Angel of Light

 Siddhananda: Okay, so just in the beginning, I’m hearing some poetic stuff.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: I’m trying to see what else is there (laughing). It wants to be an angel of light… Yes…

G: And what has it been before?

Siddhananda: I’m kind of hearing they are just feeling disembodied. They want to be an angel.

G: Well, they will have to take that up with the universe. We have no control over that (laughing). But one is not always compelled to go back into form, so, if they wish to stay as a light body [then] they can stay as a light body. Yup, they can ask for some counseling over there with some of the guides and masters over there. They can help a little more with that than I can.

Siddhananda: I’m just seeing some images of angels and things now… I think that’s where they are drawn. Okay.

G: So we’ll ask the angelics to… yeah, absolutely, the angelic kingdom to come and speak with that one.

Siddhananda: And I do feel that... like I am seeing some angelic imagery there.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: So that they know best how to do that.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: Okay

G: We’ll leave it [to them]… that’s their department.

Siddhananda: That’s their profession. (laughing)

G: It’s not my department so we’ll turn it over. (laughing) I’m happy to turn that one over to that realm.

Siddhananda: Alright, sometimes we just need to… they need to get channeled in the right direction. That’s all.

G: Exactly, so we’re happy to go knock on that door for you.

Siddhananda: Okay, next!

Praying the Rosary

The imagery that came in was of Mary with the rosary.

G described that, maybe for some, Christ may seem too difficult to approach, and they may need a soft motherly kind of energy to connect with initially. Not that Christ isn’t soft, but some may need more of that motherly feeling to connect to. For whatever reason when they can’t come to Christ directly, they can come to Mary.

The lovely image of Mary was reflected again.

The Mary energy was asked about praying the rosary. The Mary energy reflected back some roses, indicating that it’s beneficial for people to continue to do that.

G recited the rosary prayer and asked how beneficial it is for people to call themselves sinners in the prayer. The Mary energy reflected that the energy [of the prayer] is to break through the notion of being a “sinner,” that the notion of "sinner" is not to be clung to as an identity.

G said that she could see them continue to do the rosary if the word sinner is left out:

Hail Mary, full of grace,

blessed art thou among children,

and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.

Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us,

now and at the hour of our death. 

Amen

G described that as being much more beneficial, without the word sinner, as people could twist the word "sinner" into an identity, as if they were a sinner. The Mary energy reflected that it’s not what it is to be taken for. The rosary is meant to dispel that kind of [identity] energy, especially if people twist it to a point of thinking that they are a sinner and therefore are so low and hence need to pray for themselves. This can be self-defeating.

The pointing is that it's okay if one can surrender wholly in love. But if one is using it in a fear based way or if it is not done with an open heart, then the feeling is that the prayer is not meant to be. Surrender and Open heart is what is needed. Eventually the prayer will vanish as the roses within bloom.

The prayer is to be used as a tool to bloom and open your heart.

Joshua Tree

Spirit: Joshua, is my name.

Siddhananda: I am seeing a picture of a tree, a Joshua tree, or something connected with the tree of life... (pausing) ... tree of life ... purity, wholeness. This is symbolized in this tree, or his name, I don't know. What have you come here for? He is saying, "a seeker of truth," and something about his heart has a fire in it. I see like a torch in his heart.

G: Ok.

Siddhananda: His name is ... I'm just getting Joshua. I need more... something about dismantling ... some more dismantling to be completely done, you know.

G: Right.

Spirit: So, what do I do?

G: What has he done to this point?

Siddhananda: Sat in quietude under the stars and that kind of thing (pausing). His own practice. His own path, in a way that he had. He didn't really gravitate to a teacher. [He] never really did that, but he felt ... you know, he just followed his own heart, and that has led him here now.

G: He can start to question, "What is this I?"

Siddhananda: Okay. He’s saying," Okay." I see the tree kind of dancing ... like the leaves [are dancing]. That's his way of saying, "Thank you. It has vibrated something new in me."

G: Yeah, good. You can start with that.

Spirit: Thank you.

G: Ok, Namaste.

Siddhananda: Namaste.

The Beauty of Kali

Siddhananda: This one is smiling greatly ... something about ... still laughing about that Big Baba, or something.

G: About what?

Siddhananda: Oh, it was a connection with Sundhar Puri.

G: Oh! (laughing)

Spirit: Big Baba, so funny.

G: Big Baba (laughing).

Siddhananda: I can see smoke ... like that means Sundhar Puri (laughing).

G: Yeah (laughing).

Siddhananda: But, he's laughing ... laughing, but sad, too.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: That what has come, but not to say, ... "anyway, enough of that," he says. But, he knows him. He knows you.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: But he won't go into that. He wants right now to be free. And, again, the Ganges river ... the Ganges river flowing ... beautiful Ganges ... Ganges ... Ghats. It sounds like he was a husband. He was a family man there, but he did, you know, like Ganesha [prayer/puja] and asked for good luck, blessings ... to bless his business, and ...

G: Mm hmm ... right, the usual things.

Siddhananda: "Yes," he said, "yes, the usual things."

G: ... not the things of the spirit, but the things of [the world]...

Siddhananda: "And, he didn't know," he said. He knew, and he didn't know.

Spirit: I guess that's not totally true. I did feel something wasn't right, there ... to ask, to always ask ... it was like it was selfish.

G: Right, that's what it usually is. Most of the ... unfortunately, the Indian population goes to the temple, and they ask to have a male child, they ask for their business to be well, they ask for those types of things, rather than to move forward in spirit for self-realization.

Spirit: Mm hmm ... hmm, yeah ... so, Kali ... Kali was an energy that I read a lot about when I was in that body.

G: Okay.

Spirit: I didn't really understand her fully, though. I know we see Kali all over, and things, but she's coming for me now. She's gonna come get me now because I wasn't a good person.

G: (smiling) If she comes to get you, it's a good thing (laughing with Siddhananda).

Spirit: Should I not run?

G: Don't run (laughing). No, Kali can greatly benefit, you know, if you understand Kali. There are so many aspects to that ... many, many aspects to Kali that most people do not understand ... a lot of different practices with Kali. Most of her thing is there to break through ego. So, it's not a detrimental thing.

Spirit: But, her sword is scary.

G: She's only there to cut through ego, to cut through the demons of ego that separate one from God.

Siddhananda: "Her skulls ... her skulls!" That's all I'm hearing (chuckling).

G: Yeah, her skulls are actually the ones that have transcended. They've lost the head of ego, you know. They have transcended.

Spirit: It's good?

G: Yeah, that's a good thing, yeah.

Spirit: Her skulls. Her skulls. Siddhananda is wearing a skull.

G: ... ones that have transcended, yeah ... you cut the head of ego (smiling) ... and, Kali is time ... timeless.

Siddhananda: I see him trying to shield his eyes. He's going ... (gasping as one does when startled with fear) ... shivery. He's being blessed, though, with this.

G: Mm hmm, yeah ... may Kali be more revealed to him ... what she is and what she's not.

Siddhananda: He's shivering. He's shivering like he's ...

G: What is that energy, and what it is not.

Siddhananda: He's shivering. He's shielding his eyes. He's shaking, but he's being penetrated with a different energy of light. You can see some kind of [an image]... the top part light, and the bottom part darker, but he's shivering and shaking, breathing deeply, and ...

G: Hm hmm.

Siddhananda: He says that he didn't know that this was a [good thing]... or, he did, but he just didn't want to accept that this was [good]... cause he was so focused on his family, and [asking for] the good blessings. He didn't realize this beautiful Kali.

G: Now you can open yourself and understand what it is, and, what it is not.

Spirit: I saw Kali as black, but now I see her as being light. Light and potent like a medicine that is painful to go down, but, kills the disease.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: "So much pain," he says. "So much holding is what she's trying to get rid of."

G: Exactly.

Spirit: Thank you so much.

G: You're welcome. Namaste (gesturing with namaste hands).

Siddhananda: Namaste (gesturing with namaste hands).

Spirit: Oh, and the COS ...

G: Oh, and the COS (laughing).

Spirit: Is that okay for me?

G: The COS is fine for you.

Spirit: Oh, okay. Thank you so much. Namaste.

G: Namaste.

Siddhananda: He's happy about the COS.

Come to the Still Place

Siddhananda: This one is a very gentle ... sweet scented soul ... a sweet, flowery scented soul (laughing).

G: Oh, nice (laughing)!

Siddhananda: Scented of love. Boy! I'm hearing, "I don't want to mention names, but, whatever has happened before that was needing to be cleared, they're scented with love in all directions in that regard."

G: Okay, good.

Siddhananda: They came as a healer. They're a healer.

Spirit: Siddhananda is a healer. She knows me.

Siddhananda: That's all she needs to say. She's glad that Siddhananda is psychic, and [her] healing powers are coming to the forefront.

Spirit: What I'm here for is ... in terms of healing ... I lay hands on people here and do energy type of work. I have herbs and I have potions, but, I'm made of light, and I know she is, too. Should I keep doing this? Is that okay?

Siddhananda: I'm feeling like I know her, and like there's a very nice bond there. She was helpful.

Spirit: I know Siddhananda let this go, and doesn't do that kind of thing really, in that way with the potions and herbs, but should I do that still, Siddhananda?

Siddhananda: I think it's okay if you [want to do it], but I don't think it's necessary, though. I think right now the most important thing is ... Do you desire freedom? What do you desire? She says that she does. She wants to be love and light.

G: If she wants to be a healer, the best way to be a healer is to come to self-realization. Then you can heal from a still place, and bring it all into alignment and harmony better than you can [now].

Siddhananda: She said that she'd prefer that because this has kept her a little bit attached to the former world. She feels like she has tried to keep going, but she feels like in those eras ... I do see the medieval times ... it was needed, but she feels here, now, it's more of a healing of spirit that's needed.

G: Right. She can do that better energetically, and the best way to do it, even energetically, is to come to self-realization. Then you are in a still place which will help align everything.

Siddhananda: And, she'd prefer that ... right away now. She needed permission, because she didn't know if she should keep ministering to the ill here, and, that's kind of draining to her. You know, I can just see her soothing foreheads, and giving them things to help their spirit be stronger. She says, "like we did, Siddhananda ... like we did," (pausing as tears well up in her eyes).

G: So, the best thing for her is just to continue her journey, and she can be a better light and a better healer.

Spirit: Yes, thank you so much. That's what I desire, and I will happily take in whatever is needed to move forward. There are other people here that can do that work of helping the ill?

G: Yes, yes.

Spirit: I don't need that on me anymore, because I feel like I did.

G: You've done your work that you needed to do on that level.

Spirit: Okay. Thank you so much, and thank you Siddhananda. I love you.

Siddhananda: I love you, too (emotion welling up as she speaks). Okay, yeah.

G: So, is she staying for the practices?

Spirit: Yes, please! Thank you so much.

G: Yeah. So, she goes here, okay! (setting the stone together with the others waiting to receive the practices)

Breaking Through

Siddhananda:  So, this might be a bit of a murky ... murkiness.

Spirit: I feel like I chose this stone because I do feel like I'm in hiding a little ...

Siddhananda: ..like maybe she has some torture in her life [that] has occurred.

G: Mm hmm (nodding).

Siddhananda: She feels she needs some protection. She sought the safety of this stone due to its darkness that is feeling protected.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: She knows that this is probably not a good thing to always want to be protected in this shrouding herself in this kind of murky darkness, and yet it is her comfort. She wants to know though ... I do see a shaft of light penetrating that, and she is saying, "The sun is here, and that is what brought me here. I felt the sun here."

G: Mm hmm.

Siddhananda: So, can I stay in this type of a stone and still receive some penetration from the sun?

G: You can receive some, but you'd be better to ... you know, if she wanted to hang here, she could go into one of the crystal cathedrals, and stay for a while until she starts to feel a little bit better. But, the only way she's going to progress is to let go of that and move forward... be willing to move forward.

Spirit: Okay, and that, you know, I just ... That's a little scary to leave anything that's protection, but this feels ... I am shaky in my trust ... but it feels like the energy here is light and love. So, I will go ahead, and I'll transfer to the cathedrals?

G: Yeah, one of the cathedrals. Yeah, I'll sit you down, and there are two. You can either chose the amethyst, or the citrine, whichever feels better to you.

Siddhananda: Okay, and she is saying, "This is very good, and I know the spirits here are good, and thank you."

G : Yeah, they're all [good]... the ones that come and stay here are all good. So, you can rest assured that you'll be fine. You can stay there, and maybe you can gain some strength and get ready for some doors to open so that you can ask for some more aid from the other side.

Siddhananda: What she is saying ... I see like a timeline [as] her way of saying, "All in its own time, and thank you for granting me that."

G: Yeah. So, we will put her over here for now, and she can make her choice (moving the rock to the healing center).

Siddhananda: Okay (smiles).

G:  It'd be interesting to know which one she has gone in. Okay, you're right between them (the two cathedrals).

Siddhananda: (chuckling)

G: So, she can make her choice (laughing).

Siddhananda: So, should I wait?

G: Yeah, we'll wait until she goes in.

Siddhananda: She's chosen the gold one.

G: The gold? Yeah.

Siddhananda: She's transferring in there now. I can feel her energy... okay.

G: Yeah, the gold one is a good one for her. It's a little lighter than the other one.

Siddhananda: Yeah, she’s fine.

G: It's little more towards a sun color. So, that would be good for her.

Siddhananda: Right, sparkles and sun. I think she was trying to challenge [herself] and come out of her shell a little there.

G: Yes.

Whole, Not Hole

Siddhananda: We’ve got this one coming up next (holding up a rock). So I’m hearing broken pieces of glass … shattered glass. I do see some shattered pieces of glass, but there is some light resonating. So, I’m asking how can we help you today?

G: Right.

Siddhananda: This energy feels more like they are the shattered glass. I am seeing the light but I asked if you are the shattered glass and they are saying, "yes… feeling broken."

G: Broken? Does it have to do with an event or tied to… ? Just ask if it had to do with an event.

Siddhananda: "Yes, perception. "  I’m asking for a little clarity there, and I just keep hearing, " Yes, perception."

G: Perceptions. Perceptions were shattered? 

Siddhananda: Yes, perception, maybe, of …

G: Can you give us a little background of what perception was shattered?

Siddhananda: Now I’m getting a vision of a person on one side of a window looking out, and they were looking out (spreading her hands out) … let’s see if it was a particular scene they were watching.  I’m feeling, I think, just sort of isolated and left out, maybe.

G: Yeah, the image of being shattered could come from a lot of different things, and there's different ways to aid with that.

Siddhananda: Let’s see if they can get a little clearer on that … "perception of the world."

G: Okay, your perception of the world was shattered.

Siddhananda: Which maybe isn’t always bad … I mean, I don’t know.

G: Yeah, it sounds like there was something that really hurt the heart. Is it that shattering?

Siddhananda: It’s a painful shattering of some sort, yeah.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: That’s the way it felt kind of… something painful occurred. I'm getting a little feeling of more [of] what that was about.

G: Then we'll know which way to direct him.

Siddhananda: Yeah, "not really a loved one so much," they are saying. It shook up who they thought they really were.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: Now I see someone in white … something was shaken up. They felt they were a certain thing, and it got shaken.

G: Right, and then that got shaken.

Siddhananda: Yes, there you go. That’s it!

G: Okay, so the thing that has gotten shaken, … you have to understand … you are part of the whole. If you need to take in the rivers of living waters, be willing to take that in and be bathed in the rivers of living waters. Find out that you are not who and what you think you are. That’s not necessarily a bad thing. One does not lose something when one steps beyond that ego frame. When one totally steps out of that, then what one steps into is that heart of God. Then one finds out that it’s whole not a H-O-L-E, but W-H-O-L-E (spelling out the words).  One is whole.

Siddhananda: Right, and that’s when it’s perfect in saying that, you know, it doesn’t have to be a bad thing.

G: No, it doesn’t have to be. So, instead of seeing shards of shattered separation see that each [shard] contains the wholeness of being. If they can see that each shard has a total, complete whole in it, that quantum, then they can move beyond that.

Siddhananda: Yeah, so I saw some light reflecting from the shards. What’s happening now is just a flow of water coming through, and actually washing that image away.

G: Right, wash that image away with the rivers of living waters, and then you will find that you are not this separate thing (holding hands in fists on top each other). [You will find] that each piece is whole and it has got that whole being inside of it … each piece is quantum.

Siddhananda: Yes, so the image is more of the water.  The shards are there a little bit, but it’s washing that away. There is something emerging from the water. It just feels like a white kind of image that’s moving fluidly in there. A nice image, actually. So, that’s what’s there now. Much better! (laughing)

G: Good. Yeah, he’ll find that it’s actually whole, W-H-O-L-E, and not those little bitty shards (smiling). Okay, thank you! (Namaste hands)

Siddhananda: There’s nothing that doesn’t have that essence in it.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: We see things separately,  but they are not.

G: Right, you can go into the form, and each cell is whole and complete as it is. It’s another universe in itself and each one is whole.

Siddhananda: Okay, so moving on …