhananda: That's about all (leaning back with the hand on her heart in amusement).

G: That's it. A little frog wisdom for the day. So, may he continue to impart the frog wisdom to the rest of the pond area (laughing).

Siddhananda: (mimicking a frog jumping over toward G with her hand, ribbit-ing with each leap)

G: Teach them a little stillness instead of the hopping.

Siddhananda: There you go (laughing). Yeah, good.

G: Froggy, froggy (giggling with a big grin).

Siddhananda: We always have to have a little quirky thing in there just to make sure people are awake, I guess.

G: Hey, you never know who is coming through, or what's coming through. A little frog energy.

Siddhananda: You know, when you have nature energy, you don't know. I mean, there're so much that's unknown.

G: Hey, it's all conscious, so even with our froggy energy, we appreciate that they've got that lesson ... that it's better to be a little stiller than to be hopping all the time. So, we'll take that (chuckling). For a frog, that's a very good observation.

Siddhananda: That is good, and, I think, with the way the mind hops, too ... just keep it not so hopping from here to there, but centered in that heart. Okay. We can take lessons from that.

G: Exactly.