Balancing the Energy

Siddhananda: So, let's move forward (showing a small translucent stone with yellow edges).

G: Moving On.

Siddhananda: Moving On.

G: That's a big one.

Siddhananda: Isn't it a pretty one?

G: I like that one a lot.

Siddhananda: Kind of shimmery and clear.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: (long pause with closed eyes) I'm just going to put out whatever i'm hearing, "eruption of forces."

G: Eruption of forces, okay.

Siddhananda: "Leave a lasting impression."

G: Aha. Okay.

Siddhananda: (pause) "I cannot be still with this eruption going on."

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: "My mind, my body is erupting like a volcano."

G: Aha, okay.

Siddhananda: "I cannot find myself in this eruption."

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: "Where am i?"

G: So, have you come here to be still?

Siddhananda: "I would like to be. I want to be more settled. This is hard. I am constantly exploding, in a way."

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: i see some materials exploding and then (pause) some solid formations exploding. There's a light, but, it comes back again and explodes.

G: Yeah, i think he needs to have Kali come in.

Siddhananda: (long pause with closed eyes) Okay, that energy is trying to get more balanced.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: More in alignment, versus all this (making a sound as if something's exploding).

G: Right.

Siddhananda: (pause) I'm just seeing a formation of a line coming up (moving hand up and down the body/Spine).

G: Aha

Siddhananda: But, there is a fire . There's this containing it a little bit more.

G: Yeah, because the energy is scattered everywhere and they need to have it brought into focus.

Siddhananda: Yeah. So, they can actually settle a little and also be able to work with it.

G: Do that process [of cutting] mental spins that are going on and everything, so, Kaili is very good for that. Cutting through all of that drama and stuff.. (pause) to unify those forces, bring them to into alignment.

Siddhananda: Okay, i see some black Kali there and fire under her feet and i see ego, like she stamps, steps, stomping it out.

G: Yeah, exactly.

Siddhananda: She's stomping out ego and ego is in that fire and she is just stomping on it.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: In that fire (laughing) and the little ego has head on it's side with tongue out.

G: And, i think we'll also have Shiva come in for this one.

Siddhananda: Wow, nice! Lucky, huh?

G: Nataraj. We need that nataraj in there as well.

Siddhananda: You want Shiva nataraj.

G: Yep, it's going to take two of them. Shiva and Kali. Nataraj and Kali.

Siddhananda: Okay, immediately i saw more Shiva-ish, but, Shiva nataraj is there too. They're all there, the regular Shiva with the chandra and then Shiva nataraj. Shiva is big, looming there with almost encompassing the whole thing.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: With his chandra and the open eye (pointing to the middle of the forehead) and everything.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: So, that's there. Man, lucky, lucky energy. Kali is working at stomping out that ego in the fire and then Shiva nataraj is just there waiting , just waiting.

G: Yeah, let her do her thing first.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and then that will come into being. So, it's there waiting and then Shiva is there looming over the whole. What a nice scene!

G: (smiling).

Siddhananda: ..and it's really what happens, because that work is being done with kali just stomping, putting that ego in the fire. Ego hasn't died yet, but, she's at least containing it, making it towards the good. Towards something that's going to be in that purity, in the end. Fires of purification, versus all this (moving hands around the head).

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Reforming and exploding, reforming, exploding. It's contained in that.

G: Right. She can help to cut all of that stuff and help to burn away that dross out.

Siddhananda: Oh, boy. That's no joke, that ego is being stomped out in that fire, but, he's not dead yet. But, he is burning and she is stomping on him, it's no joke.

G: Yeah. she will get the job done. She doesn't mess around.

Siddhananda: Man!

G: She is that concentration of Durga, She is absolutely that one hundred percent concentrated energy and will just really nail it.

Siddhananda: Wow!

G: If something needs to be nailed, Kali will do it.

Siddhananda: And that's what's happening. So, boy, i wonder if we should just let this happen a while? what do you think Guruji?

G: Yeah, we need let them work on that.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And we'll check with him tomorrow.

Siddhananda: Sounds good.

G: So we'll put him up on that second shelf as well.

Siddhananda: Second shelf, okay.

G: The healing center.

Siddhananda: Okay. I was drawn to this clear cross back there. I might put him back there.

G: Yeah, we could put him back there, that's fine.

Siddhananda: That's by the healing center, too. They really got all this energy coming in, man, they're lucky! Because i felt like they were working it, trying to explode that solid mind body connection and, it wasn't happening.

G: Right

Siddhananda: It wasn't been funneled in the right direction.

G: Right. They were having a lot of energy, a lot of stuff coming up.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And trying to explode that ego stuff.

Siddhananda: Exactly.

G: And trying to get rid of it, trying to explode the buildings etc.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: That happens with kundalini.

Siddhananda: Right, yeah. Formations.

G: And it was stuck.

Siddhananda: Exactly.

G: It was just very scattered. And somewhere along the way he got lost.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: He was either not with a real competent teacher or.. i don't know what exactly happened, but, it needed to have that extra boost (laughing).

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly. So, that is good because i can see some ashes in my mind, so, it's coming, it's coming.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Lucky fella, i tell you, lucky man or woman or person or energy, i don't know.

G: Yeah, well, they have been doing some work.

Siddhananda: Yeah. Definitely.

G: They worked for a while, so, it was time, yeah.

Siddhananda: That's the thing because it's just like you say, it's those buildings, those structures exploding, all of it, that, heavy structures that are in place, big cities of structures or whatever.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: It's just exploding and that's what's happening, but, they needed that. The Kali energy is what brings balance, if it's done in the right way.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Like you say, it can also be a deluder, too. It can make things harder.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: But, with this, it was ready, boom, so.

G: Yeah, they have been going through that for a while. So, it was time to just say ok, let's get the heavy artillery in here and knock this out (laughing).

Siddhananda: They're a lucky man. I just saw an image of Shiva, so strong.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: So nice. Nice to see him. We haven't called him out for a while.

G: Yeah, we haven't called Shiva too much, so, we can call Shiva some more and maybe we'll even call Shiva in with our one that's being worked on.

Siddhananda: Yeah, he's such a beautiful image with that trishula, beautiful face, that knot and the ganges (has hand over the top of the head) and the blue. Just a nice image.

G: Yeah, with the ganges and everything.

Siddhananda: I love that image, okay.

G: Yeah. A little Shiva interlude today. (smiling).

Siddhananda: (laughing) Yeah, that was nice.

Balance

Siddhananda: Okay (showing a transparent stone). So, they're saying, "Tomorrow never comes."

G: Tomorrow never comes?

Siddhananda: Yeah (smiling).

G: That's true. It's always the now (smiling).

Siddhananda: (laughing) They're laughing with you on that. As you're saying that, they're laughing, but I did hear that they do have some restricted energy. What that's about, I'm not sure (pausing with closed eyes). I'm hearing, "Storm came and blew them away," or blew something.

G: The what? The storm?

Siddhananda: A storm (nodding)... a storm came.

G: A storm came (nodding).

Siddhananda: Yeah. I'm asking if it's more in consciousness that it happened, and they're feeling that it is. It's more like an imbalance from the power of the wind (closing her eyes). So, let's see what questions they have. They say that they need a little bit of mooring.

G: Mm hmm.

Siddhananda: They're feeling that wind is too strong.

G: (pausing) They need more grounding. I would say [give them] the Kali [mantras].

Siddhananda: (nodding and closing her eyes) They're okay [with that] (gesturing Namaste).

G:  Yeah, they don't need any COS expansion. They need to be more [grounded] ...

Siddhananda:  ... rooted.

G: Yeah, rooted (nodding).

Siddhananda: I think that's right, because things are blowing through and that's causing the imbalance.

G: Right. You need to have a little balance there.

Rushing Water

Siddhananda: Okay! (showing a rock) Pretty one. (pause) Okay, so I’m just letting you know that the imagery I am seeing is a really strong rushing water. There is a board, or maybe a block there. I do see the water pushing up against that and maybe even going over it. Let’s see... I’m hearing tipping… grounding. Maybe needing some grounding with this process that seems very strong and it is breaking through some boundaries that were there but they need some… It’s a lot for them. They need a little bit more… something that keeps them a little more grounded and not so… they are just being swept up.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: It’s strong.

G: Maybe do the “Our Father.” (nodding) Yeah.

Siddhananda: (nodding) And that’s resonating for them. I’m hearing some of that prayer in my mind. And I see someone within the strong current in prayer (hands in prayer position) and I see that water rushing over there. They are able to get a little bit of…

G: Right.

Siddhananda: …a little bit of something there so that they can kind of ease a little.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: It’s just too much.

G: It’s a little overkill for them.

Siddhananda: Yeah! And I don’t know what they have done before, but I think they have taken in a lot of different practices.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And maybe not had a center point for those practices. Just kind of everything just felt good and right and it was too much… it’s taking too much momentum.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: So I do see a very nice picture of light with someone praying (holding her hands in prayer position) but with the water going (hands in circular motion) so they are not so swept up.

G: Right, and they can find the rivers of living waters that let it be… yeah.

Siddhananda: A little more calmer.

G: A little more calm, yeah. And they can ask Christ to come in.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and I do see that energy there.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: So I think it’s going to give them some balance and a little more slowing down of whatever. Like I said, those practices build an energy, and I think what’s happening is it’s just caught up in really too much.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: If you don’t have [a Guru], again, like I know me, when I first started, I did a lot [of practices]… I didn’t know.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: I did some different [practices]… and I didn’t know. It was too much and I don’t suggest it. Just taking and picking and choosing… I didn’t know.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: This is really caught up with this particular soul. This is really good start for them, too. And it’s soft and it’s heart-centered, too. It’s… okay… very good.

G: Namaste!

I Am Goddess

Siddhananda: Just right away, I'm getting feminine ... feminine Shakti … that element, ...  but phenomena, you know? A lot of it. It kind of feels to me like when we talked about the center of the yantra. You have that center, and then you have the emanation. She's in that emanations of it. She's almost ... God, I don't want to say enamored, but that's where she is, and believing that she's more of a goddess in that emanation. My feeling is that it's not serving her well.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: She’s attached there, thinking it's going to help others, but it's not. It's a separate feeling, not in that source light.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: So, I am asking her, "What can we help you with?"

Spirit: Freedom.

Siddhananda: I'm feeling a little resistance in there. We'll see what happens. Now she seems a little more balanced.

Spirit: Freedom.

Siddhananda: I think what it was is [she's] afraid, [because] she doesn’t want to leave that manifestation world, or whatever.

Spirit: Freedom and understanding.

Siddhananda: I think she wants to be a teacher, but I don’t know if she's willing to go further.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: That's what I am feeling.

G: There is a lot of them like that. They want to be a teacher, but they don’t want to go the whole way.

Siddhananda: My feeling is that she might want something here for herself to give, but she's not gonna really be there. It's just a feeling. I mean, I don’t think it's bad. I'm just going to try to reflect that.

G: I want more knowledge, but I don’t want to go [further]. Right ... I want to give something that I can give, but stay in the world of Shatki, in the world of duality, and not go beyond that.

Siddhananda: Right, and I'm just going to reflect that back to her, and [ask], "Is this it? Is this what you're saying?"

Spirit: Goddess. I'm a goddess. Yes, I am goddess!

Siddhananda: [It's] kind of like ... Bam! ... you know? I don’t know what to do here.

G: Right, yeah. You know, tell her we're going to let her go on her way.

Siddhananda: She’s already left.

G: There's more than just goddess.

Siddhananda: She's leaving quick.

G: There's more than just goddess. You can’t just stay stuck in the feminine. You have to have that balance, and come to that. She doesn’t want that yet.

Siddhananda: She’s angry. She's really angry. She's leaving angry.

G: Yes, she’s angry. She can be angry all she wants, but that’s the truth of it. You can’t negate one half of it. What she wants to do is to negate one half of it.

Siddhananda: Absolutely!

G: I am sorry, but you can’t do that. You can try. She can stay there for however long, but she's not  benefiting herself or others to remain in that. There has to be a balance, but she doesn't want that balance.

Siddhananda: Right, and you can’t be a teacher like that.

G: No. She’s coming to that point, that egotistical thing, when they get into that, "I'm Goddess. I am this ... (lifting her eyes heavenward and gesturing to indicate the savior). No, no, no… She wants to be worshipped.

Siddhananda: That’s it.

G: No, I'm sorry, I'm not going to help you with that (laughing).

Siddhananda: Nope. We're moving right along here!

G: Sorry, wrong place!

Siddhananda: Sounds like she fled. I don’t know if she'll come around or not. We'll deal with it as it comes.

G: Yep!

Stay Centered

Siddhananda: (showing a light pink, little gumdrop stone) They are saying that they are like a little pink princess.

G: (giggling) What's our pink princess up to today?

Siddhananda: I do see a little pink ballerina type of soul there, on their toes with the shoes, ... it's always so cool the way they do that ... but they're doing it well! They're dancing. I don't know. I used to have this little thing as a kid, just a little ballerina [on her toes], and when you turned the thing, it would spin.

G: Oh, yeah, they spin.

Siddhananda: ... and they're spinning [like that]. They are saying that the spinning is good and is the way for them. I see the energy like the Dervish, the way they spin, and it's just a cosmic kind of dance for them. Okay, so what else? What do you have to bring to us today, questions or messages? (Closing her eyes as the upper body moves in circular motion) I'm kind of spinning with them. I'm just hearing, "I spin."

G: (moving the body in rapid circular motion with a kid-like grin) I spin, I spin, I spin, I spin ... (laughing)!

Siddhananda: (breaking out in laughter) You know, it's like those toys you [wind up], and so, I'm kind of going ... (demonstrating the spinning motion and looking a bit dizzy). So, "I spiinn." Okay, why spinning? God, they're spinning so fast all of a sudden. Sooo fast!

G: Like a top.

Siddhananda: Yeah! Exactly. It's moving a little bit, almost like a ... (moving her index finger very rapidly in a spiral motion). What's that thing in nature? Sometimes I can't get my words, but it spins like a funnel ... a tornado, or something (closing her eyes).

G: Tornado, mmm hmm.

Siddhananda: So, it's sort of slowly ... (using her hands to show how this tornado-like spinning is moving in one direction, then the other, and then coming to the center) ... begins to come into balance a little bit.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: It's interesting ... I can just feel it (swaying very slightly from side to side like someone balancing on a tight wire). Okay, it is slowing down. It's coming into balance. Maybe, then now it can speak a little.

G: (chuckling) Yeah, that would help!

Siddhananda: Jeez! Thanks for taking us on the spinning journey. I'm getting a little dizzy here (smiling with amusement).

Spirit: I spin to show that there is ... (long pause).

G: There's what?

Siddhananda: They're spinning to show the more transient nature of things in life.

G: It comes and goes, comes and goes, ... cycles, cycles ... comes and goes in cycles.

Siddhananda: Yeah, circular, right. That was some quick spinning, though, and then there's this balance. Once that spinning in the mind stops, there's this balance. It just comes into this perfect balance (closing her eyes). I'm not getting a whole lot more than that.

G: Well, maybe they just came to show where they're at of when they spin, they come into balance. You know, it doesn't knock them off of balance. They have to stay in that center point when they're spinning. 

Siddhananda: Well, for her, and for ballerinas and things, they do.

G: Yeah, they stay in that center, and the body spins. If you can find that still point in the midst of that spinning, you'll stay centered. 

Siddhananda: I would think the dance of the Dervish as well. They are never off balance.

G: Exactly. Stuff comes and goes, the transient in nature, but find that still point in midst of it, and like a gyroscope, it spins.

Siddhananda: Well, thanks for bringing some clarity with that, Guruji, because I'm still a little dizzy.

G: (laughing)

Stay Grounded

Siddhananda: (showing a small heart stone) Got another little heart. Boy, we just have so much love and flow coming through (laughing). I'm hearing Princess Leela.

G: princess leela

Siddhananda: I know, it's just what i got initially. I just go with it, and then it opens up and kind of unfolds as it comes. I'm just putting out what's there (smiling).

G: (smiling)

Siddhananda: princess leela ... I think it is saying this is more of the female aspect of that ... the Goddess of that ...

G: hmm hmm

Siddhananda: flowers ... lots of flowers ... cherry blossoms and roses, and changing manifestations of flowers ... beauty ... angels ... (laughing). I'm just gonna ask them what you are here for.

G: yes (laughing)

Siddhananda: (laughing loud)

G: It's nice to have all this flowering, beauty, angels (laughing and gesturing with hands).

Siddhananda: (laughing) But, we're here to give guidance. She's laughing, too. She says, “I know,” and she's just laughing. She is, I feel, a little similar to the one that just spoke who was wanting to break free. The imagery is like doves wanting to break out of confinements to fly into that vastness.

It feels like she is ready and not ready to come back in body ... a little bit of both. I'm hearing COS. I believe that's something she could use now.

G: Yeah. If she wants to do the cos, she's more than welcome to do the cos, but be willing to come back into embodiment because she's going to have to do that to move forward ... to challenge herself in directions and things she needs to challenge.

Siddhananda: Yeah ... She feels a little resistance. There's a resistance there with that body manifestation.

G: Exactly (nodding and smiling).

Siddhananda: ... and she likes the manifestation of the flowers (laughing) ... and flying, and pretty ethereal things. I'm feeling, speaking as myself, that that is ungrounding for her in a way.

G: Yeah, that's why she needs to come back into embodiment because she's getting a little out in the ethers ... a little in the foo-foo (gesturing with hands), you know.

Siddhananda: Yeah, that's my feeling of it ... it's too float-y.

G: Exactly. It's too ungrounded. That’s why she needs to come back into embodiment ... to be a little more grounded, and have those experiences that will cut through and take her a little more to where she ultimately wants to be.

Siddhananda: Right. I now see the image of a mountain to say she is getting some of this.

G: Exactly ... more grounding.

Siddhananda: ... more earth, planet.  Right there I see a light bulb to show that it does make sense. She needs some rooting.

G: Yes, that's the problem with some of the new age things we spoke about before. They're more into affirmations, this and that, and they get very ungrounded and very float-y. You need to stay rooted, stay grounded. You need to go through those experiences, not try to jump past them and put yourself somewhere else mentally so that you're not going to have to. You stymie yourselves, and, eventually, you don't get to go forward in the way that you need to.

Siddhananda: She asked,"Is it like a fantasy then?"

G: Sort of. You can create a new soap opera of some sort and degree, and then you live in that.

Siddhananda: ... like a dream.

G: You create this dreamy movie, right ... but, you need to be willing to come back to reality.

Siddhananda: Yeah, she's saying that it has been like a dream that she's created and, you know, it's a beautiful dream ... yet, there's still pain there.

G: Right, it's still not going to be totally fulfilling there.

Siddhananda: She says these kind of dream states are created, and they may feel good, but she knows they're a dream..

G: Right, but one has to eventually wake up to all of life even when you come back into existence. This is a type of a dream state, you know, that you can have in a more grounded way, and proceed through what you need to proceed through rather than being airy-fairy out here.

Siddhananda: I'm getting imagery of a mountain. It's her way of saying that everything needs to be blended ... have that balance.

G: Right, there needs to be a balance (nodding yes).

Siddhananda: ... and that's feeling like she’s gone off somewhere into this dream ... so, she wants the COS.

G: She can go ahead and do the COS, but remember to stay grounded.

Siddhananda: ... and then opening up to this new adventure coming back in body.  She said “I will." I see a heart ... it is pink (laughing). That's okay. she’s an art.. and she's gonna use that to do her best to open up, "thank you."

G: Namaste. The shifts are coming in, and so this is a good time to reincarnate and continue forward. If you want to make progress, this is a good time to do it.

Siddhananda: Right ... a very auspicious time right now with the energies that are coming forward.

Balancing the Scales

Siddhananda hears that this spirit wants to know how to release karma.

G: Do they have a lot of karma to release?

Siddhananda: They feel like they do… but I also feel that they are pretty expansive there. I don’t feel anything really hardened or darkened too much.

G: They can always go back to an embodied existence to balance the scales so as to aid in whatever way they need to find balance… if they are willing to do that.

Siddhananda hears ... yes,  they are okay with it. They want to know what prayer or mantra to use to balance those scales for humanity and themselves.

G: They can use “Om That I Am” or “I Am That I Am.” …"I am you and you are me"… "this is one". 

Siddhananda sees them reflecting back some gold scales with two diamonds on each side… they are completely balanced now… Siddhananda remarks, “It’s nice, very nice.”

In that balance comes the diamond… the jewel…

G: Exactly, the jewel comes from that.

The spirit says,”Thank you.” They will move forward into whatever is to take place next to continue on.

G: Perfect! Thank you for coming.