Dying into Eternal Life

Siddhananda: There we go (showing a small round translucent brown stone). (pause) I do see a female form or something in white by a river, (pause) Now I see them on a ledge, like it came up and they are looking down that ledge. They do have a white trailing... something on their head, that's blowing in the wind. So, I'm looking above and they are looking down and there is a river below or some rushing water.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: (pause) They want to die.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: I don't know if it is in a good way, necessarily.

G: Why is it they want to die?

Siddhananda: They want to be reborn, but, they want to be reborn in light.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: (long pause) I just feel something else, like they may be trying to destroy themselves. I just feel a little something funny.

G: Not in a beneficial way.

Siddhananda: Yeah, a little, even though they want light, they just want to go.

G: Just totally be gone.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: With no awareness.

Siddhananda: Yeah, just destroy the whole thing and be done. I do see a white flowing material on their head, which I don't know what that's about.

G: It's like a suicide type of a thing.

Siddhananda: It's what it feels like.

G: You want to do a suicide. So, what is it they want to do that for, when they can have absolute eternal life?

Spirit: I'm tired, I'm tired of this, I'm tired of feeling this way. I can't feel this way any longer.

G: Right.

Spirit: I just want to die, I want to jump, I want to be done.

G: There is a way to die that is beneficial. Die to the ego, which is actually going into life. So, if you really want to be done with that, if you are open to know God, you can put yourself on the altar of truth and let that ego be sacrificed to that.

Siddhananda: (pause) They can barely stand how they're feeling. They can barely breathe. They can't stand how they're feeling.

G: Exactly. So, lay yourself on the altar of truth and let go and let God.

Siddhananda: (pause) I do see another image and it is someone at an altar. There is light and they do have this white halo or white material falling on their head.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: Almost like all of a sudden we're in a church.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And it does look like an altar, and there is Christ, you know how they have those beautiful churches.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And the cross and Christ, but, he doesn't look bloody. He's like the beautiful Christ. The cross is behind him, it's not that dripping blood image. And, she's there praying by this altar with these candles. Actually, a very lovely image. It looks like a young girl, very sweet face.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: And, her head is down (has hands together in prayer) and then there’s candles and then Christ in this lovely church.

G: Aha. So, we'll ask that Christ and Mary appear to her, directly.

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, on the other side, it's very hazy. I do see that image standing by that ledge, so, that's still in her to die.

G: Right, she hasn't let go of that. So, let him know, let him go and teach her about the death that's eternal. That there is resurrection. That she doesn't need to carry all of this burden she's carrying.

Siddhananda: As you're speaking, I do see that white form swan-diving into this ocean water. I see it and then it's disappearing, but, she is still there at the altar. So, maybe that's her way of letting that fly and go.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: It was nice. It wasn't a bloody thing, it was just like a swan dive, like a release, that full release when someone does it that way.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And, actually it felt freeing.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And she's there like a young girl. That light is coming with those beautiful candles and she's praying there and I think she is in really good hands there.

G: Yeah. So, we'll leave her there to find out that there's more. (laughing)

Siddhananda: Yeah, that was nice, too. (smiling)