Teaching in honesty

Siddhananda: (Showing a white translucent stone)  Shiny, shiny! (laughing) (pausing with closed eyes) Okay, [they're saying] "I speak a lot about truth, but, I don't know it." (laughing)

G: (laughing) And, how's that working for you and the poor people that are hearing you?

Siddhananda: He has a bit of a following.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: I can see them around him. He speaks from the intellect about it, but, he doesn't know it.

G: Is he still in body or doing this psychically or is he out of body?

Siddhananda: He's not in body.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: (pause) However it's transmitted, it could come through others, I don't know how he's working with that.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: Let me see... Most of that come in do have the ability to connect that way.

G: Right. [They] can continue to effect people on the other side.

Siddhananda: Yeah. Okay, let me see (pause) "I do masquerade. I'm a man of masks and trickeries, and it's not good."

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: (laughing) At least he's acknowledging it's not good. That's a start.

G: Well, it's good that at least he knows, but, then again, that carries a heavier karmic load.

Siddhananda: Because he knows.

G: If you're a teacher and you know your're full of bullshit, that carries a  heavier load. One hundred percent.

Siddhananda: He's like, "help me, forgive me, help me, i'm sorry."

G: Yeah. Well, you chose to do it. If you're purporting to be a teacher, you should know that. This is not something you take up lightly, being a teacher, because you're more responsible, because you're saying you know. If you're saying you know, then you have a heavier responsibility.

Siddhananda: Sure.

G: One hundred percent, yes.

Siddhananda: i'm asking him if he understands that and is he hearing it.

G: Aha.

Spirit: Oh, yes i do. please please, i'm sorry.

G: Aha.

Spirit: i am sorry if i mislead people, too. They seem to be drawn to me, but, i'm not completed.

G: Yeah, there are a lot of ones that are charismatic. There are ones that are charismatic and people are drawn to them because they got a good personality, but, personality is not it.  So, you need to honest up, and if you're not completed, say you're not completed and give to what you can give, up to the point that you're at. There are always those lower than what you are that you can aid, but, you have to be honest in how far you can take them.

Spirit: Should I speak to them about my masquerading?

G: Absolutely.

Spirit: It's hard.

G: It's going to be hard, of course! It's going to be hard. You got to man up and own up. And give what you can give.

Siddhananda: He's attempting to send out that energy of letting them know that he hasn't been honest and forthright and hasn't really walked the journey to the degree that he's speaking of.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: (pause) I hear him say, "I've wronged you and i'm sorry."

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: And they are weeping, some of them.

G: Yeah. So, all you can do at this point is ask their forgiveness and give what you can give, to the point were you're at, (pause) Okay, and be honest with what you can give and what you can't give.

Siddhananda: (pause) He would like to walk the path of light in the correct way now, if you would have him do that.

G: Absolutely. There needs to be more teachers, but, you need to be honest in what you can give and what you can't.

Siddhananda: (pause) Should he let go of teaching now?

G: (long pause) He can continue to give what he can give, but, just be, from this point, absolutely point blank honest. So, he can go ahead and do the "Om that I am" the "i am that i am" and "what is this I" contemplation.

Siddhananda: (pause) He's taking that and just clasping his heart with it.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: And he will continue to ask for forgiveness from the universe as well as walk the right way and if he can come back to help or however is needed.

G: Yeah, when he's done those practices and he's ready for the next step, come back.

Siddhananda: (hand on heart center) Thank you so much.

G: (hand on heart center) Namaste. Yeah, if you're a teacher, you should know you're accountable for what you give.

Siddhananda: Sure.

G: So, you have to be honest in what you can give and what you can't give.

Siddhananda: Aha.

G: There are a lot of people that are brand new to a path and even if you haven't gone the whole way you can still be a benefit to them, but, you can't tell them I can take you the whole way.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And talk about it intellectually when you don't know.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and also to build up a big following where people are being in their minds they build you up to something.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: Way more than what you are. It is not a good thing.

G: It's not a good one, because it creates more ego for you to break through.

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly.

G: And then that's tough.

Siddhananda: Breaks their heart too.

G: It breaks their heart as well, yeah.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Because, they have set you up on a pedestal that you shouldn't be on.

Siddhananda: Correct, yeah.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: So, that's good that one came out and he just came out of it. He was just ready (laughing)

G: Well, i'm glad he came back and he confessed that, but, yeah, he needs to confess it to the people he's working with and be honest with them and then again, give what you can give, but, be honest with where you're at.

Siddhananda: Absolutely.

G: Yeah.

Second Chance

Siddhananda: So, last one (shows a small clear stone). Last one, but not least (closing her eyes and focusing within).  Something popped up, “Mental confusion."

G: Aha (nodding).

Siddhananda:  Mental confusion ... let's see (pausing). [It's] some kind of turmoil.

G: Turmoil from what?

Siddhananda: I'm seeing some tears. My feeling is that there was some kind of bond or attachment.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: Otherwise, it's not fully clear to me where that confusion is coming from. It's kind of stormy.

G: Mm hmm.

Siddhananda: Clouded ... let me ask  [where this is coming from].

Spirit:  Coming from dishonoring something.

G: What was dishonored?

Siddhananda: I don't know if it was his master, but something was not honored when he should have been honoring it. He should have honored it, and it's getting a bit clear that maybe it was a teacher.

G: Oh, that he dishonored his teacher?

Siddhananda: Yeah, let me ask.

Spirit: Yes.

Siddhananda: Somehow, I don't think it was really a mean thing. I think it was just more [of] he didn't take the direction to heart really.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: He just took it [like]... (gesturing as if it's no big deal) ...

G:  ... so, so (shrugging her shoulders).

Siddhananda:  Like it's just there and I'm going to still play.

G: [It's like], I'll do my own thing.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: If I like it, I'll listen, and if I don't, I'm not going to.

Siddhananda: That's what he's saying.

G:  Pick and chose, pick and choose, pick and choose (singing the words).

Siddhananda:  Again, he's not a bad person, he just didn't take it [seriously]. He didn't really [engage it]. He wanted to live his own life, still.

G: Right, right. Did you get the name of his teacher?

Siddhananda: (pausing with closed eyes) Master something. I'm just not getting [the name]. Master ... yeah, I'm kind of hearing Master man, or Master ... . I'm not getting a name.

G: Ask him if he can call that master ... if he can call that master to his heart now?

Siddhananda: I see a man sitting in a lotus position in his heart. It's there.

G: Then, he can ask to go forward and [ask] if he would give him another chance to go forward in another existence.

Siddhananda: He's afraid.

Spirit:  Master [will] be mad at me.

G: No, master won't be mad at you (laughing).

Spirit:  Master [will] burn me, [he is] so sharp. He [is] so strong. He [will] be mad.

G: That's okay. Maybe you need [to] have the sword of truth a little bit (laughing).

Spirit: Oh, master [will] be mad at me. He does it with love, but it [is] sharp. It burns ... owww!

G: Yeah (laughing).

Spirit: I'm scared.

G: Yeah, ya, ya (laughing).

Spirit: Master's words are like fire, master.

G: Yeah, I'm sorry, but you've got to take your medicine. That's the way it is (laughing).

Siddhananda: (bending over with laughter)

Spirit: Master has fire in him.

Siddhananda:  But, he does have him in his heart. He is scared that he will be ... scolded, but not really scolded ... but given a talking to.  Tell him like it is! (laughing)

G: And, well, you need it. You will be told like it is, I'm sure (laughing).

Siddhananda: So, he’s kind of hearing it. He's feeling that Master's energy. It is sharp.

G: Yeah (nodding with a smile).

Siddhananda: He's no joke, this Master. He's not joking around.

G: Yep!

Siddhananda: He's giving him a talking to (nodding with a chuckle).

G: Yep (raising her eyebrows and nodding yes). That's what happens.

Siddhananda:  [It's like] ... What ... you did this ... (speaking sternly).

G: Hey, I told you my Master slammed me, and I couldn't speak for a number of days. That happens, but, it's what you need to hear, and later, you understand that that's the best that could have happened.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: And you're grateful for it later, but it's not fun at the time (laughing).

Siddhananda: He's saying, "It's hurting," but not in a bad way, but [more] like ... oh, I should've... He's getting that [feeling of regret].

G: Right. Yeah, yeah.

Siddhananda:  But, he's still hearing his Master. He's glad his Master is with him.

G: Right (smiling).

Siddhananda: He could have another chance. He loves his Master, but he just didn't take it seriously.

G: Yeah, he screwed up!

Siddhananda: He probably did some things he shouldn't have done, in the background, with whatever it was. I don't know what it was.

G: Exactly!

Siddhananda: Not in, like I say, a horrid way, but not ... not serious.

G: Not serious. Yeah, exactly.

Siddhananda:  He feels like he has dishonored his teachings by [doing] that.

G: Mm hmm (nodding) ... yeah.

Siddhananda: I don't know all the real details, but I don't think it really matters.

G: We don't need to know all of that.

Siddhananda: It's just the feeling.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: His Master is with him now and giving him [a] talking to.

G: Yeah (looking into the camera with eyebrows raised and little smile).

Siddhananda:  He knows he needs to do this part to go on.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: He has to face [it] ...

G: He has to own up to it.

Siddhananda: Right!

G: He has to, 100% ...

Siddhananda:  ... face the music.

G: Exactly! Face the music, get off of it, own up to it, and then, seriously be ready to go forward, yeah! Because, no Master is constrained to have to work with you.

Siddhananda: Right.

G:  They don't have to.

Siddhananda: That's right (nodding).

G: They don't HAVE to if you are not going to listen. So, my guidance to this [one] is, this time, to be sincere and be willing to go the way ... the whole way. Don't make this mistake, again.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and he's saying, "Well, this hurts so much. I will never [do this again]. I have regrets."

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: I hate to say it, but this has just really played on him, on his mind. He feels that he doesn't want to do that again. So, he wants to be united with this master (bringing her hand to her heart).

G: So, just stay with that Master for now and get ready for another rebirth. Be ready to come in and do what you need to do to go forward. That's all. Honor the Master the next time around.

Spirit: Master [will] be with me.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: He's saying, "Master [will] be with me."

Spirit: Master is in my heart.

G: Yeah, the master will be with you ... yeah (nodding with certainty).

Siddhananda: Master came right to him, man! (shaking her head and laughing)

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda:  No problem ... just BOOM!

G: Exactly, when you open up to that and there is that sincerity with that ... then, absolutely, 100%, the master will come back and will [assist], but if you're playing and you closed the door yourself [then] nothing can be done.

Siddhananda: You have free will like that.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: You can shut out what you shut out and play games with yourself, but you're doing that to yourself.

G: Exactly. You do that to yourself.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: The master is always wanting to help when you're coming in sincerity.

Siddhananda: The master is there.

G: But, if you're playing games, [the master can't help you]. Again, he played games in life and didn't follow through with what he was supposed to follow through on, and then he had that fear. But a master can't go beyond that, [when] you shut the door yourself.

Siddhananda: Mm hmm.

G: So, you've got to reopen the door and take your medicine (laughing).

Siddhananda: That's exactly happening now for him.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: It will be good.

G: He will survive it (smiling).

Siddhananda: Absolutely!

G: He will survive it and will go forward (smiling happily with a few chuckles).

Siddhananda: He'll live through it and all is well. I can still see that master sitting in his heart.

G: Yeah (smiling brightly).

Siddhananda:  He's with his master. So, he's taking in whatever lessons he needs to take in right now (laughing).

G: So, enjoy your lesson (speaking directly to the stone in her hand and laughing).  Be willing to come forward (setting the stone aside).

Siddhananda: He's okay, but he doesn't look happy. I don't see a happy face on him, or his master.

G:  No, he's not going to be happy for a while. Neither [of them will] be happy for a while, but ... yeah, yeah ... give him an ear full (laughing).

Siddhananda:  Yeah, that's it exactly, and he doesn't look happy (laughing). He‘s... (grimacing and whimpering a bit) but it's good. It'll be good. He will move forward.

G: Right, in the end, it is very beneficial, but in the moment, it's going to be a little stinging there.

G and Siddhananda: (barely able to hold back the laughter as they speak)

Siddhananda: Yeah, that's how it works (shrugging). What can we say?

G:  He's getting his spanking, so to speak (laughing).

Siddhananda: (looking at G at hearing this, then doubling over with laughter) That's exactly what's happening.

G: Getting his spiritual spanking, so, I don't know what else to say (smiling).

Siddhananda: It hurts, but it will be the best thing for him.

G: Yeah, exactly. So on that note (laughing) ... Namaste.

Siddhananda: Namaste. Thank you, again.

Teach Me

Siddhananda: Moving along… (long pause) "Just teach me," I'm hearing.

Spirit: Teach me. I would like to be a student on your path. Can I be a student on your path, the Kundalini path?

G: Yeah, any are welcome to be a student. It's just a little difficult since they are not in form, but I'm sure there are a few there on the other side that have been following this path.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: That can maybe start to aid them in that journey.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: Yeah, so, ask if there are some masters there that know this path that could aid them with that.

Siddhananda: That energy is building there. I know there are some. There is another one that came that was on the path.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And the masters, they can help.

G: Yeah, they can help to translate.

Siddhananda: They're there to help.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: I really feel that they're there to help. I can feel that there.

G: Aha. (nodding)

Siddhananda: That [is there], yes.

G: Yes. So they will aid you on starting this journey.

Siddhananda: So grateful.

G: Namaste. Thank you for coming!

Heavy Tantra

Siddhananda: Next, we have a linga (showing a rock). Lingas are always interesting.

G: They are always interesting to see who’s in there.

Siddhananda: (laughing) A nice heavy one! Whoa! (eyes go wide)

G: A nice heavy… we got a heavy duty in there?

Siddhananda: Well, it feels heavy! I don’t remember this one feeling so heavy, do you?

G: Oh, yeah. No, they are heavy duty, whoever is in there. We’ve got some heavy duty energy in there.

Siddhananda: Wow! Really!

G: Very heavy.

Siddhananda: I mean, sometimes, it pulls me down like this (bending over to the ground). My hand touches the ground, literally.

G: Yeah, they are heavy, heavy!

Siddhananda: Honestly!

G: So let’s see what they are about. So, that would be interesting.

Siddhananda: My muscles might work out with that one (laughing). Okay, tantric right away, I’m hearing.

G: Yeah, tantric.

Siddhananda: Immediately…

G: Usually, the tantrics are extremely heavy, [such] that, you pick up and it’s got something... it’s got the tantric energy in it.

Siddhananda: Oh, they are grounded.

G: It’s just like ground (holding hand in fist). I mean, absolute ground.

Siddhananda: It pulls me right [away]… [pulls] my hands immediately to the ground.

G: Exactly, exactly! Extremely grounded.

Siddhananda: That’s the fire… grounded. Wow, ooh!

G: So what may we help you with?

Siddhananda: (closing eyes and hands in prayer position)

G: Yeah, yeah, the tantrics can be very, very… very heavy energy.

Siddhananda: I am hearing a teacher you know, it’s saying, but… (nodding)

G: A teacher I know?

Siddhananda: Well… you know…

G: Yeah. Right.

Siddhananda: Let’s see what that connection is and what’s needed… connected in with that.

G: Uh hmm, right.

Siddhananda: Ooh, yeah! They are connected in with that!

G: Got it (smiling). Not surprised.

Siddhananda: Yeah!

G: So what reason have you come today? Is there something we can help you with?

Siddhananda: I want to keep it more on him because… okay, so him or her…

G: Yeah, because he’s wanting to go off on a teacher thing?

Siddhananda: No, not go off…

G: No, you know what I mean, just…

Siddhananda: I think there are some concerns with that and I’d rather stick with how we can help, so... Boy, right away I just feel it being so light and not many words now… Now, I think it just sort of… I think it’s the end.

G: They just what?

Siddhananda: Well, it just feels so quiet. I’m not getting anything now.

G: Yeah, very still now.

Siddhananda: They are saying they lost their ability to kind of speak, I’m hearing that.

G: Yeah. Came in and just went into stillness.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Going into very stillness.

Siddhananda: They are really connected… powerful. But, you know, what’s happening with that… like it was more of just an earthy… I’m feeling a lighter stream to that.

G: But it’s lighter coming now. It needed to be lightened up.

Siddhananda: That’s exactly it. It feels really better, more balanced to me.

G: Let me… (taking hold of the rock in both palms, closing eyes for a few moments) Feel them now. (handing back the rock back to Siddhananda)

Siddhananda: Is it okay to feel it now? Feel how it is?

G: Yeah. Yeah, it’s okay.

Siddhananda: (holding the rock) It’s lighter. It’s still got some heavy, but it doesn’t want to go (rocking her hand up and down)… it wants to kind of…

G: Yeah, no, it’s going to stay…

Siddhananda: It’s happening more like this (lightly holding rock)…

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: …versus pulling like that you know (holding hands down). Oh, nice! It’s so different now.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Just sort of buoyed up, almost just (pulling shoulders back)…

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: But yet, I guess [there's] a substance to [it], but a lightness to it.

G: Yeah, it’s gone.

Siddhananda: Yes!

G: Very lightened up (throwing arms up in the air). It needed to have that lightening up.

Siddhananda: Absolutely!

G: The energy… should go into the void. It should go into the void.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: So we’re going to put him over here for now with our other friend. (laughing)

Siddhananda: Over up on the second floor (laughing and taking the rock to the healing center.)

G: On the second floor. (laughing)

Siddhananda: With our other linga?

G: With our other linga, yeah.

Siddhananda: We’ve got two black lingas here. That was great. That was really great. You never know. Okay!
 
G: That’s interesting we had a connection there.

Siddhananda: Yeah!

G: I’m not surprised.

Siddhananda: Isn’t that interesting? Gosh, you never know. We’re surprised and not surprised in some ways, too!

Buiding a Foundation

Siddhananda: Okay, cute little guy here (holding up a rock). Oh gosh I’m hearing "my teacher doesn’t know." Not talking of you (looking over at G).

G: Mm hmm.

Siddhananda: "My teacher led me wrong." I'm hearing that.

G: Okay, in what way did they lead you wrong?

Siddhananda: At least I’m hearing "doing a lot of hard work"… (laughing)

G: Ah… well there, it doesn’t mean that…

Siddhananda: …at times.

G: Okay, it doesn’t mean that they led you wrong you just didn’t take advantage of what was being given. Okay, so there are some teachers… there was one in fact that that’s all he gave. All he gave his students was hard work. He gave no other teachings. And the reason they gave you the hard work and gave no teachings was because you had to just surrender and to let go of your preconceived notions. Yeah, it’s to wear down the ego is what that hard work is for. So I’m sure they gave it to you and didn’t want any kind of discussion about it, just go do it.

Siddhananda: He’s saying, “It’s hard, it’s hard.”

G: Of course it’s hard. It’s not meant to be easy. It’s meant to wear away ego, to bring up all of the doubts and all of the nonsense to the surface for you to see it and let go of it… to challenge you.

Siddhananda: Yeah, I’m just seeing images of mountains he walked up with big things of planks on his back, and, you know, different things where he just feels like he’s just…

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: …you know, really in the heat and different things..

G: Yeah, and that’s why they do it. They do it in order to wear down the ego. And so all these questions and anger and all these things come up, and if one just continues through it, eventually, one wears out the ego and goes into some deeper questioning.

Siddhananda: So he’s wanting… (laughing) so what he’s asking he wants [is] a teacher maybe in the next life that might lead him in a different way than that.

G: Yeah, I mean you can learn… you can see that maybe that was not the best for you, you know, you didn’t take advantage of it or whatever the case may be…

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Not every teacher is good for every student, but usually you are drawn to the one that can aid you (smiling).

Siddhananda: (nodding in agreement)

G: Usually you are drawn to the one that can help you. Now whether you open and take advantage of it or not is another story. You can get resistant to it and not take advantage of what they are giving but usually, you know, when you are asking for aid and guidance the universe will send you to the one you need at the time… maybe not the one you want, but usually the one you need. So if you sit with this and you look at it, I’m sure that you can find some lesson within that.

Siddhananda: You know, I do see as you are speaking, a little image of maybe a house that was built kind of sturdy… maybe it did give him some sturdiness… something about it, I think he’s reflecting back, gave him some strength.

G: Yeah, gave him a good foundation.

Siddhananda: Some sturdiness…

G: Some foundation and sturdiness. So you can always get something from your lessons even if it’s to find out this is not the way to do. Sometimes it’s a matter of finding out this is not what I need, this is not what I want, this is not… you know. And then you can go in another direction. Sometimes you need to get that out of the way first before you can fully go into another direction as well.

Siddhananda: Process of elimination, some of these things are.

G: Sometimes… sometimes, yeah.

Siddhananda: Okay, I am getting a reflection of a nice sturdy kind of framework of a house and then there’s a cross in there and some lights. So, I think it’s their way of saying that, yeah, there is something that came from it and he’s feeling more in the heart.

G: Right, so take the lessons that you can have from it rather than having a pity party about how difficult it is. Look deeper and see what you actually did get from it and then honor that and be willing to go forward.

Siddhananda: He’s saying no more 'poor me'.

G: Yeah, no more poor me. The bandwagon ends (laughing).

Siddhananda: No more poor me… Okay he’s ready… he’s wanting to shed that and so, anything else?

G: Is there anything else we can give you or aid you with?

Siddhananda: He’s wanting the COS.

G: There you go… he’s waiting for it. (laughing)

Siddhananda: You knew it!

G: If you ask… first you have to ask (laughing). Yes, definitely, you can have the COS. You’ve earned it.

Spirit: So grateful, so grateful.

G: He’s built a foundation and he’s ready now to definitely go forward, yeah.

Siddhananda: That sounds exactly like what that image says as well that he was reflecting.

G: He needed to see that he’s got that foundation in place. He does have that strength in place and it wasn’t for nothing.

Siddhananda: Right, exactly! It wasn’t wasted time.

G: It wasn’t wasted time.

Siddhananda: Absolutely, absolutely!

G: So thank you for coming in and enjoy the COS.

Siddhananda: Okay, next!

Open Yourself

Siddhananda: I'm just going to put out there what words I'm getting and we'll open up from there.

G: hmm hmm

Siddhananda: I'm getting, "timeless" ... (pause) ... again, "scented fragrance ... building ... love ... life.”

G: hmm hmm

Siddhananda: So, what are you here for? I can't tell if it's, “help others," or “help herself” fully yet ... both, maybe.

Spirit: Knowing that if I help myself, [then] I can help others.

G: (nodding) Yes.

Spirit: This is what I understand.

Siddhananda: I guess, maybe she's tried to help ... she or he, sounds more like she. She's tried to help herself too much by herself …

G: hmm

Siddhananda: ... and needing, maybe, you know, her own teacher ... again, and just needing something more than that.

G: Yeah ... since you're there, just open the door, and ask from the heart for the best teacher for you in this present time. I'm sure there's somebody there on the other side that can aid you. Just open yourself to that. If you open yourself and you ask for the teacher, the teacher will come.

Siddhananda: She's feeling now, since you said that, that she's more aware that there are teachers around. I don't know, just an interesting thing ... like that helped her to become aware of that, and opened her heart, ... and feeling like, maybe, that it was the [lack of] openness that did not allow. She wasn't as …

G: Right, you have to ask, and you have to be open. They're not going to impose themselves upon you. Whether you're on this planet, or you're in the other world - it doesn't matter which plane of existence you're in - you have to be open to having that teacher, and you have to ask for that. When you ask for that and you open yourself, then the teacher will be there. They will come.

Siddhananda: You know, she just got that now ... that being her own teacher, and not opening to that, keeps that away.

G: Exactly. You closed the door to it yourself, yeah.

Siddhananda: She didn't realize that till now. She said “it wasn't her fault, right?”

G: No, it's not her fault. Like I said, it comes out of that ignorance ... that you just don't know. Everything is a learning process. So, now that you know, now you can open yourself, and say, "please universe, send me the teacher that would best serve me."

Siddhananda: She's saying she is feeling more richness. That’s there on wherever her realm [is] ... feeling some of the teachers that have come through ... some of that Sufi energy, but not just that. She'll wait, because she doesn't know what's right in that. She's starting to feel the energies that are around that are very beautiful, and just right. She'll just kind of sit with that.

G: Yeah.. and that's all you have to do.. is ask for the right teacher and for the right thing for your growth and they'll show up (smiling)..

Spirit: Thank you so much.

G: OK, namaste (gesturing namaste).

When the student is ready, the teacher will come (smiling)

Siddhananda: (laughing) you gotta be ready, right?

G: You gotta be ready.

Siddhananda: That's the part ... receptive.

G: You have to be ready. You have to be receptive and be open to that, and if you’re not ... . This is what some of the masters from the other side were saying, you know, ... it's just like here. When you pass, and you leave your form, you're still in the same drama you were in when you were here. You have to open, and you have to ask for that.

Siddhananda: It's no different than here.

G: It's no different ... just because you pass on to the other side doesn't mean something's gonna impose itself on you. You have free will..

Siddhananda: It's amazing how many people think it's big heavenly and it's this burst ... but, it's not. It's really very similar to here.

G: Yeah.. very similar.

Siddhananda: Just so interesting.

G: Yeah ... when people leave here, and they’re in that bunch of drama and stuff, they create a hell realm for themselves ... and it's not that God's putting you in a hell realm. The fact [is], you have free will. You're free to create that if you want, and remain in that hell realm.

Siddhananda: Right, always, if you chose, you know ... for however long you chose to be in it ... [also] you can come out of it at any time.

G: Exactly

Siddhananda: And, that's the thing.

G: Open the door.

Siddhananda: Right.

Opening up

The spirit that is coming through, said she knew G in another life.


The spirit said, you were my guide, I just see you as a woman in white. I am not surprised that you are enlightened now as you were very pure in the way that you ministered to me. Images came forward of cottages, pastures and sheep.


G: I have done a lot of religious life.


S:  I see you as an angel of light or giver of light. I have many stories to tell, but rather than doing that I would like to thank you and connect with you as I do feel your energy. I think I do not know what is going on with me. It is murky. I am a loving person, but stuck, not moving in any direction. I wanted to connect with you. I was hoping this would jar something for me.


G: Ask God sincerely for clarity to help open your heart and mind so that this can come forward. If you have a willingness and talk to God sincerely, then this will come.


S:  It takes a long time (you would know) for enlightenment. I knew you so long ago.


G: This can take many lifetimes. All one can do is say, "on the altar of truth, I lay myself."


S:  I cannot project when this will come, but will do my best to put one foot in front of the other. I will see it as an adventure and open my heart. I think there is a lot of richness here that I have not allowed myself to open up to. A lot (even here) do not open up and stay locked in their own drama.


G: Exactly that is what creates your own jail, your own confinement. To move forward, open the door, ask for help sincerely... it will be there. If you sincerely ask for the teacher, the teacher will come. If you sincerely ask from the heart to know God, that will draw you, that will pull you.


S:  Can I be my own teacher?


G: No, you can't. I'm sorry, but you can't. Because you perceive things the way you perceive them and many times you don't have the clarity. You want to convince yourself of things that are not there and when you haven't gone the whole of the path, you can think you are farther along than what you are. You can take sign posts and make them into more than what they are.


S: Makes sense and I feel that I have done this out of fear of opening up.


G:  There is nothing to fear if you open to God and the light.


S: This is always good to hear again and again. Fear does not come from the light, but from my own mistaken notions or misconstruing of things.


G: You need to open to the light. Even lies come from a seed of light or truth, but gets so twisted that it moves away from truth and becomes unrecognizable.


S: Sitting here, I got a brief flash of oneness and I have not experienced that before.


G: Keep that awareness as it is. Allow yourself to open to that divine love... open to that pathway.


S:  Thank you. So glad to have connected. An image of goats was seen (laughter). We had a lot of that around. A lot of farmland. It was a very wholesome, hard life... and it was cold. An image of churning butter was seen (laughter). Okay goodbye and thank you.


G/Siddhananda: I can just see you with your little white cap on. Maybe it was in Holland or the Netherlands or something. You had your little white, fresh cap on that was so cute. (laughter)