Opening up

The spirit that is coming through, said she knew G in another life.


The spirit said, you were my guide, I just see you as a woman in white. I am not surprised that you are enlightened now as you were very pure in the way that you ministered to me. Images came forward of cottages, pastures and sheep.


G: I have done a lot of religious life.


S:  I see you as an angel of light or giver of light. I have many stories to tell, but rather than doing that I would like to thank you and connect with you as I do feel your energy. I think I do not know what is going on with me. It is murky. I am a loving person, but stuck, not moving in any direction. I wanted to connect with you. I was hoping this would jar something for me.


G: Ask God sincerely for clarity to help open your heart and mind so that this can come forward. If you have a willingness and talk to God sincerely, then this will come.


S:  It takes a long time (you would know) for enlightenment. I knew you so long ago.


G: This can take many lifetimes. All one can do is say, "on the altar of truth, I lay myself."


S:  I cannot project when this will come, but will do my best to put one foot in front of the other. I will see it as an adventure and open my heart. I think there is a lot of richness here that I have not allowed myself to open up to. A lot (even here) do not open up and stay locked in their own drama.


G: Exactly that is what creates your own jail, your own confinement. To move forward, open the door, ask for help sincerely... it will be there. If you sincerely ask for the teacher, the teacher will come. If you sincerely ask from the heart to know God, that will draw you, that will pull you.


S:  Can I be my own teacher?


G: No, you can't. I'm sorry, but you can't. Because you perceive things the way you perceive them and many times you don't have the clarity. You want to convince yourself of things that are not there and when you haven't gone the whole of the path, you can think you are farther along than what you are. You can take sign posts and make them into more than what they are.


S: Makes sense and I feel that I have done this out of fear of opening up.


G:  There is nothing to fear if you open to God and the light.


S: This is always good to hear again and again. Fear does not come from the light, but from my own mistaken notions or misconstruing of things.


G: You need to open to the light. Even lies come from a seed of light or truth, but gets so twisted that it moves away from truth and becomes unrecognizable.


S: Sitting here, I got a brief flash of oneness and I have not experienced that before.


G: Keep that awareness as it is. Allow yourself to open to that divine love... open to that pathway.


S:  Thank you. So glad to have connected. An image of goats was seen (laughter). We had a lot of that around. A lot of farmland. It was a very wholesome, hard life... and it was cold. An image of churning butter was seen (laughter). Okay goodbye and thank you.


G/Siddhananda: I can just see you with your little white cap on. Maybe it was in Holland or the Netherlands or something. You had your little white, fresh cap on that was so cute. (laughter)