Fear of Stillness

Siddhananda: Okay, they have some fears to clear, some confusions to clear up. If they are still, will they still know the people around them?

G: (laughing) Yes.

Siddhananda: Will they be forgetting all the time? Those kinds of things.

G: You don’t become an imbecile, okay (smiling). Let’s put it that way. You don’t become an imbecile. No. It’s not like having Alzheimer's (laughing).

Siddhananda: Yeah (smiling).

G: You don’t get Alzheimer's (laughing). It’s just becoming still within yourself and then one opens to the energies and what is and knows it more completely. There’s not as much divisionary stuff.

Siddhananda: Yeah, it’s the same fears of functioning and that kind of thing.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Which, a lot of it, the ego has.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: You can put it that way.

G: Ego wants to be in control and ego thinks it is going to lose something but ego doesn’t know everything to begin with.

Siddhananda: That’s right.

G: Doesn’t know what it thinks it knows.

Siddhananda: and ego thinks it’s the doer.

G: (smiling) Exactly.

Siddhananda: The thing is that it is not so.

G: You know the universe knows quite well without your ego interference in it.

Siddhananda: That’s the thing.

G: The universe runs on that God energy which is in the midst of everything, so if it's run quite fine for more lifetimes than you can ever contemplate, why do you think you would have a problem?

Siddhananda: Okay, they are becoming quieter as you are speaking, which is a good thing for them to actually experience that a little bit versus all the doubts - this might happen and this might not happen.

G: They have that old saying, “Let go and let God.”

Siddhananda: (nodding).

G: God knows exactly what to do. And when you are surrendering into that God energy that’s within you, what needs to take place will take place. What needs to be known will be known. But ego’s got to give up its throne. 

Siddhananda: Okay, so they’re definitely quieter. I see a ray of light and things. They are requesting some practices. So, is it okay to give the COS, Om That I Am.

G: (nodding) Yeah. That’s fine. I Am That I Am, Om That I Am.

Siddhananda: Yeah. Okay, that was transmitted and thank you.

G: Namaste. So funny people have that fear.

Siddhananda: Yeah!

G: “I’m not going to be able to function if I become still.” “If the mind becomes still, I won’t be able to think, I won’t know anything.” (chuckling).

Siddhananda: You’re right. Life goes on without that, so, somehow it’s working quite well without it.

G: “I’ll be sitting there drooling on myself.” (chuckling)

Siddhananda: or not recognize or something else or not recognize me. Other people don’t really notice in that way.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: They’re quite fine.

Completion

Siddhananda: (Showing a turquoise stone) Okay, so there’s that stone, looks like a diamond formation in the center. (pause). They are saying something about the heart of being.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: ...as a way to know God.

G: (nodding)

Siddhananda: They have a question about completion. How is it done?

G: How is done? Completion?

Siddhananda: Mmm hmm.

G: Completion is done when one is totally surrendered into God. When all of the illusions are dispelled, that’s completion.

Siddhananda: Okay, I do see a lotus coming. They desire this completion and they just want to take in whatever they can for this, for that motion to take place until it dissolves away. I said is there anything else? And they said they just wanted to say thank you.

G: Namaste.

Siddhananda: Oh and the COS too (chuckling).

G: The COS?  Oh, ok. You can have the COS. Now that they have asked, yeah.

Siddhananda: (laughing) I guess that wasn’t the last thing. They said it was.

G: Enjoy! (laughing).

Siddhananda: (smiling)  It wasn’t.  Hehe.

G: By the way, COS might help that a little bit. Can I have that? (laughing)

Siddhananda: Well, it’s true.

Winter

Siddhananda: This is another little heart looking [stone].

G: Yeah, there’s quite a few of them in there.

Siddhananda: Kinda cute.

G: Kinda like a little heart.

Siddhananda: Like a little heart. (holding up a very small, clear, heart shaped stone).

G: Heart feeling.

Siddhananda: Really nice. (pausing with closed eyes). Something about they’re in the Winter of their life.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: But I do feel a lot of stirring (moving hand across the heart area), but they’re saying that they are in the winter season, dormant, waiting for new growth. As it is stirring, it feels like water drop going in it. (pause). They are okay with it being the winter aspect of things and understanding that that’s part of the whole.

G: Part of the cycle.

Siddhananda: Yeah, part of the cycle and so that’s an okay thing. It needs to be right there for them. Let’s see if they have any questions. (pause). Okay, they do want to be more still, though, even with that. They are sounding like accepting, but yet, there’s this stirring.

G: Right. So I would say for that one, the COS, the Om That I AM and the I Am That I Am. [These will be] good for them and be more witness and relaxing into that.

Siddhananda: So, they are taking that in and it shifts the energy immediately. So, that’s nice (hand on heart).

G: Thank you.

Lost Sheep

Siddhananda: (closing eyes) So, this little stone is there with a nice little light around it. [It’s] saying, “What has God to say to me?”

G: What has God to say to you? In what reference? As far as what?

Siddhananda: Okay, something about Bible passages. [There’s a] Christian flavor to this soul.

G: Okay, and what is it they are looking for specifically?

Siddhananda: Let’s see. I see a Bible open. I see a sheepherder tending to the flock. That kind of thing.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Let’s see. Yeah, they want to know about that setting or something like that. I’m just getting the sheepherder imagery.

G: Yeah, I would say the best [is that] we’ll just send Christ to them and Christ can give it to him directly. He wants to know about the Bible and stuff. We’ll let Christ tell him in his own words. Can’t get any better than that! (laughing)

Siddhananda: For sure! Christ did come in holding a little lamb. A very sweet image with his halo and he’s got his staff [that] they use for the herding of the sheep, which is sweet. It’s very gentle imagery. He (the spirit) is a little bit astonished at first, but very grateful turning right away to that (image of Christ), like “Wow! I got that. I don’t have to sit and wonder. It’s like, there it is!”

G: It’s right there, right!

Siddhananda: So, he’s there. He’s kneeling low and it’s just a gentle image. So, I think they are good.

G: All you can hear with that is that “The Lord is my shepherd. I shall not be in want... He guides me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.” Twenty-third Psalm.

Siddhananda: It’s so beautiful and gentle, I think, that one.

G: Yeah. We’ll leave the sheepherder to the one that collects the lost sheep.

Siddhananda: There you go! To the source directly, can’t beat it!

G: To the source directly. You can’t get any better than that!

Siddhananda: No, my goodness. The other is more secondary understanding.

G: Exactly! Some of it has been changed and it is not all there in its purity. So better he gets it from the pure source.

Siddhananda: Maybe he felt a little like one of the lost sheep.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: He wanted Christ to come find him anyway.

G: Right… [He’s] gone astray. Baa, baa!

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly. He wanted that sheepherder to come collect him, so that worked out.

G: Right, right.

Siddhananda: That works out. Okay. So, they are communing and we’ll go on to this next one.

Dying into Eternal Life

Siddhananda: There we go (showing a small round translucent brown stone). (pause) I do see a female form or something in white by a river, (pause) Now I see them on a ledge, like it came up and they are looking down that ledge. They do have a white trailing... something on their head, that's blowing in the wind. So, I'm looking above and they are looking down and there is a river below or some rushing water.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: (pause) They want to die.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: I don't know if it is in a good way, necessarily.

G: Why is it they want to die?

Siddhananda: They want to be reborn, but, they want to be reborn in light.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: (long pause) I just feel something else, like they may be trying to destroy themselves. I just feel a little something funny.

G: Not in a beneficial way.

Siddhananda: Yeah, a little, even though they want light, they just want to go.

G: Just totally be gone.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: With no awareness.

Siddhananda: Yeah, just destroy the whole thing and be done. I do see a white flowing material on their head, which I don't know what that's about.

G: It's like a suicide type of a thing.

Siddhananda: It's what it feels like.

G: You want to do a suicide. So, what is it they want to do that for, when they can have absolute eternal life?

Spirit: I'm tired, I'm tired of this, I'm tired of feeling this way. I can't feel this way any longer.

G: Right.

Spirit: I just want to die, I want to jump, I want to be done.

G: There is a way to die that is beneficial. Die to the ego, which is actually going into life. So, if you really want to be done with that, if you are open to know God, you can put yourself on the altar of truth and let that ego be sacrificed to that.

Siddhananda: (pause) They can barely stand how they're feeling. They can barely breathe. They can't stand how they're feeling.

G: Exactly. So, lay yourself on the altar of truth and let go and let God.

Siddhananda: (pause) I do see another image and it is someone at an altar. There is light and they do have this white halo or white material falling on their head.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: Almost like all of a sudden we're in a church.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And it does look like an altar, and there is Christ, you know how they have those beautiful churches.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And the cross and Christ, but, he doesn't look bloody. He's like the beautiful Christ. The cross is behind him, it's not that dripping blood image. And, she's there praying by this altar with these candles. Actually, a very lovely image. It looks like a young girl, very sweet face.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: And, her head is down (has hands together in prayer) and then there’s candles and then Christ in this lovely church.

G: Aha. So, we'll ask that Christ and Mary appear to her, directly.

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, on the other side, it's very hazy. I do see that image standing by that ledge, so, that's still in her to die.

G: Right, she hasn't let go of that. So, let him know, let him go and teach her about the death that's eternal. That there is resurrection. That she doesn't need to carry all of this burden she's carrying.

Siddhananda: As you're speaking, I do see that white form swan-diving into this ocean water. I see it and then it's disappearing, but, she is still there at the altar. So, maybe that's her way of letting that fly and go.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: It was nice. It wasn't a bloody thing, it was just like a swan dive, like a release, that full release when someone does it that way.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And, actually it felt freeing.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: And she's there like a young girl. That light is coming with those beautiful candles and she's praying there and I think she is in really good hands there.

G: Yeah. So, we'll leave her there to find out that there's more. (laughing)

Siddhananda: Yeah, that was nice, too. (smiling)

Seeking righteousness

Siddhananda: (long pause with closed eyes) Okay, they want to know how to turn the wrong to the right.

G: (pause) By no longer doing the wrong.

Siddhananda: (smiling).

G: And by willing to go in and make reparations. (pause) They can always go back into form and work to right whatever they were doing that was wrong, be an advocate and that will lessen that karmic load.

Siddhananda: They would really like to do that. They would like to start travelling there now, actually.

G: I would suggest they go to the healing center first and get a little more wisdom on that and little more guidance.

Siddhananda: Nice.

G: ..so that they can make the right choices. They can have a little more to go on to make the right choices.

Siddhananda: Okay, and then maybe from there look at the next manifestation.

G: Right. They can take off, but, i would suggest first they go to the healing center and work with some of the guides and masters there that can give them a little more insight before they go into their next existence.

Siddhananda: Aha. Get some reflection on things.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: Makes sense, and that way they are going to have more awareness coming in and more preparation.

G: Exactly. More preparation and they will choose the right place they need to be to move forward in whatever they need do.

Siddhananda: Plus, they will have all those energies behind them helping to propel them in the right direction.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Very nice. Lucky again, very lucky for them.

Carrying a burden

Siddhananda: (showing a small light brownish stone) There we go. (pause) Okay. So, i see this little rock exactly like it is, but, now with a little dark.. (long pause) Okay, they have a lot of dross in them.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: (pause) [i] can feel that, just a lot of dirt, just a lot of crud.

G: Yeah. So, why are they carrying that?

Siddhananda: (pause) Almost like a big bag of it, stuffed with dross and dirt. Lets see (pause)

Spirit: I'm dirty.

G: Yeah, why did they say they're dirty? Why are they trying to carry that?

Siddhananda: (pause) [They're] saying people should shield their eyes to them. They're just so dirty and should be shunned. They should be locked up and imprisoned and all that.

G: Yeah. Why is that? Why do you think that way?

Siddhananda: (long pause) I heard something, but, i need to get clear that he did something awful, maybe even killed somebody.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: He was involved with something like that. (pause) He was there, he was present. I don't know if he did it, maybe, one of those kind of things.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: I do see a gun. (long pause) I'm just feeling some involvement, but, i don't know if he..

G: If he did it himself.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and i don't feel like he was the one, almost like he's trying to stop it, that kind of thing.

G: He got caught up in something.

Siddhananda: Yeah, he was caught up.

G: And he's taking all the guilt on himself. Ask him what would have happened if he actually tried to intervene?

Siddhananda: With that situation?

G: Yeah.

Spirit: My family would have been hurt.

G: Right.

Spirit: My family would have been slaughtered.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: It was one of those things.

G: Yeah. You did not do the actual killing, so, why are you taking this on?

Siddhananda: Yeah, let me make sure he didn't. (pause) He did not do the actual killing.

G: Right. So, why is he taking that on? (pause) He can't control other people's actions.

Siddhananda: He did some bad [thing] or something, so, he could get out of something, but, then he got into something, or, Something turned around. He was involved in something not so good, but, out of trying to help something else. So, it was one of those "Damned if you do, damned if you don't" things.

G: Right. Catch twenty two position.

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly. (pause) So, through him, through whatever happened, there were people hurt and killed. So, he's feeling it was his responsibility.

G: Does he know he can get forgiveness through Christ? (pause) He doesn't have to carry that heavy weight of the bag? (long pause) That God judges the hearts and the minds.

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, some of it is a little quieter. I keep hearing, "i should be shunned". I do see that bag of dirt there.

G: Yeah, it's time to let go of the dirt. He doesn't need to carry it. Like i said, God is the judge of the hearts and the minds, not, as much of the action, (pause) but, of the intent and things behind it. 

Siddhananda: Yeah. (pause) He's crying.

Spirit: I didn't mean to, i didn't mean to.

G: Exactly, exactly.

Siddhananda: He's just pouring out tears.

G: He's punished himself. It's not God that's punishing him. He's punishing himself.

Siddhananda: Yeah. He goes, "I'm so sorry for who got hurt, I didn't mean to".

G: Right. So, i think Christ needs to come in and he needs to have that forgiveness.

Siddhananda: And again, that's like the sun coming in, really.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: And, it is penetrating these rays. This time he is more angelic and ethereal and these rays are just penetrating all the way out.

G: Beautiful.

Siddhananda: Ooh, really [nice] imagery, i wish i could snap shot it. He's just like the sun, in this darkness.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Really could bring tears to your eyes for the look of it. I do feel Mary there too.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: They're very fortunate to have both, and Mary is there holding Christ's arm like they are one essence. And she's lovely, always. So, anyway, these rays are penetrating out and I see that bag of dirt, and what i'm seeing is light going through that.

G: Right, it's just going to cut through that bag.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And, all the dirt is going to come out, for sure.

Siddhananda: It's kind of cute, too, because it sounds like he gathered quite a few little green sprouts in there, either he gathered that or something was there, like this is growth.

G: Yeah, in the midst of darkness there is always a seed of light.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Or something that can grow from it that can be beneficial.

Siddhananda: Right, which is a nice image to see that the sprouts are still as fresh and green as can be. They're just little sprouts with this clumpy dirt, and the dirt is actually looking rich.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: The dirt is not even really dried out, so, it still has that hope of something good.

G: Yeah. It can regenerate into something else.

Siddhananda: Yeah. So, with this light going through that bag of, what he felt was, dirt [which] was a wrong notion. It wasn't that.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: But, that's what he felt and he carried it as a heaviness, which it was never that.

G: Right, he doesn't need to have that heaviness because that wasn't in his heart and mind.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: He was not doing it out of hate and anger and this and that. That was not it. He got caught up in something.

Siddhananda: And, that's the whole difference, like you say, it's the heart, it's the intention.

G: Right, he did what he did to protect his family.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: It wasn't done out of malice or greed or whatever.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: It wasn't done out of that.

Siddhananda: So, this light is going through that bag. It's a lovely image and i again wish i could give a snapshot, but, it comes and it goes.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: But anyway, I do see the bag and the light is going through the whole thing. I see the man a little bit more, looking like, just in wonder, like stopping and almost looks like a little child or someone that just saw light all of a sudden for the first time.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: That wonder of just being there (smiling) (gesturing with eyes wide open as in awe).

G: I don't have to carry this, i don't have to carry. No, you don't have to carry (smiling)

Siddhananda: Right. He even put his hand away from it. The bag is sitting there and he's just more sitting and looking. He's not even looking at that and focused on that bag anymore. And, that bag, all of a sudden, interestingly, turned into some gold coins.

G: (nodding in acknowledgement).

Siddhananda: It turned to some kind of riches in there.

G: Yeah, because he can learn a valuable lesson from that. That's a valuable lesson to be taken away from it. There is value in that.

Siddhananda: That's so good, Guruji, the way you put that, very nice! (pause) Beautiful.

G: He's got to understand what's judged is the heart and the mind. It wasn't his intent and he’s going by the actions, which he had nothing that he could do to prevent that, and taking all this on that doesn't need to be taken on.

Siddhananda: And, so, here he sits, you see him a very humble man, he looked like he was really poor, kind of desperate, and then there is this bag of gold next to him, but he's not looking at it, he's looking at Christ.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: That's the message of he's a humble man. He really is, a humble poor man.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: So, it's a beautiful image, and maybe we could just leave that there or what do you think?

G: We'll leave them. He will turn around, and he will be able to go forward from this point into some resting time and then go back into corporeal form and continue on in what he needs to continue with.

Siddhananda: For sure, and i do see some of those coins being poured and are kind of dispersed. It's just more light coming in, but, that was the symbol, like you said, that value in any kind of experience, there's value, there's something to learn.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: So, off it goes (moving stone over to a shelf).

G: Off he goes.

Siddhananda: That was a nice one, huh?

G: Yes.

Bag of Gold

Siddhananda: Okay, so next! We’ve got the same one that kind of has that little (showing a rock)…

G: Yes, that little, yes…

Siddhananda: …the little thingy in the center. It’s a cute rock! Okay. (pause) Okay, I’m hearing immediately, “What have I done to deserve this?” (laughing) Let’s see. Oh no, what have you done?

G: Deserving what?

Siddhananda: Yeah, maybe that’s it. He doesn’t know what he’s done. So, yeah, deserving what? (pause)

Spirit: I’m not happy.

Siddhananda: I said what’s going on with you? What’s your situation? He said, “I’m not happy?” He/she…

G: Uh huh. But, why are they not happy.

Siddhananda: I’m hearing him say, “Those bastards! Those bastards!”

G: Well, that could be why he’s not happy.

Siddhananda: (laughing) I’m seeing people racing after him with clubs, so I don’t know what happened.

G: With clubs, huh? Okay.

Siddhananda: Yikes! He’s holding something. He’s running.

G: What’s he holding?

Siddhananda: Looks like a bag. Let’s see if he stole something.

G: A bag of what?

Siddhananda: He said he stole something that belonged to him and he got it back.

G: Uh huh. And that’s what killed him?

Siddhananda: They stole it from him and he went to get it back. Something of value, I don’t know, in that bag. I don’t know. 


G: And he’s still dragging it?

Siddhananda: (laughing) The bag you mean?

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: He is. Some kind of jewelry. And so it’s shiny and he’s like, “Ooh, but I got it.” Let’ see. So what do you need from us? (pause) He wants to get back there to clear his name, to make himself… because people thought he stole or he was bad or something. He died…

G: I hate to be the bearer of bad tidings, but does he not see that he’s not in form anymore and all of that is passed away? (laughing)

Siddhananda: Yeah, because I just see him alone and kind of floating with this bag.

G: Yeah, does he not see that he’s already left the body, so where is he going to go back to and convince who? Nine out of 10, the people that he was with, they are all passed as well. They have all died and moved on. Who is he going to go back and tell?

Siddhananda: (laughing) Because it sounds like it was way back, they had clubs and all that back then. Torches, I don’t know. It was a while ago.

G: Right, so where in the heck is he going to go back to?

Siddhananda: I don’t know. He doesn’t know. That’s what I mean. They hold on to this stuff. He wants to go back to that land. He wants to go back to that time and right the scales. That’s how he will right those scales is that way.

G: Yeah, well, you can’t go back in time. It moves forward. There is no going back in time. (laughing) There is no time machine. You cannot go back in time and everybody you knew then has all died and moved forward.

Siddhananda: Another bubble burster, huh? Can’t go back. (laughing)

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: He’s like maybe they have passed, but I could relive it. I could relive it. I could do that.

G: Well, he has been reliving it, for how many eons?

Siddhananda: Yeah, that’s right.

G: What does he think he has been doing? He’s reliving it for how many eons? Isn’t he ready to let go of that and move forward?

Siddhananda: He said to me, “What is she talking about like that? Why is she talking that way? I’m going to go back.”

G: It’s because it’s the truth of the matter, that’s why I am talking like that. There’s no way you can go back. You can’t go back in time. Impossible.

Siddhananda: Don’t people have those powers, he’s wondering.

G: No. It’s not going to do you any good to go back in time. You can only go forward.

Siddhananda: Can he find them in his next life and take care of this whole thing?

G: What are you going to take care of? You go into your next life and you just live it in a genuine manner. That’s it.

Siddhananda: He’s settling down a little. It’s like bursting his bubble a bit.

G: Yeah, well, that’s the truth of it. If he wants to go in, he can go back into another form. He can go back into another corporeal form. That’s not the problem.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: But he’s stuck in time. He’s stuck on an event. Yeah, so he can get a chance to right scales in some manner. But not exactly like what he was thinking he would go back and it was going to be exactly the same situation.

Siddhananda: Yeah, I asked if he was hearing what you are saying. He’s like, “I am. I am. I’m just being dumb, aren’t I? I’m stupid.” He’s saying, I guess.

G: It’s not stupid. You just got to learn and be willing to move forward. You’re keeping yourself stuck and keeping yourself miserable and trying to hang on to something that is no longer even there.

Siddhananda: I’m seeing more light come in. It’s calmer. It’s more like a giving up feeling of that sort of thing. A good giving up.

G: Exactly. You get a chance to come back and the scales will be righted in some manner. But you can’t go back into time and force something that absolutely can’t take place. The universe is going to right it in some manner, but you got to be willing to go forward.

Siddhananda: Yeah, he’s handing me a piece of jewelry from his bag and saying, “Can I give this to you?”

G: Well, thank you for that.

Siddhananda: Because he’s grateful. He feels more relaxed. He feels more like he just can kind of sit there a while.

G: Yeah, he can sit there a while and then be ready to go back into existence, back into another corporeal body. And the universe will give it a chance to be righted in some manner. But, he’s got to let the universe work it out in the way it’s going to work out. We can’t direct how it’s going to work out.

Siddhananda: Yeah, I see it is a full moon or something. I think his image, he was holding that on his shoulders. He’s saying, “I was holding all that up. That’s not mine to do anymore, to try to rectify what needs to be rectified and change what should be changed. That’s not mine to carry.”

G: Right, it’s not yours to carry anymore. The universe will help. It will bring a chance for things to be righted. But in order to do that, you have to be willing to go back into corporeal form and yes, you reincarnate with a lot of the same energies and people and there will be a chance to have it righted.

Siddhananda: So he’s grateful. He’s still got his jewelry pieces there. He wants to just throw them out. He wants to throw that jewelry out in a way and let go of that.

G: Yeah, it’s time to let go of that and move forward.

Siddhananda: So, he’s throwing that out into the cosmos. It looks like it was gold. He’s been carrying it a long time.

G: It’s heavy.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Gold is beautiful, but it can be very heavy to be lugging that around.

Siddhananda: He’s dumping all out into the cosmos. So it’s sparkling, raining down. He’s lighter feeling. So, he’s grateful. Could he have a practice or the COS or something, too?

G: Yeah, he can have the COS. Absolutely! And the “I Am That I am” and the “Om That I am.”

Siddhananda: He’s very grateful. Thank you so much!

G: And take your time to refresh and then be willing to go back into a corporeal body and continue forward.

Siddhananda: He’s grateful. He feels like a different man without holding to those possessions.

G: Yeah, that stuff is heavy.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And he’s been carrying around that anger and that angst for so long. It’s time to let go of it.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And be free of it.

Siddhananda: Yeah, so he’s very grateful. So that’s good. It’s definitely better.

G: Yeah. Absolutely! Namaste.

Siddhananda: Namaste.

Drop the Armor

Siddhananda: Okay, so I see this little rock with a white aura around it. Okay, so they remember when they were young and so carefree. They feel like they have been hardened now. They were running through the fields, laughing and playing. No worries about tomorrow.  Now, it’s different, of course, with them. Calloused. Hardened.

G: Right. 

Siddhananda: Protecting themselves.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Like a suit of armor, almost.

G: Right.

Spirit: How can I break out of this coat of armor?

G: By giving themselves permission to let go of the armor and find out that they are fine.

Siddhananda: They will be vulnerable then, they feel.

G: Yeah, well, now you are encased in a prison of your own making. Do you like the prison?

Siddhananda: Shut, you choose, right?

G: Right, you choose.

Siddhananda: They don’t like it. They can’t really feel this way.

G: Exactly!

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: So let go and be free.

Siddhananda: I see that child in their heart. It’s laughing and playing. It’s in their heart. But, they’ve got this armor around them, so it can’t really be that joyful and all of that innocence can’t be released.

G: Right, but they put that armor on and they can take it off.

Siddhananda: What will happen if they take it off, they are wondering.

G: Nothing. They will be lighter. (laughter)

Siddhananda: (nodding) They have a sword, too.

G: Yeah, they are ready for battle.

Siddhananda: Yeah, they are defending or ready to protect whatever they are protecting. You know, come on!

G: Exactly, exactly! There is in the end no death. So, what are you protecting?

Siddhananda: Okay, they are crying now. They are afraid of being vulnerable and their emotions were so strong and things that they are just afraid to feel. They are afraid to feel. They want to feel though now.

G: Then they have to let go of the fear first and they have to be able to move forward. You have to open the door. You can’t sit there be in fear and not open the door, because you have got yourself in a prison of your own making. You have to be willing to open the door and let in the light. Be able to stand out.

Siddhananda: Okay, there is some kind of connection being made now. I see that suit of armor. There is a door that’s open. There is some kind of darkness, but it could just be his own releasing of whatever.

G: Right, it’s his own shadows that he has collected, fears and dramas, and things around it. But, obviously, now he is no longer in body. He can see, what is there to protect any longer?

Siddhananda: Not even a body.

G: No, there’s not even a body there. There’s not even a corporeal. You are that eternal spirit. At this point, there’s nothing there that you need to protect.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Yeah. So, I think that in this case it would be good to have the feminine in there as well. Ask Mother Mary to come in. (pause)

Siddhananda: Such a soft, beautiful, gentle, loving, pure energy compared to them. You see this whatever energy in this armor and it’s brown and dark. And this contrast, it couldn’t be more different. It couldn’t be more polar opposites than what you would imagine.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: So, that soft light is touching that shield and there’s more quietude. He’s kind of like, “Okay, what’s this?” It’s working with that. It’s really like the sun, just working to melt the ice, is really what it is.

G: Exactly! Exactly. So he’s got to see that there is nothing there for him to fear.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: What’s opening is that love and acceptance, so he needs to be willing to drop the armor and step into that.

Siddhananda: Okay, I see part of a foot like with pants. It’s more looking like a regular person that may step out of this armor just a little bit and it’s starting to fade a little bit with this armor kind of dissolving. It was an energetic holding or pattern that’s beginning to disperse and it’s going… it’s swirling.

G: Yeah, you can always let go of old patterns, but you just have to step into the consciousness that you want to be in.

Siddhananda: He didn’t realize that, that’s what he’s saying. He didn’t know what to do.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: So that’s the situation. But, he is feeling this and it is dissolving that calcification and that pure beauty is there.

G: Right. What you seek is within. He seeks that childlike space. Well, it’s right there within him, but he’s got to let go of the exterior that is keeping it from manifesting. It’s still right there.

Siddhananda: As you mention child, I do see more of a child running freely through these green pastures, catching butterflies and all that beauty, innocence, laughter and joy.

G: Absolutely, they haven’t lost it. They just calcified around it to where it’s not manifesting outward any longer. They’ve got themselves in a prison, trying to keep themselves safe. They sit there and they’ve really got themselves locked away and they aren’t safe at all like that. They are miserable. (laughing)

Siddhananda: He’s crying. Yes, it is miserable. It is indeed miserable to be locked in and locked out.

G: Right. So you’ve got to open the door.

Siddhananda: It’s coming. I can see more of an energy on their knees and then I see part of the shield (moving her hands around her face), so it’s not covering him anymore. He’s crying. He’s melting. You can see that child running more free, not just locked in his chest, or wherever… chest more with sorrow there.

G: Right. Yeah.

Siddhananda: Yes, it’s definitely melting things down.

G: Yeah. We’ll leave them over in the healing center.

Siddhananda: Okay.

G: We’ll leave them to work on that, yeah. He’s just got to see that he created that shell and he can take it off.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: That’s really as simple as that.

G: It’s as simple as that. You just have to be willing to come out of your fears and challenge it and pick a better way for yourself. That’s all.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and what you see with this, whether in body or not, these are just energetic patterns. In their mind, there is a body, there is a persona. It’s like an energy, it’s more of a holding of a pattern or something.

G: Exactly. It’s one thing if you are actually in form, corporeal form, and you are being abused or something and you are protecting yourself in whatever way you can.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: But, it’s another thing when that’s gone that you no longer need to have that.

Siddhananda: Right, and as you say even without a body and in that arena, it would seem like even less of a threat. But then again, you are also totally open. It just feels like that so much with this spirit, many times they don’t always sense the difference. They kind of stay in that same…

G: Right.

Siddhananda: That’s it. They are not sensing…

G: They haven’t seen that they are no longer in corporeal form.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: There is nothing there to protect.

Siddhananda: Exactly.

G: It’s absolutely free.

Siddhananda: Exactly. You would think that would be cognized, but it’s really not for some.

G: It’s not. They are still so stuck in that mentality and that consciousness they haven’t taken a look to see that there is no corporeal form.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: The form they are in is eternal.

Siddhananda: That’s the thing. It just continues on that same course. Okay, the body falls away, the same course. That’s the wake up call that’s here and the ones that get it, they don’t need this counsel. They are off with whatever they need.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: So, anyway, it’s just interesting. Okay!

G: It’s like what they say. It’s the ill that needs the physician, not the well.

Siddhananda: For sure! They are not going to come.

G: They are already off continuing forward.

Siddhananda: Yeah. In that regard, then it comes down to the exact same counsel as here. For them, many feel that they are still in that same kind of conditionings, same exact thing.

G: They still have those conditionings and they are still wound up by it. But that just shows how important it is to do the work here.

Siddhananda: Totally, one hundred percent! I think that’s the main message that should hit home, because you don’t get out of it.

G: You don’t get out of it.

Siddhananda: You continue… yeah, it continues…

G: You don’t get out of things, so you need to do the work while you are here.

Siddhananda: That’s right.

G: You can still stay stuck in the same dramas on the other side as you are here if you don’t handle your stuff while you are here.

Siddhananda: Exactly! That’s really the main “bing” and I see in my head red “Ring! Ring! Ring” (like an alarm). That’s it. (laughing) Listen, because that’s really the main message. You’ve got some flashing lights.

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: Trying to get your attention to that. It’s just something else.

Christ Light

Siddhananda: So, here we go with this next one. It's another nice little one (showing a clear translucent stone).

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: (long pause with closed eyes) Okay, i'm seeing some different things flowing through. So, i need to let that settle a little bit.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: (long pause) Okay. I guess the main thing is they want to find the right path to God.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: I saw some things float up. I did see a tree, like a birch type of tree. I have seen an image of Mother Mary. I did see the cross.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: That may give you an idea of where this one's energy is.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: So, more christian based.

G: Right. And Christ has opened that, anyone can enter the holy of holies which the heart is, you enter into the holy of holies.

Siddhananda: (long pause) Okay, they start to say a few things and that falls away, so, that's nice (laugh) They're getting more still.

G: Yeah. (pause) Yeah, it used to be [that] only the high priest could enter the holy of holies. If anybody else did, they would die. In fact, when the priests go in, they used to be really old tradition.

Siddhananda: Aha.

G: They would tie rope on them [so that] in case they died, they would have to pull them out, because nobody was allowed to go into the holy of holies, you would die.

Siddhananda: Wow!

G: And, it's like the ego death, but, if you go in the holy of holies, there is that ego death.

Siddhananda: Aha.

G: But, nothing really dies.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Nobody sees the face of the father and lives, is what they say too.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: They would hide in the crevices and when God would go by they wouldn't look because you would die. You see the face of the father, you die. It talks about the ego death. The ego dies the illusion.

Siddhananda: Aha, yeah.

G: Okay. Like Christ said, if you see me you have seen the face of the father that sent me, his energy and what he is, in his message. [It] is directly that.

Siddhananda: Right. It's like one and the same.

G: Yes. So, this one can go and sit at the feet of Christ and really get that message and really get that teaching and that lesson.

Siddhananda: (pause)

G: Many many lessons. Many many teachings.

Siddhananda: Okay. So, Christ is there, just vibrant white today and just white! (pause) Sometimes the image comes through a little different, but, this is one of just white robes.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Everything white. A white candle, halo, the whole works. (laughing) In all his splendor. What can i say! Decked out, in beauty.

G: (smiling) Yes.

Siddhananda: So. (pause) It looks like they are more up from afar a little bit. Usually sometimes they are right there at Christ's feet. This one is more form afar looking.

G: Yeah, tell him he can go there. There is nothing that needs to keep him separate from Christ.

Siddhananda: Okay.

G: Christ is there. He is always present. He's available.

Siddhananda: Literally as you spoke, i see this energy walking forward.

G: Yeah. He doesn't need to stay away, he doesn't need an intermediary. He can be there.

Siddhananda: They just were looking, but, now they are walking there and i can feel their walk, walking there. Getting closer. (pause) They are sitting there. They (the spirit) are bowing their head on his feet and Christ is looking down. Christ is just, like i say, decked out.. i mean, so beautiful. He (the spirit) is putting his head on his feet. And Christ has the Candle. Christ is touching his head, what a lucky fellow.

G: Oh, giving him the light.

Siddhananda: He is a lucky, lucky one!

G: Yes. Bringing that light. The holy spirit and that light. Yeah, i'm sure with that he is going to give him internal light, so.

Siddhananda: He is good to go, i would say.

G: He's in very good hands.

Siddhananda: No doubt.

G: So, he will find what he is seeking right there.

Siddhananda: Always, always, like i say, never fails, that energy coming. Always beautiful to behold.

G: Yes.

Balancing the Energy

Siddhananda: So, let's move forward (showing a small translucent stone with yellow edges).

G: Moving On.

Siddhananda: Moving On.

G: That's a big one.

Siddhananda: Isn't it a pretty one?

G: I like that one a lot.

Siddhananda: Kind of shimmery and clear.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: (long pause with closed eyes) I'm just going to put out whatever i'm hearing, "eruption of forces."

G: Eruption of forces, okay.

Siddhananda: "Leave a lasting impression."

G: Aha. Okay.

Siddhananda: (pause) "I cannot be still with this eruption going on."

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: "My mind, my body is erupting like a volcano."

G: Aha, okay.

Siddhananda: "I cannot find myself in this eruption."

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: "Where am i?"

G: So, have you come here to be still?

Siddhananda: "I would like to be. I want to be more settled. This is hard. I am constantly exploding, in a way."

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: i see some materials exploding and then (pause) some solid formations exploding. There's a light, but, it comes back again and explodes.

G: Yeah, i think he needs to have Kali come in.

Siddhananda: (long pause with closed eyes) Okay, that energy is trying to get more balanced.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: More in alignment, versus all this (making a sound as if something's exploding).

G: Right.

Siddhananda: (pause) I'm just seeing a formation of a line coming up (moving hand up and down the body/Spine).

G: Aha

Siddhananda: But, there is a fire . There's this containing it a little bit more.

G: Yeah, because the energy is scattered everywhere and they need to have it brought into focus.

Siddhananda: Yeah. So, they can actually settle a little and also be able to work with it.

G: Do that process [of cutting] mental spins that are going on and everything, so, Kaili is very good for that. Cutting through all of that drama and stuff.. (pause) to unify those forces, bring them to into alignment.

Siddhananda: Okay, i see some black Kali there and fire under her feet and i see ego, like she stamps, steps, stomping it out.

G: Yeah, exactly.

Siddhananda: She's stomping out ego and ego is in that fire and she is just stomping on it.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: In that fire (laughing) and the little ego has head on it's side with tongue out.

G: And, i think we'll also have Shiva come in for this one.

Siddhananda: Wow, nice! Lucky, huh?

G: Nataraj. We need that nataraj in there as well.

Siddhananda: You want Shiva nataraj.

G: Yep, it's going to take two of them. Shiva and Kali. Nataraj and Kali.

Siddhananda: Okay, immediately i saw more Shiva-ish, but, Shiva nataraj is there too. They're all there, the regular Shiva with the chandra and then Shiva nataraj. Shiva is big, looming there with almost encompassing the whole thing.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: With his chandra and the open eye (pointing to the middle of the forehead) and everything.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: So, that's there. Man, lucky, lucky energy. Kali is working at stomping out that ego in the fire and then Shiva nataraj is just there waiting , just waiting.

G: Yeah, let her do her thing first.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and then that will come into being. So, it's there waiting and then Shiva is there looming over the whole. What a nice scene!

G: (smiling).

Siddhananda: ..and it's really what happens, because that work is being done with kali just stomping, putting that ego in the fire. Ego hasn't died yet, but, she's at least containing it, making it towards the good. Towards something that's going to be in that purity, in the end. Fires of purification, versus all this (moving hands around the head).

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Reforming and exploding, reforming, exploding. It's contained in that.

G: Right. She can help to cut all of that stuff and help to burn away that dross out.

Siddhananda: Oh, boy. That's no joke, that ego is being stomped out in that fire, but, he's not dead yet. But, he is burning and she is stomping on him, it's no joke.

G: Yeah. she will get the job done. She doesn't mess around.

Siddhananda: Man!

G: She is that concentration of Durga, She is absolutely that one hundred percent concentrated energy and will just really nail it.

Siddhananda: Wow!

G: If something needs to be nailed, Kali will do it.

Siddhananda: And that's what's happening. So, boy, i wonder if we should just let this happen a while? what do you think Guruji?

G: Yeah, we need let them work on that.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And we'll check with him tomorrow.

Siddhananda: Sounds good.

G: So we'll put him up on that second shelf as well.

Siddhananda: Second shelf, okay.

G: The healing center.

Siddhananda: Okay. I was drawn to this clear cross back there. I might put him back there.

G: Yeah, we could put him back there, that's fine.

Siddhananda: That's by the healing center, too. They really got all this energy coming in, man, they're lucky! Because i felt like they were working it, trying to explode that solid mind body connection and, it wasn't happening.

G: Right

Siddhananda: It wasn't been funneled in the right direction.

G: Right. They were having a lot of energy, a lot of stuff coming up.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: And trying to explode that ego stuff.

Siddhananda: Exactly.

G: And trying to get rid of it, trying to explode the buildings etc.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: That happens with kundalini.

Siddhananda: Right, yeah. Formations.

G: And it was stuck.

Siddhananda: Exactly.

G: It was just very scattered. And somewhere along the way he got lost.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: He was either not with a real competent teacher or.. i don't know what exactly happened, but, it needed to have that extra boost (laughing).

Siddhananda: Yeah, exactly. So, that is good because i can see some ashes in my mind, so, it's coming, it's coming.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: Lucky fella, i tell you, lucky man or woman or person or energy, i don't know.

G: Yeah, well, they have been doing some work.

Siddhananda: Yeah. Definitely.

G: They worked for a while, so, it was time, yeah.

Siddhananda: That's the thing because it's just like you say, it's those buildings, those structures exploding, all of it, that, heavy structures that are in place, big cities of structures or whatever.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: It's just exploding and that's what's happening, but, they needed that. The Kali energy is what brings balance, if it's done in the right way.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: Like you say, it can also be a deluder, too. It can make things harder.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: But, with this, it was ready, boom, so.

G: Yeah, they have been going through that for a while. So, it was time to just say ok, let's get the heavy artillery in here and knock this out (laughing).

Siddhananda: They're a lucky man. I just saw an image of Shiva, so strong.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: So nice. Nice to see him. We haven't called him out for a while.

G: Yeah, we haven't called Shiva too much, so, we can call Shiva some more and maybe we'll even call Shiva in with our one that's being worked on.

Siddhananda: Yeah, he's such a beautiful image with that trishula, beautiful face, that knot and the ganges (has hand over the top of the head) and the blue. Just a nice image.

G: Yeah, with the ganges and everything.

Siddhananda: I love that image, okay.

G: Yeah. A little Shiva interlude today. (smiling).

Siddhananda: (laughing) Yeah, that was nice.

Remain in the Heart

Siddhananda: (Showing an yellow stone). (pause). Okay, they want to be inside the heart.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: [They want to] find that place with no separation, no division.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: (pause). i'm not getting too much right now.

G: Yeah. For that one, the "Om That I Am", the "I Am That I Am" and the COS, and just remain [with] your consciousness inside the heart, and let those work to expand and just continue to remain there.

Siddhananda: Okay (hand on heart).

G: Yeah. So, we will leave you with that practice. Namaste (hand on heart).

Siddhananda: Namaste.

Path of Light

Siddhananda: (Showing a small blue stone). Another pretty color.

G: hmm hmm. Blue lace agate.

Siddhananda: Oh, is that what that's called?

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: Nice! (pause). Okay, they're interested in the path of Light.

G: Okay. 

Siddhananda: (pause). They just want to take something that's beneficial for that with them.

G: Okay, they can do the COS. 

Siddhananda: Okay. That's being transmitted. (hand on heart).

G: Okay. Namaste (hand on heart).

What is this I

Siddhananda: (Showing a small green stone). (pause). Okay, [they're saying] "i desire to know myself beyond my form and my mind."

G: hmm hmm. Okay.

Siddhananda: (pause). They just watched. They're trying to be a witness more of things.

G: hmm hmm. They can start to question what is this i and see what it is. 

Siddhananda: (pause).

G: You can do the "I Am That I Am" and the "Om That I Am", and sit in contemplation of what is this i, and see what it's not.

Siddhananda: (pause). Okay, they're asking "and just be still with that?"

G: Be still with that. (nodding).

Siddhananda: Okay. i see that dropping like a drop into their consciousness.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: [They're] taking that in, "what is this i", so (hand on heart).

G: Okay. So, thank you for that. Namaste (hand on heart). 

Light beyond lights

Siddhananda: We've got some cute stones here.

G: Oh, yeah.

Siddhananda: That's cute, (showing a small stone), it's got a little stripe and then see the little end. It's just a cute pattern on there.

G: hmm hmm. (smiling).

Siddhananda: (pause). Okay, they are not of this world, they're from a different place [that's] more of light.

G: Okay. Another realm.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: A light realm.

Siddhananda: hmm hmm. (pause).

Spirit: i drink in light, i am light, i bask in light, i live light.

G: Okay.

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, they just want to keep going into Truth.

G: hmm hmm. So, they can open themselves up to the Light beyond lights. There is a step beyond where they're at. There is a Light beyond lights. And if they are willing to open themselves totally to that, they can experience that Light beyond lights.

Siddhananda: Okay, they're asking how do i go there. Do i take my.. car that floats? (laughing).

G: No, you don't take.. No, you say "On the altar of Truth, i give myself" and you surrender one hundred percent to That.

Siddhananda: (pause)

G: And ask that that God presence would fill you, one hundred percent, would take you.

Siddhananda: So, they're saying i don't need to go anywhere?

G: No. It's there inside the essence of your heart, it's there. That Light beyond lights is what gives you life. And one surrenders into that entirely. The Holy of holies is there. Ever present.

Siddhananda: Okay, they are just sitting with that, drinking it in. Their place is alive with a lot of light waterfalls and..

G: They're in a very much more rarefied place than it is here. It is very much higher transitional, they have a much higher vibration there. But, they still have further to go. So, you have to open your heart to the Holy of holies and there's a Light beyond lights. It vibrates so quickly that it's not seen on your place. It's so bright.

Siddhananda: Okay, they're just going to sit with that. They don't have to go anywhere, so, they'll sit with that, bask in whatever beauty is offered there.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: And open up.

G: You just have to totally open that door and ask for that door to be opened and be willing to sacrifice yourself into that.

Siddhananda: Okay, i see a door opening. So, they are acknowledging that.

G: Yeah.

Siddhananda: So, (hand on heart).

G: So, Namaste (gesturing namaste).

Siddhananda: Namaste.

Surrender like Christ

Siddhananda: This one's cute (picking the next stone), almost looks like a heart.

G: hmm hmm. A nice blue heart! Doesn't it look like a blue heart? (smiling)

Siddhananda: Yes. It matches my dress!

G: It does! (smiling) Your little blue heart. 

Siddhananda: Very blue.

G: Yes, sparkling blue.

Siddhananda: (pause). Okay, they're saying "i try my hardest to be in Christ consciousness."

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: "And i am not there, how come?"

G: And you're not there, how come? Have you surrendered one hundred percent to what's been brought to you? The difficult as well as the easy?

Siddhananda: (pause) They bemoaned some things.

G: They what?

Siddhananda: Bemoaned or were not happy with some things that came.

G: Exactly. One has to accept them. When the difficult times come, one has to surrender into that, like Christ was surrendered into the cross. That was his Path. He surrendered to it. It wasn't easy. He sweat blood in the Garden of Gethsemane. He was not thrilled to go there, but, he accepted that. That's what had to be done. He accepted and surrendered into it fully and surrendered into God.

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, this energy is saying your words sound sweet, and they're just resonating and shifting the energy there.

G: hmm hmm. So, we're going to call Christ in and let Christ instruct this one and give the full depth of that, what that is to walk the journey. 

Siddhananda: (pause). Christ is there.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: Still little murky. i'm asking if this one feels Christ there.

G: Yeah, you have to open to the genuine Christ, not your ideas about [Christ].

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, there's an image rising up now from the rock, it's like a female coming forward with that. So, they are coming forward.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: They just felt separate from that [before].

G: Now's their chance to open and commune directly with Christ, a hundred percent communing with that energy. 

Siddhananda: Okay, so they are moving forward into that energy, and, i do see some light beam coming into their heart, into their presence, which is really nice.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: Feels a little distant to me, but, that doesn't matter as some of them can be farther away.

G: hmm hmm.

Siddhananda: Okay, now there's a clear seeing of Christ there, becoming more clear.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: It's good. Again, it's that thing of looking up and Christ coming down. So, i think it's a good thing.

G: Right. Exactly. So, we'll leave them to process here for a while. 

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Sometimes, they have an idea about something and haven't really opened to it. Sounds like she's got ideas about what it is to be Christ and that Christ energy. 

Siddhananda: Yeah, sure.

G: And, it's different than what the actual path of Christ is. 

Siddhananda: Oh, my goodness, sure!

G: She needs to be clued into the reality versus her ideas about it. 

Siddhananda: Totally.

Beauty of Love

Siddhananda: Let's see what we got next. Another little bit of a darker one (showing a small, slightly dark stone).

G: Not nearly as dark (smiling), it's got a little more clarity (comparing with previous stone that was worked with).

Siddhananda: Much more clarity (smiling). (pausing with closed eyes). Okay, i do see this rock. i see some light, it does have little grey in it. But, the light is coming from it, has a little bit of grey around the edges.

G: hmm hmm. 

Siddhananda: Okay, i'm hearing "Speak to me about love. Tell me the beauty of love."

G: Okay. Yeah, love is... when you really love something, you give yourself one hundred percent totally to it. You become that which you love. You lose yourself and become that which you love.

Siddhananda: As you are speaking, i do feel that resonating in terms of that love changes and yet you don't lose it. You still have that.

G: No, you don't lose it. You don't lose anything. That's the whole thing about Bhakti path. You love so much that you surrender into it so completely that you lose yourself in that, and you become that which you seek. That's the path of Love, you lose yourself and you become that which you seek.

Siddhananda: Yeah. And the feeling i'm getting from this energy is the love one. There's even broader love and it doesn't take the beauty away.

G: No, it doesn't take the beauty away, and that expands out to other, as well. 

Siddhananda: Expands out (nodding).

G: Yeah. Usually, with a Bhakti Path, you're focused on either Krishna or Christ or Mary, whatever it is that you love, and you surrender, give yourself to it one hundred percent totally until there is nothing left of you and there's just that other remains. The beauty of that Other remains, and one becomes That. 

Siddhananda: (nodding).

G: One becomes that energy. 

Siddhananda: There is just light coming from this little stone, and they're grateful and they are settled with that.

G: Yeah. So, find that which you seek. You're embodiment of love, that ultimate which you seek, that purity of love; become that and surrender into that, one hundred percent. 

Siddhananda: And they are showing two rivers coming together. That's what they're showing as a way of saying they understand that.

G: Okay. Namaste, thank you for coming. (gesturing namaste). 

Siddhananda: (hand on heart).

The Work on the Path

Siddhananda: So, here's our next little nugget of whatever (showing a small brown/greenish stone). Nugget of good or bad or in between, i don't know.

G: (smiling) Exactly.

Siddhananda: (long pause) Okay, they're saying, "where are the holy men, where are the holy waters."

G: Where are the holy men, where are the holy waters? Why does he want to look for the holy men and the holy waters? What is that he's seeking?

Siddhananda: (pause) They're saying "I seek to gather light from that.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: (pause) Let me find out a little more about him.

G: Yeah. (pause) And what is he going to do with that light?

Siddhananda: He's saying his practice has been to just lay his head on the holy men's feet or by the pure waters.

G: (pause) Aha. He think he's going to get by osmosis. (laughing).

Siddhananda: (laughing) Alright. That's what he wants to do. That's the easier way, right? (laughing)

G: Right, i'm just going to get there and just soak it up and get by osmosis. No, you have to actually walk the path and do the practices yourself.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Unless  you're just seeking entertainment. Is he seeking entertainment or does he actually want to attain..?

Siddhananda: (pause with closed eyes) He likes the transmission light.

G: Well. there is a transmission light, but, it takes some effort on your part. You have to actually begin to walk and do things for yourself.

Siddhananda: (pause) Again, it feels like another stubborn one. He's not wanting to hear that, as much. He wants to be directed to the holy men and women  and waters and just sit there.

G: Okay. Goodbye.

Siddhananda: Bing.

G: I'm not introducing him to Christ, i'm not introducing him any of them.

Siddhananda: No.

G: We have people there, but, he's got to  be willing to do something, and you think you're going to sit there and get by osmosis and it's going to force you to change,

Siddhananda: Aha.

G: That's not going to happen. Pull him again for a minute. Is he still here?

Siddhananda: Oh, let's see. Yeah, he is.

G: Okay, does he understand that you're not just going to get by sitting there, that you have to put the stuff into effect?

Siddhananda: (pause) He doesn't want to hear that. He doesn't want to hear that.

G: Of course not! Well, then i'm sorry, it's going to be a number of lifetimes before... because that's the reality. You want a fantasy. You want entertainment. We're not here to entertain you and i'm not going to waste the holy men's time for you. They're not here to entertain you. This is not a ride you pay your money and get in and you have the ride of the Holy transmission and you're not willing to move forward in your life. No no no.

Siddhananda: Yeah, he is being stubborn.

G: Well, it's his right, he can be stubborn all he wants to, but, no holy teacher has to work with him. Does he understand that?

Siddhananda: He just started to say, "wait, i want to hear it, i want to hear it."

G: Okay, because no teacher has to work with any student. It's when the student is ready that the teacher will come , but, if the student is not ready and they just want to have entertainment ride, you're wasting their time and taking up this valuable transmission for egotistical way and we're not here to do that.

Siddhananda: (pause) Okay, he's stammering a little bit more, because i heard him say, "i think i don't know anything."

G: (nodding) Yeah.

Siddhananda: Something is getting in there.

G: We have many teachers here that are willing to work with people, but, the thing is work with them, not just give them free ride. This is not Disneyland. This is not spiritual Disneyland. You don't come here and buy a ticket and want the transmission and not willing to do any work.

Siddhananda: Yeah, of course, and that won't last that way anyway.

G: NO (shaking her head).

Siddhananda: It wouldn't be lasting unless you face yourself. You have to face yourself, bottom line, and, it maybe easier around that, but, it will come again and you got to face it.

G: Right, you have to. The transmission is there to stir the things up.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: It's not there for you to be in la la land with.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: And if people are just using for la la land, that teacher will walk away.

Siddhananda: That's the thing and i think a lot of people get addicted to just that transmission or something and...

G: Exactly, they become what I call shakti whores. (laughing)

Siddhananda: Yeah, and it ends up where they're not really facing their stuff.

G: No.

Siddhananda: They're not looking at their crap and it's just going to keep on being reborn, i hate to
say it, unless you really look at it.

G: Exactly. They're just spinning their wheels. So, if you're just going to be there spinning your wheels, eventually the teacher will pull the plug on that and say, no way. If you're not willing to do the work, i'm not here to provide a free ride for you and entertain you.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and as you say that, it really is there to make it come forward and to make everything surface, all the dirt and all the crap , but, you have to look at it and let it go. The teacher can't do that for you. The transmission won't do it for you.

G: Right, right.

Siddhananda: So, let's see (long pause). Okay, again i'm hearing that word try. I would like to try to be humble.

G: Well, he can't try. You are either willing to do it or you're not.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: But, if you're going to try, it means you have already decided "well, i'm really not up for the effort."

Siddhananda: Right, because you can still feel that stubbornness in trying.

G: Like Christ said, anyone who puts their hand to the plough and then turns back is not worthy of it.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: You have. There's no trying, that's what the word try [means], "i'll put my hands to it, but then,
i'm going to bail." No, there's no trying. You either are willing to do it are you're not.

Siddhananda: Yeah, absolutely. Let me just see what his choice is.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: (pause) He's saying light, but, let's see how he handles what you have to say.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: (pause) He's acknowledging what you said, but, that doesn't mean he's taking it in.

G: Aha.

Siddhananda: He's just saying he's acknowledging it.

G: Okay. So, are you willing to walk a path or are you not?

Siddhananda: He just keeps saying i would like to try, so, i don't know what to do with him.

G: NO, when you're ready... When you're actually ready for it, you can come back.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: When you're ready to do it, not, i'll say i 'll try and give yourself a open door for bailing because it's useless for a teacher to try to work with somebody if they're not really ready for it.

Siddhananda: No, absolutely. I still feel a stubbornness in him like he just wants to acknowledge it, but in terms of accepting it that's another thing.

G: Exactly, he's trying to find a loophole and a door to backdoor it and get what he wants.

Siddhananda: Yeah, that's it. Exactly.

G: I'm sorry, but, i'm not here to cater to your ego. That's what i'm not here for.

Siddhananda: Yeah, and i think whatever you give him, to just grab onto the transmission aspect of it and not really look at himself.

G - Exactly, that's what i mean. He's trying to backdoor a way in. It doesn't' work with me.

Siddhananda: He's saying no, i'm a good man, i'm not that way.

G: Okay, then you're ready to go forward right?

Siddhananda: I'm having a hard time hearing.

G: Yeah.(pause) The path is hard. The path is hard. To walk a spiritual path is hard. It takes self sacrifice. It takes putting yourself on the line. If you're not willing to do that and just want a free ride, then, you're not ready.

Siddhananda: Okay, i'll ask him. Give him one more chance and ask him.

G: Yeah, you get one more chance and either that or we're done with you, but, no.

Siddhananda: Okay. So, he's saying he's not ready now.

G: Right, exactly. He tried every way he could backdoor it, but, that doesn't work here, i'm sorry, no.
There is the big planetary changes and things are coming in, but, you got ones that want to play with it like that are going to have the harder time.

Siddhananda: It's true. So, it's Grace to not get him.

G: Exactly, it's grace.

Siddhananda: It's better he just goes his way, yeah.

G: It will really smack him down.

Siddhananda: Right. So, i'm going to send him on his way.

G: Yeah, we wish you well, but, when you're actually ready, then come back.

Siddhananda: Yeah, you can't fool the universe like that. He's trying to fool things. He's trying to twist it.

G: Exactly. It's like that orthodox Jew thing, that they're going to try and find a loophole. They got all the rules and regulations, but, they're going to find a loophole in it.

Siddhananda: Exactly.

G: Thinking that they're smarter than God, Okay (laughing)

Siddhananda: That’s exactly what he was up to, exactly,

G: Exactly.

Siddhananda: I think, like you say, it would be worse if he got started on the path because he would get slammed even more.

G: Yeah. He get..he would get slammed even more. So, you know, NO. If you're not ready for it, don't sit there and come and waste the teacher's time and play with it.

Siddhananda: Right.

G: And then just take what you want and leave the rest and ignore it, becaue that's really disrespecting teacher and the teacher's time and the teacher's energy. How egotistical is that!

Siddhananda: Yeah, absolutely. And i think, like we we're saying, the bottom line is you have to look at yourself, you have to face yourself, you have to cut through those things. That's the whole path. That's the the core of it.

G - Exactly. We got a ton of teachers on the other side waiting to help people, but, they are not here to placate egos like this, this is not Disney world. (laughing).

Siddhananda: Yeah. And it's just not all about your pleasure and you feeling good and all that.

G: Exactly. I just want to go zone out. I want to get a transmission and sit there and zone out and have them. That's like the people that wanted, a lot of people want you to do an ashram, because they want to come there and live and have somebody to take care of them and have no responsibilities in the world.

Siddhananda: Right. That's true.

G: Not go there and do the work. They want to go and bail and have somebody else be responsible for them.

Siddhananda: Yeah. That seemed like it was so much for the wrong intentions. Yeah, so much of the time.

G - Yeah. So, that's the type that he is. He wants to find an Ashram or the light and i want to go there and hang out there and they'll take care of me and I don’t have to do anything. I just sit there all day and... No no no no.

Siddhananda: And then it's effortless and i don’t have to do any of my own work.

G: We're not here to babysit.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: We're not going to waste the universe time with somebody that want's a free ride and has no intention of standing up and doing any work for themselves, no.

Siddhananda: Yeah, NO.

G: (laughing).

Siddhananda: So, it's better it all came forward now, because sometimes people would get on this path and they act like they're all this and that and it would show up later and it was much harder for them.

G: Oh, yeah. Better to close that door than to let them play with it.

Siddhananda: Yeah.

G: Because you get that one that was here, yesterday, [that said] oh, i do all the manifesting, and you can have anything you want in your life. i'm sorry, they're going to have lifetimes and lifetimes and lifetimes and in the end really not be happy, because everything they are manifesting, everything they are doing is transient.

Siddhananda: Sure.

G: Yeah. It will come and go and is he fulfilled now?

Siddhananda: No.

G:  NO, he's still looking for it.

Siddhananda: That's the thing.

G: That's what i did in my last life, I still want that. I want to get.Yeah, i threw a life away .

Siddhananda: Right, and as soon as that's gone, they're on to another. So, it's just a constant motion of that.

G: Right.

Siddhananda: There’s nothing satisfying in that. There’s no fulfillment, true fulfillment in that.

G: No. NO, there no true fulfillment.

Siddhananda: Right. So, he's on his way and it was good example, if anything.

G: Yep. So, moving on.